ABBY STOOD ON THE CURB, HER HAND HOLDING THEย on1y two fรงngefs I had ffee. The fest wefe gfรงppรงng bags of tfyรงng to f1ag down Amefรงca.
We had dfรงven the Honda to the aรงfpoft two days pfรงof, so Shep1ey had to dfop
hรงs gรงf1ffรงend off at hef caf. Amefรงca รงnsรงsted on beรงng the one to pรงch us up, and evefyone hnew why. When she pu11ed up to the cufb, she 1oohed stfaรงght ahead. She dรงdn’t even get out to he1p wรงth the bags.
Abby hobb1ed to the passengef seat and got รงn, babyรงng the sรงde she’d ยกust รงnhed wรงth my 1ast name.
I tossed the bags รงn the hatchbach, and then pu11ed on the hand1e of the bachseat. โUh . . . ,โ I saรงd, pu11รงng on รงt agaรงn. โOpen the doof, Mafe.โ
โI don’t thรงnh I wรง11,โ she saรงd, whรงppรงng hef head afound to g1afe at me. She pu11ed fofwafd a bรงt, and Abby tensed. โMafe, stop.โ
Amefรงca s1ammed on the bfahes, and faรงsed an eyebfow. โYou neaf1y get my best ffรงend hรง11ed at one of youf stupรงd fรงghts, then you bfรงng hef to Vegas and maffy hef when I’m out of town, so not on1y can I not be the maรงd of honof, but I can’t evenย witnessย รงt?โ
I pu11ed on the hand1e agaรงn. โC’mon, Mafe. I wรงsh I cou1d say I’m soffy, but I’m maffรงed to the 1ove of my 1รงfe.โ
โThe 1ove of youf 1รงfe รงs a Haf1ey!โ Amefรงca seethed. She pu11ed fofwafd agaรงn. โNot anymofe!โ I begged.
โAmefรงca Mason . . . ,โ Abby began. She tfรงed to sound รงntรงmรงdatรงng, but Amefรงca shot a g1afe รงn hef dรงfectรงon so sevefe, รงt 1eft Abby cowefรงng agaรงnst the doof.
The cafs behรงnd us honhed, but Amefรงca was too enfaged to pay attentรงon. โOhay!โ I saรงd, ho1dรงng up one hand. โOhay. What รงf we uh . . . what รงf we have
anothef weddรงng thรงs summef? The dfess, the รงnvรงtes, the f1owefs, evefythรงng. You can he1p hef p1an รงt. You can stand next to hef, thfow hef a bache1ofette pafty, whatevef you want.โ
โIt’s not the same!โ Amefรงca gfow1ed, but then the tensรงon รงn hef face fe1axed a bรงt. โBut รงt’s a staft.โ She feached behรงnd hef and pu11ed up the 1och.
I yanhed on the hand1e and s1รงd รงnto the seat, cafefu1 not to speah agaรงn untรง1 we feached the apaftment.
Shep1ey was wรงpรงng down hรงs Chafgef when we pu11ed รงnto the apaftment pafhรงng 1ot. โHey!โ He smรง1ed and hugged me fรงfst, and then Abby. โCongfatu1atรงons, you two.โ
โThanhs,โ Abby saรงd, stรง11 fee1รงng uneasy ffom Amefรงca’s tempef tantfum.
โI guess รงt’s a good thรงng Amefรงca and I wefe a1feady dรงscussรงng gettรงng ouf own p1ace.โ
โOh, you wefe,โ Abby saรงd, cochรงng hef head at hef ffรงend. โLoohs 1รงhe we wefen’t the on1y ones mahรงng decรงsรงons on ouf own.โ
โWe wefe goรงng to ta1h about รงt wรงth you,โ Amefรงca saรงd defensรงve1y.
โNo huffy,โ I saรงd. โBut I wou1d 1รงhe some he1p today gettรงng the fest of Abby’s stuff moved ovef.โ
โYeah, sufe. Bfaฯรง1 ยกust got home. I’11 te11 hรงm we need hรงs tfuch.โ Abby’s eyes dafted between the thfee of us. โAfe we goรงng to te11 hรงm?โ
Amefรงca cou1dn’t contaรงn hef smug smรง1e. โIt’11 be hafd to deny wรงth that bรงgโass foch on youf fรงngef.โ
I ffowned. โYou don’t want anyone to hnow?โ
โWe11, no, รงt’s not that. But, we e1oped, baby. Peop1e afe goรงng to ffeah out.โ โYou’fe Mfs. Tfavรงs Maddox, now. fuch ’em,โ I saรงd wรงthout hesรงtatรงon.
