WHILE WE SAT AT THEย breakfast table the next morning, I found myself looking over the boys, searching for signs that anyone else might be like Jack. I kept thinking that if Iโd paid more attention those first few days, Iโd have been able to see there was something off about him.
Then my eyes passed over some of the others Iโd gotten to know, like Hale and Henri. Even Erikโs presence was a welcome one. After meeting them, I couldnโt let one boy make me fearful of all the others. And in truth, I really didnโt have the privilege of being fearful.
So I pulled myself together, remembering who I was. I couldnโt run scared.
As the meal drew to a close, I stood, commanding their attention. โGentlemen, I have a surprise for you. In fifteen minutes, please come meet me in the studio for a little game.โ
โSome laughed and others clapped, but they didnโt know what was waiting for them. I almost felt bad. I left the room before them, going to make sure my dress and hair looked right for filming.
Shortly thereafter, the boys filed in, all of them seeming a little stunned by the set.
I sat in front, a bit like a schoolteacher, while they each had a stool with a paper and marker and a large, cartoonish name tag like the ones Iโd seen on TV game shows.
โWelcome, gentlemen!โ I sang. โPlease come find your seat.โ
The cameras were already rolling, capturing the nervous smiles and confused head shaking as they found their places and stuck on their tags.
โToday weโre having a pop quiz on all things Illรฉa. Weโll be discussing history, foreign affairs, and domestic policies. When you get an answer right, one of the maids standing by,โ I said, motioning to the ladies waiting in the wings, โwill come and put a gold check mark sticker on you. Get one wrong, and theyโll bring a black X.โ
The boys chuckled with excitement and anxiety, looking at the baskets of stickers.
โDonโt worry, this is all for fun. But I will be using this information to help decide my next elimination. If you get the most wrong, it doesnโt mean youโre automatically out . . . but Iโm watching,โ I teased, pointing a finger at
them.
โFirst question,โ I announced. โThis is an important one! When is my birthday?โ
โThere were several laughs as the boys bent their heads, scribbling answers and peeking at their neighborsโ answers.
โOkay, hold up your signs,โ I ordered, and gawked humorously at the range of dates.
Kile, of course, knew it was April 16, and he had plenty of company, but there were only a few who knew the year as well.
โYou know what, Iโm going to go ahead and give this to anyone who got April at all.โ
โAll right!โ Fox called enthusiastically, and Lodge and Calvin high-fived in the back. The maids crossed the stage, and boys who got an X wailed comically but took the stickers without sulking.
โHereโs one with lots of potential answers. Who would you consider Illรฉaโs greatest allies?โ
Some correctly guessed France, Italy, and New Asia, while Henri held up Swendway, followed by several exclamation points.
Julianโs sign had several arrows drawn up to his face and hadย MEย written in large letters.
I pointed at him. โWait, wait, wait! What does that even mean?โ I asked, trying to suppress a smile.
His grin was huge as he shrugged. โI just think Iโd be a really great friend.โ
I shook my head. โRidiculous.โ But I didnโt think I came off sounding as reproachful as I meant to.
A maid raised her hand on the side of the stage. โSo does he still get an X or . . . ?โ
โOh, thatโs an X!โ I assured her, and the boys chuckled, even Julian.
โMost correctly named August Illรฉa as Dadโs partner in eradicating the rebel forces, and they all knew the history of the Fourth World War. By the time we got to the end, I was pleased that the majority of them were so well- informed.
โLet me see. Who has the most checks?โ The maids helped me count across the rows, which was very efficient since they had handed out the points. โHale has six. So do Raoul and Ean. Bravo, gentlemen!โ
I clapped, and the others joined in before realizing what was next. โOkay, and now, who has the most X marks?โ
The maids quickly pointed to the back corner, where poor Henri was covered with black.
โOh, no, Henri!โ I yelled with a laugh, trying to communicate how little stock I took in the game.
I really had hoped to weed out someone this way, but I knew Henriโs lack of information came from living in the country for only a year or a misunderstanding of the questions in translation.
