The doorbell rang less than a minute after I finished my
online bar review lesson.
The exam was in less than a month, which meant I lived and breathed prep until it was over. No going out, no coffee catchups with my friends, no big dates with Josh. When weย didย see each other, Josh and I kept it low key; sometimes, our hangouts consisted of me studying while he made coffee and ordered takeout.
But when I answered the door and saw him standing in the hall, his face a mask of granite, all thoughts of the bar vanished.
โI visited Michael.โ His hollow voice told me all I needed to know about how the visit went.
Shit.
โHow are you feeling?โ I didnโt ask for details about the visit; they werenโt important. Whatย wasย important was how Josh was handling the aftermath.
I opened the door wider so he could enter. Stella was at work, and I had the place to myself for the next few hours.
โLike how youโd expect.โ Josh shot me a lopsided smile, but his muscles were visibly tense. His eyes fell on my open laptop and textbooks. โSorry, I didnโt mean to barge into your study time. I know youโre busyโฆโ
โDonโt worry about it. I was due for a study break anyway.โ Iโd been studying for six hours straight, and my eyes were blurry from staring at the screen so long.
I welcomed the distraction, though I wish it were a happier one.
I sank onto the couch next to Josh. โDo you want to talk about it?โ I asked. โUsually, I charge for my therapeutic services, but youโre hot, so Iโll give you a complimentary fifteen-minute session.โ
โIย amย hot.โ He nodded. โI like you. Weโre off to a good
start.โ
โWell, I have a lot of experience with delusional narcissists. I live in D.C., after all.โ
Joshโs rough laugh wrapped around my heart. โThatโs a valid point.โ
My smile lingered for another moment before I sobered. โSeriously, how are you?โ
He leaned his head against the backrest. โSad. Pissed. Resigned to the fact my father and I will never reconcile. Andโฆโ His throat flexed with a hard swallow. โRelieved that I can finally put it all behind me. I read his letters. It was just bullshit emotional manipulation. Michael will never change, and seeing him and cutting ties was fucking painful. But I got what I needed.โ
โClosure,โ I said softly.
โYeah.โ He turned to face me, his eyes dark with self- deprecation. โI realize how stupid it was to put off confronting him for so long. I put my life on hold for two years when I couldโve just gotten it over with and moved on.โ
โItโs not stupid.โ I curled my hand around his and squeezed. โYou werenโt ready. Itโs not just about the confrontation. Itโs about giving yourself time to prepare. Figure out what you want.โ
โYeah.โ He knocked his knee against mine. โYouโre not as shitty a therapist as I thought youโd be.โ
I placed a hand over my chest in mock outrage. โI give you a free session, and thatโs how you repay me? By insulting me?โ
โYou love it when I insult you.โ
โNewsflash, genius.ย No oneย likes getting insulted.โ โYou want to test that theory?โ Joshโs voice lowered.
Just like that, the air shifted. Heavy emotion gave way to a crackling electricity that buzzed over my skin and surged through my blood. Itโd been way too long since Iโd had sex, and every look, every word, kindled another spark of arousal.
But it wasnโt just about sex. Sometimes, the only way to purge the emotional was through the physical. Catharsis in its rawest form.
If this was what Josh needed after his visit with Michael, I would give it to him.
โWhat did you have in mind?โ Josh had been there for me when I needed a distraction from Max. It was time for me to return the favorโฆnot that that was a hardship in any way.
A shadow of tension remained in his eyes, but his smile was all silk and wickedness. โTake off your clothes, Red.โ
An insistent beat pulsed between my legs at his soft command.
I stood and kept my gaze on his as I slowly slid the top button of my shirt out of its hole. Banked heat incinerated the shadows in his eyes and engulfed me in its flames.
โWhat kind of man makes the woman do all the work?โ I unbuttoned the second button. โI didnโt realize you were such a slacker, Chen.โย Third button.ย โOr is it performance anxiety thatโs holding you back?โ
I cast a pointed glance at his groin, but my mouth dried at the size of his arousal.
Iโd forgotten how big he was. How rough he liked it.
Fourth button.
Nervous anticipation rolled through me like a rising tide.
โItโs interesting how you keep insulting me like I wonโt take every word out on you later,โ Josh said calmly when I shrugged out of my shirt and let it flutter to the ground. โOr maybe youย wantย me to take it on you later?โ
Fire blazed on my cheeks.
I shimmied out of my pants, my fingers shaking.
โThatโs what I thought.โ His smile turned knowing. โUnderwear, too. Take it off, then walk to your room.โ
The air conditioning was on full blast, but the heat of his stare on my naked body warmed me from head to toe.