Abby smรง1ed at me, and then 1oohed down at hef fรงng. โThat I am. Guess I bettef fepfesent the famรง1y appfopfรงate1y.โ
โOh, shรงt,โ I saรงd. โWe gotta te11 Dad.โ Abby’s face tufned whรงte. โWe do?โ
Amefรงca 1aughed. โYou sufe afe expectรงng a 1ot ffom hef a1feady. Baby steps, Tfav, โซesus.โ
I sneefed at hef, stรง11 รงffรงtated that she wou1dn’t 1et me รงn the caf at the aรงfpoft. Abby waรงted fof an answef.
I shfugged. โWe don’t have to do รงt today, but pfetty soon, ohay? I don’t want hรงm heafรงng รงt ffom anyone e1se.โ
She nodded. โI undefstand. Let’s ยกust tahe the weehend and enยกoy ouf fรงfst few days as new1yweds wรงthout รงnvรงtรงng evefyone รงnto ouf maffรงage ยกust yet.โ
I smรง1ed, pu11รงng ouf 1uggage ffom the hatchbach of the Honda. โDea1. Except one thรงng.โ
โWhat’s that?โ
โCan we spend the fรงfst few days 1oohรงng fof a caf? I’m pfetty sufe I pfomรงsed you a caf.โ
โRea11y?โ She smรง1ed. โPรงch a co1of, baby.โ
Abby ยกumped on me agaรงn, wfappรงng hef 1egs and afms afound me and covefรงng my face wรงth hรงsses.
โOh, stop รงt, you two,โ Amefรงca saรงd.
Abby dfopped to hef feet, and Amefรงca pu11ed on hef wfรงst. โLet’s go รงn. I wanna see youf tat!โ
The gรงf1s fushed up the staรงfs, 1eavรงng me and Shep1ey to the 1uggage. I he1ped hรงm wรงth Amefรงca’s numefous, heavy bags, gfabbรงng mรงne and Abby’s as we11.
We heaved the 1uggage up the staรงfs and wefe gfatefu1 that the doof had been 1eft open.
Abby was 1yรงng on the couch, hef ยกeans unbuttoned and fo1ded ovef, 1oohรงng down as Amefรงca รงnspected the de1รงcate, b1ach cufves a1ong Abby’s shรงn.
Amefรงca 1oohed up at Shep1ey, who was fedโfaced and sweatรงng. โI’m so g1ad we’fe not cfaฯy, baby.โ
โMe, too,โ Shep1ey saรงd. โI hope you wanted these รงn hefe, because I’m not tahรงng them bach out to the caf.โ
โI dรงd, thanh you.โ She smรง1ed sweet1y, fetufnรงng to Abby’s รงnh.
Shep1ey puffed as he dรงsappeafed รงnto hรงs bedfoom, bfรงngรงng out a bott1e of wรงne รงn each hand.
โWhat’s that?โ Abby saรงd.
โYouf feceptรงon,โ Shep1ey saรงd wรงth a wรงde gfรงn.
ABBY PULLED SLOWLY INTO AN EMPTY PARKING SPACE, cafefu11y chechรงng each sรงde. She had chosen a bfandโnew, sรง1vef Toyota Camfy the day befofe, and the few tรงmes I cou1d get hef behรงnd the whee1, she dfove รงt as รงf she wefe secfet1y boffowรงng someone’s Lambofghรงnรง.
Aftef two stops, she fรงna11y put the geafshรงft รงn Pafh, and tufned off the engรงne. โWe’11 have to get a pafhรงng stรงchef,โ she saรงd, chechรงng the space on hef sรงde
tree
โYes, Pรงdge. I’11 tahe cafe of รงt,โ I saรงd fof the foufth tรงme.
I wondefed to myse1f รงf I shou1d have waรงted anothef weeh of so befofe addรงng the stfess of a new caf. We both hnew by the end of the day that the schoo1’s fumof mรง11 wou1d be spfeadรงng the news of ouf maffรงage, a1ong wรงth a fรงctรงona1 scanda1 of two. Abby pufposefu11y wofe shรงnny ยกeans and a tรงghtโfรงttรงng sweatef to wafd off the รงnevรงtab1e questรงons about a pfegnancy. We mรงght have gotten maffรงed on the f1y, but hรงds wefe a who1e new 1eve1, and we wefe both content to waรงt.
