Every day for the next week, I monitor the news carefully, looking for stories about Amber Swanson. All I want to hear is that they caught the guy who did it. Maybe it was some man who had asked her out on a date and she turned him down. Or some creep who saw her jogging early in the morning and started following her.
But if the police have arrested anyone, it doesnโt appear in any news stories.
Anyway, Detective Barber doesnโt show up at my office again. And no other letters mysteriously arrive from Aaron Nierling. Iโm certain I mustโve accidentally dropped the letter on the kitchen floor. Itโs the only thing that makes sense.
A few times, on the way home, I was very tempted to stop at Christopherโs for an Old Fashioned. But I couldnโt do that. I would end up running into Brady, and it would be awkward, considering I have no intention of seeing him again. Iโll have to look around for a new bar to frequent, although I hate to do it. I like Christopherโs. And I am not a big fan of change. I like my routine.
A week later, I arrive at the office bright and early, because I donโt have any surgeries scheduled for today. But when I get there, my heart sinks when I see Philip flirting with Harper.
Not that he doesnโt do that all the time. Philip flirts like breathing. He even flirts with Sheila, who is about twenty years his senior. He flirts withย me, even though a snowball would have a better chance in hell. But for some reason, this particular interaction grates on my nerves. Because Harper just broke up with her long-term boyfriend. Her heart is broken, and sheโs on the rebound.
I watch Philip perched on the edge of her desk, pontificating about who knows what. Harper is gazing up at him with her big blue eyes, like heโsย God. Which makes sense, because he sort of thinks heโs God.
โHi, Dr. Davis,โ Harper says cheerfully. โSheila is doing the intake on your first patient.โ
I look at Philip coolly. โDonโtย youย have any patients to see right now?โ
โMy first patient canceled.โ He grins at me. โI was thinking about making a run to get some coffee for us.โ
I canโt say I wouldnโt appreciate that. Especially since my coffee mug seems to have mysteriously disappeared. I secretly suspect Philip dropped it, tossed the pieces in the trash, and failed to mention it to me.
โYou really donโt have to do that, Dr. Corey,โ Harper says. At least sheโs still calling him Dr. Corey. If she called him Philip, I would be really worried.
โI donโt mind.โ He hops off her desk and stretches enough to show off what are actually some pretty impressive biceps. When does Philip find time to work out? I certainly donโt have any. โWhat do you want, Nora? Black coffee?โ
โYep.โ
Harper shudders. โI donโt know how you drink it that way, Dr. Davis.
Black coffee tastes so bitter.โ
โI got used to it in residency,โ I say. They had a coffee pot always brewing in the resident room, but never any milk or cream or sugar. At first, it was almost undrinkable, but I forced myself because I was so tired. Now Iโve gotten used to it, and it tastes strange any other way but black.
โI drank it black in residency too,โ Philip says. โBut now that we can have it with cream and sugar, why wouldnโt you?โ
I shoot him a look. โAre you going to get us coffee or criticize what I like to drink?โ
Philip laughs. No matter what I say to him, heโs never offended. Sometimes I wonder if he takes me seriously. But he must. He went out of his way to recruit me to work here after I graduated. He wasnโt willing to take no for an answer.
Philip goes back to his office to grab his jacket. I follow him, even though Iโm sure my patient is going to be annoyed that Iโm keeping him waiting. But this is more important.
โWhatโs up, Nora?โ he asks me.
I shoo him inside his office and close the door behind us. โRemember how I talked to you when Harper started working here, about not hitting on her? I need you to do that now. Donโt hit on her.โ
Philip rolls his eyes. โNoraโฆโ โIโm not joking.โ
He pushes aside the stethoscope on his desk so he can sit down on the edge. โHarper has been working here for a year. Why are you freaking out about this now?โ
โBecause she just broke up with Sonny. And sheโs vulnerable.โ
โSheโs not your daughter, Nora. You donโt have to worry so much about her.โ
I am mildly offended that he is implying that a girl only ten years younger than I am is a daughter figure to me, although itโs possible he hit the nail on the head. Like I told Brady when I was in college, I never wanted to have kids. But I do feel some sort of maternal urge towards Harper. She has such a bright future ahead of her, and sheโs not saddled with all the family history that Iโve had to deal with.
