… it is possible that our letters have crossed in the mail, but it does seem more likely that you simply do not wish to correspond. I accept that and wish you well. I shan’t bother you again. I hope you know that I am listening, should you ever change your mind.
—from the Earl of Kilmartin to the Countess of Kilmartin, eight months after his arrival in India
It wasn’t easy hiding his illness. The ton didn’t present a problem; Michael simply turned down all of his invitations, and Francesca put it about that he
wished to settle in at his new home before taking his place in society.
The servants were more difficult. They talked, of course, and often to servants from other households, so Francesca had had to make sure that only the most loyal retainers were privy to what went on in Michael’s sickroom. It was tricky, especially since she wasn’t even officially living at Kilmartin House, at least not until Janet and Helen arrived, which Francesca fervently hoped was soon.
But the hardest part, the people who were the most fiendishly curious and difficult to keep in the dark, had to be Francesca’s family. It had never been easy maintaining a secret within the Bridgerton household, and keeping one from the whole lot of them was, to put it simply, a bloody nightmare.
“Why do you go over there every day?” Hyacinth asked over breakfast.
“I live there,” Francesca replied, taking a bite of a muffin, which any reasonable person would have taken as a sign that she did not wish to converse.
Hyacinth, however, had never been known to be reasonable. “You live here,” she pointed out.
Francesca swallowed, then took a sip of tea, the delay intended to preserve her composed exterior. “I sleep here,” she said coolly.
“Isn’t that the definition of where you live?”
Francesca slathered more jam on her muffin. “I’m eating, Hyacinth.”
Her youngest sister shrugged. “So am I, but it doesn’t prevent me from carrying on an intelligent conversation.”
“I’m going to kill her,” Francesca said to no one in particular. Which was probably a good thing, as there was no one else present.
“Who are you talking to?” Hyacinth demanded.
“God,” Francesca said baldly. “And I do believe I have been given divine leave to murder you.”
“Hmmph,” was Hyacinth’s response. “If it was that easy, I’d have asked permission to eliminate half the ton years ago.”
Francesca decided just then that not all of Hyacinth’s statements required a rejoinder. In fact, few of them did.
“Oh, Francesca!” came Violet’s voice, thankfully interrupting the conversation. “There you are.”
Francesca looked up to see her mother entering the breakfast room, but before she could say a word, Hyacinth piped up with, “Francesca was just about to kill me.”
“Excellent timing on my part, then,” Violet said, taking her seat. She turned to Francesca. “Are you planning to go over to Kilmartin House this morning?”
Francesca nodded. “I live there.”
“I think she lives here,” Hyacinth said, adding a liberal dose of sugar to her tea.
Violet ignored her. “I believe I will accompany you.” Francesca nearly dropped her fork. “Why?”
“I should like to see Michael,” Violet said with a delicate shrug. “Hyacinth, will you please pass me the muffins?”
“I’m not sure what his plans are today,” Francesca said quickly. Michael had had an attack the night before—his ‘ fourth malarial fever, to be precise, and they were hoping it would be the last of the cycle. But even though he would be much recovered by now, he would still most likely look dreadful. His skin—thank God—wasn’t jaundiced, which Michael had told her was often a sign that the sickness was progressing to its fatal stage, but
he still had that awful sickly air to him, and Francesca knew that if her mother caught one glimpse of him she would be horrified. And furious.
Violet Bridgerton did not like to be kept in the dark. Especially when it pertained to a matter about which one could use the term “life and death” without being accused of hyperbole.
“If he’s not available I will simply turn around and go home,” Violet said. “Jam please, Hyacinth.”
“I’ll come, too,” Hyacinth said.
Oh, God. Francesca’s knife skittered right across her muffin. She was going to have to drag her sister. It was the only solution.
“You don’t mind if I come along, too, do you?” Hyacinth asked Violet. “Didn’t you have plans with Eloise?” Francesca said quickly.
Hyacinth stopped, thought, blinked a few times. “I don’t think so.” “Shopping? At the milliner?”
