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Chapter no 16

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TWO WEEKS AFTERย MOTHER WITCHย COMES OUT, ADELE SPARKS-SATOย puts out a

blog post titled โ€œMother Witchย Is Also Plagiarized, and Iโ€™ve Fucking Had It with June Hayward.โ€

I glimpse the Google Alert just as Iโ€™m about to step into the shower. I sit back on my bed, clutching my towel tight against my chest as I click the link.

Like many of you, I was curious when Eden Press announced June Hayward, writing as Juniper Song, was releasing a stand-alone novella. After the allegations surroundingย The Last Front, I had doubts whether she could write something of equal quality, especially now as there are no remaining works of Athenaโ€™s to steal fromโ€”or so we all thought. I couldnโ€™t believe my eyes when I turned to the first page.

Mother Witchย opens with identical lines from a story that Athena Liu workshopped at the Asian American Writersโ€™ Collective summer workshop in 2018. Such overlap is not coincidental. Hereโ€™s the proof.

Below, Adele has included screenshots of Google Docs and photographs of printed story outlines with handwritten notes in the comments, along with so many corroborating dates and accounts that such an accusation would be impossible to fake.

In case anyone thinks this is some elaborate hoax, Iโ€™ve reached out to eight different attendees of the workshop that year. Not everyone still has their printouts from that summer, but everyone has gone on record as remembering Athenaโ€™s work. Theyโ€™ve attached their names to this write-up as endorsements. If you wonโ€™t take my word for it, consider the weight of our combined testimonies.

The debate over the authorship ofย The Last Frontย has been fraught and troubling for many in the Asian diaspora community. A lot of us, myself included, did not want to believe anyone could do something so vile or selfish. And a lot of us were willing to give June Hayward the benefit of the doubt.

With this evidence, thereโ€™s no longer a question about Haywardโ€™s intentions. Hayward; her agent, Brett Adams; and her team at Eden Press have a choice now to make about accountability, transparency, and their supposed commitment to justice.

The rest of us will be watching.

I lower my phone. The waterโ€™s been running for a good ten minutes, but I canโ€™t summon the willpower to go turn it off. All I can do is sit at the edge of my bed, breathing in and out as the world narrows to a pinprick around me.

When I first saw Geoffโ€™s @AthenaLiusGhost tweets, I spiraled into an hours-long anxiety attack. This time, my reaction feels strangely muted. I feel like Iโ€™m submerged underwater. Everything sounds and feels wrong, distorted. Somehow, I am both more calm and more terrified than before. Perhaps itโ€™s because this time, there is no question about what will happen next. This time the truth is incontrovertible, and itโ€™ll make no difference whether I scramble to control the public narrative or not. I donโ€™t have to wonder what my friends and colleagues are thinking about me, or whether theyโ€™ll believe my denials. Itโ€™s all there in black and white. What happens next will happen, no matter what I do or say.

I put my phone on โ€œdo not disturbโ€ mode. I slide my iPad into a drawer. I shut down my laptop. I grab a bottle of whisky from atop my fridgeโ€”WhistlePig, a gift from Daniella for three consecutive months on theย NYTย bestseller listโ€”and settle down in front of my couch, watching old episodes ofย Friendsย while I chug straight from the bottle, until Iโ€™m out for the night.

Let the internet do its work while Iโ€™m gone. When I face the noise, Iโ€™d rather it come all at once.

I WAKE UP THE NEXT MORNING TO SEE Iโ€™VE LOST A THOUSAND FOLLOWERS. The

metric is still dropping; nines turning to eights before my eyes. This time, I donโ€™t have to search my name to track the conversation. Itโ€™s right there, all over my timeline and in my mentions.

I fucking knew it about Juniper Song. June Hayward strikes again!

Does this bitch never stop?

Wake up publishing, the White Witch is back.