If Philip starts dating her, itโs not going to end well. Sheโs probably going to end up quittingโbest-case scenario.
โLook,โ I say to him, โyou could have any woman you wantโฆโ He looks amused. โGee, thanks.โ
I groan. โThatโs not my point. My point is, choose anyone else. Not Harper. Okay? Just please stay away from our receptionist. Thatโs all I ask.โ โYou know,โ he says, โwhen youโre upset, you get this little vein
sticking out right here.โ He touches his temple with his forefinger. โSomeday that thing is going to pop, Nora.โ
โPhilipโฆโ
โOkay, okay!โ He holds up his hands in surrender. โI wonโt go near Harper anymore. Iโll be aย perfect gentleman. Happy?โ
I nod, although Iโm not entirely sure I trust him. Iโd sort of like to have a talk with Harper too, but Iโm worried the more I try to keep them apart, the more Iโm going to create a Romeo and Juliet star-crossed lovers type of situation, and Iโm eventually going to find them in a lip lock in the supply closet. Maybe itโs better just to keep my fingers crossed sheโs smart enough to see through his bullshit. I mean, I think she is. But I know how it is on the rebound.
That is to say, I know how it is forย other peopleย on the rebound. I never had that problem.
Now that Philip has headed out to get the coffee, I go to see my first patient of the day. Itโs a man named Timothy Dudley, who I performed a hernia repair on three months ago. I consider myself an excellent surgeon
with a very low complication rate, but the complication rate is not zero. Some percentage of patients are going to get infections in their incisions. Itโs just a fact of life.
Mr. Dudley got an infection in his incision.
If thereโs some sort of rule about being a surgeon, itโs that youโre always going to have complications on the worst possible patients. The ones who already didnโt entirely trust you. And then when something goes wrong, it just reinforces their theory that all surgeons are butchers.
I tried treating Mr. Dudley with antibiotics, but it didnโt work, and I ended up having to do a washout of his incision. But heโs fine now. The infection is gone and heโs healed up. So Iโm hoping this will be a quick visit in which I look at his incision, we will pretend to like each other, and then I can send him on his way and maybe never see him again.
But the second I walk into the room, I know that isnโt going to happen. He is sitting on the examining table, his large abdomen protruding under a T-shirt, the gown we provided lying unused beside him. Heโs got his stubby arms folded across his belly, and heโs glaring at me. Iโm not even
going to attempt to get him into that gown.
I channel my infamous fatherโs charisma and flash him a smile I am not feeling. He doesnโt smile back. Not even a tiny bit.
โHow are you doing today, Mr. Dudley?โ I ask.
โNot too great, Dr. Davis,โ he says. โIt still hurts where you cut into
me.โ
โIโm sorry to hear that.โ
His bushy white eyebrows shoot up. โAre you?โ
I nod solemnly. Sometimes itโs very hard to keep my temper during
these confrontations. I want to scream at the person that if I hadnโt operated on them, they wouldโve had a bowel incarceration. And instead of repairing their hernia, I would be excising a large chunk of their intestines. Iโm sure he wouldnโt be any happier with me if I did that.
โMy family doctor told me I didnโt need that surgery,โ Mr. Dudley
says.
I fold my hands together patiently. โThis is not his area of expertise. I
assure you, you needed the surgery. I wouldnโt have done it otherwise.โ โHe told me he heard youโre quick to operate.โ
Out of everything heโs said to me so far, this is the first thing that gets to me.ย He heard youโre quick to operate. Is that a reputation Iโve been getting? Yes, Iโm aggressive. But Iโm a surgeon. This is what weย do.
โThatโs not true,โ I say.
โAnd one of the nurses told me,โ he says, โthat youโve got a contest going with another surgeon to see who can operate the most this year.โ
My mouth goes dry. I try not to let my composure slip, but itโs hard. What nurse said that? Who would say that about me? Thatโs completely inappropriate. That sort of thing can destroy someoneโs career.
If I find out who said it, Iโll make sure sheโs very, very sorry.
โI promise you,โ I say quietly, โI would never do something like that.
Which nurse told you that?โ โI donโt remember.โ
Iโm not sure if heโs lying. They probably meet a lot of nurses. He wouldnโt necessarily remember one of their names. Iโll figure out who it is, one way or another. Philip will want to know as well.
