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Chapter no 1

The Viscount Who Loved Me (Bridgertons, #2)

The topic of rakes has, of course, been previously discussed in this column, and This Author has come to the conclusion that there are rakes, and there are Rakes.

Anthony Bridgerton is a Rake.

A rake (lower-case) is youthful and immature. He flaunts his exploits, behaves with utmost idiocy, and thinks himself dangerous to women.

A Rake (upper-case)ย knowsย he is dangerous to women.

He doesnโ€™t flaunt his exploits because he doesnโ€™t need to. He knows he will be whispered about by men and women alike, and in fact, heโ€™d rather they didnโ€™t whisper about him at all. He knows who he is and what he has done; further recountings are, to him, redundant.

He doesnโ€™t behave like an idiot for the simple reason that he isnโ€™t an idiot (any moreso than must be expected among all members of the male gender). He has little patience for the foibles of society, and quite frankly, most of the time This Author cannot say she blames him.

And if that doesnโ€™t describe Viscount Bridgertonโ€”surely this seasonโ€™s most eligible bachelorโ€”to perfection, This Author shall retire Her quill immediately. The only question is: Will 1814 be the season he finally succumbs to the exquisite bliss of matrimony?

This Author Thinksโ€ฆ Not.

LADY WHISTLEDOWNโ€™S SOCIETY PAPERS, 20 APRIL 1814

โ€œPlease donโ€™t tell me,โ€ Kate Sheffield said to the room at large, โ€œthat she is writing about Viscount Bridgerton again.โ€

Her half-sister Edwina, younger by almost four years, looked up from behind the single-sheet newspaper. โ€œHow could you tell?โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re giggling like a madwoman.โ€

Edwina giggled, shaking the blue damask sofa on which they both sat. โ€œSee?โ€ Kate said, giving her a little poke in the arm. โ€œYou always giggle

when she writes about some reprehensible rogue.โ€ But Kate grinned. There was little she liked better than teasing her sister. In a good-natured manner, of course.

Mary Sheffield, Edwinaโ€™s mother, and Kateโ€™s stepmother for nearly eighteen years, glanced up from her embroidery and pushed her spectacles farther up the bridge of her nose. โ€œWhat are you two laughing about?โ€

โ€œKateโ€™s in a snit because Lady Whistledown is writing about that rakish viscount again,โ€ Edwina explained.

โ€œIโ€™m not in a snit,โ€ Kate said, even though no one was listening. โ€œBridgerton?โ€ Mary asked absently.

Edwina nodded. โ€œYes.โ€

โ€œShe always writes about him.โ€

โ€œI think she just likes writing about rakes,โ€ Edwina commented.

โ€œOf course she likes writing about rakes,โ€ Kate retorted. โ€œIf she wrote about boring people, no one would buy her newspaper.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s not true,โ€ Edwina replied. โ€œJust last week she wrote about us, and heaven knows weโ€™re not the most interesting people in London.โ€

Kate smiled at her sisterโ€™s naรฏvetรฉ. Kate and Mary might not be the most interesting people in London, but Edwina, with her buttery-colored hair and startlingly pale blue eyes, had already been named the Incomparable of 1814. Kate, on the other hand, with her plain brown hair and eyes, was usually referred to as โ€œthe Incomparableโ€™s older sister.โ€

She supposed there were worse monikers. At least no one had yet begun to

call her โ€œthe Incomparableโ€™s spinster sister.โ€ Which was a great deal closer to the truth than any of the Sheffields cared to admit. At twenty (nearly twenty-one, if one was going to be scrupulously honest about it), Kate was a bit long in the tooth to be enjoying her first season in London.

But there hadnโ€™t really been any other choice. The Sheffields hadnโ€™t been wealthy even when Kateโ€™s father had been alive, and since heโ€™d passed on five years earlier, theyโ€™d been forced to economize even further. They certainly werenโ€™t ready for the poorhouse, but they had to mind every penny and watch every pound.

With their straitened finances, the Sheffields could manage the funds for only one trip to London. Renting a houseโ€”and a carriageโ€”and hiring the bare minimum of servants for the season cost money. More money than they could afford to spend twice. As it was, theyโ€™d had to save for five solid years to be able to afford this trip to London. And if the girls werenโ€™t successful on the Marriage Martโ€ฆwell, no one was going to clap them into debtorโ€™s prison, but they would have to look forward to a quiet life of genteel poverty at some charmingly small cottage in Somerset.

