There is nothing like a spot of competition to bring out the worst in a manโor the best in a woman.
LADY WHISTLEDOWNโS SOCIETY PAPERS, 4 MAY 1814
Anthony whistled as they ambled up the path to the house, stealing glances at Kate when she wasnโt looking. She really was quite an attractive woman in her own right. He didnโt know why this always surprised him, but it did. His memory of her never quite lived up to the enchanting reality of her face. She was always in motion, always smiling or frowning or pursing her lips. Sheโd never master the placid, serene expression to which young ladies were meant to aspire.
Heโd fallen into the same trap as had the rest of societyโof thinking of her only in terms of her younger sister. And Edwina was so stunning, so amazingly, startlingly beautiful that anyone near to her couldnโt help but fade into the background. It was, Anthony allowed, difficult to look at anyone else when Edwina was in the room.
And yetโฆ
He frowned. And yet heโd barely spared Edwina a glance through the entire Pall Mall game. This might have been understandable simply because it was Bridgerton Pall Mall, and it brought out the worst in anyone named Bridgerton; hell, he probably wouldnโt have spared a glance for the Prince Regent if heโd deigned to join the game.
But that explanation wouldnโt wash, for his mind was filled with other images. Kate bending over her mallet, her face tense with concentration. Kate giggling as someone missed a shot. Kate cheering on Edwina when her ball rolled through the wicketโa very un-Bridgerton-like trait, that. And, of course, Kate smiling wickedly in that last second before sheโd sent his ball flying into the lake.
Clearly, even if he hadnโt been able to spare a glance for Edwina, heโd been
sparing plenty for Kate.
That ought to have been disturbing.
He glanced back over at her again. This time her face was tilted slightly toward the sky, and she was frowning.
โIs something wrong?โ he inquired politely.
She shook her head. โJust wondering if itโs going to rain.โ He looked up. โNot anytime soon, I imagine.โ
She nodded slowly in agreement. โI hate the rain.โ
Something about the expression on her faceโrather reminiscent of a frustrated three-year-oldโmade him laugh. โYou live in the wrong country, then, Miss Sheffield.โ
She turned to him with a sheepish smile. โI donโt mind a gentle rain. Itโs just when it grows violent that I donโt like it.โ
โIโve always rather enjoyed thunderstorms,โ he murmured.
She shot him a startled look but didnโt say anything, then returned her gaze to the pebbles at her feet. She was kicking one along the path as they walked, occasionally breaking her stride or stepping to the side just so she could give it a kick and keep it flying ahead of her. There was something charming about it, something rather sweet about the way her booted foot peeked out from under the hem of her dress at such regular intervals and connected with the pebble.
Anthony watched her curiously, forgetting to pull his eyes off her face when she looked back up.
โDo you thinkโWhyย are you looking at me like that?โ she asked.
โDo I think what?โ he returned, deliberately ignoring the second part of her question.
Her lips settled into a peevish line. Anthony felt his own quivering, wanting to smile with amusement.
โAre you laughing at me?โ she asked suspiciously. He shook his head.
Her feet ground to a halt. โI think you are.โ
โI assure you,โ he said, sounding even to himself as if he wanted to laugh, โthat I am not laughing at you.โ
โYouโre lying.โ
โIโm notโโ He had to stop. If he spoke any further he knew heโd explode with laughter. And the strangest thing wasโhe hadnโt a clue why.
โOh, for heavenโs sake,โ she muttered. โWhat is the problem?โ
Anthony sank against the trunk of a nearby elm, his entire body shaking with barely contained mirth.
Kate planted her hands on her hips, the expression in her eyes a little bit curious, a little bit furious. โWhatโs so funny?โ
He finally gave in to the laughter and barely managed to lift his shoulders into a shrug. โI donโt know,โ he gasped. โThe expression on your faceโฆitโsโฆโ
He noticed that she smiled. He loved that she smiled.
โThe expression on your face is not exactly unamusing yourself, my lord,โ she remarked.
โOh, Iโm sure.โ He took a few deep breaths and then, when he was satisfied that he had regained control, straightened. He caught sight of her face, still vaguely suspicious, and suddenly he realized that he had to know what she thought of him.
It couldnโt wait until the next day. It couldnโt wait until that evening.
He wasnโt sure how it had come about, but her good opinion meant a great deal to him. Of course he needed her approval in his much-neglected suit of Edwina, but there was more to it than that. Sheโd insulted him, sheโd nearly dunked him in The Serpentine, sheโd humiliated him at Pall Mall, and yet he
craved her good opinion.
