DENNA TURNED LEFT INSTEAD of right as she came out of her room. At first I thought she was disoriented, but when she came to a back stairway I saw she was actually trying to leave without heading through the taproom. She found the alley door, but it was locked fast.
So we headed out the front. As soon as we entered the taproom I was pointedly aware of everyoneโs attention on us. Denna made a beeline for the front door, moving but with the slow determination of a storm cloud.
We were almost out when the man behind the bar called out. โHoy! Hey now!โ
Dennaโs eyes flickered to the side. Her mouth made a thin line and she continued her walk to the door as if she hadnโt heard.
โIโll deal with him,โ I said softly. โWait for me. Iโll be out in just a second.โ
I walked over to where the barman stood scowling. โThat your cousin then?โ he asked. โHas the constable said she can go?โ
โI thought you didnโt want to know anything about it,โ I said.
โI surely donโt. But sheโs had use of the room, and meals, and I had the doctor out to patch her up.โ
I gave him a hard look. โIf thereโs a doctor in this town worth more than haโpenny, then Iโm the King of Vint.โ
โIโm out half a talent in all,โ he insisted. โBandages ainโt free, and I had a woman by to sit with her, waiting for her to wake up.โ
I doubted very much that he was out half that, but I certainly didnโt want trouble with the constable. In truth, I didnโt want any sort of delay. Given Dennaโs tendencies, I was worried that if I lost sight of her for more than a minute she would disappear like morning fog.
I took five jots from my purse and scattered them onto the bar. โKnackers profit from a plague,โ I said scathingly, and left.
I felt a ridiculous amount of relief when I saw Denna waiting outside, leaning against the horse post. Her eyes were closed and she had her face tilted toward the sun. She sighed contentedly and turned toward the sound of my approaching footsteps.
โWas it that bad?โ I asked.
โThey were kind enough at first,โ Denna admitted, gesturing with her bandaged arm. โBut this old woman kept checking in on me.โ She frowned and brushed her long black hair back, giving me a clear view of the purpling bruise that spread from her temple all the way back to her hairline. โYou know the type, some tight-laced spinster with a mouth like a catโs ass.โ
I burst out laughing, and Dennaโs sudden smile was like the sun peering from behind a cloud. Then her face grew dark again as she continued. โShe kept giving me this look. Like I shouldโve had the decency to die with all the other folk. Like all this was my fault.โ
Denna shook her head. โBut she was better than the old men. The constable put his hand on my leg!โ She shuddered. โEven the mayor came, clucking over me like he cared, but he was only there to badger me with questions. โWhat were you doing there? What happened? What did you seeโฆ?โโ
The scorn in Dennaโs voice made me bite back my own questions so quickly that I almost caught my tongue between my teeth. Itโs my nature to ask questions, not to mention that the whole purpose of this mad dash into the foothills was to investigate what had happened.
Still, the tone of Dennaโs voice made it clear she was in no mood to give answers right now. I shrugged my travelsack higher up onto my shoulder and something occurred to me. โWait. Your things. You left them all back in your room.โ
Denna hesitated for a heartbeat. โI donโt think anything of mine was there,โ she said as if the thought hadnโt even occurred to her before.
โAre you sure you donโt want to go back and check?โ
She shook her head firmly. โI leave where Iโm not welcome,โ she said matter-of-factly. โEverything else I can make up along the way.โ
Denna started to walk down the street and I fell in beside her. She turned onto a narrow side street heading west. We passed an old woman hanging a shamble-man made of oat sheaves. It wore a crude straw hat and a pair of sackcloth pants. โWhere are we headed?โ I asked.
โI need to see if my things are out at the Mauthen farm,โ she said. โAfter that Iโm open to suggestions. Where were you planning to go before you found me?โ
โHonestly, I was heading out to the Mauthen farm myself.โ
Denna gave me a sideways look. โFair enough. Itโs only about a mile out to the farm. We can be there and still have plenty of light.โ
The land around Trebon was rough, mostly thick forest broken by stretches of rocky ground. Then the road would round a corner and there would be a small, perfect field of golden wheat tucked among the trees, or nestled into a valley surrounded by dark stone bluffs. Farmers and hands
dotted the fields, covered in chaff and moving with the slow weariness that comes from knowing half the dayโs harvest was still to come.
Weโd only been walking a minute when I heard a familiar thump of hooves behind us. I turned to see a small open-topped cart bumping slowly up the road. Denna and I stepped off into the scrub, as the road was barely wide enough for the cart. A bone weary farmer eyed us suspiciously from where he sat, hunched over the reins.
โWeโre heading to the Mauthen farm,โ Denna called out as he came closer. โWould you mind if we caught a ride?โ
The man eyed us grimly, then nodded toward the back of the cart. โIโm heading past old Borrorill. Yeโll have to make your own way from there.โ
Denna and I clambered on and sat facing backward on the clapboard with our feet dangling over the edge. It wasnโt much faster than walking, but we were both glad to be off our feet.
