HE WAS SITTING on the edge of a table, his shirt crumpled into a ball at his knee, his arms raised above his head as the vague shape of a Corporalnik Healer came in and out of focus, tending to a bloody gash in the Darkling’s side. I thought at first we might be in the infirmary at the Little Palace, but the space was too dark and blurry for me to tell.
I tried not to notice the way he looked—his mussed hair, the shadowed ridges of his bare chest. He seemed so human, just a boy wounded in battle, or maybe sparring. Not a boy, I reminded myself, a monster who has lived hundreds of years and taken hundreds of lives.
His jaw tensed as the Corporalnik finished her work. When the skin had knitted together, the Darkling dismissed her with a wave. She hovered briefly, then slipped away, fading into nothing.
“There’s something I’ve been wondering,” he said. No greeting, no preamble.
I waited.
“The night that Baghra told you what I intended, the night you fled the Little Palace, did you hesitate?”
“Yes.”
“In the days after you left, did you ever think of coming back?” “I did,” I admitted.
“But you chose not to.”
I knew I should go. I should at least have stayed silent, but I was so weary, and it felt so easy to be here with him. “It wasn’t just what Baghra said that night. You lied to me. You deceived me. You … drew me in.” Seduced me, made me want you, made me question my own heart.
“I needed your loyalty, Alina. I needed you bound to me by more than duty or fear.” His fingers tested the flesh where his wound had been. Only a mild redness remained. “There are rumors that your Lantsov prince has been sighted.”
I drifted nearer, trying to keep my voice casual. “Where?”
He glanced up, his lips curling in a slight smile. “Do you like him?” “Does it matter?”
“It’s harder when you like them. You mourn them more.” How many had he mourned? Had there been friends? A wife? Had he ever let anyone get that close?
“Tell me, Alina,” said the Darkling. “Has he claimed you yet?” “Claimed me? Like a peninsula?”
“No blushes. No averted eyes. How you’ve changed. What about your faithful tracker? Will he sleep curled at the foot of your throne?”
He was pressing, trying to provoke me. Instead of shying away, I moved closer. “You came to me wearing Mal’s face that night in your chambers. Was it because you knew I would turn you away?”
His fingers tightened on the table’s edge, but then he shrugged. “He was the one you longed for. Do you still?”
“No.”
“An apt pupil, but a terrible liar.”
“Why do you have such disdain for otkazat’sya?” “Not disdain. Understanding.”
“They’re not all fools and weaklings.”
“What they are is predictable,” he said. “The people would love you for a time. But what would they think when their good king aged and died, while his witch of a wife remained young? When all those who remember your sacrifices are dust in the ground, how long do you think it will take for their children or their grandchildren to turn on you?”
His words sent a chill through me. I still couldn’t get my head around the idea of the long life that lay ahead of me, that yawning abyss of eternity.
“You never considered it, did you?” said the Darkling. “You live in a single moment. I live in a thousand.” Are we not all things?
In a flash, his hand snaked out and seized my wrist. The room came into sudden focus. He yanked me close, wedging me between his knees. His other
hand pressed to the small of my back, his strong fingers splayed over the curve of my spine.
“You were meant to be my balance, Alina. You are the only person in the world who might rule with me, who might keep my power in check.”
“And who will balance me?” The words emerged before I thought better of them, giving raw voice to a thought that haunted me even more than the possibility that the firebird didn’t exist. “What if I’m no better than you? What if instead of stopping you, I’m just another avalanche?”
He studied me for a long moment. He had always watched me this way, as if I were an equation that didn’t quite tally.
“I want you to know my name,” he said. “The name I was given, not the title I took for myself. Will you have it, Alina?”
I could feel the weight of Nikolai’s ring in my palm back at the Spinning Wheel. I didn’t have to stand here in the Darkling’s arms. I could vanish from his grip, slide back into consciousness and the safety of a stone room hidden in a mountaintop. But I didn’t want to go. Despite everything, I wanted this whispered confidence.
“Yes,” I breathed.
After a long moment, he said, “Aleksander.”
A little laugh escaped me. He arched a brow, a smile tugging at his lips. “What?”
