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Chapter no 11

The Reappearance of Rachel Price

They stood around in the living roomโ€”Bel, Dad and Rachelโ€”not knowing what to say to each other, what to do, how to be, the roomย ๏ฌzzing with the absence of living.

Bel was very interested in herย ๏ฌngernails suddenly, picking at them. Dad crackedย ๏ฌrst, saving them all.

โ€œUm, do you want a shower?โ€ย he asked Rachel.

A question that didnโ€™t really need an answer. She was dressed in oversized gray sweats and slippers the police had given her, after taking her clothes into evidence. But she wasย ๏ฌlthy still, a stu๏ฌ€y smell clinging to the air around her, stale and sharp. Blood, sweat, piss and everything in between.

Only her hands were close to normal; must have washed them after the policeย ๏ฌnished taking their photos and swabs. The medical team had cleaned up her feet too, disinfecting the wounds and blisters, and the raw, rubbed skin of her ankle. She didnโ€™t need a hospital, they said, just needed restโ€”lots of itโ€”and to rehydrate. Sent her o๏ฌ€ย with a bottle of painkillers.

Rachel looked at him a long moment.ย โ€œYes,โ€ย she said, her voice dark and gravelly, like it belonged to the night.ย โ€œI really would like a shower.โ€

โ€œYou know where it is,โ€ย Charlie said, awkwardly, his bones locked the same way Belโ€™s did, all angles and lines.ย โ€œItโ€™s a new shower, actually. Redone

years ago. Fresh towels in the linen closet.โ€ย Rachel nodded, but she didnโ€™t move.

Why wouldnโ€™t she go?

โ€œThereโ€™s nice shampoo up there,โ€ย Bel said, pushing gently.ย โ€œI make Dad buy the good stu๏ฌ€.โ€

Rachel smiled at her. Her teeth were still good; she must have been able to brush them, wherever she was. Dad must have been thinking the same thing.

โ€œThereโ€™s new toothbrushes, under the sink,โ€ย he added.ย โ€œHelp yourself.โ€ โ€œI will.โ€ย She still hadnโ€™t moved.ย โ€œClothes? Or did you throw all of mine

out? I guess you thought I was dead, soโ€ฆโ€

Charlie scratched his head.ย โ€œThere might be a few things in the closet still. Iโ€™ll have a look for you.โ€

Rachel didnโ€™t say anything.

โ€œIโ€™ll set up the spare bedroom for you while you shower,โ€ย he continued.ย โ€œPut any of your stu๏ฌ€ย Iย ๏ฌnd in the dresser in there. Give you triple pillows; I know you used to like it that way.โ€

Rachel shrugged.ย โ€œAny pillows would be good.โ€ย A roundabout way of accepting the arrangement. You were supposed to be sad about that, huh? Finding out your parents slept in separate bedrooms. But Bel didnโ€™t have space to feel anything about that, because there was that other thing, ticking over in her gut, like the engine that was either switched o๏ฌ€ย or it wasnโ€™t. She needed to talk to Dad, alone.

โ€œOK,โ€ย Rachel said eventually, hands hidden up her too-long sleeves.ย โ€œIโ€™ll be down soon.โ€

โ€œTake as much time as you need.โ€ย Charlie dipped his head as Rachel walked past him, like he was avoiding her eyes.

They heard her gentle feet, pattering up the stairs, fading to nothing. The click of the bathroom door, the turn of the lock.

โ€œIโ€™ll goย ๏ฌx up her room,โ€ย Dad said, bones unlocking now, squeezing Belโ€™s shoulder.ย โ€œSit down, kiddo. Youโ€™ve had a long day.โ€

But Bel couldnโ€™t sit down, not for long, following her dad upstairs a few minutes later. Past the rainforest sounds of the bathroom, steam leaking out

the gap under the door. The spatter of a body, moving under the water. And another sound beneath it: was Rachel humming in there? The tune, gentle and unhinged, made the hairs stand up along Belโ€™s arms. She hurried past the door like something might reach under and catch her.