We rode in silence. Denna obviously wasnโt interested in discussing things in front of the farmer, and I was glad to have a moment to think things over. I had planned on telling whatever lies were necessary to get the information I wanted from the witness. Denna complicated things. I didnโt want to lie to her, but at the same time I couldnโt risk telling her too much. The last thing I wanted to do was convince her I was crazy with wild stories of the Chandrianโฆ.
So we rode in silence. It was nice just being near her. You wouldnโt think a girl in bandages with a blackened eye could be beautiful, but Denna was. Lovely as the moon: not flawless, perhaps, but perfect.
The farmer spoke up, breaking my reverie. โHereโs Borrorill.โ
I looked around for the rill, but couldnโt see it. Which was a shame, as I wouldnโt mind a cool drink or a bit of a wash. Hours of hard riding had left me sweaty and smelling of horse.
We thanked the farmer and hopped off the back of the cart. Denna led the way along the dirt track that wound back and forth up the side of the hill, between the trees and the occasional outcrop of worn, dark stone. Denna seemed steadier than when weโd left the tavern, but kept her eyes on the ground, choosing her steps with deliberate care as if she didnโt quite trust her balance.
A sudden thought came to me. โI got your note,โ I said, pulling the folded piece of paper out of a pocket in my cloak. โWhen did you leave it for me?โ
โNearly two span ago.โ
I grimaced, โI only got it last night.โ
She nodded to herself. โI worried about that when you never showed up. I thought it might have fallen out, or gotten wet so you couldnโt read it.โ
โI just havenโt used the window lately,โ I said.
Denna shrugged nonchalantly. โSilly of me to assume you would, really.โ
I tried to think of something to add, something that would explain what she might have seen when Fela had given me my cloak in the Eolian. I couldnโt think of anything. โIโm sorry I missed our lunch.โ
Denna looked up, amused. โDeoch said you were caught in a fire or something. Told me you looked positively wretched.โ
โI felt wretched,โ I said. โMore from missing you than from the fireโฆ.โ
She rolled her eyes. โIโm sure you wereย terriblyย distraught. You did me a favor in a way. While I was sitting thereโฆaloneโฆpining awayโฆโ
โI said I was sorry.โ
โโฆan older gentleman introduced himself to me. We talked, got to know each otherโฆ.โ She shrugged and looked sideways at me, almost bashfully. โIโve been meeting with him ever since. If things continue smoothly, I think heโll be my patron before the year is out.โ
โReally?โ I said, relief splashing over me like cold water. โThatโs wonderful, and long overdue. Who is he?โ
She shook her head, her dark hair falling down around her face. โI canโt say. Heโs obsessed with his privacy. He wouldnโt tell me his real name for more than a span. Even now I donโt know if the name heโs given me is real.โ
โIf youโre not sure who he really is,โ I said slowly. โHow do you know heโs a gentleman?โ
It was a foolish question. We both knew the answer, but she said it anyway. โMoney. Clothes. Bearing.โ She shrugged. โEven if heโs only a wealthy merchant, heโll still make a good patron.โ
โBut not a great one. Merchant families donโt have the same stabilityโฆโ โโฆand their names donโt carry the same weight,โ she finished with
another, knowing shrug. โHalf a loaf is better than none, and Iโm tired of having no loaf at all.โ She sighed. โIโve been working hard to reel him in. But heโs so dodgyโฆ. We never meet in the same place twice, and never in public. Sometimes heโll set up a meeting and never even show up for it. Not that thatโs anything new in my lifeโฆ.โ
Denna staggered as a rock shifted under her foot. I grabbed for her, and she caught hold of my arm and shoulder before she fell. For a moment we were pressed against each other, and I was very aware of her body against mine as she took a moment to balance herself.
I steadied her, and we moved apart. But after she regained her footing, she kept her hand resting lightly on my arm. I moved slowly, as if a wild bird had landed there and I was desperately trying to avoid startling it into flight.
I considered putting my arm around her, partly for support and partly for other more obvious reasons. I quickly discarded the idea. I still remembered the look on her face when she mentioned the constable touching her leg. What would I do if she had a similar response to me?
Men flocked around Denna, and I knew from our conversations how
tiresome she found them. I couldnโt bear the thought of making the same mistakes they made, simply because I didnโt know any better. It was better not to risk offending her, better to be safe. As Iโve said before, there is a great difference between being fearless and being brave.
We followed the path as it doubled back on itself, continuing up the hill.
All was silent except for the wind moving in the tall grass.
โSo heโs secretive?โ I prompted gently, worried that the silence would soon become uncomfortable.
โSecretiveย doesnโt cover it by half,โ Denna said, rolling her eyes. โOnce a woman offered me money for information about him. I played dumb, and later when I told him about it he said it had been a test to see how much I could be trusted. Another time some men threatened me. Iโm guessing that was another test.โ
The fellow sounded rather sinister to me, like a fugitive from the law or someone hiding from his family. I was about to say so when I saw Denna looking at me anxiously. She was worried, worried that I would think less of her for pandering to the whimsy of some paranoid lordling.
