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Chapter no 6

The Reappearance of Rachel Price

Snow on a warm April morning that tasted like early summer, the road sun- dappled, trees in full, green bloom. Fake snow. Made of shredded paper, Ramsey told her. Not everywhere, that would have been far too expensive and they didnโ€™t have that kind of budget. But enough toย set the scene,ย to cover the ground around the car.

โ€œItโ€™s the exact same car,โ€ย Ramsey said, too pleased with himself.ย โ€œA 2007 Honda Accord in royal blue.โ€

Bel pretended to be impressed. Well, it couldnโ€™t be the exact same car; that one must be in police storage somewhere, but the same in all the ways that mattered. Parked roughly up on the shoulder there in the exact spot it had been found, matched up to the crime scene photos. In the middle of a small, nameless road that led out onto US Route 2, toward Moose Brook State Park at the other end. It was blocked o๏ฌ€ย forย ๏ฌlming, vans and trucks parked sideways across the entrance and exit, a morning chorus of angry horns.

Belโ€™s eyes were stuck, tracing the outline of the car. The same car Rachel was driving that day, the one she disappeared from, the one she left Bel behind in.

Ramsey was watching her.

โ€œLet me know if this is too weird for you,โ€ย he said.

โ€œThis is too weird for me.โ€

But Ramsey had already been called away by someone. There were four more crew members milling around today, another camera rig, more microphones, more metal trunks, more voices. One right in her ear now.

โ€œHey, Bel,โ€ย Ash said, the sound of him so out of place in this road that was out of season, out of time.

Bel turned from the snowy scene to face him.

A small camera was mounted on his shoulder, theย ๏ฌ‚u๏ฌ€y pad of an external microphone attached on top. The red recording light blinking. Bel blinked back at it.

โ€œRams wanted me toย ๏ฌlm some behind-the-scenes,โ€ย he explained.ย โ€œFake snow,โ€ย Bel said.

โ€œYeah, that stu๏ฌ€ย is a nightmare. Been here sinceย ๏ฌve. Just got to get through theย ๏ฌlming and life can go back to normal.โ€

โ€œAmen.โ€

Hey, maybe they werenโ€™t so di๏ฌ€erent after all. Actually, forget that: Ash was wearing a white-and-black candy-striped shirt tucked into greenย ๏ฌ‚ared pants with bright pink clip-on suspenders. His sleeves were rolled up, revealing one tattooed forearm.

โ€œSee you came dressed for the winter weather,โ€ย she said.ย โ€œAlways.โ€

โ€œLeast youโ€™ll scare the bears away,โ€ย she said, trying to be as quick as he was.

โ€œWait, thereโ€™s bears in New Hampshire?โ€ย He swallowed, looking nervously at the trees.

Bel laughed, but so did Ash. It was a joke. That was annoying, now heโ€™d think he was funny. Which he wasnโ€™t, by the way.

Ash shu๏ฌ„ed.ย โ€œRamsey said you were ill on Thursday. I hope youโ€™re feeling better.โ€

โ€œWhat are those?โ€ย She pointed at him.

โ€œTattoos. Do they not have those in New Hampshire?โ€

โ€œYeah, but whatย areย they?โ€ย Bel said, studying the designs tracking up just one arm, paleย ๏ฌ‚esh running like tributaries around the gray pictures.

โ€œTheyโ€™re memories. Family stu๏ฌ€, you know.โ€ โ€œNo, I donโ€™t know,โ€ย she said, pushing him.

He held out the arm, camera still rolling.ย โ€œThat rose, thatโ€™s for my sister, Rosie. Took the thorns out because sheโ€™s nice all the time. The lily next to it, thatโ€™s for my sisterโ€”you guessed itโ€”Lily.โ€

โ€œThe leaf?โ€

โ€œAย ๏ฌg leaf, for my oldest sister, Eve. Sheโ€™s married to Ramsey. Iโ€™m the youngest, the baby. Thatโ€™s me, the old camp๏ฌre. Iโ€™m Ash, by the way. Never properly introduced myself. Ash Maddox. That bird above my elbow is my mum, Bridget, but everyone calls her Birdie.โ€ย Ash twisted his arm, showing her the bare, exposed patch by his wrist.ย โ€œGonna get one for Ramsey too. He doesnโ€™t like the idea of being an old horned sheep.โ€

โ€œThe camp๏ฌreโ€™s the worst one,โ€ย Bel said, taking a shot, getting him back for the bears.

