The topic of rakes has, of course, been previously discussed in this column, and This Author has come to the conclusion that there are rakes, and there are Rakes.
Anthony Bridgerton is a Rake.
A rake (lower-case) is youthful and immature. He flaunts his exploits, behaves with utmost idiocy, and thinks himself dangerous to women.
A Rake (upper-case)ย knowsย he is dangerous to women.
He doesnโt flaunt his exploits because he doesnโt need to. He knows he will be whispered about by men and women alike, and in fact, heโd rather they didnโt whisper about him at all. He knows who he is and what he has done; further recountings are, to him, redundant.
He doesnโt behave like an idiot for the simple reason that he isnโt an idiot (any moreso than must be expected among all members of the male gender). He has little patience for the foibles of society, and quite frankly, most of the time This Author cannot say she blames him.
And if that doesnโt describe Viscount Bridgertonโsurely this seasonโs most eligible bachelorโto perfection, This Author shall retire Her quill immediately. The only question is: Will 1814 be the season he finally succumbs to the exquisite bliss of matrimony?
This Author Thinksโฆ Not.
LADY WHISTLEDOWNโS SOCIETY PAPERS, 20 APRIL 1814
โPlease donโt tell me,โ Kate Sheffield said to the room at large, โthat she is writing about Viscount Bridgerton again.โ
Her half-sister Edwina, younger by almost four years, looked up from behind the single-sheet newspaper. โHow could you tell?โ
โYouโre giggling like a madwoman.โ
Edwina giggled, shaking the blue damask sofa on which they both sat. โSee?โ Kate said, giving her a little poke in the arm. โYou always giggle
when she writes about some reprehensible rogue.โ But Kate grinned. There was little she liked better than teasing her sister. In a good-natured manner, of course.
Mary Sheffield, Edwinaโs mother, and Kateโs stepmother for nearly eighteen years, glanced up from her embroidery and pushed her spectacles farther up the bridge of her nose. โWhat are you two laughing about?โ
โKateโs in a snit because Lady Whistledown is writing about that rakish viscount again,โ Edwina explained.
โIโm not in a snit,โ Kate said, even though no one was listening. โBridgerton?โ Mary asked absently.
Edwina nodded. โYes.โ
โShe always writes about him.โ
โI think she just likes writing about rakes,โ Edwina commented.
โOf course she likes writing about rakes,โ Kate retorted. โIf she wrote about boring people, no one would buy her newspaper.โ
โThatโs not true,โ Edwina replied. โJust last week she wrote about us, and heaven knows weโre not the most interesting people in London.โ
Kate smiled at her sisterโs naรฏvetรฉ. Kate and Mary might not be the most interesting people in London, but Edwina, with her buttery-colored hair and startlingly pale blue eyes, had already been named the Incomparable of 1814. Kate, on the other hand, with her plain brown hair and eyes, was usually referred to as โthe Incomparableโs older sister.โ
She supposed there were worse monikers. At least no one had yet begun to
call her โthe Incomparableโs spinster sister.โ Which was a great deal closer to the truth than any of the Sheffields cared to admit. At twenty (nearly twenty-one, if one was going to be scrupulously honest about it), Kate was a bit long in the tooth to be enjoying her first season in London.
But there hadnโt really been any other choice. The Sheffields hadnโt been wealthy even when Kateโs father had been alive, and since heโd passed on five years earlier, theyโd been forced to economize even further. They certainly werenโt ready for the poorhouse, but they had to mind every penny and watch every pound.
With their straitened finances, the Sheffields could manage the funds for only one trip to London. Renting a houseโand a carriageโand hiring the bare minimum of servants for the season cost money. More money than they could afford to spend twice. As it was, theyโd had to save for five solid years to be able to afford this trip to London. And if the girls werenโt successful on the Marriage Martโฆwell, no one was going to clap them into debtorโs prison, but they would have to look forward to a quiet life of genteel poverty at some charmingly small cottage in Somerset.
