Michael and Dean were already in the living room when Sloane and I arrived. In the past fourteen minutes, my blond companion had quieted, like the Energizer Bunny powering down. She took a seat on the sofa next to Michael. I sat down next to her. Across from us, Dean was sitting on the edge of the fireplace, his gaze locked on the floor, hair in his face.
Sofa, chairs, pillows, rug, I thought.ย And he chooses to sit on stone.
I flashed back to the first time Iโd seen him, lifting weights and pushing his body to the brink. My very first impression had been that he was punishing himself.
โGlad to see you all made it.โ Lia didnโt just walk into a room; she made an entrance. All eyes on her, she sank to the floor and stretched her legs out, crossing her feet at the ankles and spreadingย myย dress out around her. โFor your entertainment this evening: Truth or Dare.โ She paused, raking her eyes over the rest of us. โAny objections?โ
Dean opened his mouth. โNo,โ Lia told him.
โYou asked for objections,โ Dean said.
Lia shook her head. โYou donโt get to object.โ โDo I?โ Michael asked.
Lia considered the question. โDo you want to?โ
Michael glanced at me, then back at Lia. โNot particularly.โ โThen, yes,โ Lia replied. โYou do.โ
Beside me, Sloane raised her hand.
โYes, Sloane?โ Lia said pleasantly. Apparently, she wasnโt concerned that our resident numbers girl might object.
โIโm familiar with the gist of the game, but Iโm unclear on one thing.โ Sloaneโs eyes gleamed. โHow do you win?โ
Michael grinned. โYou have to love a girl with a competitive streak.โ โYou donโtย winย Truth or Dare,โ I said. In fact, I deeply suspected this was
the kind of game that everybody lost. โIs that an objection?โ Lia asked.
From across the room, Dean was telegraphing the wordsย SAY YESย to me, as clearly as if heโd hired a plane to write them in the sky. And if Iโd been in a room with any other teenagers on the planet, I would have. But I was in a room with Michael, who I couldnโt quite profile, and Dean, whoโd said the other day that Naturals didnโt work on active casesย anymore. I had questions, and this was the only way I was going to get to ask them.
โNo,โ I told Lia. โThat wasnโt an objection. Letโs play.โ
A slow smile spread across Liaโs face. Dean banged his head back against the fireplace.
โCan I go first?โ Sloane asked.
โSure,โ Lia replied smoothly. โTruth or dare, Sloane?โ Sloane gave her a look. โThatโs not what I meant.โ Lia shrugged. โTruth. Or. Dare.โ
โTruth.โ
In a normal game of Truth or Dare, that would have been the safer option
โbecause if the question was too embarrassing, you could always lie. With Lia in the room, that was impossible.
โDo you know who your father is?โ
Liaโs question took me completely off guard. Iโd spent most of my life not knowing who my own father was, but couldnโt imagine being forced to admit that in front of a crowd. Lia seemed fond of Sloane, more or less, but clearly, in Truth or Dare, the kid gloves came off.
Sloane met Liaโs eyes, unfazed. โYes,โ she said. โI do.โ
โA swing and a miss,โ Michael murmured. Lia gave him a dirty look. โYour turn,โ she told Sloane, and from the look on her face, I guessed she
was bracing herself for paybackโbut Sloane turned to me. โCassie. Truth or dare?โ
I tried to imagine what kind of dare Sloane might come up with, but drew a blank.
โStatistically, the most common dares involve eating unpleasant food, making prank phone calls, kissing another player, licking something unsanitary, and nudity,โ Sloane said helpfully.
โTruth.โ
Sloane was silent for several seconds. โHow many people do you love?โ
The question seemed harmless enough until I started thinking about my answer. Sloaneโs blue eyes searched mine, and I got the distinct feeling that she wasnโt asking because she thought it would be amusing to hear my answer.
She was asking because she needed data points to compare to her own. โHow many people do I love?โ I repeated. โLike โฆ love how?โ
Iโd never been in love, so if she was talking about romance, the answer was easy.
โHow many people do you love, total?โ Sloane said. โSumming across familial, romantic, and all other variations.โ
I wanted to just choose a number at random. Five sounded good. Or ten.
Too many to countย sounded better, but Lia was watching me, very still.
Iโd loved my mother. That much was easy. And Nonna and my father and the restโI loved them. Didnโt I? They were my family. They loved me. Just
because I wasnโt showy about it didnโt mean that I didnโt love them back. Iโd done what I could to make them happy. I tried not to hurt them.
But did I really love them, the way Iโd loved my mom?ย Couldย I love anyone like that again?
โOne.โ I barely managed to get the word out of my mouth. I stared at Lia, hoping sheโd tell me that wasnโt true, that losing my mom hadnโt broken something inside of me and I wasnโt destined to spend the rest of my life two shades removed from the kind of love that the rest of my family felt for me.
Lia held my gaze for a few seconds, then shrugged. โYour turn, Cassie.โ I tried to remember why Iโd thought playing this game was a good idea.