โ€œTell me about it.โ€ย An amused sni๏ฌ€ย that meant something more.ย โ€œTheyโ€™re all amazing people, my mum, my sisters, Rams. Iโ€™m the only fuckup.โ€

โ€œHave you considered, maybe, just trying to be normal?โ€

A car pulled into the road then, saving Ash from her. They must have moved the truck to let it through.

โ€œRamsey, sheโ€™s here!โ€ย Ash called, using it as an excuse to walk away from Bel. He hadnโ€™t lasted long.ย โ€œSheโ€™s here.โ€

Who wasย she? Not the horsefucker again, surely. Bel was the only one in the family scheduled toย ๏ฌlm today, the only one they needed, because sheโ€™d been the only one there when Rachel disappeared.

The car rolled to a stop thirty feet away, sunlight glaring against the windshield.

The passenger-side door opened. Rachel Price stepped out.

Bel froze.

A cold winter wind that only she could feel, inside and out, as she came undone.

It couldnโ€™t be.

Rachel covered her eyes against the sun. Dressed in the same clothes she was wearing when she disappeared. Black jeans and a red long-sleeved top, under a large gray quilted coat. The coat sheโ€™d left behind in the car. The same age sheโ€™d been thatย ๏ฌnal day.

โ€œHi, hello,โ€ย she said to nobody in particular, in the crisp voice of a New Yorker.

โ€œHi, Jenn, welcome back,โ€ย Ramsey said, jogging over.ย โ€œBel, let me introduce you.โ€

He caught Belโ€™s elbow, unsticking her, and walked her over to Rachel. Not Rachel.

A fake Rachel.

Bel could see that now, her mind thawing out, dripping cold down the back of her neck.

โ€œThanks for the fucking heads-up,โ€ย she hissed, taking her elbow back from Ramsey, Ash following them with the camera.

Ramsey glanced down, eyes kind and concerned. Yeah, right.

โ€œI told you it was a reenactment,โ€ย he said.ย โ€œThought you assumed.โ€ย They stopped.

โ€œBel, this is Jenn, the actress whoโ€™ll be playing the role of your mum today. Jenn, this is Bel, Rachel Priceโ€™s daughter.โ€

โ€œGood to meet you,โ€ย Jenn said, gum popping in her mouth, sticking out her hand.

Bel didnโ€™t take it. She was busy studying the stranger in front of her. The di๏ฌ€erences were clear, now she was this close: the color of the eyes, the shape of the chin, no birthmark on the forehead. But for a moment thereโ€ฆ

โ€œYou look like her,โ€ย Bel said, instead of a greeting.ย โ€œSo do you,โ€ย Jenn replied.

As if she didnโ€™t dislike this woman enough already.ย โ€œNot as pretty, though,โ€ย Bel added as a quick jab.

โ€œAw, well, your mom was beautiful. Iโ€™m sorry about what happened to her,โ€ย she said,ย ๏ฌddling with a strand of her yellow-blond hair.ย โ€œIโ€™m obsessed with this case, oh my gosh. I listened to a podcast about it last fall, called

Wine and Murderย or something, and Iโ€™m obsessed. Ob-sessed.โ€ย She split up the word, holding on to it like a snake.

โ€œYes, you said. Three times.โ€

Belโ€™s eyesย ๏ฌ‚icked over to Ramsey. A blink, slow enough for him to read. Fake snow and fake Rachels. This gum-popping idiot? He blinked back, like he almost agreed with her.

He clapped his hands.ย โ€œLong day ahead of us. Sooner we get started, the sooner we can wrap up.โ€

โ€œNot soon enough.โ€ โ€œThatโ€™s the spirit, Bel.โ€

โ€”

Everyone was waiting. Ash stood there beside the car, headphones cushioned around his neck, beckoning Bel into the backseat.

Fake Rachel was behind the wheel.ย โ€œYou guys donโ€™t actually want me to drive today, right? I donโ€™t have a license.โ€

Ramsey shook his head, from the passenger seat.

