โMight I say, you look absolutely beautiful tonight, Your
Highness,โ Edwin, the Count of Falser, said as he guided me across the dance floor.
โThank you. You look quite handsome yourself.โ Edwinโs sandy hair and athletic build were appealing, but I couldnโt muster much enthusiasm beyond my perfunctory compliment.
After weeks of frenzied planning, the night of my grand ball had finally arrived, and I felt utterly underwhelmed. My dance partners had been dull, and I hadnโt had a moment to breathe since I stepped through the door. It was one dance after another, followed by endless small talk. Iโd managed to snag only two strawberries from the dessert table, and my heels felt like torture devices strapped to my feet.
Edwin puffed out his chest. โI do put a lot of effort into my appearance,โ he said, attempting humility. โAthenbergโs top tailor customized my tuxedo, and Eirikโrecently named by Vogue as Europeโs top hairstylistโcomes to my house every two weeks for maintenance. I also built a new gym. Maybe youโll see it one day.โ He shot me a cocky grin. โI donโt want to brag, but I believe it rivals anything you have in the palace. Top-of-the-line cardio machines, DISKUS dumbbell sets made from Grade 303 non-reactive stainless steelโฆโ
My eyes glazed over. Dear God, Iโd rather listen to my last dance partner ramble about Athenbergโs traffic patterns during rush hour.
Fortunately, my dance with Edwin ended before he could elaborate further on his gym equipment, and I soon found myself in the arms of my next suitor.
โSo.โ I forced a cheerful smile at Alfred, the son of the Earl of Tremark. He was a few inches shorter than me, and I couldnโt help but notice his balding spot. I tried not to let it bother me. I didnโt want to be shallow, but it wouldโve been easier to overlook his appearance if heโd given me something to work with. He hadnโt met my gaze once since we began dancing. โI hear youโre quite the, um, bird connoisseur.โ
Alfred had built an aviary on his estate, and according to Mikaela, one of his birds had famously pooped on Lord Ashworthโs head during the Earlโs annual spring ball.
Alfred mumbled a reply.
โIโm sorry, I didnโt catch that,โ I said politely.
Another mumble, accompanied by a crimson flush that spread all the way to his bald spot.
I did us both a favor and stopped talking. I wondered whoโd forced him to attend tonight and who was having a worse timeโhim or me.
I stifled a yawn and looked around the ballroom, searching for something interesting to hold my attention. My grandfather held court with a few ministers in the corner. Mikaela hovered near the dessert table, flirting with a guest I didnโt recognize, and Andreas snaked through the crowd, looking like, well, a snake.
I wished my friends were here. Iโd video chatted with Ava, Jules, and Stella earlier that day, and I missed them so much it hurt. I would much rather spend my birthday
eating ice cream and watching cheesy rom coms than dancing my feet off with people I didnโt even like.
I need a break.ย Just a small one. Just so I could breathe. โApologies,โ I said so abruptly a surprised Alfred
stumbled and nearly knocked the tray out of a passing serverโs hand. โIโmโฆnot feeling well. Would you mind if I cut our dance short? Iโm terribly sorry.โ
โOh, not at all, Your Highness,โ he said, his words finally audible and filled with relief. โI hope you feel better soon.โ
โThank you.โ I snuck a peek at Elin. She had her back turned as she chatted with the society columnist covering the party, and I slipped out of the ballroom before she saw me.
I hurried down the hall until I reached the restroom tucked into a quiet alcove, half-shielded by a giant bronze bust of King Frederick I.
I locked the door, sat on the toilet seat, and kicked off my shoes with a sigh of relief. My dress poufed around me in a cloud of pale blue silk and tulle. It was a gorgeous creation, as were my strappy silver heels and the diamond necklace resting against my collarbone, but all I wanted was to change into my pajamas and crawl into bed.
โTwo more hours,โ I said. Or maybe it was three. It couldnโt be more than three. I mustโve already danced with every man in the room, and I was no closer to a husband than Iโd been at the beginning of the night.
I closed my eyes and rested my head in my hands.ย Donโt think about it.
If I started thinkingโabout how the entire nation was watching me and how one of the men in the ballroom was likely my future husbandโI would spiral. And if I started thinking about one particular man, gruff and scarred with eyes that could melt steel and hands that could meltย me, I would end up on a path that could only lead to ruin.
Iโd avoided looking at Rhys all night, but I knew he was there, dressed in a dark suit and earpiece and oozing such
raw masculinity several female guests fluttered around him instead of the princes who were usually hot commodities at such parties.
We hadnโt had any time alone since that day outside the drawing room, but that was probably a good thing. I didnโt trust myself around him.