Hyacinth took another moment to ran through her memory. “No, in fact I’m quite certain I don’t. I just purchased a new bonnet last week. Lovely one, actually. Green, with the most cunning ecru trim.” She glanced down at her toast, regarded it for a moment, then reached for the marmalade. “I’m weary of shopping,” she added.
“No woman is ever weary of shopping,” Francesca said, a touch desperately.
“This woman is. Besides, the earl—” Hyacinth cut herself off, turning to her mother. “May I call him Michael?”
“You’ll have to ask him,” Violet replied, taking a bite of eggs.
Hyacinth turned back to Francesca. “He’s been back in London an entire week, and I haven’t even seen him. My friends have been asking me about
him, and I don’t have anything to say.”
“It’s not polite to gossip, Hyacinth,” Violet said.
“It isn’t gossip,” Hyacinth retorted. “It’s the honest dissemination of information.”
Francesca actually felt her chin drop. “Mother,” she said, shaking her head, “you really should have stopped at seven.”
“Children, you mean?” Violet asked, sipping at her tea. “Sometimes I do wonder.”
“Mother!” Hyacinth exclaimed. Violet just smiled at her. “Salt?”
“It took her eight tries to get it right,” Hyacinth announced, thrusting the salt cellar at her mother with a decided lack of grace.
“And does that mean that you, too, hope to have eight children?” Violet inquired sweetly.
“God no,” Hyacinth said. With great feeling. And neither she nor Francesca could quite resist a chuckle after that.
“It’s not polite to blaspheme, Hyacinth,” Violet said, in much the same tone she’d used to tell her not to gossip.
“Why don’t we stop by shortly after noon?” Violet asked Francesca, once the moment of levity had petered out.
Francesca glanced up at the clock. That would give her barely an hour to make Michael presentable. And her mother had said we. As in more than one person. As in she was actually going to bring Hyacinth, who had the capacity to turn any awkward situation into a living nightmare.
“I’ll go now,” Francesca blurted out, standing up quickly. “To see if he’s available.”
To her surprise, her mother stood also. “I will walk you to the door,” Violet said. Firmly.
“Er, you will?”
“Yes.”
Hyacinth started to rise.
“Alone,” Violet said, without even giving Hyacinth a glance.
Hyacinth sat back down. Even she was wise enough not to argue when her mother was combining her serene smile with a steely tone.
Francesca allowed her mother to precede her out of the room, and they walked in silence until they reached the front hall, where she waited for a footman to retrieve her coat.
“Is there something you wish to tell me?” Violet asked. “I don’t know what you mean.”
“I think you do.”
“I assure you,” Francesca said, giving her mother her most innocent look, “I don’t.”
“You have been spending a great deal of time at Kil-martin House,” Violet said.
“I live there,” Francesca pointed out, for what felt like the hundredth time. “Not right now you don’t, and I worry that people will talk.”
“No one has said a word about it,” Francesca returned. “I haven’t seen a thing in the gossip columns, and if people were talking about it, I’m sure that one of us would have heard by now.”
“Just because people are keeping quiet today doesn’t mean they will do so tomorrow,” Violet said.
Francesca let out an irritated exhale. “It’s not as if I’m a never-married virgin.”
“Francesca!”
Francesca crossed her arms. “I’m sorry to speak so frankly, Mother, but it is true.”
The footman arrived just then with Francesca’s coat and informed her that the carriage would be in front momentarily. Violet waited until he stepped outside to await its arrival, then turned to Francesca and asked, “What, precisely, is your relationship to the earl?”
Francesca gasped. “Mother!”
“It is not a silly question,” Violet said.
“It is the silliest—no, quite the stupidest—question I have ever heard. Michael is my cousin!”
“He was your husband’s cousin,” Violet corrected.
“And he was my cousin as well,” Francesca said sharply. “And my friend. Good heavens, of all people… I can’t even imagine… Michael!”
But the truth was, she could imagine. Michael’s ill-ness had kept it all at bay; she’d been so busy caring for him and keeping him well that she’d managed to avoid thinking about that jolting moment in the park, when she’d looked at him and something had sparked to life within her.
Something she had been quite certain had died inside of her four years earlier.
