โThis isnโt how we wanted it to happen,โ Castle says to me, โbut these things never usually go according to plan.โ Adam and Kenji and I are being fitted for battle. Weโre camped out in one of the larger training rooms with 5 others Iโve never met before. Theyโre in charge of weapons and armor. Itโs incredible how every single person at Omega Point has a job. Everyone contributes.
Everyone has a task.
They all work together.
โNow, we still donโt know yetย exactlyย why or how you can do what you do, Ms. Ferrars, but Iโm hoping that when the time comes, your Energy will present itself. These kinds of high-stress situations are perfect for provoking our abilitiesโin fact, seventy-eight percent of Point members reported initial discovery of their ability while in critical, high-risk circumstances.โ
Yup, I donโt say to him. That sounds about right.
Castle takes something from one of the women in the roomโAlia, I think is her name. โAnd you shouldnโt worry about a thing,โ he says. โWeโll be right there in case something should happen.โ
I donโt point out that I never once said I was worried. Not out loud, anyway.
โThese are your new gloves,โ Castle says, handing them to me. โTry them on.โ
These new gloves are shorter, softer: they stop precisely at my wrist and fasten with a snap-button. They feel thicker, a little heavier, but they fit my fingers perfectly. I curl my hand into a fist. Smile a little. โThese are incredible,โ I tell him. โDidnโt you say Winston designed them?โ
Castleโs face falls. โYes,โ he says quietly. โHe finished them just yesterday.โ
Winston.
His was the very first face I saw when I woke up at Omega Point. His crooked nose, his plastic glasses, his sandy-blond hair and his background in psychology. His need for disgusting coffee.
I remember the broken glasses we found in the knapsack. I have no idea whatโs happened to him.
Alia returns with a leather contraption in her hands. It looks like a harness. She asks me to lift my arms and helps me slip into the piece, and I recognize
it as a holster. There are thick leather shoulder straps that intersect in the center of my back, and 50 different straps of very thin black leather overlapping around the highest part of my waistโjust underneath my chestโ like some kind of incomplete bustier. Itโs like a bra with no cups. Alia has to buckle everything together for me and I still donโt really understand what Iโm wearing. Iโm waiting for some kind of explanation.
Then I see the guns.
โThere was nothing in the note about arriving unarmed,โ Castle says as Alia passes him two automatic handguns in a shape and size Iโve come to recognize. I practiced shooting with these just yesterday.
I was terrible at it.
โAnd I see no reason for you to be without a weapon,โ Castle is saying. He shows me where the holsters are on either side of my rib cage. Teaches me how the guns fit, how to snap the holder into place, where the extra cartridges go.
I donโt bother to mention that I have no idea how to reload a weapon. Kenji and I never got to that part in our lesson. He was too busy trying to remind me not to use a gun to gesticulate while asking questions.
โIโm hoping the firearms will be a last resort,โ Castle says to me. โYou have enough weapons in your personal arsenalโyou shouldnโt need to shoot anyone. And, just in case you find yourself using your gift to destroy something, I suggest you wear these.โ He holds up a set of what look like elaborate variations on brass knuckles. โAlia designed these for you.โ
I look from her to Castle to the foreign objects in his hand. Heโs beaming. I thank Alia for taking the time to create something for me and she stammers out an incoherent response, blushing like she canโt believe Iโm talking to her.
Iโm baffled.
I take the pieces from Castle and inspect them. The underside is made up of 4 concentric circles welded together, big enough in diameter to fit like a set of rings, snug over my gloves. I slip my fingers through the holes and turn my hand over to inspect the upper part. Itโs like a mini shield, a million pieces of gunmetal that cover my knuckles, my fingers, the entire back of my hand. I can curl my fist and the metal moves with the motion of my joints. Itโs not nearly as heavy as it looks.
I slip the other piece on. Curl my fingers. Reach for the guns now strapped to my body.
Easy.
I can do this.
โDo you like it?โ Castle asks. Iโve never seen him smile so wide before.
โI love it,โ I tell him. โEverything is perfect. Thank you.โ
โVery good. Iโm so pleased. Now,โ he says, โif youโll excuse me, I must attend to a few other details before we leave. I will return shortly.โ He offers me a curt nod before heading out the door. Everyone but me, Kenji, and Adam leaves the room.
I turn to see how the guys are doing. Kenji is wearing a suit.
Some kind of bodysuit. Heโs black from head to toe, his jet-black hair and eyes a perfect match for the outfit molded to every contour of his body. The suit seems to have a synthetic feel to it, almost like plastic; it gleams in the fluorescent lighting of the room and looks like itโd be too stiff to move around in. But then I see him stretching his arms and rolling back and forth on the balls of his feet and the suit suddenly looks fluid, like it moves with him. Heโs wearing boots but no gloves, and a harness, just like me. But his is different: it has simple holsters that sling over his arms like the straps of a backpack.
