NO NO NO NOโฆย The police cannotย be at my front doorโฆ
I freeze about five paces from the front door. I donโt know what to do. I canโt answer the door for a police officer when I have a murder weapon in my laundry hamper. What if they ask to look around? Iโll be so screwed.
But they canโt just come in without asking. I can always say no. Unless they have a warrantโฆ
No. They canโt possibly have a warrant. I havenโt even done anything wrong!
While I am working myself into a panic at the door, the doorbell rings a third time. At this point, I have to answer. Whoever is at the front door probably heard my footsteps. Iโm making things worse by not answering.
My hands are shaking so badly, it takes a few tries for me to turn the locks. I throw open the front door and there he is. Detective Santoro. My new freaking best friend.
I wonder if itโs time to get a lawyer. It seems like such a guilty move, and I canโt afford it, but I donโt want to be one of those stupid people who didnโt lawyer up at the right time and then regrets it.
โMiss Farrell.โ His face bears that grim smile Iโve come to hate. โCan I have a moment of your time?โ
โIโm sort of busy,โ I say tightly. โHavenโt we already talked twice now?
Iโve told you everything I know.โ
โI just have a few more questions, Miss Farrell. It wonโt take long.โ
I hug my chest so he canโt see how much my hands are trembling. โIโd rather not. I have nothing else to say.โ
โWe could talk down at the station if youโd prefer.โ Oh God, no. Thatโs much worse. โFine. Go ahead.โ โCan I come in?โ
Am I going to invite a police officer into my house when I have what is almost certainly a murder weapon hidden in my laundry hamper? I think not. โIโd rather you didnโt.โ
โItโs justโฆโ He glances over his shoulder. โItโs cold out. Iโm letting all the heat out of your house. And also, you look cold.โ
โIโm fine.โ
โYouโre shaking.โ
Heโs not wrong. But the reason Iโm shaking has nothing to do with the cold. And Iโm worried he might know that. โWhat are your questions, Detective?โ
But he doesnโt ask them right away. Instead, he looks past me, into my house. Heโs craning his neck to see inside. โIs it just you living here?โ
โJust me.โ
โWow,โ he says. โThatโs a big place. Must be expensive.โ โItโs not that bad.โ
โOh, yeah? I was trying to get a place in Dorchester, but everything was so pricey. Ended up renting the second floor of a house in Weymouth.โ
I take a peek at Santoroโs left hand. No ring. Married to his job, probably. โMaybe you didnโt look hard enough.โ
โSo what kind of money do you make at Vixed?โ โExcuse me?โ
โYour boss wouldnโt tell me how much you make. Iโm just wondering.โ I hug myself tighter, now actually feeling the cold. I do sort of wish we could do this inside, but I donโt dare. โDetective, what does this have to do
with Dawn?โ
โI was just thinkingโฆโ He scratches at the five oโclock shadow on his chin. โDawn was the accountant at your company. So if any shenanigans were going on with the payroll, maybe she found out about it. And that would give you a pretty damn good reason for wanting to get rid of her.โ
My throat is suddenly dry. โWhat?โ
โItโs just a thoughtโฆโ He blinks innocently. โDid Dawn ever come to you about any concerns like that?โ
โNo.โ
โHuh.โ He raises his eyebrows. โSo you were saying you didnโt meet with Dawn on Monday night about the money she found missing from the Vixed account?โ
โOh my God,ย no!โ I have to grab onto the door frame to keep my legs from collapsing beneath me. โWhy would you think that?โ
โShe sent you an email on Monday afternoon, didnโt she? Asking to meet with you?โ
I canโt deny that. I already told him about Dawnโs email, plus Iโm sure thereโs a record of it if they were able to get into her computer. โYesโฆโ
โSo what did you discuss when you met?โ
โNothing!โ My hands are shaking so badly, I have to clutch them to my chest. Iโm surprised my legs are even able to hold me up anymore. โI never met with her.โ
One of his thick eyebrows arches up. โNo?โ
โNo! I didnโt!โ I have to struggle to keep my composure. โI didnโt steal money from my company, Detective. And I certainly never had a conversation with Dawn about it on Monday night! I was with my boyfriend the entire night.โ
โYeah, so you sayโฆโ
โItโs theย truth. You spoke to Caleb. He told you we were together.โ โYes, thatโs what he told meโฆโ
โDo you really think the two of us plotted to kill her together?โ โNo. I donโt really think that.โ
My left eyelid twitches. โSo why the hell are you bothering me then?โ
Detective Santoro looks like heโs considering my question. He purses his lips, thinking it over. โHereโs the thing, Miss Farrell,โโ he finally says. โIn my line of work, people tell me a lot of things. And a lot of those things arenโt true. So Iโve gotten pretty good at knowing when someone is blowing smoke up my ass.โ
I just stand there, staring at him.
โIf you got your boyfriend to lie to me,โ he says, โIโll figure it out eventually. Itโs what Iโm good at. Itโs what I do.โ He pauses. โSo itโll be easier on you if you tell me the truth.โ
The truth? I canโt tell him the truth. I canโt tell him that I have no alibi for most of the night Dawn was killed. I canโt tell him that I pressured my boyfriend into lying for me. And I sure as hell canโt tell him about that bloody turtle in my laundry hamper. The only way Iโm not walking out of here in handcuffs is if I keep my fool mouth shut.
โIโve told you the truth,โ I say. โI didnโt steal from my company. And I didnโt see Dawn on Monday night.โ
He stands on my front porch for about ten more seconds, but it feels like ten hours. The whole time, his black eyes bore into me. A lesser person might have cracked. But I keep my mouth shut.
โHave it your way, Miss Farrell,โ he says.
I watch him walk over to his car, get inside and drive away. As his tail lights fade into the distance, I release a breath. Iโve been spared. For now. Heโs got nothing on me.
As long as I get rid of that turtle in my laundry hamper.