And so the two girls were forced to make their debuts in the same year. It had been decided that the most logical time would be when Edwina was just seventeen and Kate almost twenty-one. Mary would have liked to have waited until Edwina was eighteen, and a bit more mature, but that would have made Kate nearly twenty-two, and heavens, but who would marry her then?

Kate smiled wryly. She hadnโ€™t even wanted a season. Sheโ€™d known from the outset that she wasnโ€™t the sort who would capture the attention of theย ton. She wasnโ€™t pretty enough to overcome her lack of dowry, and sheโ€™d never learned to simper and mince and walk delicately, and do all those things other girls seemed to know how to do in the cradle. Even Edwina, who didnโ€™t have a devious bone in her body, somehow knew how to stand and walk and sigh so that men came to blows just for the honor of helping her cross the street.

Kate, on the other hand, always stood with her shoulders straight and tall, couldnโ€™t sit still if her life depended upon it, and walked as if she were in a race

โ€”and why not? she always wondered. If one was going somewhere, what could possibly be the point in not getting there quickly?

As for her current season in London, she didnโ€™t even like the city very much.

Oh, she was having a good enough time, and sheโ€™d met quite a few nice people, but a London season seemed a horrible waste of money to a girl who would have been perfectly content to remain in the country and find some sensible man to marry there.

But Mary would have none of that. โ€œWhen I married your father,โ€ sheโ€™d said, โ€œI vowed to love you and bring you up with all the care and affection Iโ€™d give to a child of my own blood.โ€

Kate had managed to get in a single, โ€œButโ€”โ€ before Mary carried on with, โ€œI have a responsibility to your poor mother, God rest her soul, and part of that responsibility is to see you married off happily and securely.โ€

โ€œI could be happy and secure in the country,โ€ Kate had replied. Mary had countered, โ€œThere are more men from which to choose in

London.โ€

After which Edwina had joined in, insisting that she would be utterly miserable without her, and since Kate never could bear to see her sister unhappy, her fate had been sealed.

And so here she wasโ€”sitting in a somewhat faded drawing room in a rented house in a section of London that was almost fashionable, andโ€ฆ

She looked about mischievously.

โ€ฆand she was about to snatch a newspaper from her sisterโ€™s grasp. โ€œKate!โ€ Edwina squealed, her eyes bugging out at the tiny triangle of

newsprint that remained between her right thumb and forefinger. โ€œI wasnโ€™t done yet!โ€

โ€œYouโ€™ve been reading it forever,โ€ Kate said with a cheeky grin. โ€œBesides, I want to see what she has to say about Viscount Bridgerton today.โ€

Edwinaโ€™s eyes, which were usually compared to peaceful Scottish lochs, glinted devilishly. โ€œYouโ€™reย awfullyย interested in the viscount, Kate. Is there something youโ€™re not telling us?โ€

โ€œDonโ€™t be silly. I donโ€™t even know the man. And if I did, I would probably

run in the opposite direction. He is exactly the sort of man the two of us should avoid at all costs. He could probably seduce an iceberg.โ€

โ€œKate!โ€ Mary exclaimed.

Kate grimaced. Sheโ€™d forgotten her stepmother was listening. โ€œWell, itโ€™s true,โ€ she added. โ€œIโ€™ve heard heโ€™s had more mistresses than Iโ€™ve had birthdays.โ€

Mary looked at her for a few seconds, as if trying to decide whether or not she wanted to respond, and then finally she said, โ€œNot that this is an appropriate topic for your ears, but many men have.โ€

โ€œOh.โ€ Kate flushed. There was little less appealing than being decisively contradicted while one was trying to make a grand point. โ€œWell, then, heโ€™s had twice as many. Whatever the case, heโ€™s far more promiscuous than most men, and not the sort Edwina ought to allow to court her.โ€

โ€œYouย are enjoying a season as well,โ€ Mary reminded her.

Kate shot Mary the most sarcastic of glances. They all knew that if the viscount chose to court a Sheffield, it would not be Kate.

โ€œI donโ€™t think there is anything in there thatโ€™s going to alter your opinion,โ€ Edwina said with a shrug as she leaned toward Kate to get a better view of the newspaper. โ€œShe doesnโ€™t say very much aboutย him,ย actually. Itโ€™s more of a treatise on the topic of rakes.โ€

Kateโ€™s eyes swept over the typeset words. โ€œHmmph,โ€ she said, her favorite expression of disdain. โ€œIโ€™ll wager sheโ€™s correct. He probably wonโ€™t come up to scratch this year.โ€

โ€œYou always think Lady Whistledown is correct,โ€ Mary murmured with a smile.