Anthony couldnโt remember the last time someoneโs regard had meant so much, and frankly, it was humbling.
โI think you owe me a boon,โ he said, pushing off the tree and standing straight. His mind was whirring. He needed to be clever about this. He had to know what she thought. And yet, he didnโt want her knowing how much it meant to him. Not until he understoodย whyย it meant so much to him.
โI beg your pardon?โ
โA boon. For the Pall Mall game.โ
She let out a ladylike snort as she leaned against the tree and crossed her arms. โIf anyone owes anyone else a boon, then you owe one to me. I did win, after all.โ
โAh, but I was the one humiliated.โ โTrue,โ she acceded.
โYou would not be yourself,โ he said in an extremely dry voice, โif you resisted the urge to agree.โ
Kate gave him a demure glance. โA lady should be honest in all things.โ
When she raised her eyes to his face, one corner of his mouth was curved into a rather knowing smile. โI was hoping youโd say that,โ he murmured.
Kate felt immediately uneasy. โAnd why is that?โ
โBecause my boon, Miss Sheffield, is to ask you a questionโany question of my choosingโand you must answer with the utmost honesty.โ He planted one hand against the tree trunk, rather close to her face, and leaned forward.
Kate suddenly felt trapped, even though it would be easy enough to dart away.
With a touch of dismayโand a shiver of excitementโshe realized that she felt trapped by his eyes, which were burning rather dark and hot into hers.
โDo you think you can do that, Miss Sheffield?โ he murmured.
โWh-what is your question?โ she asked, not realizing that she was whispering until she heard her voice, breathy and crackling like the wind.
He cocked his head slightly to the side. โNow, remember, you have to answer honestly.โ
She nodded. Or at least she thought she nodded. Sheย meantย to nod. In all truth, she wasnโt entirely convinced of her ability to move.
He leaned forward, not so much that she could feel his breath, but close enough to make her shiver. โHere, Miss Sheffield, is my question.โ
Her lips parted.
โDo youโโhe moved closerโโstillโโand another inchโโhate me?โ
Kate swallowed convulsively. Whatever sheโd been expecting him to ask, it hadnโt been this. She licked her lips, preparing to speak, even though she had no idea what sheโd say, but not a sound emerged.
His lips curved into a slow, masculine smile. โIโll take that as a no.โ
And then, with an abruptness that left her head spinning, he pushed off the tree and said briskly, โWell, then, I do believe itโs time we went inside and prepared for the evening, donโt you?โ
Kate sagged against the tree, completely devoid of energy.
โYou wish to remain outside for a few moments?โ He planted his hands on his hips and looked up at the sky, his demeanor pragmatic and efficientโone hundred and eighty degrees changed from the slow, lazy seducer heโd been just ten seconds earlier. โYou might as well. It doesnโt look like itโs going to rain, after all. At least not in the next few hours.โ
She just stared at him. Either heโd lost his mind or sheโd forgotten how to talk. Or maybe both.
โVery well. Iโve always admired a woman who appreciates fresh air. I shall see you at supper, then?โ
She nodded. She was surprised she even managed that.
โExcellent.โ He reached out and took her hand, dropping a searing kiss on the inside of her wrist, upon the single band of bare flesh that peeked out between her glove and the hem of her sleeve. โUntil tonight, Miss Sheffield.โ
And then he strode off, leaving her with the oddest feeling that something rather important had just taken place.
But for the life of her, she had no idea what.
At half seven that night, Kate considered falling dreadfully ill. At quarter to eight, sheโd refined her goal to an apoplectic fit. But at five minutes to the hour, as the dinner bell sounded, alerting guests that it was time to assemble in the drawing room, she squared her shoulders and walked into the hall outside her bedroom door to meet Mary.
She refused to be a coward. Sheย wasnโtย a coward.
And she could make it through the evening. Besides, she told herself, she wasnโt likely to be seated anywhere near Lord Bridgerton. He was a viscount and the man of the house, and would therefore be at the head of the table. As the daughter of a baronโs second son, she held little rank compared to the other guests, and would most certainly be seated so far down the table that she wouldnโt even be able to see him without developing a crick in her neck.
Edwina, who was sharing a room with Kate, had already gone to Maryโs chamber to help her choose a necklace, and so Kate found herself alone in the hall. She supposed she could enter Maryโs room and wait for the two of them there, but she didnโt feel terribly conversational, and Edwina had already noticed her odd, reflective mood. The last thing Kate needed was a round of โWhatever can be wrongโsโ from Mary.
