When Luke returns with the keys, Iโm already waiting at the front door. I fling it open before he even has a chance to knock. He blinks in surprise, his hand frozen in the air.
โHello,โ I say.
For the first time, I realize he has not shaved today. Heโs got that stubble on his chin that he always used to have when he worked at the clinic. Once we started dating, he began shaving daily, because he knows I prefer it.
โHey.โ He shoves his hand into his pocket and fishes out the keys. He drops them in my hand like theyโre made of something dirty. โHere.โ
โThank you again.โ โUh-huh.โ
โYou, uhโฆโ I scratch my neck. โYou got everything off the computer?โ
โI said I did, didnโt I?โ Thereโs an edge to his voice thatโs unfamiliar. Heโs always so kind and even-tempered, itโs hard to hear him talk to me this way. โBut like I told you, I canโt be sure there arenโt other copies somewhere else in his house.โ
โDid you look around?โ
โNo.โ He glares at me. โI didnโt.โ
โOh.โ I cough. โAnd, um, you didnโtโฆ watch the video, right?โ
โNo, I watched it.โ
My face burns. โLuke, you promised you wouldnโt!โ
โWell, itโs too late. I watched it.โ He frowns. โI had to find out what was so bad that you were willing to go to so much trouble to get rid of it.โ
I hang my head. โI didnโt want you to see.โ
โWhat the hell were you doing?โ His usually mild brown eyes are flashing. โYou slashed some guyโs tires? Why would you do that?โ
โI was having a bad day.โ I avert my eyes, unable to look at him. It doesnโt matter anymore what I say. Iโve lost him. โHasnโt that ever happened to you? You had a bad day and did something stupid?โ
โI never slashed anyoneโs tires.โ
โWell, maybe youโre better than me then.โ
Heโs quiet for a moment, looking down at his sneakers. Finally, he says, โWhat did the guy in the Jetta do to you, anyway?โ
โHe stole my parking spot. And I was in a rush to get to the clinic on time.โ
His lips part and he just stares at me for a second. โAre youย kiddingย me?โ
I shake my head slowly. โI had a patient scheduled. I didnโt want to be late.โ
It all sounds ridiculously inadequate when I say it out loud.
โJesus.โ He cracks his knuckles. โYou are really something. All that over a stolen parking spot. Youโre unbelievable.โ
Iโm scared to say anything else. Usually, Iโm extremely skilled at knowing what to say to make somebody else feel better. Itโs my job, after all. But itโs never meant quite this much. I try to keep my mouth shut, but I canโt help myself. I finally blurt out, โDo you hate me now?โ
His eyebrows shoot up. โHate you?โ
โWellโฆโ I squeeze my sweaty hands together. โYou seem like youโre angry with me. And youโre barely looking
at me.โ
โYeahโฆโ He sighs. โIโm not going to lieโIโm not thrilled with you right now. But I see why you wanted to get rid of that video. Andโฆ Iโm glad I could help you.โ A lopsided smile creeps onto his face. โAlso, itโs good to know that youโre not so perfect either.โ
I return an equally crooked smile. โI never claimed I was.โ
โOkay, now that weโve settled thatโฆโ Lukeโs eyes flicker in the direction of my office. โLetโs get this asshole back to his car.โ
Iโm in an incredibly good mood as I make the drive back from EJโs house in my Lexus with Luke in the passenger seat. About an hour ago, he assisted me in loading EJ into the passengerโs seat of his Porsche. He insisted on being the one to drive the car with EJ inside, because he didnโt want me in there in case EJ woke up during the half-hour drive. Although part of me feels like he just wanted an excuse to drive a Porsche.
When we reached EJโs house (paid for by his parents), Luke parked the Porsche in the driveway. He left EJ passed out in the passenger seat, then he got into my carโand now weโre on our way home.
I have the music on in the carโan opera I went to recently in the cityโthe window is down, and the air feels wonderful on my face. For four months, EJ had been holding that horrible video over my head and using it to manipulate me. Now Iโve taken care of the problem. All thanks to Luke.
If the opera were in English and I knew the words, I would sing along.
Luke is strapped into the passenger seat, absently staring out the side window. He did absolutely everything I asked of him, and although he wasnโt thrilled about it, he
fixed my problem. As I study his profile at a red light, I feel a rush of affection.
โI love you,โ I say again.
He turns away from the window. I reach out my hand and he takes it. The squeeze he gives me is halfhearted but I canโt entirely blame him after the day weโve had. โI love you too.โ
โAnd maybe,โ I say, โwe can look into you moving in?
Like, soon.โ
His eyes widen. โReally?โ
Butterflies flutter in my stomach. โReally.โ
For the first time since I talked him into doing this, I coax a genuine smile out of him. โOkay,โ he says.
I turn down the tiny road that leads to my house. The road is paved, but just barely. I always loved the solitude of my isolated kingdom, but Iโm ready to share that kingdom. After all, whatโs the point of six bedrooms if youโre only using one of them?
As I park the car, my phone buzzes in my pocket. A text message. Ever since EJ started blackmailing me, the buzz of a text message used to fill me with dread. But now I am strangely calm as I remove my phone from my pocket and look down at the screen.
You bitch. You broke into my house.
Technically, the statement is not accurate on two counts. First of all, it was Luke who entered his house. Not me. Second, we did not break in since we had a copy of his keys. But EJ would not appreciate me pointing these things out, even though Iโm tempted to do so.
A second message appears on the screen:
Iโm going to kill you.
โWhatโs wrong?โ Luke asks me. Heโs gotten out of the car, but Iโm still in the driverโs seat. Heโs peering through the open window at me.
EJ does not intend to kill me. Heโs angry because I got the better of him for a change. If he really wanted to kill me, he would keep his mouth shut. You donโt send somebody a text message expressing your intention to commit a crime if youโre genuinely planning to do it.
But if I show this message to Luke, he wonโt see it that way. It will surely worry him and make him think we have made a terrible mistake. He doesnโt understand men like EJ
โI do.
โNothing,โ I say. โNothing is wrong.โ
I click on EJโs number and block it on my phone. Then I get out of the car and follow Luke into the house.