Someone once said hell was other people.
They were right.
Specifically, hell wasย watchingย other people swan around an ice rink, drinking hot chocolate and making googly eyes at each other like they were in the middle of a goddamn Hallmark movie.
It wasnโt even Christmas season, for fuckโs sake. It was worse.
It was Valentineโs Day.
A muscle flexed in my jaw as Bridgetโs laughter floated over, joined by Steffanโs deeper laugh, and the urge to murder someoneโsomeone male with blond hair and a name that began with Sโintensified.
What was so fucking hilarious, anyway?
I couldnโt imagine anything being that funny, least of all something Steffan the Saint said.
Bridget and Steffan shouldnโt evenย beย on a date right now. It was only four days after her birthday ball. Who the hell went on a date with someone they met four days ago? There should be background checks. Red tape. Twenty- four-seven surveillance to make sure Steffan wasnโt secretly a psycho killer or adulterer.
Princesses shouldnโt go on a date until there was at least a yearโs worth of data to comb through, in my opinion.
Five years, to be on the safe side.
Unfortunately, my opinion meant jack shit to the royal family, which was how I found myself at Athenbergโs biggest ice-skating rink, watching Bridget smile up at Steffan like heโd cured world hunger.
He said something that made her laugh again, and his grin widened. He brushed a stray strand of hair out of her face, and my hand twitched toward my gun. Maybe I wouldโve pulled it, had reporters not packed the rink, snapping pictures of Bridget and Steffan, recording on their cameras, and live-tweeting the date like it was an Olympic event.
โThey make such a cute couple,โ the reporter next to me, a curvy brunette in a bright pink suit that hurt my eyes, cooed. โDonโt you think so?โ
โNo.โ
She blinked, clearly surprised by my curt response. โWhy not? Do you have something against his lordship?โ
I could practically see her salivating at the prospect of a juicy story.
โIโm staff,โ I said. โI have no opinions about my employerโs personal life.โ
โEveryone has opinions.โ The reporter smiled, reminding me of a shark circling in the water. โIโm Jas.โ She held out her hand. I didnโt take it, but that didnโt deter her. โIf you think of an opinionโฆor anything elseโฆโ A suggestive note crept into her voice. โGive me a call.โ
She pulled a business card out of her purse and tucked it into my hand. I almost let it fall to the floor, but I wasnโtย thatย much of an asshole, so I merely pocketed it without looking at it.
Jasโs cameraman said something to her in German, and she turned away to answer him.
Good. I couldnโt stand nosy people or small talk.
Besides, I was busyโbusy trying not to kill Steffan.
Iโd run a background check on him before todayโs date, and on paper, he was fucking perfect. The son of the Duke of Holstein, one of the most powerful men in Eldorra, he was an accomplished equestrian who spoke six languages fluently and graduated top of his class from Harvard and Oxford, where he studied political science and economics. He had a well-established record of philanthropy and his last relationship with an Eldorran heiress ended on amicable terms after two years. Based on my interactions with him so far, he seemed friendly and genuine.
I hated him.
Not because he grew up in a life of privilege, but because he could freely touch Bridget in public. He could take her ice skating, make her laugh, and brush her hair out of her eye, and no one would blink an eye.
Meanwhile, all I could do was stand there and watch, because women like Bridget werenโt meant for men like me.
โYouโll never amount to anything, you little piece of
shit,โ Mama slurred, her eyes mean and hateful as she glared at me. โLook atcha. Useless and scrawny. I shouldโve gotten rid of you when I had the chance.โ
I stayed quiet. The last time I talked back, she beat me so hard with her belt Iโd bled through my shirt and couldnโt sleep on my back for weeks. Iโd learned the best way to handle her bad moods was to hope she eventually forgot I was there. That usually happened after she was halfway through whatever bottle she was drinking.
โIf it wasnโt for you, Iโd be out of this stinkinโ town by now.โ
Resentment poured off her in waves. Mama stood by the table, wearing her faded pink robe and chain-smoking a cigarette. Her cheeks were pale and sunken, and even though she was only in her late twenties, she could pass for her forties.