He walked behind me, his steps near silent, like a predator stalking willing prey.
My anticipation crescendoed when we reached my room, but it devolved into confusion when Josh opened my closet and flicked through the hangers until he pulled something off one of them.
โWhatโฆโ I trailed off at the sight of the silk scarves in his hands.
My stomach tumbled over itself.ย Oh God.
He wrapped the scarves around his fist so they didnโt trail on the ground. โGet on the bed, Jules.โ
Normally, I would put up more of a fight, but I was too wet and aching to do anything except what he said.
The mattress dipped beneath my weight. Josh joined me less than two seconds later, and I sucked in a sharp breath when he pushed me face down on the bed and tied my hands to the headboard posts.
โWhat are you doing?โ I could barely hear myself over the roar in my ears. My nipples were so hard it was almost painful, and my juices slicked my thighs at the gallery of X- rated images playing in my head.
โSince you think Iโm so lazyโฆโ He moved down my body, and I let out a small yelp when he yanked my legs apart
and tied my ankles to the remaining posts. โI might as well prove you right.โ
Josh stepped off the bed to admire his handiwork. I was tied spread eagle on the bed, and a hot flush stole over my face when I realized he had an unimpeded view of how turned on I wasโmy clit swollen and throbbing, my thighs wet with my arousal.
But when he turned and opened my nightstand drawer, dread trickled into my veins.
He wouldnโt.
โJosh, donโt you fucking dare.โ
โDare what?โ His voice was all innocence, but a dark gleam entered his eyes when he found what he was looking for.
A bead of sweat formed on my forehead at the sight of lube and one of my favorite toysโa double-ended vibrator with clitoral suction. It was expensive as hell, and for good reason. It could bring me to a mind-blowing orgasm in less than thirty seconds.
It could also keep me on edge for hours, depending on the speed and intensity.
โThis isnโt funny.โ I tugged at my ties, but heโd knotted them so expertly they didnโt budge.
โIf you want me to untie you, just say so.โ Josh leaned his hip against the dresser, infuriatingly casual. โIโll do it and leave you in peace. Is that what you want?โ
I set my jaw but remained silent.
โThatโs what I thought.โ He approached me again and dragged the tip of the vibrator over my clit, just light enough to send a bolt of sensation rocketing through my body but not enough to provide the friction I desperately needed.
My hands curled into fists. I wouldnโt give him the satisfaction of responding.
His soft laugh drifted over my body and spiked my already raw nerve endings. โYou can fight it all you want,
but your pussy gives you away every time. Youโre fuckingย dripping, Red.โ He slid a finger inside me, and my nails carved grooves in my palms from the effort it took to hold back a moan.
โSo stubborn.โ He tsked. โLetโs see what we can do about that.โ
He removed his hand. A second later, the cool silkiness of the lube dripped onto me, making me jerk.
I wasnโt an anal sex virgin, but itโd been a while since Iโd gone there, so I was grateful when Josh used more gel than usual to prep me.
โYou look so beautiful, tied up and waiting for my cock.โ His breath skated over my neck before he followed it with his tongue. He kissed and teased the sensitive spot on my nape while he pushed the vibrator inside me with agonizing slowness. โBut weโre going to have some fun first. Since Iโm soย lazyย and all.โ
โJoshโฆโ My whimper hitched into a gasp when he shoved the last inch of the toy into me, filling me to the point of discomfort on both ends. โJust fuck me, dammit.โ
โI would, but Iโm a slacker, remember? Better to let something else do the work.โ
The vibrator switched on. and finally wrenched a strangled cry out of me. My earlier discomfort gradually faded, replaced by intense, searing pleasure.
Oh God.
I couldnโt think. Couldnโt breathe. All I could focus on were the sensations zinging through my body as the vibrations ricocheted through me. I ground against the bed, desperate for relief, but Josh had tied me in a way that rendered me near immobile.
All I could do was lay there, a slave to his whims while he played me like the worldโs most exquisitely torturous song.
Fast. Slow. Fast. Slow. Bringing me to the edge again and again until I was a puddle of pure, unrelenting need.
โYouโre right.โ Lust strained his voice, and I wouldโve taken greater pleasure in the fact this was as torturous for him as it was for me had I not been near the edge of insanity. โSometimes, it pays to just sit back and watch.โ
He sat in the corner and palmed his cock, his eyes like burning flames against my naked flesh while I squirmed against my ties.
โPlease,โ I sobbed. โI canโtโฆJoshโฆI need you inside me.
