A child may ask, โWhat is the world’s story about?โ And a grown man or woman may wonder, โWhat way will the world go? How does it end and, while we’re at it, what’s the story about?โ
I believe that there is one story in the world, and only one, that has frightened and
inspired us, so that we live in a Pearl White serial of continuing
thought and
wonder. Humans are caught
โin their lives, in their thoughts, in their hungers and ambitions, in their avarice and cruelty, and in their kindness and generosity too
โin a net of good and evil. I think this is the only story we have and that it occurs on all levels
of feeling and
intelligence. Virtue and vice were warp and woof of our first consciousness, and they will be the fabric of our last,
and this despite any changes we may impose on field and river
and mountain, on
economy and manners. There is no other story. A man, after he has brushed off the dust and chips of his life, will have left only the hard, clean questions: Was it good or was it evil? Have I done wellโor ill?
Herodotus, in
the
Persian War, tells a story of how Croesus, the richest and most-favored king of his time,
asked
Solon the
Athenian a leading question. He would not have asked it if he had not been worried about the answer. โWho,โ he asked, โis the luckiest person in the world?โ He must have been eaten with doubt and hungry for reassurance. Solon told him of three lucky people in old times. And Croesus more than likely did not listen, so anxious was he about himself. And when Solon did not mention him, Croesus was forced to say, โDo you not consider me lucky?โ
Solon did not hesitate in
his answer. โHow can I tell?โ he said. โYou aren’t dead
yet.โ
And this answer must have
haunted Croesus dismally as
his luck
disappeared, and his wealth and his kingdom. And as he was being burned on a tall fire, he may have thought of it and perhaps wished he had not asked or not been answered.
And in our time, when a man diesโif he has had wealth and influence and power and all the vestments
that arouse envy, and after the living take stock of the dead
man’s property and
his
eminence and works and monumentsโthe question is still there: Was his life good or was it evil?โwhich is another
way of
putting
Croesus’s question. Envies are gone, and the measuring stick is: โWas he loved or was he hated? Is his death felt as a loss or does a kind of joy come of it?โ
I remember clearly the deaths of three men. One was the richest man of the century, who, having clawed
his way to wealth through the souls and bodies of men, spent many years trying to buy back the love he had forfeited and by that process performed great service to the world and, perhaps, had much more than balanced the evils of his rise. I was on a ship when he died. The news was posted on the bulletin board, and nearly everyone received the news with pleasure.
Several said, โThank God that son of a bitch is dead.โ
Then there was a man, smart as Satan, who, lacking some perception of human dignity and knowing all too well every aspect of human weakness and wickedness,
used his special knowledge to
warp men, to buy men, to bribe and threaten and seduce until he found himself in a position of great power. He clothed his motives in the names of virtue, and I have wondered whether he ever knew that no gift will ever buy back a man’s love when
you have removed his self-love. A bribed man can only hate his briber. When this
man died the nation rang with praise and, just beneath, with gladness that he was dead.
There was a third man, who perhaps made many errors in performance but whose effective life was
devoted to making men brave and dignified and good in a time when they were poor and frightened and when ugly
forces were loose in the world to utilize their fears. This man was hated by the few. When he died the people burst into tears in the streets and their minds wailed, โWhat can we do now? How can we go on without him?โ
In uncertainty I am
certain that underneath their topmost layers of frailty men want to be good and want to be loved. Indeed, most of their vices are attempted short cuts to love. When a man comes to die, no matter what his talents and influence and genius, if he dies unloved his life must be a failure to him and his dying a cold horror. It seems to me that if you or I must choose between two
courses of thought or action, we should remember our dying and try so to live that our death brings no pleasure to the world.
We have only one story. All novels, all poetry, are built on the never-ending
contest in ourselves of good and evil. And it occurs to me that evil must constantly respawn, while good, while virtue, is immortal. Vice has always a new fresh young face, while virtue is venerable as nothing else in the world is.