I tucked my hands beneath my arms and tried to shrink into myself while she continued to rant. It was Friday night. I hated Friday nights because it meant I had an entire weekend of just Mama and me.
โWaste of spaceโฆnothing like your fatherโฆare you listening to me, you piece of shit?โ
I stared at the cracks in the floor until they blurred together. One day, I would get out of here. Somehow, some way.
โI said, are you listening to me?โ Mama grabbed my shoulders and shook me so hard my teeth rattled. โLook at me when Iโm talking to you, boy!โ She backhanded me so hard I stumbled, the pain making my ears ring.
My body twisted, and I saw it coming, but I didnโt have time to brace myself before the corner of the dining table smashed into my head and everything went black.
I blinked, and the smell of old spaghetti sauce and vodka faded, replaced by that of fresh ice and Jasโs overpowering perfume.
Bridget and Steffan skated over, and the cameras went crazy.
Click. Click. Click.
โโฆfor a while,โ Steffan said. โBut I would love to take you out again when I return.โ
โAre you going somewhere?โ I asked.
It was inappropriate for me to butt into their conversation, but I didnโt give a fuck.
Steffan cast a startled glance in my direction. โYes. My mother fell and broke her hip yesterday. Sheโs fine, but sheโs recovering at our house in Preoria. Sheโs quite lonely with my father here in session for Parliament, so Iโll be staying with her until she feels better.โ
He answered with full graciousness, which only annoyed me more. The harder he was to hate, the more I hated him.
โHow sad,โ I said.
Steffan paused, clearly unsure how to read my tone.
โHopefully, she recovers soon.โ Bridget shot me a look of mild rebuke. โNow, about that hot chocolateโฆโ
She guided him toward the hot chocolate stand at the other end of the rink while I fumed.
Taking a permanent position as Bridgetโs bodyguard meant Iโd have to deal with seeing her date other people. I knew that, and that would be my cross to bear.
I just hadnโt expected it to happen so soon.
Sheโd dated in New York, but that had been different. She hadnโt liked any of those guys, and she hadnโt planned onย marryingย one of them.
Acid gnawed at my gut.
Thankfully, the date ended soon after, and I whisked her into the car before Steffan could pull any first date kiss bullshit.
โInitial recovery for a broken hip takes one to four months,โ I said as we drove back to the palace. โToo bad for his lordship. What shitty timing.โ
Even fate didnโt think it was a good pairing. If it did, it wouldnโt have pulled Steffan away so soon after he met Bridget.
Iโd never believed in fate, but I might have to send her a big, fat thank you card later. I might even toss in some chocolates and flowers.
Bridget didnโt take the bait. โActually, itโs perfect timing,โ she said. โIโll be away from Athenberg for a few weeks as well.โ
I eyed her in the rearview mirror. That was fucking news to me.
โItโs not confirmed yet, so donโt give me that look,โ she said. โIโve proposed going on a goodwill tour around the country. Meet with locals and small businesses, find out whatโs on their minds and what issues theyโre facing. Iโve gotten a lot of criticism for not being in touch with whatโs happening in Eldorra, and, well, theyโre right.โ
โThatโs a great idea.โ I turned onto Kingโs Drive.
โYou think so?โ A note of relief tempered the uncertainty in Bridgetโs voice.
โIโm no expert on politics, but it sounds right to me.โ
Bridget may not want to be queen, but that didnโt mean she wouldnโt make a great one. Most people thought the most important quality in a leader was strength, but it was compassion. Strength meant jack shit when you didnโt use it for the right reasons.
Luckily for her and for Eldorra, she had both in spades. โThe king still has to approve it,โ she said after we
parked and walked to the palace entrance. โBut I donโt anticipate him saying no.โ
โYou mean your grandfather.โ Royals did things differently, but it weirded me out how formal they were with each other sometimes.
Bridget flashed a quick smile as we entered the grand front hall. โIn most cases, yes. But in matters like this, heโs my king.โ
โSpeaking of the kingโฆโ
We both stiffened at the new voice.
