Raihn and I left the next day.
The orders had been given. The armies had been rallied. The contingencies had been accounted for. It seemed ridiculous to think
there was little more we could do to prepare, but the truth was that time was more precious than planning for outcomes we couldn’t guarantee.
Raihn and I flew off on our own. We’d set up rendezvous points with the other armies, which would be marching out not long after we left. We’d get a small head start, which, we all prayed, would allow us to slip by unnoticed while Simon and Septimus were distracted by the movement of our forces. Having everyone move individually would hopefully mean a much smaller chance of being intercepted.
We left with only sparse supplies, the new blades that Jace and Alya had forged for me at my hips. When they’d presented them to me before we left, I was speechless, cradling the weapons for so long that they exchanged an awkward glance.
“If they won’t work for you—” Alya had started. “No. No, they’re beautiful.”
Beautiful was a pitiful word, actually, for what these were. Once I’d thought that the Nightborn craftsmanship of the blades Vincent had given me was the epitome of deadly elegance. But these—I’d never seen anything like them before. A mix of vampire and human artistry, the blades seamlessly melded between fresh polished steel and the red shards of what had once been the Taker of Hearts. I’d sketched my previous swords for Jace, and he’d achieved an incredible recreation, tailoring them to my
preference in style and weight—the blades slightly curved, and incredibly light.
When my hands folded around those hilts, it felt like coming home. I could still feel the echo of Vincent’s presence when I touched them, but it was only an echo—a part, not the whole.
These felt like mine.
Raihn and I flew for a long time without talking much, keeping an eye out for Rishan spies patrolling the air. I was glad we were leaving Alya’s quickly, because Jesmine and Vale both suspected that Simon either knew where we were or would very soon, given how many resources he and Septimus would be pouring into finding us. Several times, we had to carefully reroute to avoid guards in the skies, hiding ourselves in the clouds.
We weren’t far from our destination. The map on my hand moved with us, shifting in scale and angle to show us our position relative to our target. It was only a day’s travel, even with the convoluted detours.
When dawn approached, we stopped in the desert and pitched a tent, hidden in a rocky area of stone and brush that would hide our location from above. We’d pushed our timing as far as we could on such a cloudless day
—the sun was already peeking over the horizon by the time we crawled inside. The shelter was barely big enough for both of us, designed to be temporary and portable.
Raihn let out a grunt as he flopped down on the rough, uneven ground. We hadn’t bothered packing bedrolls—we could sleep anywhere, we figured, for a single day. Better to save the weight.
“Now this,” he said, “is what I expected when I became a king.” “I’m sure you’ll miss it tomorrow.”
“You’re probably right.”
He was still smiling, but the joke seemed a little less lighthearted.
I lay down beside him, hands folded over my stomach, staring up at the canvas. The fabric was so lightweight that while it kept out the worst of the sun, I could make out the outline of it through the cream fabric, like an all-seeing eye.
I thought about the hundreds of vampire soldiers sleeping today in tents just like this one, staring up at this sky, wondering if they were going to die tonight.
“They must be on their way,” I murmured.
They. The Rishan. The Hiaj. The humans. Simon and Septimus.
Everyone.
“Mm. Probably.”
Raihn rolled over. I did the same, so we lay face to face. We were so close that I could see every strand of color in his eyes, faintly illuminated by the light through the canvas. So many disparate strands—brown and purple and blue and red and near-black. I wondered if they’d looked like that when he was human.
I found myself trying to commit them to memory, those eyes. Like coins I wanted to slip into my pocket.
In his presence, I felt safer than I did anywhere else. And yet, sometimes when I looked at him, paralyzing fear seized me, so much sharper than the fear I felt for myself.
In these moments, I thought of what Raihn’s dead body had looked like in the colosseum sands, and I couldn’t breathe.
A wrinkle formed between his brows. His thumb brushed my cheek, then the corner of my mouth.
“What’s that face for, princess?”
I didn’t know how to answer that question. “I’m scared” didn’t say enough and said too much.
Instead of answering, I leaned forward and pressed my mouth against
his.
The kiss was more than I had intended it to be. Deeper, softer, slower.
He met it with equal fervor, lips melting against mine, tongue caressing me with gentle strokes. So easily, my hands found his face, pulling him closer as his touch fell to my sides. He lowered me to the ground, his body moving over mine, natural as the movement of the ocean over the shore, our kisses never parting.
We’d never been quite like this. I wanted to feel him from every angle before I died.
My fingertips ran down over his bare torso, tracing the lines and valleys of his muscles and scars with something akin to reverence. His played at the hem of my undershirt, and I whimpered my approval against his lips. Heat built between us, in the small sliver of flesh where my stomach met his. But it wasn’t the raging, out-of-control fire of our previous encounters. It was the heat of a fireplace in a comfortable home, warm and familiar.