โ€œOK,โ€ย Ash said, a little louder this time, gesturing at the backseat again.

The window on the other side was rolled down, a camera rig mounted half inside the car, to point directly into Belโ€™s face. Another camera set up on a tripod in front of the car, shooting through the windshield. Battery- powered light boxes hemming them in.

โ€œLetโ€™s get started,โ€ย Ramsey said out of his open window.ย โ€œHop in, Bel.โ€ย Hop in.ย Like it was that fucking simple. Oh, sheโ€™ll justย hop in,ย all right.

Bel took a step toward the backseat, the knot growing in her gut, a fake

ball of ice, sharp where it melted. She ducked her head, held her breath and climbed inside, Ash hovering too close like he could somehow speed the process along. Bel sat back, hands balled together in her lap, pressing against her stomach, kneading the knot.

โ€œYou OK?โ€ย Ash said, like he was a fucking mind reader now. Bel lashed out at him. He was the closest, in range.

โ€œJust shut the door,โ€ย she snapped,ย ๏ฌ‚inching when he did.

Done, OK. She was in the backseat. This wasnโ€™t so bad now, was it? No di๏ฌ€erent from the front. Not really.

โ€œWe shot the full reenactment yesterday.โ€ย Ramsey turned around to bring Bel into the conversation.ย โ€œLouise from the crew, her two-year-old was playing young you, Bel. Very cute. But while we have theย realย you today, this is more the interview part of the sequence. Iโ€™ll ask Bel questions, and Jenn, today I donโ€™t want you to speak or react in any way, almost like youโ€™re not here.โ€

Fake Rachel was just a prop, like the paper snow and the undrinkable water.

โ€œWhyย isย she here, then?โ€ย Bel asked.

โ€œWeโ€™re going to interpose the interview with shots from the reenactment, so you go from young Bel to you, sitting in that same seat, talking us through what might be happening, what youโ€™re feeling. Itโ€™s hard shooting a reenactment when you donโ€™t actually know what happened, but I thought it was important for Rachel to have a presence in both time zones. Here, even though sheโ€™s not.โ€

Bel had something smart to say to that, but it was too late, Ash was in front of the car, holding the clapper board in front of the camera.

Someone else shouted,ย โ€œAction!โ€ย loud enough that birds scattered.

โ€œHow does it feel, Bel?โ€ย Ramsey turned to her.ย โ€œSitting here, in the same car, on the same road where your mum disappeared? To be reliving this moment?โ€

Did it count as reliving when you couldnโ€™t remember theย ๏ฌrst time?ย โ€œFine,โ€ย she said.ย โ€œBit strange.โ€

โ€œWhy is it strange?โ€

Because there was a woman cosplaying as her dead mom, sitting in front of her.

โ€œThat Iโ€™m here, in the same way it happened sixteen years ago. I donโ€™t remember being here, but I know that I was. Right here, in a little blue coat.โ€

She was wearing a blue sweater today, like Ramsey asked, the same color, to match. Look how Louise-from-the-crewโ€™s cute two-year-old grows

up into this haunted young woman, you can tell by the bright blue.

โ€œI wonder, does being here in these exact same conditions, does it spark anything in your memory? Any images, feelings?โ€

โ€œShit, yes, now you mention it, Iโ€™ve just suddenly remembered everything and solved the entire case, can you believe it? What a plot twist.โ€ย She didnโ€™t mean to do that. Just that Ramsey was now the closest, in range. And it was uncomfortable here, on the backseat. But memory didnโ€™t work like that. If it was gone, it was gone, or it had never existed in theย ๏ฌrst place. If Ramsey needed her to have some big revelation for hisย ๏ฌlm to

work, she was going to have to disappoint him.ย โ€œSorry.โ€

โ€œNever apologize,โ€ย Ramsey said.ย โ€œI like the real stu๏ฌ€, the unguarded moments.โ€

Unguarded? She was as guarded as they came,ย mate.ย Layers of iron and steel between her skin.