โ€œShe usually is,โ€ Kate replied. โ€œYou must admit, for a gossip columnist, she displays remarkable good sense. She has certainly been correct in her assessment of all the people I have met thus far in London.โ€

โ€œYou should make your own judgments, Kate,โ€ Mary said lightly. โ€œIt is beneath you to base your opinions on a gossip column.โ€

Kate knew her stepmother was right, but she didnโ€™t want to admit it, and so she just let out another โ€œHmmphโ€ and turned back to the paper in her hands.

Whistledownย was, without a doubt, the most interesting reading material in all London. Kate wasnโ€™t entirely certain when the gossip column had begunโ€” sometime the previous year, sheโ€™d heardโ€”but one thing was certain. Whoever Lady Whistledown was (and no oneย reallyย knew who she was), she was a well- connected member of theย ton. She had to be. No interloper could ever uncover all the gossip she printed in her columns every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

Lady Whistledown always had all the latestย on-dits, and unlike other columnists, she wasnโ€™t hesitant about using peopleโ€™s full names. Having decided last week, for example, that Kate didnโ€™t look good in yellow, she wrote, clear as day: โ€œThe color yellow makes the dark-haired Miss Katharine Sheffield look like a singed daffodil.โ€

Kate hadnโ€™t minded the insult. Sheโ€™d heard it said on more than one occasion that one could not consider oneself โ€œarrivedโ€ until one had been insulted by Lady Whistledown. Even Edwina, who was a huge social success by anyoneโ€™s measure, had been jealous that Kate had been singled out for an insult.

And even though Kate didnโ€™t particularly want to be in London for a season, she figured that if she had to participate in the social whirl, she might as well not be a complete and utter failure. If getting insulted in a gossip column was to be her only sign of success, well then, so be it. Kate would take her triumphs where she may.

Now when Penelope Featherington bragged about being likened to an overripe citrus fruit in her tangerine satin, Kate could wave her arm and sigh with great drama, โ€œYes, well, I am a singed daffodil.โ€

โ€œSomeday,โ€ Mary announced out of the blue, giving her spectacles yet another push with her index finger, โ€œsomeone is going to discover that womanโ€™s true identity, and then sheโ€™s going to be in trouble.โ€

Edwina looked at her mother with interest. โ€œDo you really think someone will ferret her out? She has managed to keep her secret for over a year now.โ€

โ€œNothing that big can stay a secret forever,โ€ Mary replied. She jabbed her embroidery with her needle, pulling a long strand of yellow thread through the

fabric. โ€œMark my words. Itโ€™s all going to come out sooner or later, and when it does, a scandal the likes of which you have never seen is going to erupt all over town.โ€

โ€œWell, if I knew who she was,โ€ Kate announced, flipping the single-sheet newspaper over to page two, โ€œIโ€™d probably make her my best friend. Sheโ€™s fiendishly entertaining. And no matter what anyone says, sheโ€™s almost always right.โ€

Just then, Newton, Kateโ€™s somewhat overweight corgi, trotted into the room. โ€œIsnโ€™t that dog supposed to stay outside?โ€ Mary asked. Then she yelped,

โ€œKate!โ€ as the dog angled over to her feet and panted as if waiting for a kiss.

โ€œNewton, come here this minute,โ€ Kate ordered.

The dog gazed longingly at Mary, then waddled over to Kate, hopped up onto the sofa, and laid his front paws across her lap.

โ€œHeโ€™s covering you with fur,โ€ Edwina said.

Kate shrugged as she stroked his thick, caramel-colored coat. โ€œI donโ€™t mind.โ€ Edwina sighed, but she reached out and gave Newton a quick pat, anyway.

โ€œWhat else does she say?โ€ she asked, leaning forward with interest. โ€œI never did get to see page two.โ€

Kate smiled at her sisterโ€™s sarcasm. โ€œNot much. A little something about the Duke and Duchess of Hastings, who apparently arrived in town earlier this week, a list of the food at Lady Danburyโ€™s ball, which she proclaimed โ€˜surprisingly delicious,โ€™ and a rather unfortunate description of Mrs. Featheringtonโ€™s gown Monday last.โ€

Edwina frowned. โ€œShe does seem to pick on the Featheringtons quite a bit.โ€ โ€œAnd no wonder,โ€ Mary said, setting down her embroidery as she stood up.

