Every week there seems to be one invitation that is coveted above all others, and this weekโs prize must surely go to the Countess of Macclesfield, who is hosting a grand ball on Monday night. Lady Macclesfield is not a frequent hostess here in London, but she is
very popular, as is her husband, and it is expected that a great many bachelors plan to attend, including Mr. Colin Bridgerton (assuming he does not collapse from exhaustion after four days with the ten Bridgerton grandchildren), Viscount Burwick, and Mr. Michael
Anstruther-Wetherby.
This Author anticipates that a great many young and unmarried
ladies will choose to attend as well, following the publication of this column.
LADYย WHISTLEDOWNโSย SOCIETYย PAPERS, 16 APRILย 1824
His life as he knew it was over.
โWhat?โ he asked, aware that he was blinking rapidly.
Her face turned a deeper shade of crimson than heโd thought humanly possible, and she turned away. โNever mind,โ she mumbled. โForget I said anything.โ
Colin thought that aย veryย good idea.
But then, just when heโd thought that his world might resume its normal course (or at least that heโd be able to pretend it had), she whirled back around, her eyes alight with a passionate fire that astonished him.
โNo, Iโm not going to forget it,โ she cried out. โIโve spent my life forgetting things, not saying them, never telling anyone what I really want.โ
Colin tried to say something, but it was clear to him that his throat had begun to close. Any minute now heโd be dead. He was sure of it.
โIt wonโt mean a thing,โ she said. โI promise you, it wonโt mean anything, and Iโd never expect anything from you because of it, but I could die tomorrow, andโโ
โWhat?โ
Her eyes looked huge, and meltingly dark, and pleading, andโฆ He could feel his resolve melting away.
โIโm eight-and-twenty,โ she said, her voice soft and sad. โIโm an old maid, and Iโve never been kissed.โ
โGahโฆgahโฆgahโฆโ He knew he knew how to speak; he was fairly certain heโd been perfectly articulate just minutes earlier. But now he didnโt seem able to form a word.
And Penelope kept talking, her cheeks delightfully pink, and her lips moving so quickly that he couldnโt help but wonder what theyโd feel like on his skin. On his neck, on his shoulder, on hisโฆother places.
โIโm going to be an old maid at nine-and-twenty,โ she said, โand Iโll be an old maid at thirty. I could die tomorrow, andโโ
โYouโre not going to die tomorrow!โ he somehow managed to get out. โBut I could! I could, and it would kill me, becauseโโ
โYouโd already be dead,โ he said, thinking his voice sounded rather strange and disembodied.
โI donโt want to die without ever having been kissed,โ she finally finished.
Colin could think of a hundred reasons why kissing Penelope Featherington was a very bad idea, the number one being that he actuallyย wantedย to kiss her.
He opened his mouth, hoping that a sound would emerge and that it might actually be intelligible speech, but there was nothing, just the sound of breath on his lips.
And then Penelope did the one thing that could break his resolve in an instant. She looked up at him, deeply into his eyes, and uttered one, simple word.
โPlease.โ
He was lost. There was something heartbreaking in the way she was gazing at him, as if she might die if he didnโt kiss her. Not from heartbreak, not from embarrassmentโit was almost as if she needed him for nourishment, to feed her soul, to fill her heart.
And Colin couldnโt remember anyone else ever needing him with such fervor.
It humbled him.
It made him want her with an intensity that nearly buckled his knees. He looked at her, and somehow he didnโt see the woman heโd seen so many
times before. She was different. She glowed. She was a siren, a goddess, and he wondered how on earth no one had ever noticed this before.
โColin?โ she whispered.
He took a step forwardโbarely a half a foot, but it was close enough so that when he touched her chin and tipped her face up, her lips were mere
inches from his.
Their breath mingled, and the air grew hot and heavy. Penelope was
tremblingโhe could feel that under his fingersโbut he wasnโt so sure that he wasnโt trembling, too.
He assumed heโd say something flip and droll, like the devil-may-care fellow he was reputed to be.ย Anything for you,ย perhaps, or maybe,ย Every woman deserves at least one kiss.ย But as he closed the bare distance between them, he realized that there were no words that could capture the intensity of the moment.