And so the two girls were forced to make their debuts in the same year. It had been decided that the most logical time would be when Edwina was just seventeen and Kate almost twenty-one. Mary would have liked to have waited until Edwina was eighteen, and a bit more mature, but that would have made Kate nearly twenty-two, and heavens, but who would marry her then?
Kate smiled wryly. She hadnโt even wanted a season. Sheโd known from the outset that she wasnโt the sort who would capture the attention of theย ton. She wasnโt pretty enough to overcome her lack of dowry, and sheโd never learned to simper and mince and walk delicately, and do all those things other girls seemed to know how to do in the cradle. Even Edwina, who didnโt have a devious bone in her body, somehow knew how to stand and walk and sigh so that men came to blows just for the honor of helping her cross the street.
Kate, on the other hand, always stood with her shoulders straight and tall, couldnโt sit still if her life depended upon it, and walked as if she were in a race
โand why not? she always wondered. If one was going somewhere, what could possibly be the point in not getting there quickly?
As for her current season in London, she didnโt even like the city very much.
Oh, she was having a good enough time, and sheโd met quite a few nice people, but a London season seemed a horrible waste of money to a girl who would have been perfectly content to remain in the country and find some sensible man to marry there.
But Mary would have none of that. โWhen I married your father,โ sheโd said, โI vowed to love you and bring you up with all the care and affection Iโd give to a child of my own blood.โ
Kate had managed to get in a single, โButโโ before Mary carried on with, โI have a responsibility to your poor mother, God rest her soul, and part of that responsibility is to see you married off happily and securely.โ
โI could be happy and secure in the country,โ Kate had replied. Mary had countered, โThere are more men from which to choose in
London.โ
After which Edwina had joined in, insisting that she would be utterly miserable without her, and since Kate never could bear to see her sister unhappy, her fate had been sealed.
And so here she wasโsitting in a somewhat faded drawing room in a rented house in a section of London that was almost fashionable, andโฆ
She looked about mischievously.
โฆand she was about to snatch a newspaper from her sisterโs grasp. โKate!โ Edwina squealed, her eyes bugging out at the tiny triangle of
newsprint that remained between her right thumb and forefinger. โI wasnโt done yet!โ
โYouโve been reading it forever,โ Kate said with a cheeky grin. โBesides, I want to see what she has to say about Viscount Bridgerton today.โ
Edwinaโs eyes, which were usually compared to peaceful Scottish lochs, glinted devilishly. โYouโreย awfullyย interested in the viscount, Kate. Is there something youโre not telling us?โ
โDonโt be silly. I donโt even know the man. And if I did, I would probably
run in the opposite direction. He is exactly the sort of man the two of us should avoid at all costs. He could probably seduce an iceberg.โ
โKate!โ Mary exclaimed.
Kate grimaced. Sheโd forgotten her stepmother was listening. โWell, itโs true,โ she added. โIโve heard heโs had more mistresses than Iโve had birthdays.โ
Mary looked at her for a few seconds, as if trying to decide whether or not she wanted to respond, and then finally she said, โNot that this is an appropriate topic for your ears, but many men have.โ
โOh.โ Kate flushed. There was little less appealing than being decisively contradicted while one was trying to make a grand point. โWell, then, heโs had twice as many. Whatever the case, heโs far more promiscuous than most men, and not the sort Edwina ought to allow to court her.โ
โYouย are enjoying a season as well,โ Mary reminded her.
Kate shot Mary the most sarcastic of glances. They all knew that if the viscount chose to court a Sheffield, it would not be Kate.
โI donโt think there is anything in there thatโs going to alter your opinion,โ Edwina said with a shrug as she leaned toward Kate to get a better view of the newspaper. โShe doesnโt say very much aboutย him,ย actually. Itโs more of a treatise on the topic of rakes.โ
Kateโs eyes swept over the typeset words. โHmmph,โ she said, her favorite expression of disdain. โIโll wager sheโs correct. He probably wonโt come up to scratch this year.โ
โYou always think Lady Whistledown is correct,โ Mary murmured with a smile.