โMichael,โ I said finally. โTruth or dare?โ
There were so many things I wanted to ask himโwhat he really thought of the program, what his father was like, beyond the issue of tax fraud, whether there had ever been more to his relationship with Lia than trading verbal barbs. But I didnโt get a chance to ask any of those questions, because Michael leaned forward in his seat, his eyes gleaming. โDare.โ
Of course he wasnโt going to let me dig around in his brain. Of course he was going to make me issue the first dare of the game. I racked my brain for something that didnโt sound lame, but also didnโt involve kissing, nudity, or anything that might give Michael an excuse for trouble.
โHit me with your best shot, Colorado.โ Michael was enjoying this way too much. I had a feeling he was hoping that I would dare him to do something a little bit dangerous, something that would get his adrenaline pumping.
Something Briggs would disapprove of.
โI dare you โฆโ I said the words slowly, hoping an answer would present itself. โโฆ to dance ballet.โ
Even I wasnโt sure where that came from.
โWhat?โย Michael said. Clearly, heโd been expecting something a little more exciting, or at the very least risquรฉ.
โBallet,โ I repeated. โRight there.โ I pointed to the center of the rug. โDance.โ
Lia started cracking up. Even Dean bit back a smile.
โBallet is a tradition of performance body movement hailing back to the early Renaissance,โ Sloane said helpfully. โIt is particularly popular in Russia, France, Italy, England, and the United States.โ
Michael stopped her before she could orate an entire history of the art. โIโve got this,โ he said. And then, a solemn expression on his face, he stood up, he walked to the center of the room, and he struck a pose.
Iโd seen Michael do smooth. Iโd seen him do suave. Iโd felt him push a piece of hair out of my faceโbutย this. This was really something. He stood on his tippy-toes. He twirled in a circle. He bent his legs and stuck out his
butt. But the best thing was the look in his eyes: cold, steely determination.
He capped the performance off with a curtsy.
โVery nice,โ I said between hysterical giggles. He sank back onto the sofa and then turned dagger eyes on Lia.
โTruth or dare.โ
Not surprisingly, Lia chose truth. Of all of us, she was probably the only one here who could lie and get away with it.
Michael smiled, as genial as Lia had been when sheโd started this whole thing. โWhatโs your real name?โ
For a few brief seconds, vulnerability and irritation passed over Liaโs features in quick succession.
โYour name isnโt Lia?โ Sloane sounded strangely hurt at the idea that Lia might have lied about something as simple and basic as her own name.
โYes,โ Lia told her. โIt is.โ
Michael stared at Lia, raising his eyebrows ever so slightly.
โBut once upon a time,โ Lia said, sounding less and less like herself with every word, โmy name used to be Sadie.โ
Liaโs answer filled my mind with questions. I tried to picture her as a Sadie. Had she shed her old name as easily as she changed clothes? Why had she changed it? How had Michael known?
โTruth or dare โฆโ Lia dragged her eyes across each of us, one by one, and I sensed something dark slowly unfurling inside of her. This wasnโt going to end well.
โCassie.โ
It didnโt seem fair that it was my turn again already, when Dean had yet to go, but I stepped up to the plate.
โDare.โ I donโt know what possessed me to choose that option, other than the fact that the look on Liaโs face convinced me that sheโd make Sloaneโs question look about as personal as an inquiry about the weather.
Lia beamed at me, and then beamed at Michael.ย Payback.
โI dare you,โ Lia said, relishing each and every word, โto kiss Dean.โ
Dean reacted to that sentence like heโd been electrocuted. He sat straight up. โLia,โ he said sharply. โNo.โ
โOh, come now, Dean,โ Lia cajoled. โItโs Truth or Dare. Take one for the team.โ Without waiting for his reply, she turned back to me. โKiss him, Cassie.โ
I didnโt know what was worse, Deanโs objection to the idea of being forced to kiss me or the sudden realization that my bodyย didnโtย object to the idea of kissing him. I thought of our lessons with Locke, the feel of his hand on the back of my neck. โฆ
Lia watched me expectantly, but Michaelโs eyes were the ones I felt on my face as I crossed the room to stand in front of Dean.
I didnโt have to do this. I could say no.
Dean looked up at me, and for a split second, I saw something other than deadly neutrality on his face. His eyes softened. His lips parted, like there was something he wanted to say.
I knelt next to the fireplace. I put one hand on his cheek, and I brought my lips to his. It was a friendly kiss. A European hello. Our mouths only touched for a secondโbut I felt it, electric, all the way to my toes.
I pulled back, unable to force my eyes away from his lips as I did. For a few seconds, we just stayed there, staring at each other: him on the fireplace and me kneeling on the rug.
โYour turn, Cassie.โ Lia sounded pretty darned satisfied with herself.
I forced myself to stand up and walk back to the sofa. I sat down, still able to feel the ghost of Deanโs lips on mine. โTruth or dare, Dean?โ
It was only fair: he was the sole person present who hadnโt been in the hot seat yet. For a second, I thought he might refuse and call an end to this game, but he didnโt.