โ€œDad?โ€ย Bel whispered,ย ๏ฌnding him in the spare room, next to hers. He wasย ๏ฌtting fresh white pillowcases over two new pillows. A pile of clothes folded at the end of the bed: one pair of light blue jeans, a couple of T-shirts and sweaters, one pair of striped pajamas. Bel didnโ€™t know heโ€™d kept any of Rachelโ€™s clothes.

โ€œDad?โ€ย she hissed again, louder, over the noise of the shower.ย โ€œHuh? You OK, kiddo?โ€

No, not at all, what a stupid question. But maybe it was one you were supposed to ask, pretending things were normal when they never would be again.

โ€œAreย youย OK?โ€ย she asked him.

He stared down at the bed, running his hands across the patterned comforter,ย ๏ฌ‚attening out the lines.

โ€œIโ€™m OK,โ€ย he said, not con๏ฌrming it with his eyes, keeping them to himself.ย โ€œItโ€™s justโ€ฆstill in shock, is all. Doesnโ€™t feel real. Like I might wake up soon and thisโ€ฆโ€

Belย ๏ฌnished the thought for him:ย this will all go away.ย Rachel would go away.

โ€œWill take some getting used to,โ€ย he said, carrying the folded clothes, placing them in the top drawer of the empty dresser.ย โ€œDo you have any underwear, Bel, that you could lend your mom?โ€

Belโ€™s lip pulled up in a sneer, exposing her teeth.ย โ€œSorry,โ€ย he said.

โ€œDad.โ€ย She hardened her voice, bringing his attention back to her. She didnโ€™t know how much time they had. Rachel was out of sight, out of earshot, but even down the hall felt too close. Back to a whisper.ย โ€œDad. Do youโ€ฆdo you think sheโ€™s telling the truth?โ€

His eyes narrowed,ย ๏ฌ‚icking side to side, across Belโ€™s face and beyond.ย โ€œWhat do you mean?โ€

โ€œAbout what happened to her? How she disappeared, reappeared.โ€

His face rearranged, mouth moving around unspoken words. But then he did speak them:ย โ€œWhy would she lie about it?โ€

And that wasnโ€™t a stupid question.ย โ€œI donโ€™t know,โ€ย she said.

โ€œLook, Bel.โ€ย He took hold of her shoulders, gentle butย ๏ฌrm.ย โ€œI think sheโ€™s been through something horrible, something unbelievable, which makes it hard to believe.โ€ย A muscle twitched in his cheek, the sad ghost of a smile.ย โ€œBut she has no reason to lie, Bel, and you have no reason not to believe her.โ€

That one hurt. Bel stepped back to steady herself. She thought her dad might be with her on this. He was always with her. And if he said Rachel was telling the truth, then Bel had to believe it. So why was it so hard to make herself believe? That one discrepancy, tightening its hands around her throat, something to push against.

Dad moved to the nightstand, opening the drawer to check it was empty, swiping a layer of dust from the surface with his sleeve. He switched on the little yellow lamp, shaped like a metallic mushroom.

โ€œYouโ€™re not happy sheโ€™s back, are you?โ€ย Bel could tell. She could tell instantly the moment heโ€™d walked in the kitchen and saw Rachel there, recognized her.

โ€œI am happy sheโ€™s back,โ€ย he said, no, he insisted.ย โ€œIโ€™m happy sheโ€™s alive, of course I am. Sheโ€™s my wife, the woman I loved most in the world. Itโ€™s just, it doesnโ€™t feel the way you think it will, after all that time. Weโ€™re in shock, all of us. Things will be strange for a while, kiddo, and Iโ€™m sorry about that. But that doesnโ€™t mean Iโ€™m unhappy. OK?โ€ย He knocked hisย ๏ฌnger under her chin as he passed.ย โ€œGot my two girls. My family.โ€ย He glanced at his watch.ย โ€œItโ€™s nine. I know itโ€™s late, but I should make dinner, shouldnโ€™t I? None of us have eaten properly.โ€ย He gestured with his head down the hall, toward the steaming bathroom.ย โ€œWhat do you think sheโ€™d want to eat?โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t know, I donโ€™t know her,โ€ย she said, still stinging. Was it possible Bel was the one whoโ€™d made a mistake, not Rachel? Maybe she hadnโ€™t been

listening properly. She could be forgetful like that. Dad said things would be strange for a while, and that meant Bel too. She de๏ฌnitely felt strange.