No words for the passion. No words for the need. No words for the sheer epiphany of the moment.
And so, on an otherwise unremarkable Friday afternoon, in the heart of Mayfair, in a quiet drawing room on Mount Street, Colin Bridgerton kissed Penelope Featherington.
And it was glorious.
His lips touched hers softly at first, not because he was trying to be gentle, although if heโd had the presence of mind to think about such things, it probably would have occurred to him that this was her first kiss, and it ought to be reverent and beautiful and all the things a girl dreams about as sheโs lying in bed at night.
But in all truth, none of that was on Colinโs mind. In fact, he was thinking of quite little. His kiss was soft and gentle because he was still so surprised that he was kissing her. Heโd known her for years, had never even thought about touching his lips to hers. And now he couldnโt have let her go if the fires of hell were licking his toes. He could barely believe what he
was doingโor that he wanted to do it so damned much.
It wasnโt the sort of a kiss one initiates because one is overcome with passion or emotion or anger or desire. It was a slower thing, a learning experienceโfor Colin just as much as for Penelope.
And he was learning that everything he thought heโd known about kissing was rubbish.
Everything else had been mere lips and tongue and softly murmured but meaningless words.
Thisย was a kiss.
There was something in the friction, the way he could hear and feel her breath at the same time. Something in the way she held perfectly still, and yet he could feel her heart pounding through her skin.
There was something in the fact that he knew it wasย her.
Colin moved his lips slightly to the left, until he was nipping the corner of her mouth, softly tickling the very spot where her lips joined. His tongue dipped and traced, learning the contours of her mouth, tasting the sweet- salty essence of her.
This was more than a kiss.
His hands, which had been lightly splayed against her back, grew rigid, more tense as they pressed into the fabric of her dress. He could feel the heat of her under his fingertips, seeping up through the muslin, swirling in the delicate muscles of her back.
He drew her to him, pulling her closer, closer, until their bodies were pressed together. He could feel her, the entire length of her, and it set him on fire. He was growing hard, and he wanted herโdear God, how he wanted her.
His mouth grew more insistent, and his tongue darted forward, nudging her until her lips parted. He swallowed her soft moan of acquiescence, then pushed forward to taste her. She was sweet and a little tart from the lemonade, and she was clearly as intoxicating as fine brandy, because Colin was starting to doubt his ability to remain on his feet.
He moved his hands along the length of herโslowly, so as not to frighten her. She was soft, curvy, and lush, just as heโd always thought a woman should be. Her hips flared, and her bottom was perfect, and her breastsโฆgood God, her breasts felt good pressing against his chest. His palms itched to cup them, but he forced his hands to remain where they were (rather enjoyably on her derriรจre, so it really wasnโt that much of a
sacrifice.) Beside the fact that he really shouldnโt be groping a gently bred ladyโs breasts in the middle of her drawing room, he had a rather painful suspicion that if he touched her in that way, he would lose himself completely.
โPenelope, Penelope,โ he murmured, wondering why her name tasted so good on his lips. He was ravenous for her, heady and drugged by passion, and he wanted desperately for her to feel the same way. She felt perfect in
his arms, but thus far, she had made no reaction. Oh, she had swayed in his arms and opened her mouth to welcome his sweet invasion, but other than that, she had done nothing.
And yet, from the pant of her breath and the beat of her heart, he knew that she was aroused.
He pulled back, just a few inches so that he could touch her chin and tilt her face up toward his. Her eyelids fluttered open, revealing eyes that were dazed with passion, perfectly matching her lips, which were lightly parted, completely soft, and thoroughly swollen from his kisses.
She was beautiful. Utterly, completely, soul-stirringly beautiful. He didnโt know how he hadnโt noticed it all these years.
Was the world populated with blind men, or merely stupid ones? โYou can kiss me, too,โ he whispered, leaning his forehead lightly
against hers.
She did nothing but blink.
โA kiss,โ he murmured, lowering his lips to hers again, although just for a fleeting moment, โis for two people.โ
Her hand stirred at his back. โWhat do I do?โ she whispered. โWhatever you want to do.โ
Slowly, tentatively, she lifted one of her hands to his face. Her fingers trailed lightly over his cheek, skimming along the line of his jaw until they fell away.