โ€œMaybe itโ€™s better to start with the little that weย doย know,โ€ย Ramsey said, defusing.ย โ€œTell us how you were found. I know you donโ€™t remember, but what youโ€™ve learned since.โ€

โ€œThis is all I know, from Julian Trippโ€™s testimony. I was found here, in the backseat,โ€ย she said, so tense that she wasnโ€™t truly sitting against it, stopping herself from sinking in, a hot ache in her lower back.ย โ€œIt was freezing outside. Snowing. The real stu๏ฌ€, not paper. But the car engine had been left on, so the heaters were still running, and the headlights were on. Mr. Tripp was driving the other way from Route Two. He spotted the lights, saw that the car had veered o๏ฌ€ย onto the shoulder, half on the road. So he pulled up to investigate, see if anybody needed help.โ€ย Bel glanced out the window, as she might have done sixteen years ago, through smaller eyes. Had she been scared at the time, sitting here in the dark, all alone? Did she even know what scared was?ย โ€œHe came up to this window. It was dark inside, but he had aย ๏ฌ‚ashlight, saw me here in the backseat. He told police that he called out a few times:ย Hello? Is anybody here?ย When he got no answer, he opened the door to see if I was OK.โ€

โ€œAnd were you?โ€ย Ramsey asked, even though he already had all the answers.

โ€œI wasย ๏ฌne, he told police. I didnโ€™t seem distressed, like maybe I hadnโ€™t been left that long. The heaters were on, so I wasnโ€™t cold at all. I wasย ๏ฌne, not crying. He said I was babbling words and sounds, nonsensical, trying to talk to him. Heโ€™d met me before, but he didnโ€™t recognize me right away. After he checked that I was OK, Mr. Tripp called the police. This was all just after six oโ€™clock that evening. He sat with me, to keep us warm while we waited for the police to turn up. He gave me a juice box that he found in the footwell. He saw Rachelโ€™s coat and purse there on the passenger seat, where you are now.โ€

Ramsey was quiet, a reverential silence for the front passenger seat. Which was stupid, because this wasnโ€™t even the same car. Rachel had never been here.

โ€œIt was cold that evening. Freezing, even.โ€ย Ramsey studied his phone screen.ย โ€œTwenty-three degrees Fahrenheit, or minusย ๏ฌve Celsius already at six oโ€™clock.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s cold,โ€ย Bel agreed.

โ€œNot easy for someone to survive out there in just a thin red top, without their coat,โ€ย Ramsey said, running his hands over said coat. Not the real one; the police had that too.

โ€œNo, it wouldnโ€™t be easy,โ€ย Bel said. Unless youโ€™d planned it.

โ€œBut she might not have been out in the elements for long,โ€ย Ramsey continued.ย โ€œPolice brought in a K-9 unit the following morning. Sni๏ฌ€er dogs who followed Rachelโ€™s scent from the abandoned car. They tracked her scent thirty yards up the road that wayโ€โ€”he pointed out the windshield

โ€”โ€œwhere they lost the trail, in the middle of the road. That might have been down to the snowy, windy conditions, and it doesnโ€™t mean that Rachel didnโ€™t walk into the trees, but police initially thought this indicated that Rachel got into another vehicle there, thatโ€™s why the trail suddenly ends. Whether by her own will or not.โ€

โ€œWouldnโ€™t need your coat if youโ€™re getting into another car,โ€ย Bel said, putting an end to that thread of discussion, cutting it o๏ฌ€ย like Rachelโ€™s trail,

vanished in the wind.

โ€œYouโ€™ve touched on something that many online theorists obsess over. The fact that the engine was left on, and the heaters too. If someone did abduct Rachel from the car, people theorize that they left the engine on and shut all the doors on purpose, to keep you safe, Bel, so you wouldnโ€™t freeze to death. People think this possible abductor could have been someone known to you, someone who cared about you and didnโ€™t want harm to come to you.โ€

That had been one of the prosecutionโ€™s theoretical arguments against her dad. Scrabbling at straws for their weak case.

Bel shrugged.ย โ€œI donโ€™t think so,โ€ย she said.ย โ€œIf someone did take Rachel from the car, the engine was probably already running, and if they shut the doors, maybe itโ€™s because killing a two-year-old would have gone against their moral code. Or they thought the crime scene would be more inconspicuous with the doors shut. Or maybe it was Rachel herself who did that, who left me here. Whether it was meant to be for a few minutes orโ€ฆย longer.โ€

All more plausible. Rachel walking away from the car, walking away from her life, leaving Bel behind, but she didnโ€™t want her daughter to actually die in the process. Mother of the year right there.

