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Chapter no 50 – NATALIE

The Coworker

Iโ€™VE NEVER SPENTย the night in jail.

Obviously. Iโ€™m not the sort of person who gets hauled in by the police. I donโ€™t get drunk and make a spectacle of myself in public. I donโ€™t do drugs. In general, I follow all the laws to a T.

Yet here I am.

Thereโ€™s something inhuman about being kept in a cage this way. It makes me feel less like a person and more like some sort of animal. Itโ€™s stifling. Claustrophobic.

Iโ€™m in a tiny cell with one other woman. Sheโ€™s not much bigger than me, but sheโ€™s absolutely terrifying. She has pockmarks all over her face, and a jagged scar splitting one of her eyebrows in half. She has tattoos everywhere. She even has them on her neck. I once tried to get a tattoo, and I chickened outโ€”and that was going to be a tiny heart on my shoulder blade. How gutsy do you have to be to let somebody tattoo a giant skull on yourย neck?

They shut off the lights inside the cell when it was time for bed, but theyโ€™re still on in the hallway right outside the bars. Itโ€™s these fluorescent lights that keep flickeringโ€”itโ€™s even worse than the ones at work. I canโ€™t sleep with that going on, but itโ€™s not like I can ask them to shut the lights

outโ€”plus this cell would be far more terrifying if it were pitch black. And the stench of urine is almost overpowering, to the point where I want to breathe through my mouth. The gray mystery meat I ate for dinner churns in my stomach.

When I got here, they gave me the option of changing out of my 5K T- shirt and running pants into a jumpsuit. At the time, it seemed like a good idea. But now I regret it. This jumpsuit is itching so much. I donโ€™t know if itโ€™s the detergent or what. At home, I use a hypoallergenic detergent, but Iโ€™m guessing the jail laundry doesnโ€™t have that.

At least thereโ€™s a bed in the room so I donโ€™t have to sleep on the floor, but I might as well be. There seems to be a mattress on the bed, but itโ€™s not much better than a sleeping bag.

Also, itโ€™s freezing. All they have given me is a paper-thin wool blanket thatโ€™s possibly itchier than the jumpsuit, yet Iโ€™m obscenely grateful to have it. I donโ€™t even know how itโ€™s so cold. The winter hasnโ€™t even started yet. Itโ€™s got to be colder in here than it is outside.

I just want to sleep. Is that too much to hope for? โ€œHey. You.โ€

I roll my head in the direction of the other bed in the cell. Itโ€™s the woman with the neck tattoos.

โ€œWhat?โ€ I say.

โ€œItโ€™s cold in here,โ€ she says.

โ€œI know.โ€ I shiver under the itchy wool blanket. โ€œItโ€™s freezing. Do you think we should tell the guard?โ€

The woman laughs. โ€œYeah, what do you think heโ€™s going to do? Turn up the thermostat?โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t knowโ€ฆโ€

โ€œListen, I need your blanket.โ€

I shift on the poor excuse for a mattress. โ€œWhat do you mean?โ€ โ€œI mean, Iโ€™mย cold. I need your blanket.โ€

โ€œBut then I wonโ€™t have a blanket.โ€ โ€œLike I give a shit.โ€

โ€œButโ€ฆโ€

The woman climbs out of her bed. She straightens up and crosses the small cell, and now I am absolutely terrified. She bends down close enough to me that I can smell her stale breath. She reaches out one arm, and I

flinch, sure sheโ€™s going to punch me in the face and break my nose. But instead, she grabs my blanket and yanks it clear off me.

If I was uncomfortable before, itโ€™s a lot worse now. I didnโ€™t realize how much warmth that skimpy blanket was providing me. Without it, Iโ€™m practically shaking. But my cellmate doesnโ€™t care. Iโ€™m lucky she left me with my pillow, even though itโ€™s flat as a pancake.

I lie on my back, still shivering, trying to get some sleep. This is going to be my life from now on. I donโ€™t have enough money to make bail, so Iโ€™m stuck here until my trial. And if the trial goes as badly as my attorney has warned me it will, this could be the rest of my life.

Before I know it, tears are streaming down my cheeks. I donโ€™t cry easily, but this last thing has broken me. Losing my itchy, crappy blanket has broken me. I wipe the tears away with the back of my hand, because it would be too much to hope for a tissue.

โ€œHey!โ€ my cellmate snaps. โ€œKeep it down over there! Iโ€™m trying to sleep.โ€

How did my life get to this point? I never laid a finger on Dawn. How could they think I would kill her? Why wonโ€™t anyone believe me?

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