โ€œThat woman wouldnโ€™t know how to pick out a dress color for her girls if a

rainbow wrapped itself right around her neck.โ€ โ€œMother!โ€ Edwina exclaimed.

Kate clapped a hand over her mouth, trying not to laugh. Mary rarely made such opinionated pronouncements, but when she did, they were always marvelous.

โ€œWell, itโ€™s true. She keeps dressing her youngest in tangerine. Anyone can see that poor girl needs a blue or a mint green.โ€

โ€œYou dressed me in yellow,โ€ Kate reminded her.

โ€œAnd Iโ€™m sorry I did. That will teach me to listen to a shopgirl. I should never have doubted my own judgment. Weโ€™ll simply have to have that one cut down for Edwina.โ€

Since Edwina was a full head shorter than Kate, and several shades more delicate, this would not be a problem.

โ€œWhen you do,โ€ Kate said, turning to her sister, โ€œmake sure you eliminate the ruffle on the sleeve. Itโ€™s dreadfully distracting.ย Andย it itches. I had half a mind to rip it off right there at the Ashbourne ball.โ€

Mary rolled her eyes. โ€œI am both surprised and thankful that you saw fit to restrain yourself.โ€

โ€œI am surprised but not thankful,โ€ Edwina said with a mischievous smile. โ€œJust think of the fun Lady Whistledown would have had withย that.โ€

โ€œAh, yes,โ€ Kate said, returning her grin. โ€œI can see it now. โ€˜The singed daffodil rips off her petals.โ€™ โ€

โ€œI am going upstairs,โ€ Mary announced, shaking her head at her daughtersโ€™ antics. โ€œDo try not to forget that we have a party to attend this evening. You girls may want to get a bit of rest before we go out. Itโ€™s sure to be another late night for us.โ€

Kate and Edwina nodded and murmured promises to that effect as Mary gathered her embroidery and left the room. As soon as she was gone, Edwina turned to Kate and asked, โ€œHave you decided what youโ€™re going to wear tonight?โ€

โ€œThe green gauze, I think. I should wear white, I know, but I fear it does not suit me.โ€

โ€œIf you donโ€™t wear white,โ€ Edwina said loyally, โ€œthen neither shall I. I shall wear my blue muslin.โ€

Kate nodded her approval as she glanced back at the newspaper in her hand, trying to balance Newton, who had flipped over onto his back and was angling to have his belly rubbed. โ€œJust last week Mr. Berbrooke said you are an angel in blue. On account of it matching your eyes so well.โ€

Edwina blinked in surprise. โ€œMr. Berbrooke said that? To you?โ€

Kate looked back up. โ€œOf course. All of your beaux try to pass on their compliments through me.โ€

โ€œThey do? Whyever?โ€

Kate smiled slowly and indulgently. โ€œWell, now, Edwina, it might have something to do with the time you announced to the entire audience at the Smythe-Smith musicale that you could never marry without your sisterโ€™s approval.โ€

Edwinaโ€™s cheeks turned just the slightest bit pink. โ€œIt wasnโ€™t the entire audience,โ€ she mumbled.

โ€œIt might as well have been. The news traveled faster than fire on rooftops. I wasnโ€™t even in the room at the time and it only took two minutes for me to hear about it.โ€

Edwina crossed her arms and let out a โ€œHmmphโ€ that made her sound rather like her older sister. โ€œWell, itโ€™s true, and I donโ€™t care who knows it. I know Iโ€™m expected to make a grand and brilliant match, but I donโ€™t have to marry someone who will ill treat me. Anyone with the fortitude to actually impressย youย would have to be up to snuff.โ€

โ€œAm I so difficult to impress, then?โ€

The two sisters looked at each other, then answered in unison, โ€œYes.โ€

But as Kate laughed along with Edwina, a niggling sense of guilt rose within her. All three Sheffields knew that it would be Edwina who would snag a

nobleman or marry into a fortune. It would be Edwina who would ensure that her family would not have to live out their lives in genteel poverty. Edwina was a beauty, while Kate wasโ€ฆ

Kate was Kate.