Of course, this whole damn thing is probably his fault. I never told anybody about our bet. Heโs the one who is probably bragging to the nurses about it. About how he thinks heโs ahead, when in reality, Iโm way ahead.
Fine. I do operate a lot.
โThis is all a game to you.โ Mr. Dudley sneers at me. โI almost died from an infection in my gut because of you.
โMr. Dudleyโโ
โNo, you listen to me, Dr. Davis.โ He sticks his finger in my face. โThe only reason that I came to this appointment today was to tell you that youโre going to be hearing from my lawyer. And I wanted you to know why.โ
With those words, he hops off the table. He pushes past me and walks out of the examining room, his boots stomping against the ground.
Well, that wasnโt the best start to the day. But the reality is that most of my patients arenโt like Mr. Dudley. Most of them are very grateful to meโ like Henry Callahan was before I refused to have dinner with him. And I doubt any sort of lawsuit Mr. Dudley files against me will be successful. In fact, Iโm going to bet thatโs the reason he showed up here in the first place. He knew he couldnโt really sue me, so the best he could do was scare me.
Nice try.
I start to head out front to see if any of my other patients have arrived, but before I can get there, I nearly bump into Harper in the hallway. Her cheeks are slightly flushed. โDr. Davis,โ she says. โI was about to come looking for you.โ
โThereโs another patient here?โ
โNo, butโฆโ Harperโs eyes dart in the direction of the waiting area. โThat police officer is here to see you again.โ
Mr. Dudleyโs threats didnโt scare me, but this does. I inhale sharply. โThe same one from last time?โ
She nods slowly. โYes. The detective.โ
Oh God. Does this have to do with Amber Swanson again? I know they havenโt found who killed her. They canโt possibly think it was me, could they? I barely knew the girl aside from removing her infected appendix.
Harperโs brow crinkles. โIs everything okay, Dr. Davis?โ
โAbsolutely,โ I say it so firmly that I almost believe it. โItโs about that poor girl who was a patient here and wasโฆ killed. Theyโre just trying to figure out what happened to her, and of course, Iโll do whatever I can to help.โ
I see the question all over Harperโs face.ย Why would you be able to help them find out who killed that girl?ย I canโt tell her the truth though. I canโt tell anyone.
I wait in my office as Harper tells Detective Barber to come in to see me. Even though I donโt usually use it when I see patients, I grab my white coat off the hook on the back of my door and throw it on. I figure anything that makes me look more professional is worth doing. Although unfortunately, my white coat has become wrinkled. Which is somewhat baffling considering it has just been hanging from the wall. Oh well.
The detective enters my office, looking like heโs been up half the night. Thereโs a bit of gray stubble on his chin and his shirt is wrinkled. He doesnโt look any friendlier than he did the first time he was here. In fact, any trace of a smile, phony or otherwise, has vanished from his face. His expression is deadly serious.
โHello, Dr. Davis,โ he says.
I swallow a lump in my throat. โDetective, Iโm happy to answer any questions for you, but I wish you would talk to me at my house rather than
showing up here with all my patients watching.โ
The expression on Barberโs face doesnโt change. โIโm sorry for that, but unfortunately, youโre a hard person to track down. And time is of the essence.โ
I shake my head. โI donโt understand. Amber was killed a week ago, so what is the urgency?โ
โThis isnโt about Amber.โ
My body turns cold. This isnโt about Amber? โThen whatโฆโ
โDr. Davis,โ Barber says. โDo you have a patient named Shelby Gillis?โ
โIโฆโ The name rings a bell. Iโve heard it before. โMaybeโฆโ
He takes a photograph from the pocket of his dark jacket and slides it across my desk. I pick it up and look down at the smiling face staring back at me. Itโs a headshot of a pretty girl with long dark hair and bright blue eyes.
Dark hair and blue eyes.
โYes,โ I say. โI believe I did a lumpectomy and open breast biopsy on her a couple of months ago.โ
Itโs all coming back to me now. Shelby Gillis was anxious because she found a lump in her right breast. I did a lumpectomy and they ran pathology on the tissue I took out. The lump was benign. I got to give her the news, and she was so happy. She grabbed my hand in both of hers and squeezed my fingers.ย I feel like Iโve gotten a second chance, Dr. Davis.