Last time, Iโ€™d kept my social media accounts activeโ€”partly so that I could stay tuned to what was being said, and partly because I feared deactivation would be an admission of guilt. This time, my guilt is a foregone conclusionโ€”all I can hope for now is damage control, by which I mean managing threats to my personal safety. I delete my Twitter account. I set my Instagram to private. I turn off notifications from my publicly available email address. Certainly Iโ€™m getting death threats, but at least this way I wonโ€™t know about them the second they arrive.

Someone edits my Wikipedia page to read: โ€œJuniper Song Hayward is a โ€˜novelist,โ€™ serial plagiarizer, and flaming racist.โ€ That particular line is gone within an hourโ€”Wikipedia has minimal civility requirements, I supposeโ€”but the โ€œPlagiarismโ€ section of my biography remains as follows: โ€œIn March 2020, literary critic Adele Sparks-Sato published an essay alleging that the first paragraph of Haywardโ€™s novella,ย Mother Witch, is a word-for-word copy of the first paragraph ofย Her, an unpublished story by late novelist Athena Liu. This allegation compounds long-running suspicions that Hayward also stoleย The Last Frontย from Liu, though there remains no conclusive proof this is true. Haywardโ€™s editor, Daniella Woodhouse, has released a brief statement claiming Eden Press is aware of these allegations and is looking into the matter.โ€

My phone rings six times that dayโ€”all calls from Brett. I donโ€™t pick up. I will eventually, when I trust myself to hear Iโ€™ve been fired without breaking into sobs.

For now, I take a kind of perverse pleasure in watching everything fall apart.

Over the next week, all of my publishing relationships disintegrate. Iโ€™m asked to leave two professional Facebook groups and three Slacks Iโ€™ve joined in the past year. My so-called writer friends ghost me without exception, even the ones who professed a few months ago to be on my side against the mob.

I have no one to turn to but Edenโ€™s Angels.

Oh god, I text.ย Itโ€™s happening again.ย When no one respondsโ€”which is atypical; Jen is addicted to her phoneโ€”I follow up a few hours later with,

Iโ€™m having a really hard time right now, is anyone possibly available to talk?

They ignore me for three days. Finally Marnie writes:ย Hi, Junie. Sorry; have been so busy these last few days. Moving house.

Jen never responds at all.

Iโ€™m supposed to have my monthly mentee check-in session with Emmy Cho on Friday. On Thursday afternoon, I receive an email from the mentor program coordinator:

Hi Juniper, Emmy doesnโ€™t think that continuing with your mentor relationship is a good idea, and has asked us to pass the message on to you. Thank you for everything youโ€™ve done for Emmy and for our program.

Bitch.ย Emmy could have at least mustered the courage to say that to my face. Itโ€™s probably ill-advised, but I write back to the program coordinator,ย Thanks for telling me. Do you know if Emmy has any feedback for my mentorship style, so I can take that into account in the future?ย What I really want to know is if Emmyโ€™s going around bad-mouthing me. I donโ€™t expect a response, but the reply lands in my email later that night:ย Emmy simply feels that you have very different perceptions of how the industry works. She also requests that you do not contact her, directly or indirectly, any further.

ON FRIDAY I DRAG MYSELF OUT OF BED AND MAKE MYSELF PRESENTABLEย for a

videoconference with my team at Eden. I finally picked up one of Brettโ€™s calls the night before, after Rory texted me asking if I was alive:ย Your agent just emailed me. He said you werenโ€™t responding, and he was worried about you. Whatโ€™s going on? Is everything okay?

โ€œDaniella wants to talk to you ASAP,โ€ Brett told me when I called him back. He sounded tired. He didnโ€™t even ask me if the allegations were true. โ€œWeโ€™ve scheduled a Zoom meeting for tomorrow at two.โ€

Brettโ€™s on the line with me now. All the Eden people are on the same screen, sitting together around a conference table: Daniella, Jessica, and Emily, and a red-haired man I donโ€™t recognize. No one is smiling. No one waves hello when I join the call.

โ€œHello, June.โ€ Daniellaโ€™s voice is cool and low, which is how I know sheโ€™s pissed. โ€œIโ€™m here with Jessica and Emily, and Todd Byrne from legal.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m here as well,โ€ says Brett, ineffectually.