But hearing her mother bring it up… Good God, it was mortifying. There was no way, no earthly way that she could feel an attraction to Michael. It
was wrong. It was really wrong. It was… well, it was just wrong. There wasn’t another word that described it better.
“Mother,” Francesca said, keeping her voice carefully even, “Michael has not been feeling well. I told you that.”
“Seven days is quite a long time for a head cold.”
“Perhaps it is something from India,” Francesca said. “I don’t know. I think he is almost recovered. I have been helping him get settled here in London. He has been gone a very long time and as you’ve noted, he has many new responsibilities as the earl. I thought it my duty to help him with all of this.” She looked at her mother with a resolute expression, rather pleased with her speech. But Violet just said, “I will see you in an hour,” and walked away.
Leaving Francesca feeling very panicked indeed.
Michael was enjoying a few moments of peace and quiet—not that he’d been bereft of quiet, but malaria did little to allow a body peace—when Francesca burst through his bedroom door, wild-eyed and out of breath.
“You have two choices,” she said, or rather, heaved.
“Only two?” he murmured, even though he hadn’t a clue what she was talking about.
“Don’t make jokes.”
He hauled himself into a sitting position. “Francesca?” he asked gingerly, since it was his experience that one should always proceed with caution when a female was in a state. “Are you quite all—”
“My mother is coming,” she said. “Here?”
She nodded.
It wasn’t an ideal situation but hardly something deserving of Francesca’s feverish demeanor. “Why?” he inquired politely.
“She thinks—” She stopped, catching her breath. “She thinks—Oh, heavens, you won’t believe it.”
When she didn’t expound upon this any further, he widened his eyes and held out his hands in an impatient gesture, as if to say—Care to elaborated
“She thinks,” Francesca said, shuddering as she turned to him, “that we are conducting an affair.”
“After only a week back in London,” he murmured thoughtfully. “I’m faster than I imagined.”
“How can you joke about this?” Francesca demanded.
“How can you not?” he returned. But of course she could never laugh about such a thing. To her it was unthinkable. To him it was…
Well, something else entirely. “I am horrified,” she declared.
Michael just offered her a smile and a shrug, even though he was starting to feel a little pricked. Naturally, he did not expect Francesca to think of him in such a manner, but a reaction of horror didn’t exactly make a fellow feel good about his manly prowess.
“What are my two choices?” he asked abruptly. She just stared at him.
“You said I have two choices.”
She blinked, and would have looked rather adorably befuddled if he weren’t a bit too annoyed with her ire to credit her with anything that charitable. “I… don’t re-call,” she finally said. “Oh, my heavens,” she moaned. “What am I to do?”
“Settling down might be a good beginning,” he said, sharply enough to make her head jerk back in his direction. “Stop and think, Frannie. This is us. Your mother will realize how foolish she’s being once she takes the time to think about it.”
“That’s what I told her,” she replied fervently. “I mean, for goodness’ sake. Can you imagine?”
He could, actually, which had always been a bit of a problem.
“It is the most unfathomable thing,” Francesca muttered, pacing across the room. “As if I—” She turned, gesturing to him with overblown motions. “As if you—” She stopped, planted her hands on her hips, then clearly gave up on trying to hold still and began to pace anew. “How could she even consider such a thing?”
“I don’t believe I have ever seen you quite so put out,” Michael commented.
She halted in her tracks and stared at him as if he were an imbecile. With two heads.
And maybe a tail.
“You really ought to endeavor to calm down,” he said, even though he knew his words would have the exact opposite effect. Women hated to be told to calm down, especially women like Francesca.
“Calm down?” she echoed, turning on him as if possessed by an entire spectrum of furies. “Calm down? Good God, Michael, are you still feverish?”
“Not at all,” he said coolly.
“Do you understand what I’m saying to you?”
“Quite,” he bit off, about as politely as any man could after having his manhood impugned.
“It’s insane,” she said. “Simply insane. I mean, look at you.”
Really, she might as well just grab a knife and apply it to his ballocks. “You know, Francesca,” he said with studied mildness, “there are a lot of women in London who would be rather pleased to be, how did you say it, conducting an affair with me.”
