I had, apparently, piqued Valeโs interest, because from that moment forward, he wanted to study with me all the time. We dug through his libraries and studies together, and he helped me find books that might
be relevant to my work, then translated them for me as I scribbled frantic notes in my notebooks. Time blurred together, every minute morphing to hours until my head started to bob over my books and Vale would force me to rest.
โIs this how you live?โ he asked, appalled, to which I blinked blearily at him.
โI have work to do,โ I answered, because this was obvious. To that, he snorted and scoffed and dragged me off to bed, and then sat there to make sure I stayedโbecause Iโd been foolish the first time and let him catch me sneaking out.
I couldnโt help it. There was so much knowledge in Valeโs houseโso much to learn. I wanted all of it. I wanted lifetimes, eternities, to absorb everything that he knewโto experience the world as he had.
Two more days passed, then three. My health improved. I toyed with the thought of leaving on the third day, but Vale said, very seriously, โYou still are unwell. Youโre in no state to travel.โ
And later, I would lie in bed and swallow shame, because I could have argued with himโshould haveย argued with him.
But I didnโt want to.
Because maybe some part of me found a strange kinship with him in those exhausted, sleep-deprived days. Iโd watch him read his Obitraen
books to me, watch something flicker to life over his face, a fervent curiosity that mirrored what I so often felt and always dampened.
I had thought nothing could possibly be more beautiful than Valeโs blood. I had been wrong.
And when the days passed, and my exhaustion and my enthusiasm led me to loosen my typically-closely-held control over my socially unacceptable attitudes, my raw enthusiasm leaking through as I talked excitedly to Vale about some theory or another, I turned to see him staring at me, brows drawn. His expression made me freeze, my face flushingโ because Iโd let down a wall I shouldnโt have and wasnโt sure what I might have revealed beyond it.
โIโโ I started.
But he just said, calmly, โYou are a very beautiful woman.โ
It wasnโt an invitation, like the first night he had asked me if I wanted to spend the night with him. He wasnโt flirting with me. No, it was an observation, clear and simple as those in the books spread before us, and Vale simply let it lie there and then turned back to his book.