And the truth wasโKate didnโt evenย knowย what was wrong. All she knew was that that afternoon, something had changed between her and the viscount. Something was different, and she freely admitted (to herself, at least) that it frightened her.
Which was normal, right? People always feared what they didnโt understand.
And Kateย definitelyย didnโt understand the viscount.
But just as she was beginning to truly enjoy her solitude, the door across the hall opened, and out walked another young lady. Kate recognized her instantly as Penelope Featherington, the youngest of the three famed Featherington sisters
โwell, the three who were out in society. Kate had heard that there was a fourth still in the schoolroom.
Unfortunately for the Featherington sisters, they were famed for their lack of success on the marriage mart. Prudence and Philippa had been out for three years now, without a single proposal between the two of them. Penelope was in the midst of her second season and could usually be found at social functions trying to avoid her mother and sisters, who were universally regarded as ninnies.
Kate had always liked Penelope. The two had formed a bond ever since theyโd both been skewered by Lady Whistledown for wearing gowns of an unflattering color.
Kate noted with a sad sigh that Penelopeโs current gown of lemon yellow silk made the poor girl look hopelessly sallow. And if that werenโt bad enough, it had been cut with far too many frills and flounces. Penelope wasnโt a tall girl, and the gown positively overwhelmed her.
It was a pity, because she might be quite attractive if someone could convince her mother to stay away from the modiste and let Penelope choose her own clothing. She had a rather pleasing face, with the pale, pale skin of a redhead, except that her hair was truly more auburn than red, and if one really wanted to put a fine point on it, more brownish red than auburn.
Whatever you called it, Kate thought with dismay, it didnโt go with lemon yellow.
โKate!โ Penelope called out, after closing her door behind her. โWhat a surprise. I didnโt realize you were attending.โ
Kate nodded. โI think we might have been issued a late invitation. We met Lady Bridgerton only just last week.โ
โWell, I know I just said I was surprised, but Iโm actually not surprised.
Lord Bridgerton has been paying much attention to your sister.โ
Kate flushed. โEr, yes,โ she stammered. โHe has.โ
โThat is what the gossips say, at least,โ Penelope continued. โBut then again, one canโt always trust the gossips.โ
โI have rarely known Lady Whistledown to be incorrect,โ Kate said. Penelope just shrugged and then looked down at her gown with disgust.
โShe certainly is never incorrect aboutย me.โ
โOh, donโt be silly,โ Kate said quickly, but they both knew she was just being polite.
Penelope gave her head a weary shake. โMy mother is convinced that yellow is aย happyย color and that aย happyย girl will snare a husband.โ
โOh, dear,โ Kate said, snorting a giggle.
โWhat she doesnโt grasp,โ Penelope continued wryly, โis that such aย happyย shade of yellow makes me look ratherย unย happy and positively repels the gentlemen.โ
โHave you suggested green?โ Kate inquired. โI think youโd be smashing in green.โ
Penelope shook her head. โShe doesnโt like green. Says itโs melancholy.โ โGreen?โ Kate asked with disbelief.
โI donโt even try to understand her.โ
Kate, who was wearing green, held up her sleeve near Penelopeโs face, blocking the yellow as best as she could.
โYour whole face lights up,โ she said.
โDonโt tell me that. It will only make the yellow more painful.โ
Kate offered her a sympathetic smile. โI would loan you one of mine, but Iโm afraid it would drag on the floor.โ
Penelope waved away her offer. โThatโs very kind of you, but Iโm resigned to my fate. At least itโs better than last year.โ
Kate raised a brow.
โOh, thatโs right. You werenโt out last year.โ Penelope winced. โI weighed nearly two stone more than I do now.โ
โTwo stone?โ Kate echoed. She couldnโt believe it.
Penelope nodded and made a face. โBaby fat. I begged Mama not to force me to come out until I turned eighteen, but she thought a head start might be good for me.โ
Kate only had to take one look at Penelopeโs face to know that it hadnโt been good for her. She felt a certain kinship with this girl, even though Penelope was nearly three years younger. Both of them knew the singular feeling of not being the most popular girl in the room, knew the exact expression you put on your face when you werenโt asked to dance but you wanted to look as if you didnโt care.
โI say,โ Penelope said, โwhy donโt the two of us go down to supper together? It seems your family and mine are both delayed.โ
Kate wasnโt in much of a rush to reach the drawing room and the inevitable company of Lord Bridgerton, but waiting for Mary and Edwina would delay the torture by only a few minutes, so she decided she might as well head down with Penelope.