โ€œHi, Todd,โ€ I say weakly. No one told me I was getting a lawyer. Todd merely nods at me. I realize then that Todd isnโ€™t here for me, heโ€™s here for them.

โ€œWhereโ€™s Candice?โ€ I ask, trying to get my bearings through small

talk.

โ€œOh, Candice isnโ€™t here anymore,โ€ says Daniella. โ€œShe left a while

ago.โ€

โ€œOh.โ€ I wait, but Daniella doesnโ€™t elaborate. I try not to overthink it. Editorial assistants come and go all the time. Theyโ€™re underpaid entry-level employees in the most expensive city in the worldโ€”ill-treated, overlooked, and overworked with minimal opportunities for advancement. It takes inhuman drive to hack it in publishing. Probably Candice just couldnโ€™t take it. โ€œThatโ€™s too bad.โ€

โ€œLetโ€™s cut to the chase, shall we?โ€ Daniella clears her throat. โ€œJune, if thereโ€™s anything we need to know, you need to tell us right now.โ€

My nose prickles. To my horror, I realize Iโ€™m already close to tears.

โ€œI didnโ€™t do it,โ€ I say. โ€œI swear to God. Itโ€™s not plagiarized, itโ€™s all my own work, especiallyย Mother Witchโ€”โ€

โ€œEspecially?โ€ Todd cuts in. โ€œWhat does that mean?โ€

โ€œI mean,ย The Last Frontย was inspired by conversations with Athena,โ€ I say quickly. โ€œBut sheโ€™s dead now, obviously, and I didnโ€™t have her to talk to while I was draftingย Mother Witch, so the writing style doesnโ€™t resemble hers as muchโ€”โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s not what Adele Sparks-Sato is claiming,โ€ says Jessica. She pronounces Adeleโ€™s last name like sheโ€™s reading some exotic soup ingredient from a grocery list.ย Sparks Sa-touuu.ย โ€œIt appears that sheโ€™s gone public with some rather conclusive proofโ€”โ€

โ€œAdeleโ€™s full of shit,โ€ I burst out. โ€œSorry. Noโ€”I mean, I get where sheโ€™s coming from; I can see why sheโ€™s protective of Athenaโ€™s work. And, like, yes, I was inspired by a line that Athena wrote once. I sawโ€”um, she showed me, in her notebook. But the story is completely originalโ€”itโ€™s based on my own relationship with my mother, in fact, I mean, like, you can call her, evenโ€”โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t think that will be necessary,โ€ says Daniella. โ€œWhat aboutย The Last Front, then? Is that completely original?โ€

โ€œGuys.โ€ My voice hitches. โ€œCome on. You know me.โ€

โ€œYou can tell us,โ€ says Daniella. โ€œWeโ€™re on your team. If there was any sort of . . . collaboration, or anything that means you are not the sole author, we need to know. We can still make this work. We could set up a split royalties arrangement with Athenaโ€™s estate, perhaps, and then out a press release about the shared authorship where you explain that you felt like you needed to do justice to your friendโ€™s work, and that you did not intend to deceive anyone. Then perhaps we can set up a foundation in Athenaโ€™s name

โ€”โ€

Sheโ€™s talking like sheโ€™s certain Iโ€™m guilty.

โ€œHold on,โ€ I cut in. โ€œNo, look, I swear to Godโ€”itโ€™sย mine, the project is mine, I wrote out every single word myself.โ€ And thatโ€™s true. Completely true. I madeย The Last Front. Athenaโ€™s version was utterly unpublishable. That book exists because ofย me.