Kate didnโ€™t mind. Edwinaโ€™s beauty was simply a fact of life. There were certain truths Kate had long since come to accept. Kate would never learn to waltz without trying to take the lead; sheโ€™d always be afraid of electrical storms, no matter how often she told herself she was being silly; and no matter what she wore, no matter how she dressed her hair or pinched her cheeks, sheโ€™d never be as pretty as Edwina.

Besides, Kate wasnโ€™t certain that sheโ€™d like all the attention Edwina received. Nor, she was coming to realize, would she relish the responsibility of having to marry well to provide for her mother and sister.

โ€œEdwina,โ€ Kate said softly, her eyes growing serious, โ€œyou donโ€™t have to marry anyone you donโ€™t like. You know that.โ€

Edwina nodded, suddenly looking as if she might cry.

โ€œIf you decide there isnโ€™t a single gentleman in London who is good enough for you, then so be it. We shall simply go back to Somerset and enjoy our own company. Thereโ€™s no one I like better, anyway.โ€

โ€œNor I,โ€ Edwina whispered.

โ€œAnd if you do find a man who sweeps you off your feet, then Mary and I shall be delighted. You should not worry about leaving us, either. We shall get on fine with each other for company.โ€

โ€œYou might find someone to marry as well,โ€ Edwina pointed out.

Kate felt her lips twist into a small smile. โ€œI might,โ€ she allowed, knowing that it probably wasnโ€™t true. She didnโ€™t want to remain a spinster her entire life, but she doubted she would find a husband here in London. โ€œPerhaps one of your lovesick suitors will turn to me once he realizes you are unattainable,โ€ she teased.

Edwina swatted her with a pillow. โ€œDonโ€™t be silly.โ€

โ€œBut Iโ€™m not!โ€ Kate protested. And she wasnโ€™t. Quite frankly, this seemed to her the most likely avenue by which she might actually find a husband in town.

โ€œDo you know what sort of man Iโ€™d like to marry?โ€ Edwina asked, her eyes turning dreamy.

Kate shook her head. โ€œA scholar.โ€

โ€œAย scholar?โ€

โ€œA scholar,โ€ Edwina said firmly.

Kate cleared her throat. โ€œIโ€™m not certain youโ€™ll find many of those in town for the season.โ€

โ€œI know.โ€ Edwina let out a little sigh. โ€œBut the truth isโ€”and you know this even if I am not supposed to let on in publicโ€”Iโ€™m really rather bookish. Iโ€™d much rather spend my day in a library than gadding about in Hyde Park. I think I should enjoy life with a man who enjoyed scholarly pursuits as well.โ€

โ€œRight. Hmmmโ€ฆโ€ Kateโ€™s mind worked frantically. Edwina wasnโ€™t likely to find a scholar back in Somerset, either. โ€œYou know, Edwina, it might be difficult to find you a true scholar outside the university towns. You might have to settle for a man who likes to read and learn as you do.โ€

โ€œThat would be all right,โ€ Edwina said happily. โ€œIโ€™d be quite content with an amateur scholar.โ€

Kate breathed a sigh of relief. Surely they could find someone in London who liked to read.

โ€œAnd do you know what?โ€ Edwina added. โ€œYou truly cannot tell a book by its cover. All sorts of people are amateur scholars. Why, even that Viscount Bridgerton Lady Whistledown keeps talking about might be a scholar at heart.โ€

โ€œBite your tongue, Edwina. You are not to have anything to do with Viscount Bridgerton. Everyone knows he is the worst sort of rake. In fact, heโ€™s the worst rake, period. In all London. In the entire country!โ€

โ€œI know, I was just using him as an example. Besides, heโ€™s not likely to choose a bride this year, anyway. Lady Whistledown said so, and you yourself said that she is almost always right.โ€

Kate patted her sister on the arm. โ€œDonโ€™t worry. We will find you a suitable husband. Butย notโ€”not not not not not Viscount Bridgerton!โ€

At that very moment, the subject of their discussion was relaxing at Whiteโ€™s with two of his three younger brothers, enjoying a late afternoon drink.

Anthony Bridgerton leaned back in his leather chair, regarded his scotch with a thoughtful expression as he swirled it about, and then announced, โ€œIโ€™m thinking about getting married.โ€

Benedict Bridgerton, who had been indulging in a habit his mother detested

โ€”tipping his chair drunkenly on the back two legsโ€”fell over.

Colin Bridgerton started to choke.