โShe usually is,โ Kate replied. โYou must admit, for a gossip columnist, she displays remarkable good sense. She has certainly been correct in her assessment of all the people I have met thus far in London.โ
โYou should make your own judgments, Kate,โ Mary said lightly. โIt is beneath you to base your opinions on a gossip column.โ
Kate knew her stepmother was right, but she didnโt want to admit it, and so she just let out another โHmmphโ and turned back to the paper in her hands.
Whistledownย was, without a doubt, the most interesting reading material in all London. Kate wasnโt entirely certain when the gossip column had begunโ sometime the previous year, sheโd heardโbut one thing was certain. Whoever Lady Whistledown was (and no oneย reallyย knew who she was), she was a well- connected member of theย ton. She had to be. No interloper could ever uncover all the gossip she printed in her columns every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.
Lady Whistledown always had all the latestย on-dits, and unlike other columnists, she wasnโt hesitant about using peopleโs full names. Having decided last week, for example, that Kate didnโt look good in yellow, she wrote, clear as day: โThe color yellow makes the dark-haired Miss Katharine Sheffield look like a singed daffodil.โ
Kate hadnโt minded the insult. Sheโd heard it said on more than one occasion that one could not consider oneself โarrivedโ until one had been insulted by Lady Whistledown. Even Edwina, who was a huge social success by anyoneโs measure, had been jealous that Kate had been singled out for an insult.
And even though Kate didnโt particularly want to be in London for a season, she figured that if she had to participate in the social whirl, she might as well not be a complete and utter failure. If getting insulted in a gossip column was to be her only sign of success, well then, so be it. Kate would take her triumphs where she may.
Now when Penelope Featherington bragged about being likened to an overripe citrus fruit in her tangerine satin, Kate could wave her arm and sigh with great drama, โYes, well, I am a singed daffodil.โ
โSomeday,โ Mary announced out of the blue, giving her spectacles yet another push with her index finger, โsomeone is going to discover that womanโs true identity, and then sheโs going to be in trouble.โ
Edwina looked at her mother with interest. โDo you really think someone will ferret her out? She has managed to keep her secret for over a year now.โ
โNothing that big can stay a secret forever,โ Mary replied. She jabbed her embroidery with her needle, pulling a long strand of yellow thread through the
fabric. โMark my words. Itโs all going to come out sooner or later, and when it does, a scandal the likes of which you have never seen is going to erupt all over town.โ
โWell, if I knew who she was,โ Kate announced, flipping the single-sheet newspaper over to page two, โIโd probably make her my best friend. Sheโs fiendishly entertaining. And no matter what anyone says, sheโs almost always right.โ
Just then, Newton, Kateโs somewhat overweight corgi, trotted into the room. โIsnโt that dog supposed to stay outside?โ Mary asked. Then she yelped,
โKate!โ as the dog angled over to her feet and panted as if waiting for a kiss.
โNewton, come here this minute,โ Kate ordered.
The dog gazed longingly at Mary, then waddled over to Kate, hopped up onto the sofa, and laid his front paws across her lap.
โHeโs covering you with fur,โ Edwina said.
Kate shrugged as she stroked his thick, caramel-colored coat. โI donโt mind.โ Edwina sighed, but she reached out and gave Newton a quick pat, anyway.
โWhat else does she say?โ she asked, leaning forward with interest. โI never did get to see page two.โ
Kate smiled at her sisterโs sarcasm. โNot much. A little something about the Duke and Duchess of Hastings, who apparently arrived in town earlier this week, a list of the food at Lady Danburyโs ball, which she proclaimed โsurprisingly delicious,โ and a rather unfortunate description of Mrs. Featheringtonโs gown Monday last.โ
Edwina frowned. โShe does seem to pick on the Featheringtons quite a bit.โ โAnd no wonder,โ Mary said, setting down her embroidery as she stood up.