โ€œDo you possibly have proof of that?โ€ Todd asks. โ€œEarly drafts, perhapsโ€”emails with time stamps that we could verify?โ€

โ€œWell,ย no, because Iโ€™m not in the habit of emailing things to myself.โ€ โ€œIs there any proof that itย isย plagiarized?โ€ Brett cuts in. โ€œI mean, what,

are we assuming Junie is guilty until proven innocent? This is ridiculous. Didnโ€™t you guys just put out a book about criminal justice reform?โ€

โ€œWeโ€™re not persecuting Junie,โ€ says Daniella. โ€œWeโ€™re just trying to protect her, for the sake of her reputation and Edenโ€™sโ€”โ€

โ€œSo are we being sued?โ€ Brett presses. โ€œHas Athenaโ€™s estate issued a cease and desist? Or is all this precautionary?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s precautionary,โ€ Todd admits. โ€œAs it stands, the copyright issue is quite easily contained. Athenaโ€™s next of kinโ€”that would be her mother, Patricia Liuโ€”has expressed no desire to sue for damages, and as long as we take out or rewrite the opening paragraph ofย Mother Witch, thereโ€™s no problem with the bulk of the work . . .โ€

I feel a glimmer of hope. Mrs. Liuโ€™s decision not to sue is news to me

โ€”here I thought Iโ€™d be on the hook for thousands of dollars in payments. โ€œSo weโ€™re all right, then?โ€

โ€œWell.โ€ Daniella clears her throat. โ€œThere remains a problem of perception. We need to be clear on what our story is. Thatโ€™s what weโ€™re trying to do here: get all the facts straight, so weโ€™re all on the same page. So if June could repeat, for clarity, precisely her account of how she wroteย The Last Frontย andย Mother Witchย . . .โ€

โ€œThe Last Frontย is entirely my original work, inspired by my conversations with Athena.โ€ My voice keeps steady. Iโ€™m still terrified, but I feel like Iโ€™m on more solid footing, now that I know Iโ€™m not getting dropped by my publisher. Theyโ€™re trying to help me. I just have to give them the right spin, and we can make this work. โ€œAndย Mother Witchย takes the first paragraph from one of Athenaโ€™s unpublished drafts, but otherwise it is entirely original to me as well. I write my own stuff, you guys. I promise.โ€

A brief pause. Daniella glances at Todd, her left eyebrow arched high. โ€œAll right, then,โ€ Todd says. โ€œWeโ€™ll want this in writing, of course, but

if thatโ€™s all you did, then . . . this is fairly containable.โ€ โ€œSo can we make this go away?โ€ Brett asks.

Todd hesitates. โ€œThatโ€™s really a question for publicity . . .โ€

โ€œMaybe I could put out a statement,โ€ I say. โ€œOr do, like, an interview. Clear everything up. Most of this is all misunderstandingsโ€”maybe if I just . . .โ€

โ€œI think whatโ€™s best for you right now is to focus on your next work,โ€ Daniella says crisply. โ€œEden will put out a statement on your behalf. Weโ€™ll send it over for your approval this afternoon.โ€

Emily chips in. โ€œWe all feel that in the meantime, itโ€™s best that you, personally, stay off social media. But if you wanted to announce a new project, something youโ€™re currently working on . . .โ€ She trails off.

I get the idea. Shut up, stay out of the spotlight, and prove youโ€™re capable of writing your own books. Preferably something that has nothing to do with Athena fucking Liu.

โ€œWhatย areย you working on now?โ€ Daniella prods. โ€œBrett, I know itโ€™s not under contract with us, but we do have the first look, so if thereโ€™s anything you can share with us . . .โ€

โ€œIโ€™m working on it,โ€ I say hoarsely. โ€œObviously this whole thing has been very distressing, so Iโ€™ve been distracted . . .โ€

โ€œBut sheโ€™ll have something new soon,โ€ Brett jumps in. โ€œIโ€™ll be in touch when she does. Does that sound good, everyone? Junie will fix that first paragraph ASAP, and Iโ€™ll circle back next week when weโ€™ve got something shaped like a pitch?โ€

Todd shrugs; his part in this is over. Daniella nods. We all exchange some niceties about how itโ€™s good we could get on the line and clear all this up in person, and then Daniella kills the Zoom room.

Brett rings me right after for a follow-up.