I stayed in the bathroom for another few minutes before I forced myself to leave. Otherwise, Elin would hunt me down and drag me back like I was an errant child.
I slipped my shoes back on with a small wince, opened the doorโand walked straight into a wall.
A six-foot-five, unsmiling wall.
โDear Lord!โ My hand flew to my chest, where my heart beat triple time. โYou scared me.โ
โSorry.โ Rhys didnโt sound sorry. โWhat are you doing here?โ
โYou left the party. Iโm your bodyguard.โ He raised an eyebrow. โPut two and two together.โ
Classic Rhys. If there was a rude way to answer a question, heโd find it.
โFine. Well, Iโm ready to return to the party, so if youโll excuse meโฆโ I sidestepped him, but he grabbed my arm before I could go any further.
Time stopped and narrowed to where his large hand encircled my wrist. His natural tan contrasted with my winter pale skin, and his fingers were rough and callused, unlike the smooth, soft hands of the lords and princes Iโd danced with all night. A knee-weakening desire to feel them slide over my skin, branding me as his, overtook me.
Bucket list number four.
My breathing sounded shallow in the tiny, intimate alcove. It wasnโt right, the power this man had over me, but I was helpless in the face of my heart, hormones, and the indomitable force that was Rhys Larsen.
After what felt like an eternity, but in reality was only a few seconds, Rhys spoke. โI didnโt get a chance to say this
earlier,โ he said. โBut happy birthday, princess.โย Thump, thump, thump,ย went my heart. โThank you.โ He didnโt let go of my wrist, and I didnโt ask him to. The air between us thickened with unspoken words.
I wondered if we wouldโve worked in a different life, a different world. One in which I was just a woman and he was just a man, unburdened by the rules and expectations of others.
And I hated myself for wondering those things because Rhys had never given me any indication he was interested in me beyond physical attraction and professional obligation.
None, except for the fleeting moments when he looked at me like I was his whole world, and he never wanted to blink.
โHow are you enjoying the ball?โ
I mightโve imagined it, but I thought I felt his thumb rub the soft skin of my wrist.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
โItโs fine.โ I was too distracted by what might or might not be happening to my wrist to come up with a better answer.
โJust fine?โย There it was.ย Another thumb rub. I couldโve sworn it. โYou spent quite a bit of time with the Earl of Falser.โ
โHow do you know which one the earl is?โ
โPrincess, I know every man who evenย thinksย about touching you. Much less one who you danced with. Twice,โ Rhys added, the word lethally soft.
It shouldโve frightened me, but instead, my skin tingled and my thighs clenched.
What is wrong with me?
โThatโs quite a talent.โ Iโd only danced with Edwin twice because heโd insisted, and I was too tired to argue.
Rhysโs smile didnโt quite reach his eyes. โSo. The Earl of Falser. Is he the one?โ
โNo.โ I shook my head. โNot unless I want to spend the rest of my life hearing about his clothes and gym equipment.โ
Rhys pressed his thumb against my pounding pulse. โGood.โ
The way he said it made it sound like the earl had escaped death by a hairโs breadth.
โI should return to the dance,โ I said, even though that was the last thing I wanted. โElin must be going crazy.โ
โGoing?โ
I laughed my first real laugh of the night. โYouโre terrible.โ
โBut not wrong.โ
Thisย was the Rhys Iโd missed. The dry humor, the glimpses of his hidden softness. This was the real Rhys.
โHow does twenty-four feel?โ he asked as we walked back to the ballroom.
โLike twenty-three, except hungrier and more tired. How does thirty-four feel?โ Heโd turned thirty-four during the weeks weโd been apart. Iโd thought about calling him on his birthday but chickened out at the last minute.
โLike thirty-three, except stronger and smarter.โ
A grin touched his mouth at my half-amused, half- annoyed huff.
When we returned to the ball, we found Elin waiting for us at the entrance with her arms crossed over her chest.
โGood. You found her,โ she said without looking at Rhys. โYour Highness, where have you been?โ
โI had to use the ladiesโ room.โ It was only half a lie.
โFor forty minutes? You missed your dance with Prince Demetrios, who just left.โ Elin sighed. โNever mind. There are more potential suitors here. Go, quickly. The night is almost over.โ
Thank God for that.
I resumed my dances. Elin watched me like a hawk, and I was too terrified to look in Rhysโs direction lest something
show on my face that I didnโt want her to see. โAm I that boring?โ
โIโm sorry?โ I dragged my attention back to my current partner Steffan, the son of the Duke of Holstein.