Her mouth, which had been hanging open after her latest outburst, snapped shut.
He lifted his brows and leaned back against his pillows. “Some would call it a privilege.”
She glared at him.
“Some women,” he said, knowing full well he should never bait her about such a subject, “might even engage in physical battle just for the mere opportunity—”
“Stop!” she snapped. “Good heavens, Michael, such an inflated view of your own prowess is not attractive.”
“I’m told it’s deserved,” he said with a languid smile. Her face burned red.
He rather enjoyed the sight. He might love her, but he hated what she did to him, and he was not so big of heart that he didn’t occasionally take a bit of satisfaction in seeing her so tortured.
It was only a fraction of what he felt on a day-to-day basis, after all.
“I have no wish to hear about your amorous exploits,” Francesca said stiffly.
“Funny, you used to ask about them all the time.” He paused, watching her squirm. “What was it you always asked me?”
“I don’t—”
“Tell me something wicked” he said, using his best trying-to-sound-as-if- he’d-just-thought-of-it voice, when of course he never forgot anything she said to him. “Tell me something wicked,” he said again, more slowly this time. “That was it. You rather liked me when I was wicked. You were always so curious about my exploits.”
“That was before—”
“Before what, Francesca?” he asked.
There was an odd pause before she spoke. “Before this,” she muttered. “Before now, before everything.”
“I’m supposed to understand that?” Her answer was merely a glare.
“Very well,” he said, “I suppose I should get ready for your mother’s visit. It shouldn’t be too much of a problem.”
Francesca regarded him dubiously. “But you look terrible.”
“I knew there was a reason I loved you so well,” he said dryly. “One really needn’t worry about falling into the sin of vanity with you about.”
“Michael, be serious.” “Sadly, I am.”
She scowled at him.
“I can rise to my feet now,” he told her, “exposing you to parts of my body I would imagine you’d rather not see, or you can leave and await my glorious presence downstairs.”
She fled.
Which puzzled him. The Francesca he knew didn’t flee anything.
Nor, for that matter, would she have departed without at least making an attempt to get the last word.
But most of all, he couldn’t believe she had let him get away with calling himself glorious.
Francesca never did have to suffer a visit from her mother. Not twenty minutes after she left Michael’s bedchamber, a note arrived from Violet informing her that her brother Colin—who had been traveling in the Mediterranean for months—had just returned to London, and Violet would have to postpone her visit. Then, later that evening, much as Francesca had predicted at the onset of Michael’s attack, Janet and Helen arrived in London, assuaging Violet’s concerns about Francesca and Michael and their lack of a chaperone.
The mothers—as Francesca and Michael had long since taken to calling them—were thrilled at Michael’s unexpected appearance, although one look at his sickly features propelled both of them into maternal tizzies of concern that had forced Michael to take Francesca aside and beg her not to leave him alone with either of the two ladies. In truth, the timing of their arrival was rather fortuitous, as Michael had a comparatively healthy day in their presence before being struck by another raging fever. Francesca had taken them aside before the next expected attack and explained the nature of the illness, so by the time they saw the malaria in all its horrible glory, they were prepared.
And unlike Francesca, they were more agreeable—no, downright eager—to keep his malady a secret. It was difficult to imagine that a wealthy and handsome earl might not be considered an excellent catch by the unmarried ladies of London, but malaria was never a mark in one’s favor when looking for a wife.
And if there was one thing Janet and Helen were determined to see before the year was out, it was Michael standing at the front of a church, his ring firmly on the finger of a new countess.
Francesca was actually relieved to sit back and listen to the mothers harangue him about getting married. At least it took their attention off of
her. She had no idea how they would react to her own marital plans—she rather imagined they would be happy for her—but the last thing she wanted was two more matchmaking mamas attempting to pair her up with every poor pathetic bachelor on the Marriage Mart.
Good heavens, she had enough to put up with, with her own mother, who was surely not going to be able to resist the temptation to meddle once Francesca made clear her desire to find a husband this year.