โ€œDo they hate me?โ€ I ask miserably. โ€œIs Daniella done with me?โ€

โ€œNo, no.โ€ He pauses. โ€œActually, itโ€™s not as bad as it seems. Controversy of any sort is pretty good for free marketing. Weโ€™re expecting your royalties to go up in the next payment period.โ€

โ€œWhat, seriously?โ€

โ€œWellโ€”so hereโ€™s the thing. We didnโ€™t want to tell you over Zoom, but it seems like this whole fiasco got picked up by a lot of, um, well, right-wing commentators. Probably not people you really want to associate with. I mean, letโ€™s be clear about that. But theyโ€™re turning this into a culture war issue, and that always drives attention, so sales are . . . up. And itโ€™s always nice when sales are up.โ€

I canโ€™t believe it. This is the first piece of good news Iโ€™ve gotten all week. โ€œBy how much?โ€

โ€œEnough that youโ€™re going to get a bonus.โ€

It seems like a weird time to celebrate, and perhaps this is wildly inappropriate, but in the back of my mind, I make a mental note to finally get that IKEA couch Iโ€™ve been eyeing. Itโ€™ll look nice next to my bookshelves.

โ€œIt just seemed like Daniella wanted to kill me.โ€ A hysterical giggle escapes my throat. โ€œI mean, she lookedย soย madโ€”โ€

โ€œOh, Daniella doesnโ€™t really care,โ€ says Brett. โ€œShe has to do her job, you understand. But at the end of the day all that really matters is cash flow. Edenโ€™s going to stand with you. Youโ€™re pulling in too much money for them to back out now. Feel better?โ€

โ€œSo much better.โ€ I exhale. โ€œWow. All right.โ€ โ€œSo youโ€™re going to work on something new?โ€ โ€œI guess Iโ€™d fucking better, huh?โ€

โ€œThat would be nice.โ€ Brett laughs. โ€œWrite up some pitches for me to show Daniella next week. You donโ€™t have to outline a whole projectโ€”just throw out some ideas so that she knows youโ€™ve still got it. Just maybe something that isnโ€™t about a Chinese girl, okay?โ€

โ€œHa ha,โ€ I say, and hang up.

MY PHONE RINGS ONCE MORE THAT NIGHT, JUST AS Iโ€™VE ORDEREDย some pizza for

dinner. I hit the greenย ANSWERย button, assuming itโ€™s my DoorDash guy. โ€œHello?โ€

โ€œJune?โ€ A pause. โ€œItโ€™s Patricia Liu. Athenaโ€™s mom.โ€

Oh, Jesus Christ.ย I have the fleeting urge to hang up and hurl my phone across the room. But that will only make things worseโ€”then sheโ€™ll know Iโ€™m too afraid to talk to her, and sheโ€™ll make assumptions why, and Iโ€™ll be up all night panicking over what she would have said to me. Better to have it out now and get this over with. If sheโ€™s changed her mind about suing for damages, Brett and the Eden team need to know.

I canโ€™t keep my voice from cracking. โ€œHi, Mrs. Liu.โ€

โ€œHello.โ€ Her voice sounds muffled and nasal. I wonder if sheโ€™s been crying. โ€œIโ€™m calling because . . . well, thereโ€™s no easy way to say this.โ€

โ€œMrs. Liu, I think I knowโ€”โ€

โ€œA woman named Adele Sparks-Sato reached out to me this morning. She wanted to know if I still had Athenaโ€™s drafting notebooks, and if she could have a look.โ€

She doesnโ€™t elaborate, which forces me to ask, โ€œYes?โ€

โ€œWell, she insinuated that you had stolenย The Last Frontย from Athena. And she wanted to look through Athenaโ€™s notebooks, to see if there was any evidence that Athena had been working on that project.โ€

I press my hand against my forehead. This is it. Itโ€™s all over. I thought she was calling aboutย Mother Witch, but this is so much worse. โ€œMrs. Liu, I donโ€™t know what to say.โ€

โ€œI told her no, of course.โ€ My heart skips a beat. Mrs. Liu continues. โ€œI donโ€™t like when strangers . . . Anyhow, I told her to give me some time to think about it. And I thought I would talk to you first.โ€ She pauses again. I know what she wants to ask; sheโ€™s just not brave enough to say it. I imagine her standing in her kitchen, nails digging into her palm, trying to speak aloud the possibility that the last person who saw her daughter alive might have stolen her magnum opus as well. โ€œJune . . .โ€ Her voice catches. I hear her sniffle. โ€œAs you know, June, I very much do not want to open those notebooks.โ€

And the follow-up question, unspoken:ย Do I have reason to?