โThat woman wouldnโt know how to pick out a dress color for her girls if a
rainbow wrapped itself right around her neck.โ โMother!โ Edwina exclaimed.
Kate clapped a hand over her mouth, trying not to laugh. Mary rarely made such opinionated pronouncements, but when she did, they were always marvelous.
โWell, itโs true. She keeps dressing her youngest in tangerine. Anyone can see that poor girl needs a blue or a mint green.โ
โYou dressed me in yellow,โ Kate reminded her.
โAnd Iโm sorry I did. That will teach me to listen to a shopgirl. I should never have doubted my own judgment. Weโll simply have to have that one cut down for Edwina.โ
Since Edwina was a full head shorter than Kate, and several shades more delicate, this would not be a problem.
โWhen you do,โ Kate said, turning to her sister, โmake sure you eliminate the ruffle on the sleeve. Itโs dreadfully distracting.ย Andย it itches. I had half a mind to rip it off right there at the Ashbourne ball.โ
Mary rolled her eyes. โI am both surprised and thankful that you saw fit to restrain yourself.โ
โI am surprised but not thankful,โ Edwina said with a mischievous smile. โJust think of the fun Lady Whistledown would have had withย that.โ
โAh, yes,โ Kate said, returning her grin. โI can see it now. โThe singed daffodil rips off her petals.โ โ
โI am going upstairs,โ Mary announced, shaking her head at her daughtersโ antics. โDo try not to forget that we have a party to attend this evening. You girls may want to get a bit of rest before we go out. Itโs sure to be another late night for us.โ
Kate and Edwina nodded and murmured promises to that effect as Mary gathered her embroidery and left the room. As soon as she was gone, Edwina turned to Kate and asked, โHave you decided what youโre going to wear tonight?โ
โThe green gauze, I think. I should wear white, I know, but I fear it does not suit me.โ
โIf you donโt wear white,โ Edwina said loyally, โthen neither shall I. I shall wear my blue muslin.โ
Kate nodded her approval as she glanced back at the newspaper in her hand, trying to balance Newton, who had flipped over onto his back and was angling to have his belly rubbed. โJust last week Mr. Berbrooke said you are an angel in blue. On account of it matching your eyes so well.โ
Edwina blinked in surprise. โMr. Berbrooke said that? To you?โ
Kate looked back up. โOf course. All of your beaux try to pass on their compliments through me.โ
โThey do? Whyever?โ
Kate smiled slowly and indulgently. โWell, now, Edwina, it might have something to do with the time you announced to the entire audience at the Smythe-Smith musicale that you could never marry without your sisterโs approval.โ
Edwinaโs cheeks turned just the slightest bit pink. โIt wasnโt the entire audience,โ she mumbled.
โIt might as well have been. The news traveled faster than fire on rooftops. I wasnโt even in the room at the time and it only took two minutes for me to hear about it.โ
Edwina crossed her arms and let out a โHmmphโ that made her sound rather like her older sister. โWell, itโs true, and I donโt care who knows it. I know Iโm expected to make a grand and brilliant match, but I donโt have to marry someone who will ill treat me. Anyone with the fortitude to actually impressย youย would have to be up to snuff.โ
โAm I so difficult to impress, then?โ
The two sisters looked at each other, then answered in unison, โYes.โ
But as Kate laughed along with Edwina, a niggling sense of guilt rose within her. All three Sheffields knew that it would be Edwina who would snag a
nobleman or marry into a fortune. It would be Edwina who would ensure that her family would not have to live out their lives in genteel poverty. Edwina was a beauty, while Kate wasโฆ
Kate was Kate.
Kate didnโt mind. Edwinaโs beauty was simply a fact of life. There were certain truths Kate had long since come to accept. Kate would never learn to waltz without trying to take the lead; sheโd always be afraid of electrical storms, no matter how often she told herself she was being silly; and no matter what she wore, no matter how she dressed her hair or pinched her cheeks, sheโd never be as pretty as Edwina.