โTruth.โ
This was the opportunity Michael hadnโt given me. There were so many things I wanted to know. I concentrated on that, instead of what had passed between us a moment before.
โThe other day, when Locke said she couldnโt take Lia to the crime scene, you said that wasnโt what the program wasย anymore.โ I paused. โWhat did you mean?โ
Dean nodded, as if that were a perfectly reasonable question to ask after youโd kissed a person. โI was the first one,โ he said. โBefore there was a program, before they started using the termย Naturals, it was just Briggs and me. I didnโt live with Judd. The FBI brass didnโt know about me. Briggs brought me questions. I gave him answers.โ
โQuestions about killers.โ I wasnโt allowed a follow-up question, so I phrased it as a statement. Dean nodded. Lia cut in, breaking off all conversation.
โHe was twelve,โ she said, clipping the words. โYour turn, Dean.โ โCassie,โ Dean said. That was itโno โtruth or dare.โ Just my name.
Beside me, Michaelโs jaw clenched. Liaโs payback had hit its targetโand then some.
โTruth,โ I said, trying not to dwell on Michaelโs reaction or what it might mean.
โWhy did you come here?โ Dean asked, looking at Lia, at his own hands, at anything but me. โWhy join this program at all?โ
There were a lot of answers to that question that would have been technically true. I could have said that I wanted to help people. I could have
said that Iโd always known that Iโd never quite fit in the regular world. But I didnโt.
โMy mother was murdered.โ I cleared my throat, trying to say the words like they were just any other words. โFive years ago. Based on the blood spatter, they think she was stabbed. Repeatedly. The police never found her body, but there was enough blood that they donโt think she could have survived. I used to think that maybe she had. I donโt anymore.โ
Dean didnโt react visibly to that confessionโbut Lia went unnaturally still, and Sloaneโs mouth dropped open as she averted her eyes. Michael had known about my mother, but Iโd never said a word to any of the others.
Truth or dare, Dean. I wanted to say the words, but I couldnโt keep asking Dean questions. Already, weโd kept this game between the two of us for too long. โTruth or dare, Lia?โ
โTruth.โ Lia said the word like a challenge. I asked her whether she was messy or neat. She lowered her chin, raised her eyebrows, and stared at me.
โSeriously,โ she said. โThatโs your question?โ โThatโs my question,โ I confirmed.
โIโm a mess,โ she said. โByย everyย sense of the word.โ She didnโt give me time to meditate on the fact that Iโd pegged her right before she targeted Michael for the next round. I expected him to pick dare again, but he didnโt.
โTruth.โ
Lia ran dainty hands over her dress. She gave him her most wide-eyed, innocent look. Then she asked him if he was jealous when I kissed Dean. Michael didnโt bat an eye, but I thought Dean might actually throttle Lia.
โI donโt get jealous,โ Michael said. โI get even.โ
No one was surprised when Michael aimed the next round at Dean. โTruth or dare, Dean?โ
โTruth.โ Deanโs eyes narrowed, and I remembered Lia saying that if Dean had a temper, Michael would have been dead by now. I waited, my stomach heavy and my throat dry, for Michael to ask Dean something horrible.
But he didnโt.
โHave you ever seenย The Bad Seed?โ he inquired politely. โThe movie.โ A muscle in Deanโs jaw twitched. โNo.โ
Michael grinned. โI have.โ Dean stood up. โIโm done here.โ
โDeanโโ Liaโs tone was halfway between mulish and wheedling, but he silenced her with a look. Two seconds later, he was stalking out of the room, and a few seconds after that, I heard the front door open, then slam.
Dean was goneโand a person didnโt have to be an emotion reader to see the look of satisfaction on Michaelโs face.
YOU
Every hour, every day, you think about The Girl. But itโs not time for the grand finale. Not yet. Instead, you find another toy at a little shop in Dupont Circle. Youโve had your eye on her for a while, but resisted the urge to add her to your collection. She was too close to home, in an area that was too densely populated.
But right now, the so-called Madame Selene is just what you need. Bodies are bodies, but a palm readerโthereโs a certain poetry to that. A message you wantโneedโhaveย to send. It would be simpler to kill her in the shop, to drive a knife through each palm and leave her body on display, but youโve worked so hard this week.
You deserve a little treat.
Taking her is easy. Youโre a ghost. A stranger with candy. A sympathetic ear. When Madame Selene wakes up in the warehouse, she wonโt believe that youโre the one whoโs done this to her.
Not at first.
But eventually, sheโll see.
You smile, thinking about the inevitability of it all. You touch the tips of her brown hair and pick up the handy box of Red Dye Number 12. You hum under your breath, a childrenโs song that takes you back to the beginning, back to the first.
The palm readerโs eyes flicker open. Her hands are bound. She sees you.
Then she sees the hair dye, the knife in your left hand, and she realizes.โ You are the monster.
And this time, you deserve to take things slow.