โThank you,โ she whispered.
Thank you?
He went still.
It wasย exactlyย the wrong thing to say. He didnโt want to be thanked for his kiss.
It made him feel guilty. And shallow.
As if it had been something done out of pity. And the worst part was he knew that if all this had come to pass only a few months earlier, itย would
have been out of pity.
What the hell did that say about him?
โDonโt thank me,โ he said gruffly, shoving himself backward until they were no longer touching.
โButโโ
โI saidย donโt,โ he repeated harshly, turning away as if he couldnโt bear the sight of her, when the truth was that he couldnโt quite bear himself.
And the damnedest thing wasโhe wasnโt sure why. This desperate, gnawing feelingโwas it guilt? Because he shouldnโt have kissed her? Because he shouldnโt have liked it?
โColin,โ she said, โdonโt be angry with yourself.โ โIโm not,โ he snapped.
โI asked you to kiss me. I practically forced youโโ
Now, there was a surefire way to make a man feel manly. โYou didnโt force me,โ he bit off.
โNo, butโโ
โFor the love of God, Penelope,ย enough!โ
She drew back, her eyes wide. โIโm sorry,โ she whispered.
He looked down at her hands. They were shaking. He closed his eyes in agony. Why whyย whyย was he being such an ass?
โPenelopeโฆโ he began.
โNo, itโs all right,โ she said, her words rushed. โYou donโt have to say anything.โ
โNo, I should.โ
โI really wish you wouldnโt.โ
And now she looked so quietly dignified. Which made him feel even worse. She was standing there, her hands clasped demurely in front of her, her eyes downwardโnot quite on the floor, but not on his face.
She thought heโd kissed her out of pity.
And he was a knave because a small part of him wanted her to think that. Because if she thought it, then maybe he could convince himself that it was true, that it was just pity, that it couldnโt possibly be more.
โI should go,โ he said, the words quiet, and yet still too loud in the silent room.
She didnโt try to stop him.
He motioned to the door. โI should go,โ he said again, even as his feet refused to move.
She nodded.
โI didnโtโโ he started to say, and then, horrified by the words that had nearly come out of his mouth, he actually did head toward the door.
But Penelope called outโofย courseย she called outโโYou didnโt what?โ
And he didnโt know what to say, because what heโd started to say was,ย I didnโt kiss you out of pity.ย If he wanted her to know that, if he wanted to
convince himself of that, then that could only mean that he craved her good opinion, which could only meanโ
โI have to go,โ he blurted out, desperate now, as if leaving the room might be the only way to keep his thoughts from traveling down such a
dangerous road. He crossed the remaining distance to the door, waiting for her to say something, to call out his name.
But she didnโt.
And he left.
And heโd never hated himself more.
Colin was in an exceedingly bad mood before the footman showed up at his front door with a summons from his mother. Afterward, he was beyond repair.
Bloody hell. She was going to start in on him again about getting married. Her summonses wereย alwaysย about getting married. And he really wasnโt in the mood for it right now.
But she was his mother. And he loved her. And that meant he couldnโt very well ignore her. So with considerable grumbling and a fair bit of
cursing while he was at it, he yanked on his boots and coat, and headed out the door.
He was living in Bloomsbury, not the most fashionable section of town for a member of the aristocracy, although Bedford Square, where he had taken out a lease on a small but elegant terrace house, was certainly an
upscale and respectable address.
Colin rather liked living in Bloomsbury, where his neighbors were
doctors and lawyers and scholars and people who actuallyย didย things other than attend party after party. He wasnโt ready to trade in his heritage for a
life in tradeโit was rather good to be a Bridgerton, after allโbut there was something stimulating about watching professional men going about their daily business, the lawyers heading east to the Inns of the Court, the doctors northwest to Portland Place.
It would have been easy enough to drive his curricle across town; it had only been brought back to the mews an hour ago upon his return from the Featheringtonsโ. But Colin was feeling a bit in need of some fresh air, not to mention perverse enough to take the slowest means possible to Number Five.
If his mother intended to deliver another lecture on the virtues of marriage, followed by a lengthy dissertation on the attributes of each and every eligible miss in London, she could bloody well wait for him.