Besides, Kate wasnโt certain that sheโd like all the attention Edwina received. Nor, she was coming to realize, would she relish the responsibility of having to marry well to provide for her mother and sister.
โEdwina,โ Kate said softly, her eyes growing serious, โyou donโt have to marry anyone you donโt like. You know that.โ
Edwina nodded, suddenly looking as if she might cry.
โIf you decide there isnโt a single gentleman in London who is good enough for you, then so be it. We shall simply go back to Somerset and enjoy our own company. Thereโs no one I like better, anyway.โ
โNor I,โ Edwina whispered.
โAnd if you do find a man who sweeps you off your feet, then Mary and I shall be delighted. You should not worry about leaving us, either. We shall get on fine with each other for company.โ
โYou might find someone to marry as well,โ Edwina pointed out.
Kate felt her lips twist into a small smile. โI might,โ she allowed, knowing that it probably wasnโt true. She didnโt want to remain a spinster her entire life, but she doubted she would find a husband here in London. โPerhaps one of your lovesick suitors will turn to me once he realizes you are unattainable,โ she teased.
Edwina swatted her with a pillow. โDonโt be silly.โ
โBut Iโm not!โ Kate protested. And she wasnโt. Quite frankly, this seemed to her the most likely avenue by which she might actually find a husband in town.
โDo you know what sort of man Iโd like to marry?โ Edwina asked, her eyes turning dreamy.
Kate shook her head. โA scholar.โ
โAย scholar?โ
โA scholar,โ Edwina said firmly.
Kate cleared her throat. โIโm not certain youโll find many of those in town for the season.โ
โI know.โ Edwina let out a little sigh. โBut the truth isโand you know this even if I am not supposed to let on in publicโIโm really rather bookish. Iโd much rather spend my day in a library than gadding about in Hyde Park. I think I should enjoy life with a man who enjoyed scholarly pursuits as well.โ
โRight. Hmmmโฆโ Kateโs mind worked frantically. Edwina wasnโt likely to find a scholar back in Somerset, either. โYou know, Edwina, it might be difficult to find you a true scholar outside the university towns. You might have to settle for a man who likes to read and learn as you do.โ
โThat would be all right,โ Edwina said happily. โIโd be quite content with an amateur scholar.โ
Kate breathed a sigh of relief. Surely they could find someone in London who liked to read.
โAnd do you know what?โ Edwina added. โYou truly cannot tell a book by its cover. All sorts of people are amateur scholars. Why, even that Viscount Bridgerton Lady Whistledown keeps talking about might be a scholar at heart.โ
โBite your tongue, Edwina. You are not to have anything to do with Viscount Bridgerton. Everyone knows he is the worst sort of rake. In fact, heโs the worst rake, period. In all London. In the entire country!โ
โI know, I was just using him as an example. Besides, heโs not likely to choose a bride this year, anyway. Lady Whistledown said so, and you yourself said that she is almost always right.โ
Kate patted her sister on the arm. โDonโt worry. We will find you a suitable husband. Butย notโnot not not not not Viscount Bridgerton!โ
At that very moment, the subject of their discussion was relaxing at Whiteโs with two of his three younger brothers, enjoying a late afternoon drink.
Anthony Bridgerton leaned back in his leather chair, regarded his scotch with a thoughtful expression as he swirled it about, and then announced, โIโm thinking about getting married.โ
Benedict Bridgerton, who had been indulging in a habit his mother detested
โtipping his chair drunkenly on the back two legsโfell over.
Colin Bridgerton started to choke.
Luckily for Colin, Benedict regained his seat with enough time to smack him soundly on the back, sending a green olive sailing across the table.
It narrowly missed Anthonyโs ear.
Anthony let the indignity pass without comment. He was all too aware that his sudden declaration had come as a bit of a surprise.
