Four minutes later, Iโm opening the door for Enzo.
โThank you,โ I tell him as he steps inside my small apartment. โIโฆ I didnโt know who else to call.โ
โBroccoli is not here to help?โ he sneers. I drop my eyes. โNo. Thatโs over.โ
His face falls. โIโm sorry. I know you liked the Broccoli.โ
Did I? I liked him, but the truth was, every time he told me he loved me, it made my skin crawl. Thatโs not how youโre supposed to feel about your significant other. Brock was just about perfect, but I could never fall entirely in love with himโit always felt temporary. Iโm sure heโll make some other woman extremely happy, but it was never going to be me.
โIโm okay,โ I finally say. โIโve got bigger problems right now.โ
Enzo follows me into the apartment and we sit together on my ratty futon. When he and I used to live together, our sofa was only slightly better than this one. But I had to give up that apartment when he wasnโt available anymore to pay his half of the rent, and I couldnโt figure out a way to transport the sofa so I left it behind. I try not to think about it right now though. No point in getting pissed off at Enzo when heโs trying to help me.
โThe police are saying all kinds of crazy things about me,โ I tell him. โWendy told them I was having an affair with Douglas. It makes no sense, but they twisted all these things that happened to make it look like I was going there to sleep with him.โ
Enzo nods slowly. โI told you they are dangerous.โ โYou said Douglas Garrick was dangerous.โ
โSame thing.โ
โNot the same thing,โ I say. โIn fact, when I was watching the news just now, I realized something. The man who hired me, who called himself Douglas Garrick, heโs not the same man on the news. He is somebody entirely different.โ
Now Enzo is looking at me like Iโve lost my mind.
โI know that sounds nuts,โ I admit. โI hear the words coming out of my mouth, andโฆ Like I said, I know itโs weird. But it was a different guy in that apartment. Iโm sure of it.โ
The more I think about it, the more certain I feel. But if that wasnโt Douglas, who was it? And where was the real Douglas while this guy was in his house?
Who is the man I murdered?
โSo I will tell you something interesting,โ Enzo says slowly. โWhen you told me about the Garricks, I went to look them up. And you know what? That penthouse in Manhattan is not listed as their primary residence.โ
โWhat?โ
โYes, it is true. This apartment is just extra for them. Their primary residence is a house on Long Island. Well, they say it is a house. It is probably more like a mansion.โ
This is starting to make a little bit more sense. If the real Douglas Garrick actually lived out on Long Island, that means it would be easy for two other people to make it look like they were living in the Manhattan apartment. The real Douglas Garrick would never have to know.
โSo,โ I say, โyou believe me?โ
Enzo looks affronted. โOf course I believe you!โ
โBut thereโs something you need to know.โ I wipe my sweaty hands on my jeans. โThe night that Douglas was killed, I sawโฆ Well, Iย thoughtย I saw him trying to strangle Wendy. I sawย someoneย trying to strangle her in the apartment. And he wouldnโt stop. So I got their gun and Iโฆ I shot him. To make him stop.โ
Iโve never been much of a crier, but I feel the waterworks coming on for the second time today. Enzo reaches for me, and I sob into his shoulder. He holds me for a long time, letting me cry it out. When I finally pull away, there is a damp stain left behind on his T-shirt.
โSorry I ruined your shirt,โ I say.
He waves a hand. โIt is just a little snot. No big deal.โ
I drop my eyes. โI just donโt know what Iโm going to do. The police think that I killed Douglas Garrick, and even though I know I didnโt, I shotย somebodyย that night. Somebody is dead because of me.โ
โThat is not certain.โ โOf course it is!โ
โYouย thinkย you killed someone,โ he points out. โBut after you shot him, you went home. Did you check and make sure he is dead? Not breathing? No pulse?โ
โIโฆ Wendy said he didnโt have a pulse.โ โAnd we believe Wendy?โ
I blink at him. โThere wasย blood, Enzo.โ
โWas it blood though? Is easy to fake blood.โ
I frown, thinking back to last night. It all happened so fast. The gun fired, Douglas went down, and then there was all that blood spreading under his body. But itโs not like I went and checked him out. Iโm not a paramedic. After I shot him, all I wanted to do was get out of there as fast as I could.
Is it possible none of that was real? And if it wasnโtโฆ โShe tricked me,โ I gasp. โShe completely tricked me.โ
All that time, I was feeling sorry for her. I was trying to protect her. And meanwhile, she was telling anyone who would listen that I was having an affair with her husbandโthat was surely why Amber Degraw was grinning at me when she brought up Douglas Garrick that day I ran into her on the street. No wonder that doorman kept winking at me! And nobody knew that I was never alone with Douglas because he was coming in through the back entrance, where there is no doorman or camera.
No, not Douglas. I never evenย metย Douglas Garrick. I have no idea who that other man was.
โWhere is Wendyโs house?โ I ask him. โI need to talk to her.โ
โYou think you can go over there?โ He shakes his head. โThere are one million reporters around her house. And she will not talk to you anyway. If you go there, it will just be more trouble.โ
I know heโs right, but itโs still super frustrating. After what she did to me, I just want to look her in the eyes and ask why. But heโs right. Nothing good will come out of driving over there.
โThis man who called himself Douglas Garrickโฆโ Enzo rubs his chin. โDo you have any idea how we can find him? This man may be easier to
access than Wendy Garrick.โ
โNo.โ I clench my fists in frustration. โAll I know is that his name isnโt Douglas Garrick. I have no idea who he really is.โ
โDo you have a photo of him?โ โNo, I donโt.โ
โThink, Millie. There must be something. Maybe a detail about him that is distinctive?โ
โNo. Heโs just a generic middle-aged white guy.โ โThere must be somethingโฆโ
I close my eyes, trying to conjure up an image of the man who called himself Douglas Garrick. There was absolutely nothing distinctive about him, and maybe thatโs why Wendy chose him. He looks just enough like the real Douglas Garrick.
But Enzoโs right. There must be somethingโฆ โWait,โ I say. โThereย isย something!โ
Enzo raises his eyebrows. โYes?โ
โI saw him go into a building once,โ I recall. โHe was with another woman. A blond woman. I thought she was some woman he was having an affair with, and maybe he was. Butโฆ it was an apartment building. Either he lives there or the woman lives there orโฆโ
โThis is good.โ Enzo cracks his knuckles. โWe will go there and find either him or the woman. Then we will get the truth.โ
For the first time since Detective Ramirez was interrogating me at the police station, I feel a spark of hope. Maybe thereโs a chance Iโll come out of this with my freedom intact.