I thought about my talk with Deoch, about the fact that, hard as my lot was, hers was undoubtedly harder. What would I put up with if I could win a powerful nobleโs patronage? What would I go though to find someone who would give me money for lute strings, see that I was dressed and fed, and protect me from vicious little bastards like Ambrose?
I bit back my previous comments and gave her a knowing grin. โHeโd better be rich enough to be worth your trouble,โ I said. โBags of money. Pots of it.โ
Her mouth quirked up at the corner, and I felt her body relax, glad that I wasnโt judging her. โWell that would be telling, now, wouldnโt it?โ Her eyes danced, saying:ย yes.
โHeโs the reason Iโm here,โ she continued. โHe told me to show up at this wedding. Itโs a lot more rural than I expected, butโฆโ She shrugged again, a silent comment about the inexplicable desires of the nobility. โI expected my patron-to-be to be thereโโ She stopped, laughing. โDid that even make any sense?โ
โJust make up a name for him,โ I suggested.
โYou pick one,โ she said. โDonโt they teach you about names at the University?โ
โAnnabelle,โ I suggested.
โI will not,โ she said, laughing, โrefer to my potential patron as Annabelle.โ
โThe Duke of Richmoney.โ
โNow youโre just being flippant. Try again.โ
โJust tell me when I hit one you likeโฆFederick the Flippant. Frank.
Feran. Forue. Fordaleโฆ.โ
She shook her head at me as we climbed the crest of the hill. As we finally reached the top, the wind gusted past us. Denna gripped my arm for balance and I held up a hand to shield my eyes from dust and leaves. I coughed in surprise as the wind forced a leaf straight into my mouth, causing me to choke and splutter.
Denna thought this was particularly funny. โFine,โ I said, as I fished the leaf out of my mouth. It was yellow, shaped like a spearhead. โThe wind has decided for us. Master Ash.โ
โAre you sure it isnโt Master Elm?โ she asked, eyeing the leaf. โItโs a common mistake.โ
โTastes like an ash,โ I said. โBesides, elm is feminine.โ
She nodded seriously, though her eyes were dancing. โAsh it is then.โ
As we made it out of the trees and over the top of the hill the wind gusted again, pelting us with more debris before it died down. Denna took a step away from me, muttering and rubbing at her eyes. The part of my arm where her hand had rested suddenly felt very cold.
โBlack hands,โ she said, scrubbing at her face. โIโve got chaff in my eyes.โ
โNot chaff,โ I said, looking across the top of the hill. Not fifty feet away was a cluster of charred buildings that must have once been the Mauthen farm. โAsh.โ
I led Denna to a little stand of trees that blocked the wind and the sight of the farm. I gave her my water bottle and we sat on a fallen tree, resting as she rinsed her eyes clean.
โYou know,โ I said hesitantly, โyou donโt need to go over there. I could look for your things if you tell me where you left them.โ
Her eyes narrowed a little. โI canโt tell if youโre being considerate or condescendingโฆ.โ
โI donโt know what you saw last night. So I donโt know how delicate I should be.โ
โI donโt need much delicacy, as a rule,โ she said shortly. โIโm no blushing daisy.โ
โDaisies donโt blush.โ
Denna looked at me, blinking her red eyes.
โYouโre probably thinking of โshrinking violetโ or โblushing virgin.โ Either way, daisies are white. They canโt blushโฆ.โ
โThat,โ she said flatly, โwas condescending.โ
โWell, I thought Iโd let you know what it looked like,โ I said. โFor comparison. So thereโs less confusion when Iโm trying to be considerate.โ
We stared at each other for a bit, eventually she looked away, rubbing at her eyes. โFair enough,โ she admitted. She tilted her head back and splashed more water onto her face, blinking furiously.
โI really didnโt see much,โ she said as she daubed her face on her shirt-sleeve. โI played before the wedding, then again while they were getting ready for supper. I kept expecting myโฆโ she gave a faint smile, โโฆMaster Ash to make an appearance, but I knew I couldnโt dare ask about him. For all I knew, the whole thing was another test of his.โ
She trailed off, frowning. โHe has a way of signaling me. A way of letting me know when heโs around. I excused myself and found him over by the barn. We headed into the woods for a bit and he asked me questions. Who was there, how many people, what they looked like.โ She looked thoughtful.
โNow that Iโm thinking of it, I think that was the real test. He wanted to see how observant I was.โ
โHe almost sounds like a spy,โ I mused.
Denna shrugged. โWe wandered for about half an hour, talking. Then he heard something and told me to wait for him. He headed off toward the farmhouse and was gone for a long while.โ
โHow long?โ
โTen minutes?โ she shrugged. โYou know how it is when youโre waiting for someone. It was dark and I was cold and hungry.โ She wrapped her arms around her stomach and leaned forward a little. โGods, Iโm hungry now, too. I wish I wouldโveโฆโ
I pulled an apple out of my travelsack and handed it to her. They were gorgeous, red as blood, sweet, and crisp. The sort of apples you dream about all year but can only get for a few weeks during the fall.
