โO11:59 p.m.
ne more minute!โ Logan exclaims.
I swear, heโs one of the few people I know who still gets ridiculously excited about New
Yearโs Eve. Me, I never cared much for the holiday to begin with, and over the years my interest levels have only decreased.
But my boyfriend is grinning happily as he watches the clock on his phone tick down. Thanks to the blizzard raging outside our car, both of our phones lost their signals a long time ago, but at least the battery life is going strong.
The champagne bottle is poised in Loganโs hand. Suddenly he looks over, worried. โWho gets the first sip?โ he demands. โWe donโt have glasses!โ
โYou can have the first sip,โ I say graciously. โYou sure?โ
โI mean, I guess? I really wanted it, butโฆโ In reality I donโt give a hoot who gets the first drink of the new year. But if I make him think Iโm doing him a huge favor, I could remind him of this moment the next time he vetoes all my movie picks on Netflix. โItโs okay. You do it.โ
He practically beams at me. It takes very little to make this man happy.
โThirty seconds,โ he warns. โSit up, woman.โ
I swallow a laugh and straighten up. Loganโs blue eyes stay glued to his phone. โWeโre almost at the countdown. I expect some enthusiastic yelling. Ready, babe?โ
โSure. But we donโt have to yellโโ โTEN!โ
Oh brother.
โNINE!โ he shouts, motioning me with his hand to join
in.
And because I love this guy with all my heart, I make
him happy and scream right along with him. When we finish shouting โONE!โ, Logan throws in a โHAPPY NEW YEAR!โ and then kisses me deeply.
I return the kiss, pulling back to whisper, โHappy New Year, Johnny.โ
โHappy New Year, Gracie.โ
With a little boy smile, he raises the bottle to his lips and takes the first sip of champagne.
2:00 a.m.
The tow truck still hasnโt arrived.
Itโs been hours since the clock struck midnight, and Logan and I have already polished off the entire champagne bottle. Now weโre tipsy and warm in the back seat, regaling each other with random childhood tales.
His stories lack the levity that mine possess, which isnโt too surprising. Loganโs parents are divorced and his father is a recovering alcoholic, so he didnโt have the easiest upbringing. But he does have some good memories with his brother. My parents are also divorced, but they remained close friends, so my family stories are much happier.
As we laugh and snuggle and share memories, weโre constantly touching each other. He strokes my hair. I play with the stubble rising on his strong jaw. His whiskers scrape my fingertips, but when he ruefully says he needs to shave, I disagree. I think heโs sexy and manly, and I canโt stop touching him. Itโs been like that since the moment we met. My college freshman self fell hard for John Logan, and he hasnโt left my system since.
Hopefully he never does.
โDo you think theyโre ever going to show up?โ I ask as I press my nose to the cold window. Beyond the pane, the world is an endless swirl of snow.
โThey said six hours,โ he reminds me. โIt hasnโt been six hours yet.โ
โItโs been five and a half.โ โFive and a half isnโt six.โ
โBut why arenโt they here yet?โ I whine. โBecause it hasnโt been six hours!โ
โStop saying that!โ
Logan bursts out laughing, while I continue to look miserably out the window.
โWhat if we starve to death?โ โWe wonโt,โ he assures me.
โWhat if we die of exposure andโoh my God. I just realized something. What if weโre being punished?โ
He sighs. โAll right. Iโll bite. Punished for what and by whom?โ
โBy Alexander! For hating him. What if he did this?โ I gasp suddenly. โOh my God, Logan, do you think this is how Willie felt when he was lying at the bottom of that ravine with his broken leg? Before his spirit entered Alexander? Do you think he knew he was going to die?โ
Logan doesnโt speak for a moment. Then he nods. โIโve made the decision to ignore you for the next ten minutes, or however long it takes for the terror to leave my body.โ
2:42 a.m.
I wrest my gaze away from the window and release a long, bleak sigh. โAll right. I think itโs time.โ
His brow furrows. โTime for what?โ โTo make a pact.โ
โWhat pact?โ
I pull the blanket tighter around our lower bodies. โWe could be stuck here for days. Weeks, even.โ
โIt wonโt be days or weeks, you crazy woman.โ
I jut my chin stubbornly. โItย couldย be. And if that happens, thereโs a good chance weโll die from starvation or exposure like Willie did on the California Trail. And unless we decide on a synchronized murder-suicide, obviously one of us will die before the other. So if that happens, we need to make a pact.โ
โWhat fucking pact?โ he growls.
โIf weโre dealing with a starvation situation, the person whoโs still alive has to eat the dead one.โ
Logan stares at me.
โWhat?โ I say defensively. โItโs a matter of survival.โ โYou want us to eat each other.โ
โWell, not each other. Only one of us will need to do it. And I just want you to knowโif I die first, I give you permission to eat me. Do whatever you need to do to survive. No judgment whatsoever from beyond the grave.โ
He just stares again.
โSo itโs a pact? The living one eats the dead one? Thereโs a Swiss Army knife in the emergency kit. Oh, and I think the butt is the best part to cut into. Fleshier.โ
โNo,โ he says emphatically.