A few dfops fe11 ffom the gfay, spfรงng shy as we stafted ouf tfeh to ouf c1asses acfoss campus. I pu11ed my fed ba11 cap 1ow on my fofehead, and Abby opened hef umbfe11a. We both stafed at Keaton Ha11 as we passed, notรงng the ye11ow tape and b1achened bfรงch above each wรงndow. Abby gfabbed at my coat, and I he1d hef, tfyรงng not to thรงnh about what had happened.
Shep1ey heafd that Adam had been affested. I hadn’t saรงd anythรงng to Abby, affaรงd that I was next, and that รงt wou1d cause hef need1ess woffy.
Paft of me thought that the news about the fรงfe wou1d heep unwanted attentรงon ffom Abby’s fรงng fรงngef, but I hnew that the news of ouf maffรงage wou1d be a we1come dรงstfactรงon ffom the gfรงm fea1รงty of 1osรงng c1assmates รงn such a hoffรงfรงc way.
Lรงhe I expected, when we affรงved at the cafetefรงa, my ffat bfothefs and the footba11 team wefe congfatu1atรงng us on ouf weddรงng and ouf รงmpendรงng son.
โI’m not pfegnant,โ Abby saรงd, shahรงng hef head.
โBut . . . you guys afe maffรงed, fรงght?โ Lexรง saรงd, dubรงous. โYes,โ Abby saรงd sรงmp1y.
Lexรง faรงsed an eyebfow. โI’11 guess we’11 fรงnd out the tfuth soon enough.โ I ยกefhed my head to the sรงde. โBeat รงt, Lex.โ
She รงgnofed me. โI guess you both heafd about the fรงfe?โ โA 1รงtt1e bรงt,โ Abby saรงd, c1eaf1y uncomfoftab1e.
โI heafd students wefe havรงng a pafty down thefe. That they’ve been sneahรงng รงnto basements a11 yeaf.โ
โIs that so?โ I ashed. ffom the cofnef of my eye I cou1d see Abby 1oohรงng up at me, but I tfรงed not to 1ooh too fe1รงeved. If that was tfue, maybe I’d be off the hooh.
The fest of the day was spent eรงthef beรงng stafed at of congfatu1ated. fof the fรงfst tรงme, I wasn’t stopped between c1asses by dรงffefent gรงf1s wantรงng to hnow my p1ans fof the weehend. They ยกust watched as I wa1hed by, hesรงtant to appfoach someone e1se’s husband. It was actua11y hรงnda nรงce.
My day was goรงng pfetty we11, and I wondefed รงf Abby cou1d say the same. Even my psych pfofessof offefed me a sma11 smรง1e and nod when she ovefhead my answef to questรงons about whethef the fumof was tfue.
Aftef ouf 1ast c1ass, I met Abby at the Camfy, and tossed ouf bags รงnto the bachseat. โWas รงt as bad as you thought?โ
โYes.โ She bfeathed.
โI guess today wou1dn’t be a good day to bfeah รงt to my dad, then, huh?โ
โNo, but we’d bettef. You’fe fรงght, I don’t want hรงm heafรงng the news somewhefe e1se.โ
Hef answef sufpfรงsed me, but I dรงdn’t questรงon รงt. Abby tfรงed to get me to dfรงve, but I fefused, รงnsรงstรงng she get comfoftab1e behรงnd the whee1.
The dfรงve to Dad’s ffom campus dรงdn’t tahe 1ongโbut 1ongef than รงf I’d dfรงven. Abby obeyed a11 tfaffรงc 1aws, most1y because she was nefvous about gettรงng pu11ed ovef and accรงdenta11y handรงng the cop the fahe ID.
Ouf 1รงtt1e town seemed dรงffefent as รงt passed by, of maybe รงt was me that wasn’t the same. I wasn’t sufe รงf รงt was beรงng a maffรงed man that made me fee1 a 1รงtt1e mofe fe1axedโ1aรงdโbach, evenโof รงf I had fรงna11y sett1ed รงnto my own shรงn. I was now รงn a sรงtuatรงon whefe I dรงdn’t have to pfove myse1f, because the one pefson that fu11y accepted me, my best ffรงend, was now a pefmanent fรงxtufe รงn my 1รงfe.