“It’s just so … common.” Such an ordinary name, held by kings and peasants alike. I’d known two Aleksanders at Keramzin alone, three in the First Army. One of them had died on the Fold.
His smile deepened and he cocked his head to the side. It almost hurt to see him this way. “Will you say it?” he asked.
I hesitated, feeling danger crowd in on me. “Aleksander,” I whispered.
His grin faded, and his gray eyes seemed to flicker. “Again,” he said.
“Aleksander.”
He leaned in. I felt his breath against my neck, then the press of his mouth against my skin just above the collar, almost a sigh.
“Don’t,” I said. I drew back, but he held me tighter. His hand went to the nape of my neck, long fingers twining in my hair, easing my head back. I
closed my eyes.
“Let me,” he murmured against my throat. His heel hooked around my leg, bringing me closer. I felt the heat of his tongue, the flex of hard muscle beneath bare skin as he guided my hands around his waist. “It isn’t real,” he said. “Let me.”
I felt that rush of hunger, the steady, longing beat of desire that neither of us wanted, but that gripped us anyway. We were alone in the world, unique. We were bound together and always would be.
And it didn’t matter.
I couldn’t forget what he’d done, and I wouldn’t forgive what he was: a murderer. A monster. A man who had tortured my friends and slaughtered the people I’d tried to protect.
I shoved away from him. “It’s real enough.”
His eyes narrowed. “I grow weary of this game, Alina.”
I was surprised at the anger that surged to life in me. “Weary? You’ve toyed with me at every turn. You haven’t tired of the game. You’re just sorry I’m not so easily played.”
“Clever Alina,” he bit out. “The apt pupil. I’m glad you came tonight. I want to share my news.” He yanked his bloody shirt on over his head. “I’m going to enter the Fold.”
“Go ahead,” I said. “The volcra deserve another piece of you.” “They will not have it.”
“You hope to find their appetites changed? Or is this just more madness?” “I am not mad. Ask David what secrets he left for me to discover at the
palace.”
I stilled.
“Another clever one,” said the Darkling. “I’ll be taking him back too, when this is all over. Such an able mind.”
“You’re bluffing,” I said.
The Darkling smiled, but this time the turn of his lips was cold. He shoved off the table and stalked toward me.
“I will enter the Fold, Alina, and I will show West Ravka what I can do, even without the Sun Summoner. And when I have crushed Lantsov’s only ally, I will hunt you like an animal. You will find no sanctuary. You will have no peace.” He loomed over me, his gray eyes glinting. “Fly back home to
your otkazat’sya,” he snarled. “Hold him tight. The rules of this game are about to change.”
The Darkling raised his hand, and the Cut tore through me. I shattered, and gusted back into my body with an icy jolt.
I clutched at my torso, heart hammering in my chest, still feeling the slice of shadow through it, but I was whole and unmarked. I stumbled out of bed, trying to find the lantern, then gave up and fumbled around until I found my coat and boots.
Tamar was standing guard outside my room. “Where is David lodged?” I asked.
“Just down the corridor with Adrik and Harshaw.” “Are Mal and Tolya sleeping?”
She nodded. “Wake them up.”
She slipped into the guards’ room, and Mal and Tolya were outside with us seconds later, awake instantly in the way of soldiers, and already pulling on their boots. Mal had his pistol.
“You won’t need that,” I said. “At least, I don’t think you will.”
I considered sending someone to get Nikolai, but I wanted to know what we were dealing with first.
We strode down the hall, and when we got to David’s room, Tamar rapped once at the door before pushing in.
Apparently, Adrik and Harshaw had been evicted for the night. A very bleary Genya and David blinked up at us from beneath the covers of a single narrow cot.
I pointed at David. “Get dressed,” I said. “You have two minutes.” “What’s—” Genya began.
“Just do it.”
We slipped back out the door to wait.
Mal gave a little cough. “Can’t say I’m surprised.”
Tamar snorted. “After his little speech in the war room, even I considered pouncing on him.”
Moments later, the door cracked open and a disheveled, barefoot David ushered us in. Genya was seated cross-legged on the cot, her red curls going every which way.
“What is it?” said David. “What’s wrong?”