Luckily for Colin, Benedict regained his seat with enough time to smack him soundly on the back, sending a green olive sailing across the table.

It narrowly missed Anthonyโ€™s ear.

Anthony let the indignity pass without comment. He was all too aware that his sudden declaration had come as a bit of a surprise.

Well, perhaps more than a bit. โ€œComplete,โ€ โ€œtotal,โ€ and โ€œutterโ€ were words that came to mind.

Anthony knew that he did not fit the image of a man who had settling down on his mind. Heโ€™d spent the last decade as the worst sort of rake, taking pleasure where he may. For as he well knew, life was short and certainly meant to be enjoyed. Oh, heโ€™d had a certain code of honor. He never dallied with well-bred young women. Anyone who might have any right to demand marriage was strictly off-limits.

With four younger sisters of his own, Anthony had a healthy degree of respect for the good reputations of gently bred women. Heโ€™d already nearly

fought a duel for one of his sisters, all over a slight to her honor. And as for the other threeโ€ฆhe freely admitted that he broke out in a cold sweat at the mere thought of their getting involved with a man who bore a reputation like his.

No, he certainly wasnโ€™t about to despoil some other gentlemanโ€™s younger sister.

But as for the other sort of womenโ€”the widows and actresses who knew what they wanted and what they were getting intoโ€”heโ€™d enjoyed their company and enjoyed it well. Since the day he left Oxford and headed west to London, heโ€™d not been without a mistress.

Sometimes, he thought wryly, heโ€™d not been without two.

Heโ€™d ridden in nearly every horse race society had to offer, heโ€™d boxed at Gentleman Jacksonโ€™s, and heโ€™d won more card games than he could count. (Heโ€™d lost a few, too, but he disregarded those.) Heโ€™d spent the decade of his twenties in a mindful pursuit of pleasure, tempered only by his overwhelming sense of responsibility to his family.

Edmund Bridgertonโ€™s death had been both sudden and unexpected; heโ€™d not had a chance to make any final requests of his eldest son before he perished. But if he had, Anthony was certain that he would have asked him to care for his mother and siblings with the same diligence and affection Edmund had displayed.

And so in between Anthonyโ€™s rounds of parties and horse races, heโ€™d sent his brothers to Eton and Oxford, gone to a mind-numbing number of piano recitals given by his sisters (no easy feat; three out of four of them were tone deaf), and kept a close and watchful eye on the family finances. With seven brothers and sisters, he saw it as his duty to make sure there was enough money to secure all of their futures.

As he grew closer to thirty, heโ€™d realized that he was spending more and more time tending to his heritage and family and less and less in his old pursuit of decadence and pleasure. And heโ€™d realized that he liked it that way. He still kept a mistress, but never more than one at a time, and he discovered that he no longer felt the need to enter every horse race or stay late at a party just to win that last hand of cards.

His reputation, of course, stayed with him. He didnโ€™t mind that, actually.

There were certain benefits to being thought Englandโ€™s most reprehensible rake. He was nearly universally feared, for example.

That was always a good thing.

But now it was time for marriage. He ought to settle down, have a son. He had a title to pass on, after all. He did feel a rather sharp twinge of regretโ€”and perhaps a touch of guilt as wellโ€”over the fact that it was unlikely that heโ€™d live to see his son into adulthood. But what could he do? He was the firstborn Bridgerton of a firstborn Bridgerton of a firstborn Bridgerton eight times over. He had a dynastic responsibility to be fruitful and multiply.

Besides, he took some comfort in knowing that heโ€™d leave three able and caring brothers behind. Theyโ€™d see to it that his son was brought up with the love and honor that every Bridgerton enjoyed. His sisters would coddle the boy, and his mother might spoil himโ€ฆ

Anthony actually smiled a bit as he thought of his large and often boisterous family. His son would not need a father to be well loved.

And whatever children he siredโ€”well, they probably wouldnโ€™t remember him after he was gone. Theyโ€™d be young, unformed. It had not escaped Anthonyโ€™s notice that of all the Bridgerton children, he, the eldest, was the one most deeply affected by their fatherโ€™s death.

Anthony downed another sip of his scotch and straightened his shoulders, pushing such unpleasant ruminations from his mind. He needed to focus on the matter at hand, namely, the pursuit of a wife.

