When we make it back to the house, Castle is standing in the far corner, talking to Winston.
Kenji freezes in the doorframe.
Iโd forgotten Kenji hadnโt had a chance to see Castle on his feet yet, and I feel a true ache as I look at him. Iโm a terrible friend. All I do is dump my problems on him, never thinking to ask him about his own. He must have so much on his mind.
Kenji moves across the room in a daze, not stopping until he reaches Castle. He puts a hand on his shoulder. Castle turns around. The whole room stops to watch.
Castle smiles. Nods, just once.
Kenji pulls him into a fierce hug, holding on for only a few seconds before breaking away. The two stare at each other with some kind of silent recognition. Castle rests a hand on Kenjiโs arm.
Kenji grins.
And then he spins around and smiles at me, and Iโm suddenly so happy, so relieved and thrilled and overjoyed that Kenji gets to sleep with a lighter heart tonight. I feel like I might burst from happiness.
The door slams open. I turn around.
Adam steps inside. My heart deflates.
Adam doesnโt even look at me as he walks in. โJames,โ he says, crossing the room. โLetโs go, buddy. Itโs time for bed.โ
James nods and darts into his bedroom. Adam follows him in. The door closes behind them.
โHeโs home,โ Castle says. He looks relieved. No one says anything for a second.
โAll right, we should get ready for bed, too,โ Kenji says, looking around. He walks over to the corner and grabs a stack of blankets. Passes them out.
โDoes everyone sleep on the floor?โ I ask.
Kenji nods. โYeah,โ he says. โWarner wasnโt wrong. It really is like a slumber party.โ
I try to laugh. Canโt.
Everyone gets busy setting up blankets on the ground. Winston, Brendan, and Ian take over one side of the room, Alia and Lily the other. Castle sleeps on the couch.
Kenji points to the middle. โYou and me go there.โ โRomantic.โ
โYou wish.โ
โWhere does Adam sleep?โ I ask, lowering my voice.
Kenji stops midway through tossing down a blanket. Looks up. โKentโs not coming back out,โ he says to me. โHe sleeps with James. Poor kid has really bad nightmares every night.โ
โOh,โ I say, surprised and ashamed of myself for not remembering this. โOf course.โ Of course he does. Kenji must know this firsthand, too. They all used to room together at Omega Point.
Winston hits a switch. The lights go out. Thereโs a rustle of blankets. โIf I hear any of you talk,โ Winston says, โI will personally send Brendan over to kick you in the face.โ
โI am not going to kick anyone in the face.โ โKick yourself in the face, Brendan.โ
โI donโt even know why weโre friends.โ โPlease shut up,โ Lily shouts from her corner.
โYou heard the lady,โ Winston says. โEveryone shut up.โ โYouโre the one talking, dumbass,โ Ian says.
โBrendan, kick him in the face, please.โ โShut up, mate, I am not kicking anyโโ โGood night,โ Castle says.
Everyone stops breathing.
โGood night, sir,โ Kenji whispers.
I roll over so Iโm face-to-face with Kenji. He grins at me in the dark. I grin back.
โGood night,โ I mouth. He winks at me.
My eyes fall shut.