And so Francesca moved back to Kilmartin House, and the entire Stirling household turned itself into a little cocoon, with Michael declining all invitations with the promise that he would be out and about once he settled in from his long journey. The three ladies did occasionally go out in society, and although Francesca had expected questions about the new earl, even she was unprepared for the volume and frequency.
Everyone, it seemed, was mad for the Merry Rake, especially now that he’d shrouded himself with mystery.
Oh, and inherited an earldom. Mustn’t forget that. Or the hundred thousand pounds that went with it.
Francesca shook her head as she thought about it. Truly Mrs. Radcliffe herself couldn’t have devised a more perfect hero. It was going to be a madhouse once he was recovered.
And then, suddenly, he was.
Very well, Francesca supposed it wasn’t that sudden; the fevers had been steadily decreasing in severity and duration. But it did seem that one day he still looked wan and pale, and the next he was his regular hale and hearty self, prowling about the house, eager to escape into the sunshine.
“Quinine,” Michael said with a lazy shrug when she remarked upon his changed appearance at breakfast. “I’d take the stuff six times a day if it didn’t taste so damned foul.”
“Language, please, Michael,” his mother murmured, spearing a sausage with her fork.
“Have you tasted the quinine, Mother?” he asked. “Of course not.”
“Taste it,” he suggested, “and then we’ll see how your language compares.” Francesca chuckled under her napkin.
“/ tasted it,” Janet announced.
All eyes turned to her. “You did?” Francesca asked. Even she hadn’t been so daring. The smell alone had been enough for her to keep the bottle firmly corked at all times.
“Of course,” Janet replied. “I was curious.” She turned to Helen. “It really is foul.”
“Worse than that awful concoction Cook made us take last year for the, er…” Helen gave Janet a look that clearly meant you know what I mean.
“Much worse,” Janet affirmed.
“Did you reconstitute it?” Francesca asked. The powder was meant to be mixed with purified water, but she supposed that Janet might have simply put a bit on her tongue.
“Of course. Aren’t I supposed to?”
“Some people like to mix it with gin,” Michael said. Helen shuddered.
“It could hardly be worse than on its own,” Janet said.
“Still,” Helen said, “if one is going to mix it with spirits, one might at least choose a nice whisky.”
“And spoil the whisky?” Michael queried, helping himself to several spoonfuls of eggs.
“It can’t be that bad,” Helen said.
“It is,” Michael and Janet said in unison.
“It’s true,” Janet added. “I can’t imagine ruining a fine whisky that way. Gin would be a happy medium.”
“Have you even tasted gin?” Francesca asked. It was not, after all, considered a suitable spirit for the upper classes, most especially women.
“Once or twice,” Janet admitted.
And here I thought I knew everything about you, Francesca murmured. “I have my secrets,” Janet said airily.
“This is a very odd conversation for the breakfast table,” Helen stated.
“True enough,” Janet agreed. She turned to her nephew. “Michael, I am most pleased to see you up and about and looking so fine and healthy.”
He inclined his head, thanking her for the compliment.
She dabbed the corners of her mouth daintily with her napkin. “But now you must attend to your responsibilities as the earl.”
He groaned.
“Don’t be so petulant,” Janet said. “No one is going to hang you up by your thumbs. All I was going to say is that you must go to the tailor and make sure you have proper evening clothes.”
“Are you certain I can’t donate my thumbs instead?”
“They’re lovely thumbs,” Janet replied, “but I do believe they’d better serve all of humanity attached to your hands.”
Michael met her eyes with a steady stare. “Let’s see. I have on my schedule today—my first since rising from my sickbed, I might add—a meeting with the prime minister concerning my assumption of my seat in parliament, a meeting with the family solicitor so that I might review the state of our financial holdings, and an interview with our primary estate manager, who I’m told has come down to London with the express purpose of discussing the state of all seven of our family properties. At which point, might I inquire, do you wish me to squeeze in a visit to the tailor?”
The three ladies were speechless.
“Perhaps I should inform the prime minister that I shall have to move him until Thursday?” he asked mildly.
“When did you make all of these appointments?” Francesca asked, a bit ashamed that she was so surprised at his diligence.
“Did you think I’d spent the last fortnight staring at the ceiling?”