Denna gave me a curious look. โI used to travel a lot,โ I explained as I took one for myself. โAnd I used to be hungry a lot. So I usually carry something to eat. Iโll fix you a real dinner when we set camp for the night.โ
โAnd he cooks, tooโฆ.โ She bit into the apple and took a drink of water to wash it down. โAnyway, I thought I heard shouting, so I headed back in the direction of the farm. When I came out from behind a bluff, I could definitely hear screaming and shouting. Then I got closer and smelled smoke. And I saw the light of the fire through the treesโโ
โWhat color was it?โ I asked, my mouth half full of apple.
Denna looked at me sharply, her expression suddenly suspicious. โWhy do you ask that?โ
โIโm sorry, I interrupted,โ I said swallowing my mouthful of apple. โFinish your story first and Iโll tell you afterward.โ
โIโve been talking an awful lot,โ she said. โAnd you havenโt made any mention at all of why youโre up in this little corner of the world.โ
โThe masters down at the University heard some odd rumors and sent me
here to find out if they were true,โ I said. There was no awkwardness or hesitation in the lie. I didnโt even plan it, really, it just came out. Forced to make a snap decision, I couldnโt safely tell her the truth about my search for the Chandrian. I couldnโt bear the thought of Denna thinking I was brain-addled.
โThe University does that sort of thing?โ Denna asked. โI thought you lot just sat around reading books.โ
โSome folks read,โ I admitted. โBut when we hear strange rumors, someone needs to go out and find out whatโs really happened. When people get superstitious, they start to look toward the University and think,ย Who around here is meddling with dark powers better left alone? Who should we toss into a great, blazing bonfire?โ
โSo you do this sort of thing a lot?โ She made a gesture with her half-eaten apple. โInvestigate things?โ
I shook my head. โI just got on a masterโs bad side. He made sure I drew the short straw for this little trip.โ
Not a bad lie, considering it was off the cuff. It would even hold up if she did any asking around, as parts of it were true. When necessity demands it, Iโm an excellent liar. Not the noblest of skills, but useful. It ties closely to acting and storytelling, and I learned all three from my father, who was a master craftsman.
โYou are so full of horseshit,โ she said matter-of-factly.
I froze with my teeth halfway into my apple. I pulled back, leaving white impressions in the red skin. โI beg your pardon?โ
She shrugged. โIf you donโt want to tell me, thatโs fine. But donโt fabricate some story out of a misguided desire to pacify or impress me.โ
I drew a deep breath, hesitated, and let it out slowly. โI donโt want to lie to you about why Iโm here,โ I said. โBut I worry what you might think if I tell you the truth.โ
Dennaโs eyes were dark, thoughtful, and gave nothing away. โFair enough,โ she said at last with an almost imperceptible nod. โI believe that.โ
She took a bite of her apple and gave me a long look as she chewed, never looking away from my eyes. Her lips were wet and redder than the apple. โI heard some rumors.โ I said at last. โAnd I want to know what happened here. Thatโs all really. I justโฆโ
โListen Kvothe, Iโm sorry.โ Denna sighed and ran a hand through her hair. โI shouldnโt have pushed you. Itโs none of my business, really. I know what itโs like to have secrets.โ
I almost told her everything then. The whole story about my parents, the Chandrian, the man with black eyes and a nightmare smile. But I worried it might seem like the desperate elaboration of a child caught in a lie. So instead I took the cowardโs way out and stayed silent.
โYouโll never find your true love that way,โ Denna said.
I snapped out of my reverie, confused. โIโm sorry, what?โ
โYou eat the core of your apple,โ she said, amused. โYou eat it all around, then from the bottom to the top. Iโve never seen anyone do that before.โ
โOld habit,โ I said dismissively, not wanting to tell her the truth. That there had been a time in my life when the core was all of the apple I was likely to find, and Iโd been glad of it. โWhat did you mean before?โ
โDidnโt you ever play that game?โ she held up her own apple core and grabbed the stem with two fingers. โYou think of a letter and twist. If the stem stays on you think of another letter and twist again. When the stem breaks offโฆโ hers did, โโฆyou know the first letter of the name of the person youโre going to fall in love with.โ
I looked down at the tiny piece of apple I had left. Not enough to grip and twist. I bit off the last of the apple and tossed the stem. โLooks like Iโm destined to be loveless.โ
โThere you go with seven words again,โ she said with a smile. โYou do realize you always do that?โ
It took me a minute to realize what she was referring to, but before I could respond Denna had moved on. โI heard the seeds are supposed to be bad for you,โ she said. โThey have arsenic in them.โ
โThatโs just a wivesโ tale,โ I said. It was one of the ten thousand questions Iโd asked Ben when heโd traveled with the troupe. โItโs not arsenic. Itโs cyanide, and thereโs not enough to hurt you unless you eat bucketsful.โ
โOh.โ Denna gave the remains of her apple a speculative look, then began to eat it from the bottom up.