And yet, dangerous. Dangerous in its safety.
I shifted further beneath his body, my thighs opening around his hips, so his erection pressed against my core.
He pulled away just enough to break our kiss, his nose still brushing mine. His hair dangled around his face, tickling my cheeks. Those magnificent eyes searched mine. They seemed pained and full—full of words that matched the ones I couldn’t bring myself to say.
“Oraya,” he murmured.
“Sh,” I whispered. “We don’t have to.” And I kissed him again.
Again.
I felt his entire body melt with his acquiescence. His weight settled over me. I yanked at my camisole and he reached down to loosen my trousers. We shimmied out of our remaining clothing, shedding it between kisses, before his weight settled over me again, skin against skin.
I’d never had him like this before.
Never had anyone like this, since the night I lost my virginity and nearly lost my life for it. Even in fantasies, the idea of being so trapped had been inconceivable. And yet, now I craved so deeply the very thing that I’d found repulsive for so long—I wanted him to surround me. I wanted to feel his weight over me. I wanted as much of my skin against him as I could offer him.
Those kisses, soft and searching, never broke. I reached down and aligned him with my entrance.
One push, and he was everywhere.
I gasped against his mouth, capturing his groan. My legs folded around his waist, opening more to ease him deeper. His first stroke was slow and deep, as if he wanted to savor what it felt like, before he withdrew.
“Oraya,” he murmured.
“Sh,” I whispered against his mouth, and kissed him again, languidly, exploring every angle.
And that was the pace he kept, too, each thrust patient and deep and thorough, like he wanted to sear it all into memory—my skin, my body, and what it felt like to be inside me.
How did I know that was what he was doing?
Maybe it was because I was doing the same. Committing him to memory. Making sure that every movement, every breath, every sound he made was marked onto my soul. I wanted to capture him like rainwater. I
wanted to savor him like blood. I wanted him to open me and touch everything within me that I’d hidden away from the world. How could there be so much pleasure in vulnerability? How could there be so much pleasure in fear?
My hips rolled with him, wringing that slow pleasure from every stroke of his cock, drowning in the way his breath hitched against our kisses with each movement, each contraction of my muscles.
The slow fire was building, building, into something overwhelming, consuming us both. But never out of control. Never terrifying.
My exhales became moans, matched by his, swallowed in each other’s breaths. I wouldn’t let him go, even when our pace quickened, even when breathing through our kisses grew clumsy and desperate.
I wanted to feel it through my entire body when he came, feel the way his muscles strained, hold him against me in those final moments.
He pushed deep into me now, hard. Goddess, I wanted more. Needed more. And yet, I never wanted this moment to end.
The need to tell him something, everything—Mother, I didn’t even know what, only that it was so big, so important, so overwhelming—rose in my throat.
But I couldn’t wrangle whatever I was feeling into words.
So I choked out, “Raihn,” against his lips, a question, an answer, a plea.
Because that name was all those things, wasn’t it? Raihn. My downfall and my most valuable supporter. My weakness and my strength. My worst enemy and the greatest love I had ever known.
All of that in one name. One person. One soul I knew as well as my own, just as confusing, just as flawed.
Pleasure built, spiked, in the place where we were connected. I wanted to feel him everywhere. Give him everything.
“Raihn,” I whimpered again, not even knowing what I was asking. “I know, princess,” he whispered. “I know.”
And then, just as I knew we were both rushing to the precipice, he broke our kiss and pulled away.
I let out a small sound of protest, starting to move after him, needing to taste him in that moment of climax.
“Let me watch you,” he murmured, voice rough. “Please. One last time.”
And Mother, the way he said it. Like it was the only thing he wanted out of his life before he let it go.
I couldn’t deny him even if I’d wanted to, because then he reached down and guided my thighs wider, opening me more for one final push, touching the deepest parts of me.
My back arched, pushing myself against his chest. I didn’t mean to cry out, but the sound escaped me anyway, uncontrollable. My fingernails dug into his shoulder, clutching him through the wave of pleasure—clutching him so I could feel him straining too, riding with me into the end.
But even as we lost ourselves, neither of us closed our eyes. We watched each other, gazes locked, bare and exposed through the most vulnerable parts of our pleasure.
He was so beautiful. Lips parted, eyes sharp, his focus fixed entirely on me. Every angle of his face, every scar, every flaw.
Perfect.
The wave melted away, and with it, so did the tension of our muscles. Raihn rolled off me, and I settled easily into the crook of his arm, surrounded by the cadence of his breathing.
We didn’t speak. There was nothing more to say. I kissed the scar on his brow, and the upside-down V on his cheek, and finally, his lips, and then I settled back into his embrace, welcoming our final oblivion.