They both poked their heads into their respective motherโs room, informed them of the change in plans, and linked arms, heading down the hall.
When they reached the drawing room, much of the company was already in attendance, milling about and chatting as they waited for the rest of the guests to come down. Kate, who had never attended a country house party before, noted with surprise that nearly everyone seemed more relaxed and a bit more animated than they did in London. It must be the fresh air, she thought with a smile. Or perhaps distance relaxed the strict rules of the capital. Whatever the case, she decided she preferred this atmosphere to that of a London dinner party.
She could see Lord Bridgerton across the room. Or rather she supposed she
could sense him. As soon as she spotted him standing over by the fireplace, sheโd kept her gaze scrupulously averted.
But she could feel him nonetheless. She knew she had to be crazy, but sheโd swear she knew when he tilted his head, and heard him when he spoke and when he laughed.
And she definitely knew when his eyes were on her back. Her neck felt as if it were about to go up in flames.
โI didnโt realize Lady Bridgerton had invited so many people,โ Penelope said.
Careful to keep her eyes away from the fireplace, Kate did a sweep of the room to see who was there.
โOh, no,โ Penelope half whispered, half moaned. โCressida Cowper is here.โ
Kate discreetly followed Penelopeโs gaze. If Edwina had any competition for the role of 1814โs reigning beauty, it was Cressida Cowper. Tall, slender, with honey-blond hair and sparkling green eyes, Cressida was almost never without a small bevy of admirers. But where Edwina was kind and generous, Cressida was, in Kateโs estimation, a self-centered, ill-mannered witch who took her joy in the torment of others.
โShe hates me,โ Penelope whispered. โShe hates everyone,โ Kate replied. โNo, sheย reallyย hates me.โ
โWhyever?โ Kate turned to her friend with curious eyes. โWhat could you possibly have done to her?โ
โI bumped into her last year and caused her to spill punch all over herself
andย the Duke of Ashbourne.โ โThatโs all?โ
Penelope rolled her eyes. โIt was enough for Cressida. Sheโs convinced he
would have proposed if she hadnโt appeared clumsy.โ
Kate let out a snort that didnโt even pretend to be ladylike. โAshbourne isnโt about to get hitched anytime soon. Everyone knows that. Heโs nearly as bad a rake as Bridgerton.โ
โWho is most probably going to get married this year,โ Penelope reminded her. โIf the gossips are correct.โ
โBah,โ Kate scoffed. โLady Whistledown herself wrote that she doesnโt think heโll marry this year.โ
โThat wasย weeksย ago,โ Penelope replied with a dismissive wave of her hand. โLady Whistledown changes her mind all the time. Besides, itโs obvious to everyone that the viscount is courting your sister.โ
Kate bit her tongue before she muttered, โDonโt remind me.โ
But her wince of pain was drowned out by Penelopeโs hoarse whisper of, โOh,ย no. Sheโs coming this way.โ
Kate gave her arm a reassuring squeeze. โDonโt worry about her. Sheโs no better than you.โ
Penelope shot her a sarcastic look. โIย knowย that. But that doesnโt make her any less unpleasant. And she always goes out of her way to make sure that Iย haveย to deal with her.โ
โKate. Penelope,โ Cressida trilled, drawing up alongside them, giving her shiny hair an affected shake. โWhat a surprise to see you here.โ
โAnd why is that?โ Kate asked.
Cressida blinked, obviously surprised that Kate had even questioned her pronouncement. โWell,โ she said slowly, โI suppose it is not such a surprise to seeย youย here, as your sister is very much in demand, and we all know that you must go where she goes, but Penelopeโs presenceโฆโ She shrugged daintily. โWell, who am I to judge? Lady Bridgerton is a most kindhearted woman.โ
The comment was so rude that Kate could not help but gape. And while she was staring at Cressida, openmouthed with shock, Cressida went in for the kill.
โThatโs a lovely gown, Penelope,โ she said, her smile so sweet that Kate would swear she could taste sugar in the air. โI do love yellow,โ she added, smoothing down the pale yellow fabric of her own gown. โIt takes a very special complexion to wear it, donโt you think?โ
Kate ground her teeth together. Naturally Cressida looked brilliant in her gown. Cressida would look brilliant in a sackcloth.