โYou were telling me about what happened to Master Ash before I rudely interrupted,โ I prompted gently as I could.
Denna shrugged. โThere isnโt much left to tell. I saw the fire, came closer, heard more shouting and commotionโฆ.โ
โAnd the fire?โ
She hesitated. โBlue.โ
I felt a sort of dark anticipation rise up in me. Excitement at finally being close to answers about the Chandrian, fear at the thought of being close to them. โWhat did the ones look like who attacked you? How did you get away?โ
She gave a bitter laugh. โNobody attacked me. I saw shapes outlined against the fire and ran like billy-hell.โ She lifted her bandaged arm and touched the side of her head. โI must have gone headfirst into a tree and knocked myself out. I woke up in town this morning.
โThatโs the other reason I needed to come back,โ she said. โI donโt know if Master Ash might still be out here. I didnโt hear anyone in town talking about finding an extra body, but I couldnโt ask without making everyone
suspiciousโฆ.โ
โAnd he wouldnโt like that,โ I said.
Denna nodded. โI donโt doubt heโll turn this into another test to see how well I can keep my mouth shut.โ She gave me a significant look. โSpeaking of whichโฆโ
โIโll make a point of being terribly surprised if we find anyone,โ I said. โDonโt worry.โ
She smiled nervously. โThanks. I just hope heโs alive. Iโve invested two whole span trying to win him over.โ She took a final drink out of my water bottle and handed it back to me. โLetโs go have a look around, shall we?โ
Denna came unsteadily to her feet, and I tucked my water bottle back into my travelsack, watching her out of the corner of my eye. I had worked in the Medica for the better part of a year. Denna had been struck on her left temple hard enough to blacken her eye and bruise her well past her ear into her hairline. Her right arm was bandaged, and from the way she carried herself, I guessed she had some serious bruises along her left side, if not a few broken ribs.
If she had run into a tree, it must have been an oddly shaped tree. But still, I didnโt make a point of it. Didnโt press her.
How could I? I too knew what it was like to have secrets.
The farm was nowhere near as gruesome as it could have been. The barn was nothing but a jumble of ash and planking. To one side a water trough stood next to a charred windmill. The wind tried to spin the wheel, but it only had three fins left, and it simply swayed back and forth, back and forth.
There were no bodies. Only the deep ruts wagon wheels had cut into the turf when they had come to haul them away.
โHow many people were at the wedding?โ I asked.
โTwenty-six, counting the bride and groom.โ Denna kicked idly at a charred timber half buried in ashes near the remains of the barn. โGood thing it usually rains in the evenings here, or this whole side of the mountain would be on fire by nowโฆ.โ
โAny simmering feuds lurking around here?โ I asked. โRival families?
Another suitor looking for revenge?โ
โOf course,โ Denna said easily. โLittle town like this, thatโs what keeps things on an even keel. These folk will carry a grudge for fifty years about what their Tom said about our Kari.โ She shook her head. โBut nothing of the killing sort. These were normal folks.โ
Normal but wealthy, I thought to myself as I walked toward the farmhouse. This was the sort of house only a wealthy family could afford to build. The foundation and the lower walls were solid grey stone. The upper
story was plaster and timber with stone reinforcing the corners.
Still, the walls sagged inward on the verge of collapse. The windows and door gaped with dark soot licking out around the edges. I peered through the doorway and saw the grey stone of the walls charred black. There was broken crockery scattered among the remains of furniture and charred floor-boards.
โIf your things were in there,โ I said to Denna. โI think theyโre as good as gone. I could go in for a lookโฆ.โ
โDonโt be stupid,โ she said. โThis whole thing is about to come down.โ She knocked a knuckle against the doorframe. It echoed hollowly.
Curious at the odd sound of it, I went over to look. I picked at the doorpost with a fingernail and a long splinter the size of my palm peeled away with little resistance. โThis is more like driftwood than timber,โ I said. โAfter spending all this money, why skimp on the doorframe?โ
Denna shrugged. โMaybe the heat of the fire did it?โ
I nodded absently and continued to wander around, looking things over. I bent to pick up a piece of charred shingle and muttered a binding under my breath. A brief chill spread up my arms and flame flickered to life along the rough edge of the wood.
โThatโs something you donโt see every day,โ Denna said. Her voice was calm, but it was a forced calm, as if she was trying hard to sound nonchalant.
It took me a moment to figure out what she was talking about. Simple sympathy like this was so commonplace in the University that I hadnโt even thought about how it would look to someone else.
โJust a little meddling with dark forces better left alone,โ I said lightly, holding up the burning shingle. โThe fire was blue last night?โ
She nodded. โLike a coal-gas flame. Like the lamps they have in Anilen.โ The shingle was burning an ordinary, cheerful orange. No trace of blue about it, but it could have been blue last night. I dropped the shingle and
crushed it out with my boot.
