That night, I wake up to the sound of shouting.
The attic is incredibly well insulated, so I canโt hear anything being said. But there are loud voices coming from below my room. A male voice and a female voice. Andrew and Nina.
Then I hear a crash.
Instinctively, I roll out of bed. Maybe itโs none of my business, but something is going on down there. I have to at least make sure everything is okay.
I put my hand on the doorknob to my room, and it doesnโt turn. Most of the time, Iโm used to the fact that the door sticks. But every once in a while, I get a jab of panic. But then the knob shifts under my hand. And Iโm out.
I descend the creaky steps to the second floor. Now that Iโm out of the attic, the shouting is much louder. Itโs coming from the master bedroom. Ninaโs voice, yelling at Andrew. She sounds almost hysterical.
โItโs not fair!โ she cries. โI did everything I could andโโ โNina,โ he says. โItโs not your fault.โ
โItย isย my fault! If you were with a younger woman, you could have a baby like you want! Itโsย myย fault!โ
โNinaโฆโ
โYouโd be better off without me!โ โCome on, donโt say thatโฆโ
โItโs true!โ But she doesnโt sound sad. She sounds angry. โYou wish I were gone!โ
โNina, stop it!โ
Thereโs another loud crash from inside the room. Followed by a third crash. I take a step back, torn between knocking on the door to make sure everything is okay and wanting to scurry back to my room and hide. I stand there several seconds, paralyzed by my indecision. Then the door is yanked open.
Nina is standing there in the same lily-white nightgown she was wearing the night she caught me and Andrew in the living room. But now I notice a streak of crimson on the pale material, starting at the side of her hip and running down the length of the skirt.
โMillie.โ Her eyes bore into me. โWhat are you doing here?โ
I look down at her hands and see the same crimson is all over her right palm. โIโฆโ
โAre you spying on us?โ She arches an eyebrow. โAre you listening to our conversation?โ
โNo!โ I take a step back. โI just heard a crash and I was worried thatโฆ I wanted to make sure everything is okay.โ
She notices my gaze directed at what Iโm almost sure is a blood stain on her gown. She looks almost amused by it. โI just cut my hand a bit. Nothing to worry about. I donโt needย yourย help.โ
But what was going on in there? Is that really why thereโs blood all over her nightgown? And where is Andrew?
What if she killed him? What if heโs lying dead in the middle of the bedroom? Or worse, what if heโs bleeding to death right now, and I have a chance to save him? I canโt just walk away. I may have done some bad things in my life, but Iโm not going to let Nina get away with murder.
โWhereโs Andrew?โ I say.
Pink circles form on her cheeks. โExcuseย me?โ
โI justโฆโ I shift between my bare feet. โI heard a crash.
Is he okay?โ
Nina stares at me. โHow dare you! What are you accusing me of?โ
It occurs to me that Andrew is a big, strong man. If Nina made short work of him, what chance would I stand against her? But I canโt move. I have to make sure heโs okay.
โGo back to your room,โ she orders me. I swallow a lump in my throat. โNo.โ
โGo back to your room or else youโre fired.โ
She means it. I can see it in her eyes. But I canโt move. I start to protest again, but then I hear something. Something that makes my shoulders sag with relief:
The sound of the faucet turning on in the master bedroom.
Andrew is okay. Heโs just in the bathroom. Thank God.
โHappy?โ Her light blue eyes are like ice, but thereโs something else there. A twinge of amusement. She likes scaring me. โMy husband is alive and well.โ
I bow my head. โOkay, I just wanted toโฆ Iโm sorry I bothered you.โ
I turn around and trudge down the hallway. I can feel Ninaโs eyes on my back. When Iโm almost at the stairwell, her voice rings out behind me.
โMillie?โ
I turn around. Her white dress glows in the moonlight filtering into the hallway, like sheโs an angel. Except for the blood. And now I can also see a tiny pool of crimson forming on the floor, under her injured right hand. โYes?โ
โStay up in the attic at night.โ She blinks at me. โDo you understand?โ
She doesnโt have to tell me a second time. I never want to come out of the attic again.