Being a discerning and somewhat organized man, heโ€™d made a mental list of requirements for the position. First, she ought to be reasonably attractive. She neednโ€™t be a raving beauty (although that would be nice), but if he was going to have to bed her, he figured a bit of attraction ought to make the job more pleasant.

Second, she couldnโ€™t be stupid. This, Anthony mused, might be the most difficult of his requirements to fill. He was not universally impressed by the mental prowess of London debutantes. The last time heโ€™d made the mistake of engaging a young chit fresh out of the schoolroom in conversation, sheโ€™d been

unable to discuss anything other than food (sheโ€™d had a plate of strawberries in her hand at the time) and the weather (and she hadnโ€™t even gottenย thatย right; when Anthony had asked if she thought the weather was going to turn inclement, sheโ€™d replied, โ€œIโ€™m sure I donโ€™t know. Iโ€™ve never been to Clement.โ€)

He might be able to avoid conversation with a wife who was less than brilliant, but he didย notย want stupid children.

Thirdโ€”and this was the most importantโ€”she couldnโ€™t be anyone with whom he might actually fall in love.

Under no circumstances would this rule be broken.

He wasnโ€™t a complete cynic; he knew that true love existed. Anyone whoโ€™d ever been in the same room with his parents knew that true love existed.

But love was a complication he wished to avoid. He had no desire for his life to be visited by that particular miracle.

And since Anthony was used to getting what he wanted, he had no doubt that he would find an attractive, intelligent woman with whom he would never fall in love. And what was the problem with that? Chances were he wouldnโ€™t have found the love of his life even if he had been looking for her. Most men didnโ€™t.

โ€œGood God, Anthony, what has you frowning so? Not that olive. I saw it clearly and it didnโ€™t even touch you.โ€

Benedictโ€™s voice broke him out of his reverie, and Anthony blinked a few times before answering, โ€œNothing. Nothing at all.โ€

He hadnโ€™t, of course, shared his thoughts about his own mortality with anyone else, even his brothers. It was not the sort of thing one wanted to advertise. Hell, if someone had come up to him and said the same thing, he probably would have laughed him right out the door.

But no one else could understand the depth of the bond heโ€™d felt with his father. And no one could possibly understand the way Anthony felt it in his bones, how he simply knew that he could not live longer than his father had done. Edmund had been everything to him. Heโ€™d always aspired to be as great a

man as his father, knowing that that was unlikely, yet trying all the same. To actually achieve more than Edmund hadโ€”in any wayโ€”that was nothing short of impossible.

Anthonyโ€™s father was, quite simply, the greatest man heโ€™d ever known, possibly the greatest man whoโ€™d ever lived. To think that he might be more than that seemed conceited in the extreme.

Something had happened to him the night his father had died, when heโ€™d remained in his parentsโ€™ bedroom with the body, just sitting there for hours, watching his father and trying desperately to remember every moment theyโ€™d shared. It would be so easy to forget the little thingsโ€”how Edmund would squeeze Anthonyโ€™s upper arm when he needed encouragement. Or how he could recite from memory Balthazarโ€™s entire โ€œSigh No Moreโ€ song fromย Much Ado About Nothing,ย not because he thought it particularly meaningful but just because he liked it.

And when Anthony finally emerged from the room, the first streaks of dawn pinking the sky, he somehow knew that his days were numbered, and numbered in the same way Edmundโ€™s had been.

โ€œSpit it out,โ€ Benedict said, breaking into his thoughts once again. โ€œI wonโ€™t offer you a penny for your thoughts, since I know they canโ€™t possibly be worth that much, but what are you thinking about?โ€

Anthony suddenly sat up straighter, determined to force his attention back to the matter at hand. After all, he had a bride to choose, and that was surely serious business. โ€œWho is considered the diamond of this season?โ€ he asked.

His brothers paused for a moment to think on this, and then Colin said, โ€œEdwina Sheffield. Surely youโ€™ve seen her. Rather petite, with blond hair and blue eyes. You can usually spot her by the sheeplike crowd of lovesick suitors following her about.โ€

Anthony ignored his brotherโ€™s attempts at sarcastic humor. โ€œHas she a brain?โ€

Colin blinked, as if the question of a woman with a brain were one that had never occurred to him. โ€œYes, I rather think she does. I once heard her discussing mythology with Middlethorpe, and it sounded as if she had the right of it.โ€

โ€œGood,โ€ Anthony said, letting his glass of scotch hit the table with a thunk. โ€œThen Iโ€™ll marry her.โ€

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