Well, perhaps more than a bit. โComplete,โ โtotal,โ and โutterโ were words that came to mind.
Anthony knew that he did not fit the image of a man who had settling down on his mind. Heโd spent the last decade as the worst sort of rake, taking pleasure where he may. For as he well knew, life was short and certainly meant to be enjoyed. Oh, heโd had a certain code of honor. He never dallied with well-bred young women. Anyone who might have any right to demand marriage was strictly off-limits.
With four younger sisters of his own, Anthony had a healthy degree of respect for the good reputations of gently bred women. Heโd already nearly
fought a duel for one of his sisters, all over a slight to her honor. And as for the other threeโฆhe freely admitted that he broke out in a cold sweat at the mere thought of their getting involved with a man who bore a reputation like his.
No, he certainly wasnโt about to despoil some other gentlemanโs younger sister.
But as for the other sort of womenโthe widows and actresses who knew what they wanted and what they were getting intoโheโd enjoyed their company and enjoyed it well. Since the day he left Oxford and headed west to London, heโd not been without a mistress.
Sometimes, he thought wryly, heโd not been without two.
Heโd ridden in nearly every horse race society had to offer, heโd boxed at Gentleman Jacksonโs, and heโd won more card games than he could count. (Heโd lost a few, too, but he disregarded those.) Heโd spent the decade of his twenties in a mindful pursuit of pleasure, tempered only by his overwhelming sense of responsibility to his family.
Edmund Bridgertonโs death had been both sudden and unexpected; heโd not had a chance to make any final requests of his eldest son before he perished. But if he had, Anthony was certain that he would have asked him to care for his mother and siblings with the same diligence and affection Edmund had displayed.
And so in between Anthonyโs rounds of parties and horse races, heโd sent his brothers to Eton and Oxford, gone to a mind-numbing number of piano recitals given by his sisters (no easy feat; three out of four of them were tone deaf), and kept a close and watchful eye on the family finances. With seven brothers and sisters, he saw it as his duty to make sure there was enough money to secure all of their futures.
As he grew closer to thirty, heโd realized that he was spending more and more time tending to his heritage and family and less and less in his old pursuit of decadence and pleasure. And heโd realized that he liked it that way. He still kept a mistress, but never more than one at a time, and he discovered that he no longer felt the need to enter every horse race or stay late at a party just to win that last hand of cards.
His reputation, of course, stayed with him. He didnโt mind that, actually.
There were certain benefits to being thought Englandโs most reprehensible rake. He was nearly universally feared, for example.
That was always a good thing.
But now it was time for marriage. He ought to settle down, have a son. He had a title to pass on, after all. He did feel a rather sharp twinge of regretโand perhaps a touch of guilt as wellโover the fact that it was unlikely that heโd live to see his son into adulthood. But what could he do? He was the firstborn Bridgerton of a firstborn Bridgerton of a firstborn Bridgerton eight times over. He had a dynastic responsibility to be fruitful and multiply.
Besides, he took some comfort in knowing that heโd leave three able and caring brothers behind. Theyโd see to it that his son was brought up with the love and honor that every Bridgerton enjoyed. His sisters would coddle the boy, and his mother might spoil himโฆ
Anthony actually smiled a bit as he thought of his large and often boisterous family. His son would not need a father to be well loved.
And whatever children he siredโwell, they probably wouldnโt remember him after he was gone. Theyโd be young, unformed. It had not escaped Anthonyโs notice that of all the Bridgerton children, he, the eldest, was the one most deeply affected by their fatherโs death.
Anthony downed another sip of his scotch and straightened his shoulders, pushing such unpleasant ruminations from his mind. He needed to focus on the matter at hand, namely, the pursuit of a wife.
Being a discerning and somewhat organized man, heโd made a mental list of requirements for the position. First, she ought to be reasonably attractive. She neednโt be a raving beauty (although that would be nice), but if he was going to have to bed her, he figured a bit of attraction ought to make the job more pleasant.