โโฆHe wants to see you.โ Andreas swaggered into view, and irritation curled through me. I didnโt know what it was about him that bugged me so much, but Bridget didnโt like him, and that was good enough for me. โHow was the date? Did you get a marriage proposal yet?โ
โYou need to find a new hobby if youโre that invested in my love life,โ Bridget said evenly.
โThank you, but I have plenty of hobbies to keep me occupied. For instance, I just came from a meeting with His Majesty and Lord Erhall on the tax reform legislation.โ Andreas smiled at Bridgetโs surprise, which she quickly covered up. โAs you may know, Iโm interested in taking up politics, and the Speaker was kind enough to let me shadow him for a few weeks. See how it all works.โ
โLike an intern,โ Bridget said.
Andreasโs smile sharpened. โOne whoโs learning quite a lot.โ He slid his glance toward me. โMr. Larsen, good to see you again.โ
Wish I could say the same.ย โYour Highness.โ I loathed
addressing him with the same title as Bridget. He didnโt deserve it.
โHis Majesty is waiting for you in his office,โ Andreas told Bridget. โHe wants to see you. Alone. Now, if youโll excuse me, I have some pressing matters that require my attention. Though none as exciting as a date at an ice- skating rink, Iโm sure.โ
It took all my self-control not to knock all his teeth out.
โSay the word, and I can make it look like an accident,โ I said after Andreas was out of earshot.
Bridget shook her head. โIgnore him. Heโs been a satanic little turd since we were children, and he thrives on the attention.โ
A startled laugh rose in my throat. โTell me the words โsatanic little turdโ didnโt just leave your mouth, princess.โ
She responded with a sly smile. โIโve called him worse in my head.โ
Thatโs my girl.
It was nice to see glimpses of the real Bridget shine through, even when she was weighed down with all the royal bullshit.
While she met with the king, I returned to the guesthouse, though I supposed it was my actual house now that I was working here permanently.
Iโd just entered my room when my phone rang. โYeah.โ โHello to you, too,โ Christian drawled. โPeople have no
phone manners these days. Itโs such a shame.โ
โGet to the point, Harper.โ I placed him on speaker and yanked my shirt over my head. I was about to toss it in the laundry basket when I paused. Looked around.
I couldnโt put my finger on it, but something was off.
โAlways the charmer.โ There was a short pause before Christian said, โMagdaโs gone.โ
I froze. โWhat do you mean, gone?โ
Iโd spent a month guarding Magda at Christianโs request until another hand-selected guard finished his contract with his previous client and took over. It was why I couldnโt return to Eldorra earlier.
โI mean, gone. Rocco woke up this morning, and sheโd disappeared. No tripped alarms, nothing.โ
โYou canโt find her?โ
Christian could find anyone and anything with even the smallest digital footprint. His computer skills were legendary.
His voice chilled. โI can and I will.โ
I suddenly felt sorry for anyone who had a hand in Magdaโs disappearance. But they deserved what was coming to them if they were stupid enough to cross Christian Harper.
โWhat do you need me to do?โ
โNothing. Iโll take care of it. Just thought you should know.โ Christianโs drawl returned. Even when he was furious, as I imagined he must be over getting one-upped, he could act like everything was just dandyโฆbefore he gutted the offending party like a fish. โHow goes it with the princess?โ
โFine.โ
โHeard she went on a date today.โ
A vein pulsed in my forehead. First Andreas, now him. Why did every person insist on bringing that up? โI was there. But thank you for the breaking news.โ
The bastard laughed.
I hung up, cutting him off. It was turning into a habit, but if he had a problem with it, he could tell me to my face.
Then again, Christian had bigger problems on his hands if Magda was missing.
I looked around my room again, trying to pinpoint the source of my earlier nagging feeling. The windows were closed and locked from the inside, all my belongings were where they should be, and nothing was physically amiss.
But my gut was never wrong, and something told me someone had been in here recentlyโฆsomeone who shouldnโt be.