And Adam.
Adam isย gorgeousย wearing a long-sleeved T-shirt, dark blue and dangerously tight across his chest. I canโt help but linger over the details of his outfit, canโt help but remember what it was like to be held against him, in his arms.ย Heโs standing right in front of me and I miss him like I havenโt seenย him in years.ย His black cargo pants are tucked into the same pair of black boots he was wearing when I first met him in the asylum, shin-high and sleek, created from smooth leather that fits him so perfectly itโs a surprise they werenโt made for his body. But there are no weapons on his person.
And Iโm curious enough to ask. โAdam?โ
He lifts his head to look up and freezes. Blinks, eyebrows up, lips parted.
His eyes travel down every inch of my body, pausing to study the harness framing my chest, the guns slung close to my waist.
He says nothing. He runs a hand through his hair, presses the heel of his palm to his forehead and says something about being right back. He leaves the room.
I feel sick.
Kenji clears his throat, loud. Shakes his head. Says, โWow. I mean, really, are you trying to kill the guy?โ
โWhat?โ
Kenji is looking at me like Iโm an idiot. โYou canโt just go around all โOh, Adam, look at me, look at how s*xy I am in my new outfitโ and bat your eyelashesโโ
โBat my eyelashes?โย I balk at him. โWhat are you talking about? Iโm not
battingย my eyelashes at him! And this is the same outfit Iโve worn every day
โโ
Kenji grunts. Shrugs and says, โYeah, well, it looks different.โ โYouโre crazy.โ
โI am justย saying,โ he says, hands up in mock surrender, โthat if I were him? And you were my girl? And you were walking around looking like that, and I couldnโt touch you?โ He looks away. Shrugs again. โI am just saying I do not envy the poor bastard.โ
โI donโt know what to do,โ I whisper. โIโm not trying to hurt himโโ
โOh hell. Forget I said anything,โ he says, waving his hands around. โSeriously. It isย noneย of my business.โ He shoots me a look. โAnd doย notย consider this an invitation for you to start telling me all of your secret feelings now.โ
I narrow my eyes at him. โIโm not going to tell you anything about my feelings.โ
โGood. Because I donโt want to know.โ โHave you ever had a girlfriend, Kenji?โ
โWhat?โ He looks mortally offended. โDo Iย lookย like the kind of guy whoโs never had a girlfriend? Have you evenย metย me?โ
I roll my eyes. โForget I asked.โ
โI canโt even believe you just said that.โ
โYouโre the one whoโs always going on about not wanting to talk about your feelings,โ I snap.
โNo,โ he says. โI said I donโt want to talk aboutย yourย feelings.โ He points at me. โI have zero problem talking about my own.โ
โSo do you want to talk about your feelings?โ โHell no.โ
โBuโโ
โNo.โ
โFine.โ I look away. Pull at the straps tugging at my back. โSo whatโs up with your suit?โ I ask him.
โWhat do you mean,ย whatโs up with it?โ He frowns. He runs his hands down his outfit. โThis suit is badass.โ
I bite back a smile. โI just meant, why are you wearing a suit? Why do you get one and Adam doesnโt?โ
He shrugs. โAdam doesnโt need one. Few people doโit all depends on
what kind of gift we have. For me, this suit makes my life a hell of a lot easier. I donโt always use it, but when I need to get serious about a mission, it really helps. Like, when I need to blend into a background,โ he explains, โitโs less complicated if Iโm shifting one solid colorโhence, the black. And if I have too many layers and too many extra pieces floating around my body, I have to focus that much more on making sure I blend all the details. If Iโm one solid piece and one solid color, Iโm a much better chameleon. Besides,โ he adds, stretching out the muscles in his arms, โI look s*xy as hell in this outfit.โ
It takes all the self-control I have not to burst into laughter.
โSo, but what about Adam?โ I ask him. โAdam doesnโt need a suitย orย guns?
That doesnโt seem right.โ
โI do have guns,โ Adam says as he walks back into the room. His eyes are focused on the fists heโs clenching and unclenching in front of him. โYou just canโt see them.โ
I canโt stop looking at him, canโt stop staring.
โInvisible guns, huh?โ Kenji smirks. โThatโs cute. I donโt think I ever went through that phase.โ
Adam glares at Kenji. โI have nine different weapons concealed on my body right now. Would you like to choose the one I use to shoot you in the face? Or should I?โ
โIt was aย joke, Kent. Damn. I wasย jokingโโ โAll right, everyone.โ
We all spin around at the sound of Castleโs voice. He examines the 3 of us. โAre you ready?โ
I say, โYes.โ Adam nods.
Kenji says, โLetโs do this shit.โ Castle says, โFollow me.โ