โYes,โ I insist. โThe butt is the best partโโ
โNo, as in, Iโm not cutting off a piece of your sweet ass andย consumingย it,โ he clarifies. โIโd rather we just die in each otherโs arms, old-people-in-Titanicย style.โ
I shake my head in disappointment. โFine, donโt agree to the pact. Iโm still doing it.โ
โA pact requires the agreement of both parties,โ he argues.
โNot when myย lifeย is at stake.โ I stick my tongue out. โSorry, babe, but Iโm eating your ass whether you like it or not.โ
I donโt realize how poorly I worded that untilย afterย the words exit my mouth, which earns me howls and howls of laughter from my immature boyfriend.
3:02 a.m.
โOkay, itโs obviously been fourteen hoursโโ โSix,โ Logan corrects.
โโand theyโre still not here.โ My teeth nearly poke a hole through the inside of my cheek. โI donโt think theyโll be able to find us.โ
โThey have our exact location.โ
โYeah, but the car is covered in snow. They wonโt see us. And then when the blizzard ends, weโll have to dig our way out.โ I give him a firm look. โYou really need to agree to the pact.โ
โNever. And we wonโt have to dig ourselves out. Weโre fine.โ But my concerns do spur him into action. He reaches for the door handle and curses when it takes several hard pushes to get it open. โIโll be right back.โ
โWhat are you going to do?โ
โScrape the snow off so they can see the car. And Iโd better turn on the emergency blinkers now. The cavalry should be here any minute.โ
I start to push the blanket off. โLet me help.โ โNo way. Itโs too cold. Stay here.โ
He goes outside and starts scraping, until his handsome face eventually appears on the other side of the window.
His features are creased with focus, which brings a smile to my lips. No matter what John Logan does, he gives it 110 percent of his concentration.
Fifteen minutes later heโs back in the car, shaking snow off himself like a dog shaking off water after a swim. He crawls under the blanket, and I try to warm him up.
โThanks,โ he mumbles, his broad frame shivering in my arms.
โAww, baby.โ I rub his back in an attempt to infuse him with warmth. It doesnโt really work, so I make an executive decision to blast the heat even though I know weโre slowly draining our gas tank and battery.
3:46 a.m.
โThe tow truck still isnโt here. Theyโre almost an hour late and I fear for our lives. Who knows, maybe theyโll never show up. We might be trapped here forever. Our bodies will be found years later andโโ
โOh, would you cut it out.โ Logan grabs the phone from my hand and addresses the camera. โWeโre not going to die. We are just fine.โ He pauses for a beat. โBut in the event that weย doย die: Mom, I love you. I want you to know youโre the greatestโโ
โHey!โ I punch him in the shoulder. โStop using up my battery forย yourย goodbyes. You donโt even believe weโre going to die.โ I snatch the phone and talk to it. โHe wonโt even make a pact to eat each other, you guys! What kind of boyfriend is that? Iโm offering him sustenance to live and he wonโt eat me!โ
Loganโs lips suddenly press against my cheek. โYou want me to eat you?โ he says silkily. โIโll fucking eat you, baby.โ
โJohn,โ I gasp, aghast. I look at the camera. โPretend you didnโt hear that, Dad!โ
Then I stop recording, and Logan and I start making out while the snow continues to fall beyond the car.
4:22 a.m.
โWell, there goes our tank,โ Logan remarks as the vents release their final burst of hot air. The tow truck still hasnโt arrived, and weโve officially run out of gas.
โThe offer to eat me after I die still stands,โ I tell him. โThatโs how much I love you.โ
He sighs.
4:49 a.m.
Iโm curled up in Loganโs strong arms, sleepy and contented, as his long fingers play with my hair.
โMissed this,โ he mumbles.
I twist my head to look at him. โWhat?โ โCuddling with you. Being with you.โ
A lump lodges in my throat. โMe too.โ
Silence settles between us. The last few years flash through my mind. How we first got together. All the changes in our relationship since Logan graduated from Briar. When he played for Bostonโs farm team, I thoughtย thatย schedule was hectic. Now heโs in the pros, and this schedule is a thousand times more intense.
I reach up to stroke his chiseled jaw. โThereโs nobody else Iโd rather freeze to death with than you.โ
His chest vibrates from laughter. โRight back atcha, gorgeous.โ
5:13 a.m.
Iโm jolted awake by the sound of honking. Logan nudges me off him and reaches for the door.
โI think theyโre here,โ he says.
I fly into a sitting position. โItโs about time! Theyโre like eighteen hours late.โ
โTwo,โ he corrects, grinning at me. โIn blizzard years, thatโs eighteen.โ
โDrama queen.โ He chuckles and hops out of the car before I can take offense.
I zip up my jacket and follow him outside, where my heart immediately does a happy flip. Two beams of light break the pitch-black night. Or morning, rather.
I glimpse a shadowy figure, and then a male voice wafts toward us from the top of the slope.
โYou folks called for assistance?โ