Please.โ
I couldnโt take it anymore. If I didnโt come soon, I would die. I was sure of it.
The vibrator stopped, and I tensed with anticipation when he rose and walked toward me. The mattress dipped beneath his weight as he straddled me, but instead of pulling the toy out and entering me, Josh set the remote down and palmed my breasts with both hands.
โI donโt think youโve learned your lesson yet, Red.โ His velvet voice contrasted with the roughness with which he pinched my nipples.
I sucked in a sharp breath when he pushed my breasts together and slid his cock in between them. Pre-cum dripped onto my skin, allowing him to thrust more easily.
Iโd never let a guy do this before, butโฆGod.
The hardness of his arousal against the softness of my breasts stoked the flames in my body so high I thought I might combust.
My breaths came out in soft pants when Josh picked up the pace, fucking my tits faster until the head of his cock grazed my chin with each upward thrust.
โFuck, your tits are perfect,โ he groaned. He gave another few pumps before thick ropes of cum painted my face and chest.
I barely had a chance to catch my breath before he wiped some of the cum off my chin with his cock and pushed it inside my mouth. I swallowed eagerly, too
mindless with lust to do anything except what he wanted me to do.
Heโd just buried himself all the way down my throat when the vibrator buzzed to life again.
My body instinctively jerked. I strained against my ties, my earlier desperation returning in full force as pleasure pulsed through me.
I was going to die like thisโtied up, covered in cum, and craving orgasm. My brain was already short-circuiting, and if the explosion building inside me didnโt find a release soon, it would incinerate me from the inside out.
โYou said you wanted me inside you.โ Josh pulled out and wiped more cum off my face before shoving his cock back in my mouth. โYou shouldโve been more specific, sweetheart.โ
I let out a mu๏ฌed protest before he cleaned me up, again and again, until Iโd swallowed all his cum and he was fully hard again.
โYou like this, donโt you?โ he growled. He stared down at me, his face taut with desire as he pumped in and out of my throat. โGetting face fucked and filled in every hole like a good little slut.โ
โMmmphf.โ My answering moan was drowned out by the buzz of the toy and the roar in my ears.
I was on fireโevery nerve ending aflame, every second an eternity of exquisite torture.
It was heaven, hell, and everything in between.
Josh let out another groan before he pulled out of me again. He slowly slid the toy out of me, and I whimpered at the resulting emptiness. After being so full for so long, it seemed wrong not to have something inside me.
The silk scarves went next, one by one, until I was finally free.
โSuch a good girl.โ Josh rubbed a tear of frustration from my cheek. โYou swallowed every drop of cum. That
deserves a reward, donโt you think?โ He pushed his thumb into my mouth, letting me taste the saltiness of my need.
โPleaseโโ A gasp cut off my words when he entered me and buried himself to the hilt in one smooth thrust.
โFuck.โ He cursed, his voice turning guttural as he thrust in and out of me. โYou take my cock so well, Red. Like your pussy was made for me.โ
Despite his filthy words, his touch was gentle as he kissed me and settled into a slow, leisurely rhythm. Unlike the previous times we had sex, this didnโt feel like fucking; it felt like something sweeter, more intimate.
It felt like making love.
The ball of tingles at the base of my spine climbed higher at the thought.
I closed my eyes, my breaths coming out in staccato bursts. It was too much. Joshโs kiss, the way he stretched me out, the sensitivity from the edging sessionโฆ
My orgasm slammed into me, both unexpected and inevitable. I bowed off the bed with a sharp cry, and I didnโt get a chance to recover before Josh picked up the pace and pounded into me hard enough for a second orgasm to roll right into the first one.
โThatโs it. Scream for me, Red. Let it all out.โ Josh reached between us and pressed his thumb against my needy, swollen clit. โYou come so beautifully around my cock.โ
I did, again and again until I was limp with exhaustion and couldnโt scream anymore.
It was only when I collapsed against the bed, my body sore from multiple blinding, toe-curling orgasms, that he slowed his pace again and came with a heavy groan.
โGood girl.โ He smoothed my hair back from my forehead and gave me a lingering kiss. โYou did so well.โ
It was embarrassing how much pride glowed in my chest at his words.
He rolled to the side of me and curled an arm around my shoulders, drawing me close. Goosebumps of pleasure dotted my skin when he brushed the back of his hand down my arm in a lazy pattern.
โYou know, youโre the first guy Iโve been with in my room.โ Drowsy content pulled the admission out of me as I snuggled deeper into his side.
Iโd never truly cuddled after sex. I thought I would despise it, but clearly, Iโd been missing out.