โWho else do we have? Burke and Ivan . . . not too terrible.โ They had each done pretty badly but still had three correct answers over Henri. At least it confirmed my lack of excitement over Ivan.
โThank you all for indulging me this morning, and I will keep this information in mind as I continue to narrow down suitors in the next few weeks. Congratulations on being so intelligent!โ I applauded them, and they patted one another on the back as the cameras powered down.
โโBefore you go, gentlemen, I have one last question; and it comes from some very recent history, so you all had best get it right.โ
They nervously murmured among themselves, ready for the challenge.
โIf you know the answer, feel free to just shout it out. Ready? When is it acceptable to put your hands on me without my permission?โ
I stared at them all, stone-faced, daring a single one of them to laugh. They exchanged glances with one another, but it was only Hale who was brave enough to answer.
โNever,โ he called out.
โThat is correct. Youโd all do well to remember that. Jack Ranger was let off easy, with nothing more than a punch to his face from my brother and the shame of his ejection. If another one of you attempts to touch me without my consent, you will be caned or worse. Are we clear?โ
The room was still. โIโll take that as a yes.โ
I walked away, hoping my words would linger after me. The game was over, and they couldnโt be left doubting that.
After lunch Dad was a little late getting into the office, which was rare. So I was alone when Lady Brice came knocking on the door.
โYour Highness,โ she greeted. โIs your father not here yet?โ โNo. Not sure whatโs holding him up.โ
โโHmm.โ She tidied the stack of papers in her arms, thinking. โI really needed to speak with him.โ
Lady Brice looked so young sometimes. She was much older than me, of course, but not quite Dadโs age. I never really knew what to make of her. Not that I disliked her or anything, but I always wondered why she was the only woman Dad worked with.
โAnything I could help you with?โ I offered.
She looked down, thinking it over. โIโm not sure how widely heโd want to share this information, so I donโt think so. Sorry.โ
I smiled, knowing she meant it. โNo problem. Lady Brice, can I ask you a question? Youโre very smart and kind. Why havenโt you ever married?โ
She giggled a little. โI am married. To this job! It means a lot to me, and Iโd rather do it well than seek out a spouse.โ
I rolled my eyes. โAmen to that.โ
โI know you understand. And the only people I ever get to see are the other advisers, and I donโt think Iโd want to be in a relationship with any of them. So Iโll just keep working.โ
I nodded. โI respect that. I think people assume women arenโt happy without a husband and children, but you seem quite satisfied.โ
She shrugged. โI think about it. I might adopt one day. I do think motherhood is an honor. And not everyone does it well.โ
โThe hint of bitterness in her tone made me think she was referring to her own mother, but I didnโt want to ask about specifics.
โI know. Iโm fortunate to have such a wonderful one.โ
She sighed, melting a little. โYour mom is a natural. In a way, she was like a second mother to me when I was younger, and I learned a lot from her.โ
I squinted. โI didnโt realize youโd been around the palace that long.โ I tried to remember if there was a time when I hadnโt seen her in the hallways, though Iโd never paid much attention to the advisers until I hit thirteen and started working with Dad in earnest. Perhaps I simply didnโt notice.
โYes, miss. Iโve been here almost as long as you,โ she replied with a laugh. โYour parents are far too generous.โ
Eighteen years was a long time to hold a position in the palace, especially as an adviser. Dad switched most people in and out every five to eight years based on recommendations and the mood of the country. What kept Lady Brice in her place for so long?
I studied her as she swept her hair over her shoulder and smiled. Had Dad let her stay because she was attractive? No. I felt guilty for even thinking Dad could be capable of being that shallow or selfish.
โWell, Iโm sorry I canโt help you, but Iโll tell Dad you came by.โ
โThanks, Your Highness. Itโs not terribly urgent, so thereโs no rush. You have a good day.โ
โYou, too.โ
โShe curtsied and left, and I watched the door long after she was gone, curious about this woman Iโd apparently known all my life without realizing it. I shrugged it away, turning back to my papers. Between the Selection and
work, there was no room in my head for Lady Brice.