โYou keep looking over my shoulder. Either thereโs something fascinating happening behind me, or my in- depth analysis of the palaceโs architectural style isnโt as scintillating as I thought.โ
A blush warmed my cheeks. โMy apologies.โ None of my previous dance partners had picked up on my wandering attention, and Iโd assumed he wouldnโt either. โThat was terribly rude of me.โ
โNo apologies necessary, Your Highness.โ Steffanโs eyes crinkled in a good-natured smile. โI must admit, I couldโve come up with a better conversation topic than the history of neoclassicism. Thatโs what happens when Iโm nervous. I spout all sorts of useless facts.โ
I laughed. โThere are worse ways to deal with nerves, I suppose.โ
My skin suddenly burned, and I stumbled for a second before I caught myself.
โAre you all right?โ Steffan asked, looking concerned.
I nodded, forcing myself not to look at Rhys, but I could
feelย the heat of his stare on my back.
Focus on Steffan.ย He was the most enjoyable dance partner Iโd had all night, and he checked every box for an eligible Prince Consort: funny, charming, and handsome, not to mention the bluest of blue bloods.
I liked him. I just didnโt like himย romantically.
โIt seems our time has come to an end,โ Steffan said when the music wound down. The night was finally over. โBut perhaps we could go out sometime, just the two of us? The new skating rink on Nyhausen is quite nice, and they serve the best hot chocolate in the city.โ
A date.
I wanted to say no because I didnโt want to lead him on, but that was the whole point of the ballโto find a husband, and I couldnโt get a husband without dating first.
โThat sounds lovely,โ I said.
Steffan grinned. โExcellent. Iโll call you later and weโll set up the details.โ
โItโs a plan.โ
I left to give my closing speech thanking everyone for attending, and after the guests filtered out one by one, I hurried out of the ballroom, eager to leave before Elin could get a hold of me.
I made it halfway to the exit before someone blocked my path.
โYour Highness.โ
I stifled a groan. โLord Erhall.โ
The Speaker of Parliament stared down his nose at me. He was a tall, spindly man with graying hair and eyes like a reptileโs, cold and predatory. He was also one of the most powerful people in the country, hence why he received an invite despite not being in the eligible bachelor age range.
โHis Majesty and I missed you at yesterdayโs meeting,โ he said. โWe discussed the new proposed tax reform legislation, which Iโm sure you would have contributed greatly to.โ
I didnโt miss the mocking undertone. I sometimes attended the weekly meetings my grandfather had with the Speaker, and Erhall had insinuated multiple times he thought I had no business being there.
He was one of the Parliament members Edvard had referred to when heโd said there were people who didnโt want to see a woman on the throne.
โIndeed,โ I said coolly. โYouโve been trying to pass similar legislation for years, have you not, Mr. Speaker? Itย doesย seem it could benefit from new ideas.โ
Erhallโs mouth tightened, but his voice was deceptively light when he responded. โI hope you enjoyed the ball, Your
Highness. Husband hunting is surely a top priority for a princess.โ
Everyone knew the true purpose of the ball, but no one was stupid or untactful enough to voice it out aloudโฆ except for Erhall, who wielded enough power he could get away with insulting the crown princess at her own party. There were even rumors he might be the next Prime Minister when he inevitably ran for the office.
I resisted the urge to slap him. That would play right into his game. No one would be happier than Erhall if my public image took a hit, which it would if I was caught attacking the Speaker of Parliament on my birthday.
โLet me be frank, Your Highness.โ Erhall smoothed his tie. โYou are a lovely young woman, but being the monarch of Eldorra requires more than a pretty face. You have to understand the politics, the dynamics, the seriousย issuesย at hand. Your brother was trained for it, but you havenโt even lived in Eldorra for the past few years. Donโt you think it would be best if you handed the responsibilities of the crown to someone more suited to the role?โ
โWho might that be?โ My voice dripped poisonous honey. โSomeone male, I presume.โ
It was unbelievable we were having this conversation, but no one had ever accused Parliament of moving forward with the times.
Erhall smiled, wise enough not to give a direct answer. โWhoever you think best, Your Highness.โ
โLet me be clear, Mr. Speaker.โ My face was hot and blotchy from humiliation, but I pushed past it. I wouldnโt give him the satisfaction of seeing heโd gotten under my skin. โI have no intention of abdicating, stepping aside, or handing my responsibilities to anyone else.โย No matter how much I want to.ย โOne day, Iโll sit on the throne, and youโll have to answer to meโifย you are still in power then.โ Erhallโs face darkened at my not-so-subtle dig. โTherefore, itโs best for everyone involved if we have a civil
relationship.โ I paused, then added, โOn that note, I suggest monitoring your tone when speaking with me or any member of the royal family. You are a guest here. Thatโs it.โ
โYouโโ Erhall took a step toward me, then blanched and quickly stepped back.