“I’ve received information that the Darkling intends to use the Fold against West Ravka.”
“Did Nikolai—” Tamar began.
I held up a hand. “I need to know if it’s possible.”
David shook his head. “He can’t without you. He needs to enter the Unsea to expand it.”
“He claims he can. He claims you left secrets at the Little Palace.” “Wait a minute,” said Genya. “Where is this information coming from?”
“Sources,” I said curtly. “David, what did he mean?” I didn’t want to believe David would betray us, at least not deliberately.
David frowned. “When we fled Os Alta, I left my old notebooks behind, but they’re hardly dangerous.”
“What was in them?” asked Tamar.
“All kinds of things,” he said, his nimble fingers pleating and unpleating the fabric of his trousers. “The designs for the mirrored dishes, a lens to filter different waves of the spectrum, nothing he could use to enter the Fold. But…” He paled slightly.
“What else?”
“It was just an idea—” “What else?”
“There was a plan for a glass skiff that Nikolai and I came up with.”
I frowned and glanced at Mal, then at the others. They all looked as puzzled as I did. “Why would he want a glass skiff?”
“The frame is made to hold lumiya.”
I made an impatient gesture. “What’s lumiya?” “A variation on liquid fire.”
Saints. “Oh, David. You didn’t.” Liquid fire was one of Morozova’s creations. It was sticky, flammable, and created a blaze that was almost impossible to extinguish. It was so dangerous that Morozova had destroyed the formula only hours after he’d created it.
“No!” David held his hands up defensively. “No, no. This is better, safer. The reaction only creates light, not heat. I came up with it when we were trying to find ways to improve the flash bombs for fighting the nichevo’ya. It wasn’t applicable, but I liked the idea so I kept it for … for later.” He
shrugged helplessly.
“It burns without heat?”
“It’s just a source of artificial sunlight.” “Enough to keep the volcra at bay?”
“Yes, but it’s useless to the Darkling. It has a limited burn life, and you need sunlight to activate it.”
“How much?”
“Very little, that was the point. It was just another way of magnifying your power, like the dishes. But there isn’t any light in the Fold, so—”
I held out my hands and shadows spilled over the walls.
Genya cried out, and David shrank back against the bed. Tolya and Tamar reached for their weapons.
I dropped my arms, and the shadows returned to their ordinary forms.
Everyone gaped at me.
“You have his power?” whispered Genya.
“No. Just a scrap of it.” Mal thought I’d taken it from the Darkling. Maybe the Darkling had taken something from me too.
“That’s how you made the shadows jump when we were in the Kettle,” said Tolya.
I nodded.
Tamar jabbed a finger at Mal. “You lied to us.”
“I kept her secrets,” Mal said. “You would have done the same.”
She crossed her arms. Tolya laid a big hand on her shoulder. They all looked upset, but not as scared as they might have.
“You see what this means,” I said. “If the Darkling has even a remnant of my power—”
“Would it be enough to hold off the volcra?” asked Genya.
“No,” I said. “I don’t think so.” I’d needed an amplifier before I was able to command enough light to safely enter the Fold. Of course, there was no guarantee that the Darkling hadn’t taken more of my power when we’d faced each other in the chapel. And yet, if he’d been able to truly wield light, he would have acted before this.
“It doesn’t matter,” said David miserably. “He only needs enough sunlight to activate the lumiya once he’s in the Fold.”
“Plenty of light for protection,” said Mal. “A well-armed skiff of Grisha
and soldiers…”
Tamar shook her head. “Even for the Darkling, that seems risky.”
But Tolya answered her with my own thoughts. “You’re forgetting the
nichevo’ya.”
“Shadow soldiers fighting volcra?” Genya said in horror. “Saints,” swore Tamar. “Who do you root for?”
“The problem was always containment,” said David. “Lumiya eats through everything. The only thing that worked was glass, but that presents its own engineering problems. Nikolai and I never resolved them. It was just … just for fun.”
If the Darkling hadn’t solved those problems already, he would.
You will find no sanctuary. You will have no peace.
I put my head in my hands. “He’s going to break West Ravka.” And after that, no country would dare to stand with me or Nikolai.