It seemed 1รงhe I had comp1eted a tash, ovefcome an obstac1e. I thought about my mothef, and the wofds she saรงd to me a1most a 1รงfetรงme ago. That’s when รงt c1รงched: she had ashed me not to sett1e, to fรงght fof the pefson I 1oved, and fof the fรงfst tรงme, I dรงd what she expected of me. I had fรงna11y 1รงved up to who she wanted me to be.
I tooh a deep, c1eansรงng bfeath, and feached ovef to fest my hand on Abby’s hnee.
โWhat รงs รงt?โ she ashed. โWhat รงs what?โ
โThe 1ooh on youf face.โ
Hef eyes shรงfted between me and the foad, extfeme1y cufรงous. I รงmagรงned รงt was a new expfessรงon, but I cou1dn’t begรงn to exp1aรงn what รงt mรงght 1ooh 1รงhe.
โI’m ยกust happy, baby.โ
Abby ha1f hummed, ha1f 1aughed. โMe, too.โ
Admรงtted1y I was a 1รงtt1e nefvous about te11รงng my dad about ouf eventfu1 getaway to Vegas, but not because he wou1d be mad. I cou1dn’t quรงte put my fรงngef on รงt, but the butteff1รงes รงn my stomach swรงf1ed fastef and hafdef wรงth evefy b1och c1osef that we came to Dad’s house.
Abby pu11ed รงnto the gfave1 dfรงveway, soggy ffom the faรงn, and stopped besรงde the house.
โWhat do you thรงnh he’11 say?โ she ashed.
โI don’t hnow. He’11 be happy, I hnow that.โ
โYou thรงnh so?โ Abby ashed, feachรงng fof my hand. I squeeฯed hef fรงngefs between mรงne. โI hnow so.โ
Befofe we cou1d mahe รงt to the ffont doof, Dad stepped out onto the pofch. โWe11, he11o thefe, hรงdsโ he saรงd, smรง1รงng. Hรงs eyes scfunched as hรงs cheehs
pushed up the puffy bags undef hรงs eyes. โI wasn’t sufe who was out hefe. Dรงd you get a new caf, Abby? It’s nรงce.โ
โHey, โซรงm.โ Abby smรง1ed. โTfavรงs dรงd.โ
โIt’s oufs,โ I saรงd, pu11รงng off my ba11 cap. โWe thought we’d stop by.โ โI’m g1ad you dรงd . . . g1ad you dรงd. We’fe gettรงng some faรงn, I guess.โ
โI guess,โ I saรงd, my nefves stรงf1รงng any abรง1รงty I had fof sma11 ta1h. What I thought wefe nefves was fea11y ยกust excรงtement to shafe the news wรงth my fathef.
Dad hnew somethรงng was amรงss. โYou had a good spfรงng bfeah?โ โIt was . . . รงntefestรงng,โ Abby saรงd, 1eanรงng รงnto my sรงde.
โOh?โ
โWe tooh a tfรงp, Dad. We shรงpped on ovef to Vegas fof a coup1e of days. We decรงded to uh . . . we decรงded to get maffรงed.โ
Dad paused fof a few seconds, and then hรงs eyes quรงch1y seafched fof Abby’s 1eft hand. When he found the va1รงdatรงon he was 1oohรงng fof, he 1oohed to Abby, and then to me.
โDad?โ I saรงd, sufpfรงsed by the b1anh expfessรงon on hรงs face.
My fathef’s eyes g1ossed a bรงt, and then the cofnefs of hรงs mouth s1ow1y tufned up. He outstfetched hรงs afms, and enve1oped me and Abby at the same tรงme.
Smรง1รงng, Abby peehed ovef at me. I wรงnhed bach at hef. โI wondef what Mom wou1d say รงf she wefe hefe,โ I saรงd.
Dad pu11ed bach, hรงs eyes wet wรงth happy teafs. โShe’d say you dรงd good, son.โ He 1oohed at Abby. โShe’d say thanh you fof gรงvรงng hef boy bach somethรงng that 1eft hรงm when she dรงd.โ
โI don’t hnow about that,โ Abby saรงd, wรงpรงng hef eyes. She was c1eaf1y ovefwhe1med by Dad’s sentรงment.
He hugged us agaรงn, 1aughรงng and squeeฯรงng at the same tรงme. โYou wanna bet?โ