I circled the house again. Something was bothering me, but I couldnโt put my finger on it. I wanted to go inside for a look around. โThe fire really wasnโt that bad,โ I called out to Denna. โWhat did you end up leaving inside?โ
โNot that bad?โ she said incredulously, as she came around the corner. โThe place is a husk.โ
I pointed. โThe roof isnโt burned through except right by the chimney. That means the fire probably didnโt damage the second story very much. What of yours was in there?โ
โI had some clothes and a lyre Master Ash bought for me.โ โYou play lyre?โ I was surprised. โHow many strings?โ
โSeven. Iโm just learning.โ She gave a brief, humorless laugh. โIย was
learning. Iโm good enough for a country wedding and thatโs about it.โ
โDonโt waste yourself on the lyre,โ I said. โItโs an archaic instrument with no room for subtlety. Not to disparage your choice of instrument,โ I said quickly. โItโs just that your voice deserves better accompaniment than a lyre can give you. If youโre looking for a straight-string instrument you can carry with you, go for a half-harp.โ
โYouโre sweet,โ she said. โBut I didnโt pick it. Mr. Ash did. Iโll push him for a harp next time.โ She looked around aimlessly and sighed. โIf heโs still alive.โ
I peered in one of the gaping windows to look around, only to have a chunk of the windowsill snap off in my hands when I leaned on it. โThis oneโs rotten through too.โ I said, crumbling it in my hands.
โExactly,โ Denna took hold of my arm and pulled me away from the window. โThe place is just waiting to fall in on you. Itโs not worth going in. Like you said, itโs just a lyre.โ
I let myself be led away. โYour patronโs body might be up there.โ
Denna shook her head. โHeโs not the sort to run into a burning building and get himself trapped.โ She gave me a hard look. โWhat do you think youโre going to find in there, anyway?โ
โI donโt know,โ I admitted. โBut if I donโt go inside, I donโt know where else to look for clues about what really happened here.โ
โWhat rumors did you hear, anyway?โ Denna asked.
โNot much,โ I admitted, thinking back to what the bargeman had said. โA bunch of people were killed at a wedding. Everyone dead, torn apart like rag dolls. Blue fire.โ
โThey werenโt really torn apart,โ Denna said. โFrom what I heard in town, it was a lot of knife and sword work.โ
I hadnโt seen anyone wearing so much as a belt knife since Iโd been in town. The closest thing had been farmers with sickles and scythes in the fields. I looked back at the sagging farmhouse, sure that I was missing somethingโฆ.
โSo what do you think happened here?โ she asked.
โI donโt know,โ I said. โI was half expecting to find nothing. You know how rumors get blown out of proportion.โ I looked around. โI would have written the blue fire off to rumor if you hadnโt been here to confirm it.โ
โOther people saw it last night,โ she said. โThings were still smoldering when they came for the bodies and found me.โ
I looked around, irritated. I still felt like I was missing something, but I couldnโt think of what in the world it could be. โWhat do they think in town?โ I asked.
โFolk werenโt really talkative around me,โ she said bitterly. โBut I caught a bit of the conversation between the constable and the mayor. Folk are whispering about demons. The blue fire made sure of that. Some folk were
talking about shamble-men. I expect the harvest festival will be more traditional than usual this year. Lots of fires and cider and straw menโฆ.โ
I looked around again. The collapsed wreckage of the barn, a windmill with three fins, and a burned-out husk of a house. Frustrated I ran my hands through my hair, still sure I was missing something. Iโd expected to findโฆ something. Anything.
As I stood there, it occurred to me how foolish the hope was. What had I hoped to find? A footprint? A scrap of cloth from someoneโs cloak? Some crumpled note with a vital piece of information conveniently written out for me to find? That sort of thing only happened in stories.
I pulled out my water bottle and drank off the last of it. โWell, Iโm done here,โ I said as I walked over to the water trough. โWhat are you planning to do next?โ
โI need to look around a bit,โ she said. โThereโs a chance my gentleman friend is out there, hurt.โ
I looked out over the rolling hills, gold with autumn leaves and wheat fields, green with pasture and stands of pine and fir. Scattered throughout were the dark scars of bluffs and stone outcroppings. โThereโs a lot of ground to coverโฆ.โ I said.
She nodded, her expression resigned. โIโve got to at least make an effort.โ โWould you like some help?โ I asked. โI know a little woodcraftโฆ.โ
โI certainly wouldnโt mind the company,โ she said. โEspecially considering the fact that there may be a troupe of marauding demons in these parts. Besides, you already offered to make me dinner tonight.โ
โThat I did.โ I made my way past the charred windmill to the iron hand pump. I grabbed the handle, leaned my weight against it, and staggered as it snapped off at the base.
I stared at the broken pump handle. It was rusted through to the center, crumbling away in gritty sheets of red rust.
In a sudden flash I remembered coming back to find my troupe killed that evening so many years ago. I remembered reaching out a hand to steady myself and finding the strong iron bands on a wagonโs wheel rusted away. I remembered the thick, solid wood falling to pieces when I touched it.