Believe me, in that moment, I want to confess.

This would have been the best time, theย rightย time, to come clean. I think of our last conversation, two years ago, when I visited her home. โ€œI so wish I had been able to read her last novel,โ€ Mrs. Liu told me as I stood up to leave. โ€œAthena so rarely opened herself up to me. Reading her work

wasnโ€™t like knowing her thoughts, but it was at least a part of her sheโ€™d decided to let me see.โ€

Iโ€™ve torn that from her. Iโ€™ve denied a mother her daughterโ€™s final words. If I tell her the truth now, Mrs. Liu will at least get those words back. Sheโ€™ll see the effort that occupied the last years of Athenaโ€™s life.

But I canโ€™t break.

Thatโ€™s been the key to staying sane throughout all of this: holding the line, maintaining my innocence. In the face of it all, Iโ€™ve never once cracked, never admitted the theft to anyone. By now, I mostly believe the lie myselfโ€”that it was my efforts that madeย The Last Frontย the success that it was, that when it comes down to it, it isย myย book. Iโ€™ve contorted the truth into such ways that I can, in fact, make peace with it. If I tell Mrs. Liu otherwise, all of this unravels. I drive the nail in my own coffin. And the world may be crumbling around me regardless, but I canโ€™t let it all slip away if thereโ€™s even the slightest hope of salvaging it.

โ€œMrs. Liu.โ€ I take a deep breath. โ€œI worked very, very hard onย The Last Front. My blood and sweat are in that book.โ€

โ€œI see.โ€

โ€œYour daughter was an exceptional writer. And so am I. And I think it hurts both her legacy, and my future, to overlook either truth.โ€

Iโ€™m skilled with words. I know how to lie without lying. And I know, on some level, that Mrs. Liu must know what Iโ€™m really telling her. Iโ€™m sure she knows, if she gives Adele Sparks-Sato permission, what they will find in Athenaโ€™s notebooks.

But she is terrified of what lies inside those Moleskines. That is clearer now than ever. Iโ€™m speaking to a mother who, when it comes down to it, would really rather not confront what dark things lay buried in her daughterโ€™s soul. No mother wants to know her child that well. Here, then, are the terms of our bargainโ€”sheโ€™ll keep my secrets, as long as she never has to confront Athenaโ€™s.

โ€œVery well,โ€ says Mrs. Liu. โ€œThank you, June.โ€

Before she hangs up, I blurt, โ€œAnd Mrs. Liu, aboutย Mother Witchย . . .โ€ I trail off. Iโ€™m not sure what I want to say, or if itโ€™s prudent to say anything at all. Todd told me that Mrs. Liu isnโ€™t suing for damages, but I hate to have this hanging over me. I want confirmation from Mrs. Liuโ€™s own mouth that this is going away. โ€œI mean, so I donโ€™t know if youโ€™ve heard, but Iโ€™m going to rewrite the opening . . .โ€

โ€œOh, June.โ€ She sighs. โ€œI donโ€™t care about that.โ€

โ€œIt really is original work,โ€ I say. โ€œI didโ€”I did take the first paragraph

โ€”I donโ€™t know how, I think we were just trading excerpts, and it wound up in my notebook somehow, and itโ€™s been so long that I forgot . . . but anyways, the rest of the story . . .โ€

โ€œI know,โ€ says Mrs. Liu, and now thereโ€™s a hard edge in her voice. โ€œI know, June. Athena never would have written something like that.โ€

Before I can ask her what she means, she hangs up.

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