โ€œPizza,โ€ย Dad said, nodding, agreeing with himself.ย โ€œIโ€™ll order pizza. If there was ever an excuse for takeoutโ€ฆโ€

He left it there, and he left Bel there too, walking out into the hallway, just as the shower screeched o๏ฌ€.

โ€”

They sat in the living room. Dad took the armchair earlyโ€”it was his spotโ€”ย so Bel and Rachel were on the sofa, at opposite ends, Belโ€™s legs straight out in front. Hyperaware every time she felt movement in the cushions, a shift in the corner of her eye.

It was even stranger, now Rachel was clean, looking closer to her old self. To the Rachel Price of the family videos and missing posters and news bulletins. The face of the unsolvable mystery, now solved, the forty-three- year-old version of that twenty-seven-year-old missing woman. She was wearing her old navy-striped pajamas. Cheeks stillย ๏ฌ‚ushed from her hot shower, skin white and clean, grooves of pink where sheโ€™d scrubbed too hard. Feet bare: cracked and blistered, tucked up on the sofa. Hair wet, brushed back from her face so her birthmark showed. Now she smelled like coconut and aloe vera, and that was stranger still, because those usually belonged to Bel.

Rachel leaned forward for another slice of pizza from the box, dropping it onto her plate. She didnโ€™t eat it right away, theย ๏ฌ‚ickering images of the television playing across the glass of her eyes.

She caught Bel looking. A smile stretched across her face, new lines you couldnโ€™t see before, the smile duplicating through the skin of her cheeks. Chin pointed just the way Belโ€™s did, stolen from her. She looked happy to be home. Bel tried to smile back.

โ€œI borrowed your hairbrush, Anna,โ€ย Rachel said.ย โ€œSorry, Annabel, Bel.

Hope you donโ€™t mind.โ€

Bel did mind. More about the name, though.

โ€œThatโ€™s OK,โ€ย she said, forcing herself to eat another slice so she didnโ€™t have to talk.

โ€œWow.โ€ย Rachel stared at the TV.ย โ€œLook at those graphics. Almost looks like a real dragon. Well, you know.โ€

But no one did know, and no one spoke until Charlie cleared his throat.ย โ€œDid you have a TV, in the basement?โ€ย he asked, watching the dragon,

not her.

Rachel shook her head, making him look at her anyway.ย โ€œNo TV.โ€ย She took a bite, kept speaking with her mouth full.ย โ€œNo books. He gave me paper and pens. I would draw. Got pretty good at it. Something to keep me busy. And I used to write stories. Lots of them. About you, actually.โ€ย Rachel looked at Bel.ย โ€œBoth of you. What you were up to. Imagining new chapters in your lives. Imagining our lives if Iโ€™d never been taken. Iโ€™d write them out and save them to read back to myself, months or years later. Iโ€™m no Jane Austen.โ€ย She laughed a small, controlled laugh. Who could laugh about that, talking about their prison cell?ย โ€œBut it gave me something to do. Kept me sane.โ€

No one said anything for a while, and the silence was too much, itchy as it climbed up Belโ€™s back.

โ€œThereโ€™s one more slice of pizza,โ€ย she said to the room, shaking the box.ย โ€œNo thanks, Rachel,โ€ย Charlie said without looking.ย โ€œYou help yourself.โ€ย Belโ€™s jaw locked.ย โ€œDad, that was me,โ€ย she said quietly.

โ€œOh, sorry, Bel.โ€ย Heย ๏ฌ‚ushed.ย โ€œNo, you have it, Iโ€™m full.โ€

Rachel didnโ€™t react, but she must have been thinking something, hiding it from her face.

On the television, the dragon was gone. Now there was a man who was supposed to be a prince, pushing a woman up against a dank dungeon wall. Lifting her dress. She begged him not to.