Rhys came up beside me, his face expressionless but his eyes darker than a thundercloud. โIs he bothering you, Your Highness?โ
Erhall glared at him but wisely kept his mouth shut. โNo. The Speaker was just leaving.โ I flashed a polite
smile. โWerenโt you, Mr. Speaker?โ
The Speakerโs lips thinned. He gave me a tight nod and a curt โYour Highnessโ before spinning on his heel and marching away.
โWhat did he say to you?โ Menace rolled off Rhys in palpable waves, and I was certain he would hunt Erhall down and snap his neck if I gave the okay.
โNothing worth repeating. Really,โ I repeated when Rhys continued glaring at the spot where Erhall had stood. โForget about him.โ
โHe was about to grab you.โ
โHe wouldnโt have.โ I wasnโt sure what Erhall had planned to do before Rhys showed up, but he was too savvy to lose his cool in public. โPlease, drop it. I just want to sleep. Itโs been a long night.โ
I didnโt want to waste more energy on Erhall. He wasnโt worth it.
Rhys complied, though he didnโt look happy about it.
Then again, he rarely looked happy.
He escorted me to my room, and when we arrived at my door, he pulled something out of his suit pocket.
โYour birthday present,โ he said gru๏ฌy, handing me a rolled-up sheet of paper tied with a ribbon. โNothing fancy, but I had it and thought you might like it.โ
My breath caught. โYou didnโt have to get me anything.โ
We never bought each other birthday presents. The most we did was buy each other a meal, and even then, we pretended it was for something other than the otherโs birthday.
โItโs not a big deal.โ Rhys watched, shoulders tense, while I carefully untied the ribbon and unrolled the paper.
Once I saw what was on it, I gasped. It was me.
A drawing of me, to be exact, in a pool surrounded by hills with the ocean in the distance. Head tipped back, smile on my face, looking freer and happier than I ever remembered feeling. The curve of my lips, the sparkle in my eyes, even the tiny mole beneath my earโฆ
Heโd captured it all in exquisite, painstaking detail, and looking at me through his eyes, I believed I was the most beautiful woman in the world.
โItโs not jewelry or anything like that,โ Rhys said. โKeep it if you want or toss it. I donโt care.โ
โToss it?โ I clutched the drawing to my chest. โAre you kidding? Rhys, this is beautiful.โ
My words hung in the air, and we realized at the same time Iโd called him by his name again. My first time doing so since Costa Rica.
But it felt right because, at that moment, heย wasnโtย Mr.
Larsen. He was Rhys.
And Rhys had given me the best gift Iโd ever received. He was rightโitย wasnโtย a fancy purse or diamond jewelry, but I would much rather have one sketch from him than a hundred Tiffany diamonds.
Anyone could buy a diamond. No one except him couldโve drawn me the way he did, and it didnโt escape my notice this was the first time heโd ever shared his art with me.
โItโs all right.โ He shrugged.
โItโs not all right, itโsย beautiful,โ I repeated. โSeriously, thank you. Iโll treasure this forever.โ
I never thought Iโd see the day, but Rhys blushed.
Actuallyย blushed.
I watched in fascination as the red spread across his neck and cheeks, and the desire to trace its path with my tongue gripped me.
But of course, I couldnโt do that.
I could tell he wanted to say something else, but whatever it was, he thought better of it. โItโs no security alarm, but I can save that for Christmas,โ he said with a lopsided smile.
I grinned, giddy from the combination of his gift and his joke. There was nothing I loved better than seeing the normally serious Rhys joke around. โIโll hold you to that.โ
โGood night, princess.โ
โGood night, Mr. Larsen.โ
That night, I lay in bed and stared at Rhysโs drawing in the moonlight filtering through the curtains. I wished I was that girl again. Not yet crown princess, soaking up the sun in a remote town where no one could find me. But I wasnโt.
Perhaps I loved Rhysโs drawing so much not only because he was the artist, but because it immortalized a version of myself I could never be again.
I gently rolled the sketch up and tucked it into a safe corner of my bedside drawer.
Part-Time Princess.
Being the monarch of Eldorra requires more than a pretty face.
Let me be clear, Mr. Speaker. I have no intention of abdicating, stepping aside, or handing my responsibilities to anyone else.
Until now, Iโd been a passive participant in my own life, letting others make my decisions, the press run roughshod over me, and the likes of Erhall condescend to me.
Not anymore. It was time to take matters into my own hands.
The game of Eldorran politics was a battlefield, and this was war.