โ€œOn the topic of public opinion, of the enduring obsession with this mysterious, unsolvable caseโ€ฆโ€

He should talk to Fake Rachel there. Sheโ€™d listened to one podcast and she was Ob-sessed.

โ€œDo you mind if I ask you about Phillip Alves?โ€ย Well, heโ€™d already asked, permission or not.ย โ€œThatโ€™sย ๏ฌne.โ€ย Bel cleared her throat.

โ€œPhillip Alves, a plumber from Boston, who was thirty-seven at the time of Rachelโ€™s disappearance, becameย ๏ฌxated on this case when itย ๏ฌrst hit the news cycle. An obsession that only grew as time passed without answers. He traveled to Gorham, convinced he was the one destined to solve this case, toย ๏ฌnd Rachel Price. Police suspect heโ€™d been watching your house, going

through your trash, taking photos. Can you tell us what he did to your uncle Je๏ฌ€ย and aunt Sherry back then?โ€

โ€œIt was in the early days,โ€ย she said,ย โ€œbefore my dadโ€™s arrest. The police were around a lot, as you can imagine, wanting to talk to everybody. Phillip Alves dressed up as a police o๏ฌƒcer and went toย interviewย Je๏ฌ€ย and Sherry, asking questions about Rachel and our family. They didnโ€™t realize he was an imposter, only found out when they told Police Chief Dave Winter about this interview, but police couldnโ€™tย ๏ฌnd him.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s believed that Phillip made regular trips to Gorham,โ€ย Ramsey said,ย โ€œover the following months and years, to stalk your family, to search for Rachel, growing more unstable. His wife left him, lost his job because he spent all day researching, reading the message boards. His obsession reached another boiling point in October 2014. Can you tell us about that incident?โ€

Bel actually could this time, from her own memories, from her statements to police.

โ€œUh, I was eight years old, in elementary school. It was a Thursday, and I was waiting for my dad to pick me up from school. But this police o๏ฌƒcer turns up instead, tells my teacher heโ€™s supposed to collect me. She believes him, because of the uniform and the badge. So I go with him, he takes me to his car, tells me to climb into the backseat and put my seat belt on. I did. But he wasnโ€™t a police o๏ฌƒcer. It was Phillip Alves.โ€

โ€œHeย kidnappedย you,โ€ย Ramsey said, voice breathy, in the shape of a gasp, like he didnโ€™t know exactly how the story ended. Besides, Bel didnโ€™t like using that word. So dramatic.

โ€œHe didnโ€™t really take me anywhere, and I didnโ€™tย disappearย for long. He drove a couple blocks away, parked, then turned around to talk to me. Kind of like you are now.โ€

Ramsey didnโ€™t like that comparison, she could tell. And Bel didnโ€™t like being here, in the backseat again.

โ€œWhat did he want to talk about?โ€

โ€œHe wanted to ask me questions. Well, he was kind of screaming from the start. Sweating, angry.ย Tell me what you saw that day,โ€ย Bel whisper-

yelled in the voice of Phillip Alves.ย โ€œYou saw who took Rachel, tell me who it was. You have to remember something, you were right there. I need to know what you saw.โ€ย She stopped; it was hurting her throat.

โ€œWas that terrifying for you?โ€ย Ramsey asked.ย โ€œEight years old in a strangerโ€™s car and heโ€™s screaming in your face, demanding answers you didnโ€™t have?โ€

Bel had been old enough to know fear then. But she was even older now, and knew it was better to keep that to herself.

โ€œI just kept sayingย I donโ€™t know.ย That teacher called the police right after letting me go, realizing her mistake. Dave Winter, chief of police, heโ€™s the one who found me, got me out of the car. I was onlyย goneย about seven, eight minutes. Phillip was arrested, and they realized he was the same man whoโ€™d interviewed Je๏ฌ€ย and Sherry. That heโ€™d been stalking us for years.โ€

โ€œPolice of course looked into Phillip, in connection with Rachelโ€™s disappearance, but found no evidence of his involvement,โ€ย Ramsey said, rounding o๏ฌ€ย the story for her.ย โ€œPhillip pled guilty to charges of stalking, kidnapping and impersonating a police o๏ฌƒcer, and served three years in state prison. He was released six years ago, but upon his release, your whole familyย ๏ฌled a restraining order against him, is that right?โ€