Joshโs hand stilled before he resumed caressing my arm. โFirstย and last,ย Red.โ
I laughed at his soft growl. โPossessive much?โ
โDamn right I am.โ He moved his hand up to cup my neck. The firm, territorial touch sent another thrill down my spine. โI donโt like sharing.โ
โSharing is a virtue, Josh.โ
โI donโt give a flying fuck. I donโt share. Not when it comes to you.โ
My breath hitched. Golden warmth spread through my chest and lit me up from the inside out.
I didnโt know how to respond, so I kissed his shoulder and basked in the moment instead.
I should get out of bed. Stella was coming home soon, and my clothes were still scattered in the living room, but I couldnโt tear myself away just yet.
One more minute. Then Iโll get up.
I buried my face in Joshโs chest, soaking in his warmth and scent. Between Michael and Max, our lives were storms of chaos, but at least we could find temporary peace in moments like this.
โThank you,โ he said quietly, breaking the silence. โFor being here. I needed this.โ
โAnytime.โ I lifted my head, my chest pinching at the touch of vulnerability in his eyes. โBut if you pull another edging stunt, Iโll chop your dick off.โ
Joshโs face broke out into a dazzling grin. โIโd believe you more if you hadnโt come so hard around it multiple times, Red.โ
I turned my nose up, my cheeks heating. โI was faking it.โ
โHmmm.โ He leaned down and nuzzled my neck. โI can tell when something is real or fake. Your orgasms were real.โ He grazed his nose over the line of my jaw before capturing my mouth in a soft kiss. โAnd so is this.โ
The ache spread from my chest to behind my eyes and nose.
I didnโt trust myself to speak, so I turned my head away until I gathered my emotions.
I didnโt make a habit of trusting many people. I could count the number of people Iย trulyย trusted on one hand, and I never thought Josh would be one of them. But life had a way of blindsiding us, and for once, I didnโt mind.
Josh and I stayed entwined in comfortable silence until the clock ticked toward the half hour and he reluctantly pulled away.
โIโm gonna hop in the shower,โ he said. โStellaโs coming home soon, right?โ
โYeah.โ I sighed. I loved Stella, but in that moment, I wished I lived alone.
Josh gave me one last kiss before he climbed out of the bed and slipped out of the room. A minute later, the faint sound of the shower running filtered through the door.
His scent lingered even in his absence, and I wished I could bottle it up so I could carry it around with me all day.
If past me saw present me, she wouldโve slapped me for being so sappy. But it feltย goodย to trust someone enough to rely on them, and to have them trustย youย enough to turn to you when they were having a bad day.
I stared at the ceiling, unable to suppress a goofy smile.
I mightโve lain there all afternoon, or at least until Josh got out of the shower, had an incoming call not interrupted
my cheesy inner ramblings. โHello, Jules.โ
It was amazing how quickly two simple words could turn the mood.
A lead spike punctured the balloon of giddiness in my chest, and cold sweat slicked my palms at the sound of Maxโs voice.
โWhat do you want?โ The shower was still running, but I snuck a peek at the half-open bedroom door anyway in case Josh magically popped up again.
โItโs funny you should ask,โ Max said. โIโveย justย decided on the favor I need from you. Isnโt that wonderful? Youโve been soโฆeager to find out what it is.โ
Dread formed a lead weight in my stomach. โSpit it out, Max,โ I growled. โI donโt have time for your games.โ
He sighed. โWhereโs the patience, J? But fine, since you want to know so bad, Iโll tell you. I need you to retrieve something for me. I have someโฆfriends in Ohio who areย veryย interested in this item.โ
Retrieve, AKA steal.
The lead weights multiplied. โAnd what is this
something?โ
โIโll text you the picture and address.โ I could practically see Maxโs smug smile. โIt took me a while to track it down. Youโre welcome, by the way, for doing the hard work. Allย youย have to do is what you do best. Lie and steal.โ
Max hung up before I could reply.
That goddamnย asshole.ย If I ever had the chance, I would chop off his dick and feed it to him.
Unfortunately, I couldnโt do a damn thing as long as he had that video of me, so I stared at my phone and waited for his text to pop up.
Once it did, I had to blink twice to make sure I was seeing correctly.
It canโt be.ย But no matter how much I stared, the image remained the same.
My blood iced over.
It was a picture of a painting. Brown and green splashed across the canvas in a way that was reminiscent of vomit, and tiny yellow spots added nonsensical detail on the edges.
The art was hideous, but that didnโt bother me as much as where Iโd seen it before.
The item Max wanted me to steal was the painting in Joshโs room.
