Noah and I hitchhiked into town. Hitchhiked! He left his truck near the shop last night, so after he finished his shower and came out of the bathroom smelling like a divine being from the depths of a woodland forest, he asked if Iโd like to check the first item off my list. We walked down to
the road to hitch a ride into town.
It wasnโt as thrilling as I had hoped, though. Despite using the wordsย hitch a rideย he had already called his friend James and asked him to pick us up at the end of the driveway. So now Iโm sandwiched between two beautiful men and bobbing my way into town, fully intending on telling Susan that I hitchhiked during my time away and allowing her to conjure up fantasies of me in an 18-wheeler beside a big burly man with tattoos and a lecherous smile.
James is nice, though. He has a sunny disposition and wants to know how Iโm enjoying my time away from the big-city life. Heโs full of ideas of places I should explore and things I should do while Iโm here. Most of his sentences start like this: โOh, Noah! You know what she should do?โฆโ And โNoah! You oughtta take her toโฆโ Iโm realizing that he seems to think Noah and I are a package deal, and for some reason, Iโm not mad about it.
Noah, however, is back to his grunty selfโpressing himself against the truck door so our arms donโt brush. Yesterday I would have thought it was because he found me annoying. Now, after the Kiss Request, thereโs a new piece of this puzzle falling into place and it looks like Noah telling me Iโm pretty and sweet.ย Iโm powdered sugar.ย I donโt think he hates me after all. I think he likes me a little and that scares him.
James drops us off at the front of the town square with a little wave, saying heโs headed out of town to take an order of produce to a local market. When his truck drives off, itโs just me and Noah, standing here like two phone poles.
I bite the corner of my mouth and look for something to say, because Iโve realized I canโt wait for Noah to speak first or weโll become silent monks. โSoโฆwhat store should weโโ
โThe flirty stuff between us has to stop,โ he blurts. I laugh incredulously. โIโm sorry, what did you say?โ
If someone was watching us from a distance, they would think Noah is standing on a tack. โYou and me. Flirting. Or whatever that was this morningโฆit has to stop. Weโre notโ weโre friends. Thatโs all.โ
โNoah.โ I turn to fully face him and make some serious eye contact. โYou have to stop worrying. Iโm not looking for a relationship either. We are allowed to be two adults who talked about kissing that donโt plan on doing it again, and to admit that the other is attractive without jumping into a romantic relationship.โ
Some of the tension in his face melts away. He nods thoughtfully. โOkay. I just didnโt want to lead you on.โ
I sort of want to burst out laughing. I love that he treats me like thisโฆas if Iโm just a normal woman he met when her car broke down in his front yard. Most men wouldnโt
have the guts to say something like that to me. Wouldnโt have the guts to turn me down in the first place. Thereโs no pressure with Noah, and although I could totally see myself falling for him if I lived in this town, I know that my life will come calling shortly and Iโll have to go. Friendship works better.
โThank you. And for that, I think youโre as sweet as maple syrup.โ He groans and rolls his eyes when he realizes Iโm teasing him again, and he begins walking away from me, one booted foot at a time. I continue, โNot quite powdered sugar, of course, but donโt worry! If you try hard enough, youโll achieve my highest level of sweetness!โ
He stops walking abruptly and then falls in step behind me, softly poking my back. I frown over my shoulder. โWhat are you doing?โ
โTrying to find the off switch.โ Now I stop walking and he passes right by me, an easy grin plastered on his mouth like he didnโt justย playย again, continuing to shatter all my preconceived notions about Grumpy Pie Shop Owner. โCome on, chatterbox.โ He signals with his arm for me to catch up. โWeโre starting at the diner, where we donโt have to eat sand-pancakes.โ
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What should I get?โ I ask Noah, looking over the top of the laminated, and slightly sticky, diner menu.
โWhatever the hell you want.โ
I get it. He needs more coffee. Iโve been around him enough now to know that he requires a steady stream of the stuff to maintain a less-than-murderous attitude. And he takes it black, no sugar, no cream. Just like his personality. Noah is a no-frills guy.
โI think Iโll get theโโ Iโm interrupted by my phone buzzing on the table. It must have just grabbed a random bar of service because it is buzzing its heart out with incoming text messages. I shouldnโt have brought it with me, but it felt wrong leaving it behind when Iโm so used to having it on me at all times. Now I regret it. Noah stares at the poor little thing with lifted eyebrows.
โWhoa. Someone really wants to get ahold of you.โ
And just like that, the happy feelings Iโve had floating around me all day vanish. Reality always finds me. I pick up my phone and swipe it open even though I already know what Iโll see.
Susan: Please tell me you are still maintaining your nutritional plan while youโre gone? Just because youโre away doesnโt mean itโs a true vacation. Your stage costumes are already finalized.
Susan: Pie is not on the nutritional plan btw.
Susan: And speaking of, neither are pie shop owners. Keep your head on straight while youโre away. Youโre too good for a man like that.
Susan: Surprise, surprise, your mom emailed me this morning from your Malibu house asking where the key to your Land Rover is. Also, I extended your offer to have her join you for the first few dates of the tour but she said she has too much going on.
I set down my phone and look up. Noah is studying me. I muster up a smile and resume my menu-reading. โOkayโฆ what was I saying? Oh yeah. I think Iโm going to get an order of the French toast, too. Is it good?โ
When he doesnโt answer, I glance up again. A frown is etched between his eyes. Strong jaw working. He shakes his head lightly. โYou donโt have to do that.โ
โDo what?โ
โFake it.โ He gestures toward where I just put my phone. โDo you want to talk about it? Whatever it is you just read?โ
Ugh. Here he goes again! Why is it the one person who can only be temporary in my life is the one who wants to
understand me? Be there for me without me having to ask for it?