Second, she couldnโt be stupid. This, Anthony mused, might be the most difficult of his requirements to fill. He was not universally impressed by the mental prowess of London debutantes. The last time heโd made the mistake of engaging a young chit fresh out of the schoolroom in conversation, sheโd been
unable to discuss anything other than food (sheโd had a plate of strawberries in her hand at the time) and the weather (and she hadnโt even gottenย thatย right; when Anthony had asked if she thought the weather was going to turn inclement, sheโd replied, โIโm sure I donโt know. Iโve never been to Clement.โ)
He might be able to avoid conversation with a wife who was less than brilliant, but he didย notย want stupid children.
Thirdโand this was the most importantโshe couldnโt be anyone with whom he might actually fall in love.
Under no circumstances would this rule be broken.
He wasnโt a complete cynic; he knew that true love existed. Anyone whoโd ever been in the same room with his parents knew that true love existed.
But love was a complication he wished to avoid. He had no desire for his life to be visited by that particular miracle.
And since Anthony was used to getting what he wanted, he had no doubt that he would find an attractive, intelligent woman with whom he would never fall in love. And what was the problem with that? Chances were he wouldnโt have found the love of his life even if he had been looking for her. Most men didnโt.
โGood God, Anthony, what has you frowning so? Not that olive. I saw it clearly and it didnโt even touch you.โ
Benedictโs voice broke him out of his reverie, and Anthony blinked a few times before answering, โNothing. Nothing at all.โ
He hadnโt, of course, shared his thoughts about his own mortality with anyone else, even his brothers. It was not the sort of thing one wanted to advertise. Hell, if someone had come up to him and said the same thing, he probably would have laughed him right out the door.
But no one else could understand the depth of the bond heโd felt with his father. And no one could possibly understand the way Anthony felt it in his bones, how he simply knew that he could not live longer than his father had done. Edmund had been everything to him. Heโd always aspired to be as great a
man as his father, knowing that that was unlikely, yet trying all the same. To actually achieve more than Edmund hadโin any wayโthat was nothing short of impossible.
Anthonyโs father was, quite simply, the greatest man heโd ever known, possibly the greatest man whoโd ever lived. To think that he might be more than that seemed conceited in the extreme.
Something had happened to him the night his father had died, when heโd remained in his parentsโ bedroom with the body, just sitting there for hours, watching his father and trying desperately to remember every moment theyโd shared. It would be so easy to forget the little thingsโhow Edmund would squeeze Anthonyโs upper arm when he needed encouragement. Or how he could recite from memory Balthazarโs entire โSigh No Moreโ song fromย Much Ado About Nothing,ย not because he thought it particularly meaningful but just because he liked it.
And when Anthony finally emerged from the room, the first streaks of dawn pinking the sky, he somehow knew that his days were numbered, and numbered in the same way Edmundโs had been.
โSpit it out,โ Benedict said, breaking into his thoughts once again. โI wonโt offer you a penny for your thoughts, since I know they canโt possibly be worth that much, but what are you thinking about?โ
Anthony suddenly sat up straighter, determined to force his attention back to the matter at hand. After all, he had a bride to choose, and that was surely serious business. โWho is considered the diamond of this season?โ he asked.
His brothers paused for a moment to think on this, and then Colin said, โEdwina Sheffield. Surely youโve seen her. Rather petite, with blond hair and blue eyes. You can usually spot her by the sheeplike crowd of lovesick suitors following her about.โ
Anthony ignored his brotherโs attempts at sarcastic humor. โHas she a brain?โ
Colin blinked, as if the question of a woman with a brain were one that had never occurred to him. โYes, I rather think she does. I once heard her discussing mythology with Middlethorpe, and it sounded as if she had the right of it.โ
โGood,โ Anthony said, letting his glass of scotch hit the table with a thunk. โThen Iโll marry her.โ