โ€œYep. Heโ€™s not allowed anywhere near us.โ€

Ramsey cleared his throat.ย โ€œWeโ€™ve actually been trying to contact Phillip, to see if heโ€™ll talk to us for the documentary. If weย ๏ฌnd him and he agrees to an interview, is there any message you would want to pass along?โ€

Bel thought about that for a moment, now she was ten years older and ten years meaner.ย โ€œFuck you, I guess. Why do you think you deserve the truth more than anybody else?โ€

Ramsey looked pleased with that answer.

โ€œGood,โ€ย he said.ย โ€œThatโ€™s really good, Bel. OK, I think we should stop for lunch.โ€

โ€”

Lunch was a sad, wilted sandwich and a bag of chips. Bel ate hers silently, watching Ash and Jamesย ๏ฌddle with the camera rig in the car window, Ash being pointed around here and there, go get this, go get that.

Fake Rachel was standing close by, facing the other way. She hadnโ€™t eaten because she was o๏ฌ€ย carbs, apparently, had an audition next week. Made sure everyone knew that.

โ€œIโ€™ve not done a documentary before,โ€ย Jenn said to one of the crew.

Louise, Bel gathered, the mother of the little Fake Bel.

โ€œNo? What do you think of this case? Mind-boggling, huh?โ€ย Louise asked her, checking quickly side to side, making sure they werenโ€™t being overheard.

Surprise, Bel was standing right here, twenty feet behind them. Should have checked harder.

โ€œIsnโ€™t it?!โ€ย Jenn said.ย โ€œLike, how did they disappear in the mall, just vanish into thin air, and then the kid turns up here, alone?โ€

The kidย didnโ€™t know either.

โ€œJust crazy,โ€ย Louise agreed.ย โ€œWhat do you think happened?โ€

โ€œHonestly,โ€ย Jenn said, her abrasive voice dipping into whispers, not any quieter.ย โ€œI think itโ€™s pretty obvious what happened.โ€

Obvious, huh? Please, do share.ย โ€œIt was the husband.โ€

The knot outgrew Belโ€™s gut all at once. Winding up her spine, python- strong.

โ€œHe must have killed Rachel. That makes the most sense.โ€

โ€œI guess itโ€™s always the husband,โ€ย Louise said, half committed to it.

โ€œI feel bad for the daughter, honestly,โ€ย Jenn continued.ย โ€œWhat a sad, messed-up life.โ€

Belโ€™sย ๏ฌst closed around the chip packet, squeezing it to death. How fucking dare she? Give Bel two minutes alone with her, then sheโ€™d have a sad, messed-up face. Best of luck with the audition.

Bel threw the balled-up packet toward Fake Rachelโ€™s head.ย โ€œHey!โ€

It made contact.

Ten points.

But Bel was already moving past them, shoes angry and fast against the rough dirt road. She didnโ€™t look back.

Was that what they all thought, the crew? The extra ones today and the original four, the ones Bel was starting to trust. Ash? Ramsey? Maybe Bel had never been in control of the story, just a prop, repositioned where they wanted her.

The knot grew inside, pulling harder, so Bel walked faster, almost a run.

Beyond the replica car, footprints in the fake snow, toward the thick canvas of trees.

They swallowed her whole, welcoming her into their shadows, vanishing her.

โ€œBel?โ€

Well, not quite.

โ€œOi!โ€ย A voice followed her into the trees. Ash.

โ€œOi,โ€ย Bel repeated, picking up her pace.ย โ€œDonโ€™tย oiย me, what even is that?โ€

โ€œWhere are you going?โ€ย He struggled to keep up, the hem of his pants snagging on the forestย ๏ฌ‚oor.

โ€œIโ€™m storming o๏ฌ€,โ€ย she spat.

โ€œOh, right,โ€ย he said.ย โ€œC-could you do that a bit later? Weโ€™ve got a few more scenes to shoot.โ€

Bel turned back, wild๏ฌre in her eyes, a growl in her throat.ย โ€œFuck o๏ฌ€, Harry Styles.โ€

So he did.

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