Cressida smiled again, this time reminding Kate of a serpent, then turned slightly to motion to someone across the room. โOh, Grimston, Grimston! Come over here for a moment.โ
Kate looked over her shoulder to see Basil Grimston approaching and just barely managed to stifle a groan. Grimston was the perfect male counterpart to Cressidaโrude, supercilious, and self-important. Why a lovely lady like Viscountess Bridgerton had invited him, sheโd never know. Probably to even up the numbers with so many young ladies invited.
Grimston slithered over and lifted one corner of his mouth in a mockery of a smile. โYour servant,โ he said to Cressida after sparing Kate and Penelope a fleeting, disdainful glance.
โDonโt you think dear Penelope looks fetching in that gown?โ Cressida said. โYellow truly must be the color of the season.โ
Grimston did a slow, insulting perusal of Penelope, from the top of her head to the tips of her feet and back. He barely moved his head, letting his eyes travel up and down her frame. Kate fought a spasm of revulsion so strong it nearly brought on a wave of nausea. More than anything, she wanted to throw her arms around Penelope and give the poor girl a hug. But such attention would only single her out further as someone who was weak and easily bullied.
When Grimston was finally done with his rude inspection, he turned to Cressida and shrugged, as if he couldnโt think of anything complimentary to say.
โDonโt you have somewhere else to be?โ Kate blurted out.
Cressida looked shocked. โWhy, Miss Sheffield, I can hardly countenance your impertinence. Mr. Grimston and I were merely admiring Penelopeโs appearance. That shade of yellow does so much for her complexion. And it is so
nice to see her looking so well after last year.โ
โIndeed,โ Grimston drawled, his oily tone making Kate feel positively unclean.
Kate could feel Penelope shaking next to her. She hoped it was with anger, not with pain.
โI canโt imagine what you mean,โ Kate said in icy tones.
โWhy, surely you know,โ Grimston said, his eyes glittering with delight. He leaned forward and then said in a whisper that was louder than his usual voice, loud enough so that a great many people could hear, โShe wasย fat.โ
Kate opened her mouth to give a scathing retort, but before she could make a sound, Cressida added, โIt was such a pity, because there were so many more men in town last year. Of course most of us still never lack for a dance partner, but I do feel for poor Penelope when I see her sitting with the dowagers.โ
โThe dowagers,โ Penelope ground out, โare often the only people in the room with a modicum of intelligence.โ
Kate wanted to jump up and cheer.
Cressida made a breathy little โOhโ sound, as if she had any right to be offended. โStill, one cannot help butโฆOh! Lord Bridgerton!โ
Kate moved to the side to allow the viscount into their small circle, noticing with disgust that Cressidaโs entire demeanor changed. Her eyelids began to flutter and her mouth made a pretty little cupidโs bow.
It was so appalling Kate forgot to be self-conscious around the viscount.
Bridgerton shot Cressida a hard look but did not say anything. Instead, he turned quite deliberately to Kate and Penelope and murmured their names in greeting.
Kate nearly gasped with glee. Heโd given Cressida Cowper the cut direct! โMiss Sheffield,โ he said smoothly, โI hope you will excuse us as I escort
Miss Featherington in to dinner.โ
โBut you canโt escort her in!โ Cressida blurted out.
Bridgerton gave her an icy stare. โIโm sorry,โ he said in a voice that said he was anything but. โHad I included you in the conversation?โ
Cressida shrank back, obviously mortified by her outburst. Still, it was beyond irregular for him to escort Penelope. As the man of the house, it was his duty to escort the highest-ranking woman. Kate wasnโt sure who that happened to be this evening, but it certainly wasnโt Penelope, whose father had been a mere mister.
Bridgerton offered Penelope his arm, turning his back on Cressida in the process. โI do hate a bully, donโt you?โ he murmured.
Kate clapped her hand over her mouth, but she couldnโt stifle her giggle. Bridgerton offered her a small, secret smile over Penelopeโs head, and in that moment Kate had the oddest feeling that she understood this man completely.
But even strangerโsuddenly she wasnโt so certain that he was the soulless, reprehensible rake sheโd taken such comfort in believing him.
โDid you see that?โ
Kate, who, along with the rest of the assembled company, had been staring openmouthed as Bridgerton led Penelope from the room, his head bent to hers as if she were the most fascinating woman ever to walk the earth, turned to see Edwina standing next to her.
โI saw the whole thing,โ Kate said in a dazed voice. โI heard the whole thing.โ
โWhat happened?โ
โHe wasโฆhe wasโฆโ Kate stumbled over her words, unsure of how to describe what exactly heโd done. And then she said something sheโd never thought possible: โHe was a hero.โ