โKvothe?โ Dennaโs face was close to mine, her expression concerned. โAre you alright? Tehlu blacken, sit down before you fall down. Are you hurt?โ
I moved to sit on the edge of the water trough, but the thick planking crumbled under my weight like a rotten stump. I let gravity pull me the rest of the way down and sat on the grass.
I held the rusted-through pump handle up for Denna to see. She frowned at it. โThat pump was new. The father was bragging about how much it had cost to get a well set up here at the top of the hill. He kept saying that no
daughter of his would have to carry buckets uphill three times a day.โ โWhat do you think happened here?โ I asked. โTruthfully.โ
She looked around, the bruise on her temple a sharp contrast against her pale skin. โI think when Iโm done looking for my patron to be, Iโm going to wash my hands of this place and never look back.โ
โThatโs not an answer,โ I said. โWhat do you think happened?โ
She looked at me for a long moment before responding. โSomething bad. Iโve never seen a demon, and I donโt ever expect to. But Iโve never seen the King of Vint eitherโฆ.โ
โDo you know that childrenโs song?โ Denna looked at me blankly, so I sang:
โWhen the hearthfire turns to blue, What to do? What to do?
Run outside. Run and hide.
When your bright sword turns to rust? Who to trust? Who to trust?
Stand alone. Standing stone.โ
Denna grew paler as she realized what I was implying. She nodded and chanted the chorus softly to herself:
See a woman pale as snow? Silent come and silent go.
Whatโs their plan? Whatโs their plan? Chandrian. Chandrian.
Denna and I sat in the patchwork shade of the autumn trees, out of sight of the ruined farm.ย Chandrian. The Chandrian were really here. I was still trying to collect my thoughts when she spoke.
โIs this what you were expecting to find?โ she asked.
โItโs what I was looking for,โ I said.ย The Chandrian were here less than a day ago.ย โBut I didnโt expect this. I mean, when youโre a child and you go digging for buried treasure, you donโt expect to find any. You go looking for dennerlings and faeries in the forest, but you donโt find them.โย Theyโd killed my troupe, and theyโd killed this wedding party.ย โHell, I go looking for you in Imre all the time, but I donโt actually expect to find youโฆ.โ I trailed off,
realizing that I was blathering.
Some of the tension bled out of Denna as she laughed. There was no mocking in it, only amusement. โSo am I lost treasure or a faeling?โ
โYouโre both. Hidden, valuable, much sought and seldom found.โ I looked up at her, my mind hardly attending to what was coming out of my mouth. โThereโs much of the fae in you as well.โย They are real. The Chandrian were real.ย โYouโre never where I look for you, then you appear all unexpected. Like a rainbow.โ
Over the last year Iโd held a silent fear in my secret heart. I worried at times that the memory of my troupeโs death and the Chandrian had just been a strange sort of grief-dream my mind had created to help me deal with the loss of my entire world. But now I had something resembling proof. They were real. My memory was real. I wasnโt crazy.
โWhen I was I child I chased a rainbow for an hour one evening. Got lost in the woods. My parents were frantic. I thought I could catch up to it. I could see where it should touch the ground. Thatโs what youโreโฆ.โ
Denna touched my arm. I felt the sudden warmth of her hand through my shirt. I drew a deep breath and smelled the smell of her hair, warm with the sun, the smell of green grass and her clean sweat and her breath and apples. The wind sighed through the trees and lifted her hair so that it tickled my face.
Only when sudden silence filled the clearing did I realize that Iโd been keeping up a steady stream of mindless chatter for several minutes. I flushed with embarrassment and looked around, suddenly remembering where I was.
โYou were a little wild around the eyes there,โ she said gently. โI donโt think Iโve ever seen you out of sorts before.โ
I took another slow breath. โIโm out of sorts all the time,โ I said. โI just donโt show it.โ
โMy point exactly.โ She took a step back, her hand slowly sliding down the length of my arm until it fell away. โSo what now?โ
โIโฆI have no idea.โ I looked around aimlessly. โThat doesnโt sound like you either,โ she said.
โIโd like a drink of water,โ I said, then gave a sheepish grin at how childish it sounded.
She grinned back at me. โThatโs a good place to start,โ she teased. โAfter that?โ
โIโd like to know why the Chandrian attacked here.โ
โWhatโs their plan,ย eh?โ She looked serious. โThere isnโt much middle ground with you, is there? All you want is a drink of water and the answer to a question that folk have been guessing at sinceโฆwell, since forever.โ
โWhat do you think happened here?โ I asked. โWho do you think killed these folks?โ
She crossed her arms in front of her chest. โI donโt know,โ she said. โIt could have been all manner ofโฆโ She stopped, chewing on her lower lip. โNo. Thatโs a lie,โ she said at last. โIt sounds strange to say, but I think it was them. It sounds like something out of a story, so I donโt want to believe it. But I do.โ She looked at me nervously.