Charlie grabbed the remote,ย ๏ฌ‚icking to a di๏ฌ€erent channel.ย โ€œSomething lighter,โ€ย he said under his breath, stopping on a cartoon where they swore more than Bel.

Rachel was watching him too, something new in her expression, only half readable.

โ€œHe didnโ€™t touch me,โ€ย she said to the room as well.ย โ€œNever like that. Police asked that too. Just used to sit on the stairs and watch me sometimes. Only came close to bring food, and paper. I think he liked keeping me, is all.โ€

โ€œOK,โ€ย Charlie said, after a moment, because what were you supposed to say to something like that?

โ€œSo you can put your dragons back on, if you want,โ€ย she said.ย โ€œIโ€™m OK.โ€ โ€œI think itโ€™s time for bed, anyway.โ€ย Charlie switched the TV o๏ฌ€,

standing with an awkward stretch.ย โ€œWould be good to get a nice, long sleep. Weโ€™ve all hadโ€ฆa day. Bel, can you take the plates to the kitchen?โ€

Rachel chewed her cheek.

Bel reached over to take the plate in front of her, stacking it with her own, and then Dadโ€™s. She carried them into the kitchen, loaded them into the dishwasher, not focusing on what her hands were doing, ears pricked and listening.

By the time she got back to the living room, Charlie was explaining where they now kept the glasses in the kitchen. Bel didnโ€™t know theyโ€™d ever lived anywhere else.ย โ€œThe cupboard above the microwave. Seemed a better place for them. If you want to take water up to bed or something.โ€

Rachel was standing now too.

โ€œDo you have everything you need?โ€ย Charlie asked her.ย โ€œFor bed?โ€

โ€œYes, I have everything I need,โ€ย she said. But the way sheโ€™d said it sounded almost like a threat.

โ€œGood.โ€ย Charlie smiled one small, desperate smile,ย ๏ฌghting to keep it on his face.ย โ€œWell, good night, I guess. S-see you in the morning.โ€

โ€œYes,โ€ย she said, rubbing her eyes with a navy-striped sleeve.ย โ€œGood night.

Good night, Annabel.โ€

โ€œNight,โ€ย Bel said, almost cracking at the strangeness of it all, of playing families. Of how un-normal all these normal things felt.

โ€”

Bel couldnโ€™t sleep. A runnerโ€™s heart in her chest, beating in her ears. Wondering if the air coming in through the cracks in the door was the same air Rachel Price had already breathed.

It had been three a.m., last time sheโ€™d checked her phone. The light was o๏ฌ€ย now, but that didnโ€™t help, sleep dancing around in front of her, always one step out of reach. She had to sleep, had to. Because maybe sheโ€™d wake up andย ๏ฌnd out none of this was real after all. That sheโ€™d just fallen on the train tracks and cracked her head, inventing everything from that point on. Rachel Price would disappear again, like she was supposed to.

But wishing wouldnโ€™t make it true. Rachel was really here, and she was real, but that didnโ€™t mean her story was. Dave Winter said it was a mistake. And Dad believed Rachel, or he said he did. But maybe he was doing that for Belโ€™s sake. He always put herย ๏ฌrst. Maybe he thought she needed a mom.

She didnโ€™t. She didnโ€™t need anyone.

Bel was about to check the time again, but as she reached out, she heard a click in the dark. The shush of her door, pushing open against the thick carpet. Bel lowered her arm and held her breath. There was a darkย ๏ฌgure in the doorway, silvery outline picked out by the moonlight.

Not Dad.

It was Rachel.

Bel forced her eyes shut, pretending to be asleep. Heart faster now, panicked couplets beating a word that sounded likeย dan-ger, dan-ger, dan- ger.ย Gut knotting up beneath the blankets.

Bel heard Rachel take one step inside the room. The gentle windstorm of her breath, in and out of her nose.

Rachel was watching her sleep. Except she wasnโ€™t asleep.

Go away,ย Bel thought, squeezing her eyes tighter.ย Please go away.

Fighting the battle with her mind. Pushing Rachel away.

It must have worked. A few moments later, the door shushed again, clicked shut.

Bel opened one eye to check, searching for a specter in the dark. But Rachel was gone.

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