“Well, no,” she replied, although in truth she didn’t know what she’d thought he’d been doing. Reading, she supposed. That’s what she would have done.
When no one said anything further, Michael pushed back his chair. “If you ladies will excuse me,” he said, setting his napkin down, “I believe we have established that I have a busy day ahead of me.”
But he’d not even risen from his seat before Janet said quietly, “Michael? The tailor.”
He froze.
Janet smiled at him sweetly. ‘Tomorrow would be perfectly acceptable.“ Francesca rather thought she heard his teeth grind.
Janet just tilted her head ever so slightly to the side. “You do need new evening clothes. Surely you would not dream of missing Lady Bridgerton’s birthday ball?”
Francesca quickly forked a bite of eggs into her mouth so that he wouldn’t catch her grinning. Janet was devious in the extreme. Her mother’s birthday party was the one event that Michael would feel positively obligated to attend. Anything else he could shrug off without a care.
But Violet?
Francesca didn’t think so. “When is it?” he sighed.
“April eleventh,” Francesca said sweetly. “Everyone will be there.” “Everyone?” he echoed.
“All the Bridgertons.” He brightened visibly.
“And everyone else ” she added with a shrug. He looked at her sharply. Define everyone. “ Her eyes met his. “Everyone.”
He slumped in his seat. “Am I to get no reprieve?”
“Of course you are,” Helen said. “You did, in fact. Last week. We called it malaria.”
“And here I was looking forward to health,” he muttered. “Fear not,” Janet said. “You will have a fine time, I’m sure.” “And perhaps meet a lovely lady,” Helen put in helpfully.
“Ah, yes,” Michael murmured, “lest we forget the real purpose of my life.”
“It’s not such a bad purpose,” Francesca said, unable to resist the small chance to tease him.
“Oh, really?” he asked, swinging his head around to face her. His eyes settled on hers with startling accuracy, leaving Francesca with the extremely unpleasant sensation that perhaps she shouldn’t have provoked him.
“Er, really,” she said, since she couldn’t back down now. “And what are your purposes?” he asked sweetly.
Out of the corner of her eye, Francesca could see Janet and Helen watching the exchange with avid and unconcealed curiosity.
“Oh, this and that,” Francesca said with a blithe wave of her hand. “Presently, just to finish my breakfast. It is most delicious, wouldn’t you agree?”
“Coddled eggs with a side portion of meddling mothers?”
“Don’t forget your cousin as well,” she said, kicking herself under the table as soon as the words left her lips. Everything about his demeanor screamed not to provoke him, but she just couldn’t help it.
There was little in this world she enjoyed more than provoking Michael Stirling, and moments like this were simply too delicious to resist.
“And how will you be spending your season?” Michael asked, tilting his head slightly into an obnoxiously patient expression.
“I imagine I’ll begin by going to my mother’s birthday party.” “And what will you be doing there?”
“Offering my felicitations.” “Is that all?”
“Well, I won’t be inquiring after her age, if that’s what you’re asking,” Francesca replied.
“Oh, no,” Janet said, followed by Helen’s equally fervent, “Don’t do that.”
All three ladies turned to Michael with identical expectant expressions. It was his turn to speak, after all.
“I’m leaving,” he said, his chair scraping along the floor as he stood.
Francesca opened her mouth to say something provoking, since it was always her first inclination to tease him when he was in such a state, but she found herself without words.
Michael had changed.
It wasn’t that he’d been irresponsible before. It was just that he’d been without responsibilities. And it hadn’t really occurred to her how well he might rise to the occasion once he returned to England.
“Michael,” she said, her soft voice instantly gaining his attention, “good luck with Lord Liverpool.”
His eyes caught hers, and something flashed there. A hint of appreciation, maybe of gratitude.
Or maybe it was nothing so precise. Maybe it was just a wordless moment of understanding.
The sort she’d had with John.
Francesca swallowed, uncomfortable with this sudden realization. She reached for her tea with a slow and deliberate movement, as if her control over her body might extend to her mind as well.
What had just happened?
He was just Michael, wasn’t he?
Just her friend, just her longtime confidant. Wasn’t that all?
Wasn’t it?
