WE COULDNโT FLY TOGETHER. For one thing, I was already going to be in Africa. I was scheduled to be in Malawi, doing conservation work with
African Parks.
But I didnโt tell her the other reason: We couldnโt risk being seen together, the press finding out about us. Not yet.
So, she finished herย Eat Pray Loveย thing, then flew from London to Johannesburg, then to Maun, where Iโd asked Teej to meet her. (I wanted to do it myself, of course, but couldnโt without creating a scene.) After an eleven-hour odyssey, including a three-hour layover in Johannesburg, and a hot car ride to the house, Meghan had every right to be grumpy. But she wasnโt. Bright-eyed, eager, she was ready for anything.
And looking likeโฆperfection. She wore cut-off jean shorts, well-loved hiking boots, a crumpled Panama hat that Iโd seen on her Instagram page.
As I opened the gate to Teej and Mikeโs house, I handed her a chicken-salad sandwich, wrapped in clingfilm.ย Thought you might be hungry. I suddenly wished I had flowers, a present, something besides this measly sandwich. We hugged, and it was awkward, not just because of the sandwich but the unavoidable suspense. Weโd talked and FaceTimed countless times since our first dates, but this was all new and different. And a bit strange.
We were both thinking the same things.ย Is it going to translate? To another continent?
And what if it doesnโt?
I asked about the flight. She laughed about the Air Botswana crew. They were big fans ofย Suits, so theyโd asked her to pose for a photo.
Yay, I said, thinking: Shit. If one member of the crew posted that photo, the cat would be out of the bag.
We all jumped into a three-bench truck, Mike driving, my bodyguards trailing, and set off. Straight into the sun. After an hour of tarmac roads, we were facing four hours of dirt tracks. To make the time go faster I pointed out every flower, plant, bird.ย Thatโs a francolin. Thatโs a hornbill. Itโs like Zazu fromย The Lion King. Thatโs a lilac-breasted roller, and he seems to be doing his mating display.
After a respectful period of time, I held her hand. Next, when the road got flatter, I ventured a kiss. Just as we both remembered.
My bodyguards, fifty meters behind us, pretended not to see.
As we got further into the bush, as we neared the Okavango, the fauna began changing.
There! Look!
Oh, my God. Is thatโฆgiraffes! And over there, look!
A family of warthogs.
We saw a breeding herd of elephants. Dads, mums, babies.ย Hi, guys.ย We started along a firebreak road and the birds were going nuts, which sent a weird shiver down my spine.ย Lions in the area.
No way, she said.
Something told me to look back. Sure enough, a flickering tail. I shouted for Mike to stop. He hit the brakes, threw the truck into reverse. Thereโstanding right before us, a big fella. Daddy. And there, four youngsters, lounging under a shady bush. With their mums.
We admired them for a while, then drove on.
Shortly before dusk we arrived at a small satellite camp Teej and Mike had made up. I carried our bags to a bell tent beside a huge sausage tree. We were on the edge of a big forest, looking down a gentle slope to the river, and beyond: a floodplain teeming with life.
Meghanโwhom I was now calling Meg, or sometimes just Mโwas stunned. The vivid colors. The pure, fresh air. Sheโd traveled, but sheโd never seen anything like this. This was the world before the world was made.
She opened her small suitcaseโshe needed to get something. Here it comes, I thought. The mirror, the hairdryer, the makeup kit, the fluffy duvet, the dozen pairs of shoes. I was shamefully stereotyping: American actress equals diva. To my shock, and delight, there was nothing in that suitcase but bare essentials. Shorts, ripped jeans and snacks. And a yoga mat.
We sat in canvas chairs, watched the sun set and the moon rise. I whipped up some bush cocktails. Whisky with a splash of river water. Teej offered Meg a glass of wine and showed her how to cut the end off a plastic water bottle and turn it into a goblet. We told stories, laughed a lot, then Teej and Mike cooked us a lovely dinner.
We ate around the fire, staring at the stars.
At bedtime I guided Meg through the darkness to the tent.
Whereโs the flashlight?ย Meg asked.
You mean the torch?
We both laughed.
The tent was very small, and very Spartan. If sheโd been expecting some glamping trip, she was now fully divested of that fantasy. We lay down inside, on our backs, feeling the moment, reckoning with the moment.
There were separate bedrolls, the result of much worry and many conversations with Teej. Didnโt want to be presumptuous.
We pushed them together, lay shoulder to shoulder. We stared at the roof, listening, talking, watching moon shadows flutter across the nylon.
Then, a loud munching sound. Meg bolted upright.ย Whatโs that? Elephant,ย I said.
Just one, from what I could tell. Just outside. Eating peacefully from the shrubs around us.
She wonโt hurt us.
She wonโt?
Soon after, the tent shook from a loud roar. Lions.
Are we going to be OK? Yes. Donโt worry.
She lay down, put her head on my chest.
Trust me,ย I told her.ย Iโll keep you safe.