โI think Iโll respond to that question with the same answer you gave me before you left last night. Nope.โ I overly pronounce each letter, reveling in my ability to squash the voice chantingย polite, polite, politeย in my head. Not with Noah. Never with Noah.
His mouth tilts in a grin. โFair enough.โ
A moment later, a young waitress comes to the table. โHi yโall. What can I get for you?โ Other than smiling extrawide at me, she doesnโt treat me any different than Noah. Iโm not sure Iโll ever get used to the freedom the people in this town give me. I want to package it up and take it back to the real world with me.
โIโll have an order of pancakes and French toast,โ I say, โand he needs more coffee ASAP. Gets really grumpy if I donโt keep a steady supply dripping through his veins.โ
Noah scowls at me but the waitress tilts back her head full of pretty red hair with a delighted laugh. โSheโs right on the money! Glad you finally found yourself a woman who knows how to handle you, Noah.โ
Noah hurries to say, โSheโs not my woman.โ
I give her a polite smile. โIโm making a sign to carry around the rest of the day with those exact words just so heโll quit getting his panties in a wad about it.โ This earns me another frown from Noah. But hereโs the thing, the frown is laced with a smile. I donโt know how he does it, but the man can smile and frown at the same time.
โWell, Iโll admit,โ says the waitress, turning to me while taking her pencil and settling it behind her ear. โI was surprised when I heard the rumor that you two were an item given his history and general dislike for women since then.โ
I raise a brow. โHis history?โ
โIโll have eggs and a biscuit, Jeanine,โ Noah barks across the table. Jeanine pays him no attention.
โGirl, yes. He was head over heels for that fancy New Yorker for years, you know?โ
My eyes widen. โNo. I had no idea.โ I look at Noah, trying to picture this old-fashioned man who hates Wi-Fi and doesnโt own a cell phone and drives a burnt orange pickup truck with a pants-suited New York elitist on his arm. Another paradox.
โYes!โ Jeanine says with wide, excited eyes. Gossip seems to be her lifeblood. โHad the man so bewitched after her summer in town cleaning up her deceased uncleโs house and selling it that when it was time for her to leave, Noah up and moved to New York with her! It was a real Hallmark movie. But then when he had to come back for his grandma she didnโt come with him andโโ
Noah lifts his hands from the table. โIโm right here, you know? Can hear everything youโre saying.โ
Jeanine whips her head toward Noah. โWhy havenโt you told her?โ
โBecause itโs none of her business. We practically just met.โ Poor Noah. Heโs exasperated.
Suddenly, a man who is on the other side of the booth behind me leans around, draping his arm over the back so he can address me and Jeanine better. โDonโt feel bad. He doesnโt like to discuss it with anyone. That woman broke his heart and heโs not been the same since.โ
โOh good Lord,โ says Noah, propping his elbows on the table and pressing his face into his hands.
โYou know what, Phil? I agree. I donโt think he used to be this surly until he came back from New York.โ Jeanine helps herself to the seat beside me so I have to slide over in
the booth to make room. โNow, darling, Iโm rooting for you. But I think the fact that youโre a famous singer is going to hinder things a bit, because of the long-distance hurdle. Donโt give up. Noahโs worth it and you wonโt find a better man than him.โ Itโs sweet the way this town adores him.
โYep, okay. Iโm going to go pour that coffee since youโre clearly not going to do your job today.โ
โSo we can keep talking about you?โ Jeanine asks him with pleading eyes.
โWouldnโt dare stop you.โ Noah slides out of the booth and I watch all six foot three of him unfold from the table. I would put a stop to all this, butโฆI donโt want to. Itโs sort of fun watching him squirm while also getting to learn all his deep dark secrets. Plus, he just gave us permission. Thereโs no backing out now.
โOh, honey, will you pour me a cup while youโre at it!โ the waitress says over her shoulder while still looking at Phil.
โYep,โ Noah grumbles. โCream and sugar?โ โJust a tad.โ
Noah goes behind the dinerโs counter and starts pouring coffees. A few people at the bar seem to need a top-off, too, so he does it. I stare at him, unable to take my eyes off his handsome face as Jeanine and Phil keep prattling on beside me. His forearms flex with every tilt of the coffeepot. Occasionally his mouth slants into a single-dimpled grin at something someone says to him. I feel my heart tumble off a ledge it shouldnโt have been on in the first place.
โI wish I could wring that womanโs neck for treating him like she did. Heaven help me if she ever sets foot in this town again,โ says Jeanine.
โBut youโre not going to do that to him, are you?โ Phil asks me. โYouโre going to treat our Noah right?โ
โUhโโ But now Iโm lost. They seem to think Noah and I are more than we are. โReally. Weโre just friends. A step above strangers, really.โ
They both makeย pish poshย gestures like the fact that I met Noah only a few days ago is just semantics. โI know a good couple when I see one,โ says Jeanine, cinching up her ponytail to make it perkier.
โMark my words, you two have something between you. Just donโt go cheating on him like his ex-fiancรฉe did and that alone will make you miles better than her.โ
I blink in Noahโs direction, whoโs just finished serving up a plate of pancakes to someone at the bar. He was engaged? Lived in New York? Was cheated on? Thereโs so much I donโt know about him, and I feel that lack of knowledge keenly now. I want to know him. Every nook and cranny of him. I want to study him like Iโm cramming for an end-of-the-year exam. But thereโs a very real chance heโll never let me know him.
We make eye contact and he doesnโt smile at first, but the longer he looks at me, his lips start to rise in the corners like he just canโt help himself. And all at once, I think maybe my chances arenโt hopeless after all.