โThat makes me feel better.โ I stood up. โI thought I might be a little crazy.โ
โYou still might be,โ she said. โIโm not a good touchstone to use for judging your sanity.โ
โDo you feel crazy?โ
She shook her head, a half smile curling the corner of her mouth. โNo.
How about you?โ โNot particularly.โ
โThatโs either good or bad, depending,โ she said. โHow do you propose we go about solving the mystery of the ages?โ
โI need to think on it for a while,โ I said. โIn the meantime, letโs find your mysterious Master Ash. Iโd love to ask him a few questions about what he saw back at the Mauthen farm.โ
Denna nodded. โI was thinking I would head back to where he left me, behind that bluff, then look between there and the farm.โ She shrugged. โItโs not much of a planโฆ.โ
โIt gives us a place to start,โ I said. โIf he came back and found you were gone, he might have left a trail that we could pick up.โ
Denna led the way through the woods. It was warmer here. The trees kept the wind at bay but the sun could still peer through as many of the trees were nearly bare. Only the tall oaks were still holding all their leaves, like self-conscious old men.
As we walked, I tried to think of what reason the Chandrian could have had for killing these people. Was there any similarity between this wedding party and my troupe?
Someoneโs parents have been singing the entirely wrong sort of songsโฆ.
โWhat did you sing last night?โ I asked. โFor the wedding.โ
โThe usual,โ Denna said, kicking through a pile of leaves. โBright stuff. โPennywhistle.โ โCome Wash in the River.โ โCopper Bottom Pot.โโ She chuckled. โโAunt Emmeโs Tubโโฆโ
โYou didnโt,โ I said, aghast. โAt aย wedding?โ
โA drunk grandfather asked for it,โ she shrugged as she made her way though a thick tangle of yellowing banerbyre. โThere were a few raised eyebrows, but not many. Theyโre earthy folk around here.โ
We walked a little longer in silence. The wind gusted in the high branches above us, but where we trudged along it was just a whisper. โI donโt think Iโve ever heard โCome Washโ beforeโฆ.โ
โIโd have thoughtโฆโ Denna looked over her shoulder at me. โAre you trying to trick me into singing for you?โ
โOf course.โ
She turned and smiled warmly at me, her hair falling into her face. โMaybe later. Iโll sing for my supper.โ She led us around a tall outcrop of dark stone. It was chillier here, out of the sun. โI think he left me here,โ she said, looking around uncertainly. โEverything looks different during the day.โ
โDo you want to search the route back toward the farm, or circle out from here?โ
โCircles,โ she said. โBut youโll have to show me what Iโm supposed to be looking for. Iโm a city girl.โ
I briefly showed her what little I knew of woodcraft. I showed her the sort of ground where a boot will leave a scuff or a print. I pointed out how the pile of leaves she had walked through were obviously disturbed, and how the branches of the banerbyre were broken and torn where sheโd struggled through.
We stayed close together, as two pairs of eyes are better than one, and neither of us was eager to set off alone. We worked back and forth, making larger and larger arcs away from the bluff.
After five minutes I began to sense the futility of it. There was just too much forest. I could tell that Denna quickly came to the same conclusion. The storybook clues we hoped to find once again failed to show themselves. There were no torn scraps of cloth clinging to branches, no deep bootprints or abandoned campsites. We did find mushrooms, acorns, mosquitoes, and raccoon scat cleverly concealed by pine needles.
โDo you hear water?โ Denna asked.
I nodded. โI could really do with a drink,โ I said. โAnd a bit of a wash.โ
We wandered wordlessly away from our search, neither one of us wanting to admit that we were eager to give it up, both of us feeling in our bones how pointless it was. We followed the sound of running water down the hill until we pushed through a thick stand of pine trees and came upon a lovely, deep stream about twenty feet across.
There was no scent of foundry runoff in this water, so we drank and I topped off my water bottle.
I knew the shape of stories. When a young couple comes to a river there is a definite shape to what will happen next. Denna would bathe on the other side of the nearby fir tree, out of sight on a sandy bit of shore. I would move off a discrete distance, out of sight, but within easy talking distance. Thenโฆsomethingย would happen. She would slip and turn her ankle, or cut her foot on a sharp stone, and Iโd be forced to rush over. And thenโฆ
But this was not a story of two young lovers meeting by the river. So I splashed some water on my face and changed into my clean shirt behind a
tree. Denna dipped her head in the water to cool off. Her glistening hair was dark as ink until she wrung it out with her hands.
Then we sat on a stone, dandling our feet in the water and enjoying each otherโs company as we rested. We shared an apple, passing it back and forth between bites, which is close to kissing, if youโve never kissed before.
And, after some gentle goading, Denna sang for me. One verse of โCome Wash,โ a verse I had never heard before, which I suspect she made up on the spot. I will not repeat it here, as she sang it to me, not to you. And since this is not the story of two young lovers meeting by the river, it has no particular place here, and I will keep it to myself.