Part of me is hoping Dr. Westin won’t be around when I get to his office. I don’t know exactly what I hope to achieve by coming here, but I feel like Alyssa’s behavior has crossed some sort of line. I need to talk to a “grown up” about it.
The door to Dr. Westin’s office is open in a welcoming way. As he sees me in the entranceway, he immediately waves to me enthusiastically. “Hi, Jill!”
Dr. Westin is nice. Even though he never gets my name right.
I stick my head inside the office. “Hey,” I say. “Is it okay if I talk to you about something?”
“Of course!” He turns away from his computer and places his hands on his desk. Even though he’s too thin and his hairline is receding, at least half a dozen female patients have referred to Dr. Westin as “that handsome doctor.” At first, I couldn’t even figure out who they meant. Recently, I’ve developed a theory that every male doctor who isn’t outright disgusting with a huge hump on their back or something is seen as “handsome” by the general female population. This seems grossly unfair, but it’s the least of my problems right now.
“Please, have a seat,” he invites me.
I gingerly take a seat in front of his desk, like I’m worried Alyssa might suddenly pop out from a hidden corner. I momentarily get distracted by a framed photo on his desk of an athletic-looking brunette with a young boy who is a miniature version of Dr. Westin.
“It’s about Alyssa,” I begin.
Dr. Westin raises his eyebrows. “Yes…?”
“We don’t really…” I take a breath. “Get along.”
“My, my…” Dr. Westin looks very troubled. A deep crease appears in his brow.
“I feel like I can’t ask her any questions,” I say. “She’s always angry at me. She makes me feel like I’m doing an awful job all the time. She never gives me any positive feedback. I just feel like… I can’t function this way.”
“My, my,” he murmurs again. “And have you told this to Alyssa?” I shake my head.
“Let me tell you a story, Jem,” he says. Jem? He thinks my name is Jem? Wasn’t that a cartoon rocker from the eighties? “Say there’s this professor who notices that one of her students, Stacey, shows up for class ten minutes late one day. The professor thinks to herself that Stacey doesn’t care at all about the class and she doesn’t even have the courtesy to be on time. The professor thinks Stacey’s interrupting the whole lecture, and that Stacey is overall just very inconsiderate.”
“Uh huh,” I say.
“Except here’s what really happened,” he goes on. “Stacey’s grandmother was very ill and she went to see her over the weekend. Because the professor’s class was so very important to her, she caught an early flight back to school in order to be sure to make it in time. Except the flight was delayed. Stacey caught a taxi straight to the school from the airport, all just so she could make it to that lecture.”
“I see,” I say, even though I think that Stacey and the professor both kind of seem like losers.
“Stacey and her professor needed to communicate,” Dr. Westin says. “And that’s what you and Alyssa need to do as well. You need to tell her how you feel.”
I don’t want to tell Alyssa how I feel. I just want to throw something at her.
“Can you do that for me, Jem?” he presses me. “Okay,” I finally say.
Dr. Westin rubs his hands together. “Good, good.” He grins, showing a row of slightly yellowing teeth. “I predict that by the end of this rotation, you and Alyssa are going to be best friends.”
Best friends. Yeah, maybe if we don’t kill each other first.
As I’m rounding the corner to get to the cafeteria, I hear shouting. Female shouting. Not that yells and screams are an unusual occurrence in the hospital, but this sounds a little different somehow and the voices are oddly familiar. I slow to a stop and start searching for the source of what seems to be a really passionate fight.
After a minute, I find Nina and Julia standing in a nook by the staircase, glaring at each other. Julia is pointing a finger menacingly in Nina’s direction. I’m actually a little frightened for Nina, who is half a head shorter.
“You think I don’t know what you’re doing?” Julia hisses.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Nina says, although I can see a crease between her brows.
“You’re sneaking out during your calls,” Julia snaps. “I know it and soon our attending is going to know it.”
“That’s a complete lie,” Nina lies.
My Dansko clogs squeak against the floor and both girls look up. I blush and wave awkwardly. “Hi,” I say as I waggle my fingers. “Um, anyone want to get lunch?”
Julia looks from Nina to me with utter disgust. “Neither of you has any integrity,” she says. She shifts her menacing finger to point in my direction. “I know you had a boy over the night before last,” she says.
“Don’t be silly,” I say. I let out a little strangled laugh. “He left the toilet seat up,” Julia says.
Damn you, Sexy Surgeon! “I always pee with the toilet seat up,” I
lie.
Julia just shakes her head at me. She turns back to Nina. “If you do
it again,” she says, “you are going to suffer the consequences.”
On those words, Julia turns on her heel and storms off in the opposite direction, leaving Nina and I with equally stunned expressions on our faces.
“Christ,” Nina says. “How do you live with that crazy person?
Aren’t you afraid she’ll murder you in your sleep?” “A little,” I admit.
“If you do it again, you are going to suffer the consequences,” Nina says in a mockingly high voice. “Who the hell does she think she is? A Super-Villain? I’m just giving shots to my diabetic cat. Sheesh.”
“Yeah, well, wait until you hear what she left on the bathroom door.” I quickly get Nina up to date on Julia’s Bathroom Manifesto, and the fact that I found a Kitchen Manifesto this morning taped to the refrigerator. I fear that I’m going to be spending most of my intern year cleaning the bathroom and kitchen of our apartment.
“Wow,” Nina breathes. “What a nut job.” She links arms with me and starts pulling me in the direction of the cafeteria. “But what I really want to know is, who is this boy you had over the other night, Dr. McGill?”
My cheeks grow hot. I’m not sure if I want to share this with anyone, even Nina, who is quickly becoming my best friend around here. “You’re blushing!” Nina says joyfully. “You can’t deny it now
because you’re blushing. Spill!”
“It’s just a surgery resident I met in the hospital,” I mumble.
Nina stops and examines my face. “Wow, you really like him.
You’re in love.”
“Oh my God, I am not in love!” I’m really not. “I hardly know him.
Actually, he’s kind of a jerk.”
“No, you’re in love,” Nina insists gleefully. “You luuurve him! You lurve him and you want to have like a million of his babies.”
I cringe. “Don’t mention having babies. Please.”
Nina sighs, suddenly glum. “You’ve got a cute surgeon and all I’ve got is a diabetic cat.”
“I think I would take your cat over the surgeon,” I say. “Really.” “Well,” Nina says thoughtfully. “He is a very sweet cat.” She
brightens. “Do you want to see some new photos?”
I really, really don’t. “Sure,” I say. Apparently, I am physically incapable of refusing to look at photos of cats and children, so I spend the next several minutes indulging Nina by looking at photos of Valsalva scratching at a post or playing with a toy mouse.
“By the way,” I say, trying to end the slide show. “You were right about Connie being evil. She jumped on me yesterday because Dr. Westin said she had to take one extra admission.”
Nina beams. “Say that one more time.” “Say what?”
“The part about me being right.”
I raise my eyebrows. “Uh, you were right about Connie.”
Nina smiles. “First time I’ve heard I was right all month. I was beginning to forget what it felt like.”
Amen to that.
Hours awake: 7
Chance of quitting: 18%