I clear my throat. โIsโฆ is she okay?โ
What a stupid question. Obviously, sheโs not okay. There isnโt a detective sitting in front of my desk, asking me questions about her because sheโs A-okay.
โShe was found dead yesterday evening, Doctor,โ he says. โBy some hikers. She was stabbed to death.โ
I can barely find my voice. So much for Shelbyโs second chance. โThatโฆ thatโs awful.โ
โAnd both her hands were severed.โ
Oh God. I think Iโm going to be sick. One patient of mine being found dead like thatโฆ okay, itโs possible it could be a coincidence. But two? Thereโs no way. And the detective knows it.
โDr. Davis?โ His voice sounds far away. โAre you all right?โ
โFine,โ I manage. I canโt fall apart like thisโnot in front of the detective. I donโt know whatโs going on, but it wonโt help me to panic. โIโm fine.โ
Detective Barber reaches over and takes back the photograph he put on my desk. I notice heโs handling it carefully, touching just the edges. I wonder if he showed me that photograph so I would touch it and get my fingerprints on it. Or maybe Iโm being paranoid. Either way, let him analyze my fingerprints. Iโve never committed a crime. And theyโre not going to find my fingerprints on anything belonging to Amber or Shelby.
โShe was reported missing two days ago,โ he says. โShe worked at an art gallery and she showed up for work Monday morning, but not Tuesday. So obviously, she disappeared sometime between leaving work on Monday evening and Tuesday morning.โ
โRight,โ I murmur.
โCan you account for your whereabouts during that time?โ
โYes,โ I say. โI probably left the hospital around eight oโclock at night and then I went home.โ
โAnd you live alone.โ
โYes.โ I squeeze my knees with my sweaty hands. โMy father is still in prison, right?โ
โI think you would know if he wasnโt.โ He keeps his eyes on mine. โDo you ever visit him there?โ
โNo. Never.โ
He lifts an eyebrow. โHow come? Heโs your father, isnโt he?โ โHeโs a monster. Thatโs how come.โ
I watch his expression. Heโs hoping that Iโll crack, slip up. But he doesnโt have anything on me.
Part of me wants to tell the detective about that letter I found in my kitchen. The one from my father. Maybe that has something to do with it all. Iโm not going to pretend this is all a crazy coincidence.
But I donโt trust this detective. I donโt like the way heโs looking at me. If I tell him about the letter, heโs going to twist it around to make me seem guilty. After all, my father is in prison. Heโs not slipping letters under my door.
โItโs very sad,โ I finally say. โI feel terrible for Shelbyโs family. This is tragic.โ
Barber rubs a finger along the gray stubble on his jaw. โYou know,โ he says. โI still remember your fatherโs trial. After he pleaded guilty, he gave that speech about how sorry he was. About how he wished he could give his life to bring those girls back. And you know what? It almost sounded like it wasnโt complete bullshit.โ He raises his eyebrows at me. โAre you as good at telling lies as he is?โ
My cheeks grow hot. โDetective, I think this is enough. Iโm going to have to ask you to leave. And if you want to speak to me again, it will be in the presence of my lawyer. I mean it this time.โ
Now I have to get a lawyer. Great.
Barber shifts in his chair. Heโs sizing me up, trying to figure out how far he can push me. If he knows anything, heโll realize he canโt push me very far. Just because heโs a detective, it doesnโt mean he has the right to harass me at my workplace. Finally, he gets out of his seat.
โWe just want to find out what happened to Shelby,โ he says. โIf you think of any information at all that would be helpful, give me a call.โ
โRight,โ I say through my teeth.
The detective gives me one last long look, then he turns around and leaves my office.
After heโs gone, I just sit there for a moment, staring at the wall. I canโt believe that an hour ago, my biggest problem was Philip hitting on Harper. And then after that, my biggest problem was a patient threatening to sue me. This is so much worse.
Two of my patients were murdered in the span of a week. Thereโs no way that could be a coincidence, could it?
Even if that were a coincidence, the hands being severedโฆ Thatโs an obvious connection to me. Itโs undeniable. And thereโs one definite conclusion I can draw.
Whoever is doing this knows who I am.