Colin closed his eyes and groaned. His mood must be worse than even he had thought if he was cursing in relation to his mother, whom he (and all the Bridgertons, really) held in the highest esteem and affection.
It was Penelopeโs fault.
No, it was Eloiseโs fault, he thought, grinding his teeth. Better to blame a sibling.
Noโhe slumped back into his desk chair, groaningโit was his fault. If he was in a bad mood, if he was ready to yank someoneโs head off with his bare hands, it was his fault and his fault alone.
He shouldnโt have kissed Penelope. It didnโt matter that heโdย wantedย to kiss her, even though he hadnโt evenย realizedย that he wanted to until right before sheโd mentioned it. He still shouldnโt have kissed her.
Although, when he really thought about it, he wasnโt quite sureย whyย he shouldnโt have kissed her.
He stood, then trudged to the window and let his forehead rest against
the pane. Bedford Square was quiet, with only a few men walking along the pavement. Laborers, they looked to be, probably working on the new museum being built just to the east. (It was why Colin had taken a house on the west side of the square; the construction could get very noisy.)
His gaze traveled north, to the statue of Charles James Fox. Now, there was a man with a purpose. Led the Whigs for years. He hadnโt always been very well liked, if some of the older members of theย tonย were to be believed, but Colin was coming to think that perhaps being well liked was over-rated. Heaven knew that no one was better liked than he was, and look at him now, frustrated and malcontent, grumpy and ready to lash out at
anyone who crossed his path.
He sighed, planting one hand on the window frame and pushing himself back to an upright position. Heโd better get going, especially if he was planning to walk all the way to Mayfair. Although, in truth, it really wasnโt that far. Probably not more than thirty minutes if he kept his pace brisk (and he always did), less if the pavements werenโt littered with slow people. It
was longer than most members of theย tonย cared to be outside in London
unless they were shopping or fashionably strolling in the park, but Colin felt the need to clear his head. And if the air in London wasnโt particularly fresh, well, it would still have to do.
His luck that day being what it was, however, by the time he reached the intersection of Oxford and Regent Streets, the first splats of raindrops began to dance against his face. By the time he was turning off Hanover Square onto St. George Street, it was pouring in earnest. And he was just close enough to Bruton Street that it would have been really ridiculous to have tried to hail a hackney to take him the rest of the way.
So he walked on.
After the first minute or so of annoyance, however, the rain began to feel oddly good. It was warm enough out that it didnโt chill him to the bone, and the fat, wet sting of it almost felt like a penance.
And he felt like maybe that was what he deserved.
The door to his motherโs house opened before Colinโs foot had even found the top step; Wickham must have been waiting for him.
โMight I suggest a towel?โ the butler intoned, handing him a large white cloth.
Colin took it, wondering how on earth Wickham had had time to get a towel. He couldnโt have known that Colin would be fool enough to walk in the rain.
Not for the first time it occurred to Colin that butlers must be possessed of strange, mystical powers. Perhaps it was a job requirement.
Colin used the towel to dry his hair, causing great consternation to Wickham, who was terribly proper and surely expected Colin to retire to a private room for at least a half an hour to mend his appearance.
โWhereโs my mother?โ Colin asked.
Wickhamโs lips tightened, and he looked pointedly down at Colinโs feet, which were now creating small puddles. โShe is in her office,โ he replied, โbut she is speaking with your sister.โ
โWhich sister?โ Colin asked, keeping a sunny smile on his face, just to annoy Wickham, who had surely been trying to annoy him by omitting his sisterโs name.
As if you could simply say โyour sisterโ to a Bridgerton and expect him to know who you were talking about.
โFrancesca.โ
โAh, yes. Sheโs returning to Scotland soon, isnโt she?โ โTomorrow.โ
Colin handed the towel back to Wickham, who regarded it as he might a large insect. โI wonโt bother her, then. Just let her know Iโm here when sheโs done with Francesca.โ
Wickham nodded. โWould you care to change your clothes, Mr.
Bridgerton? I believe we have some of your brother Gregoryโs garments upstairs in his bedchamber.โ
Colin found himself smiling. Gregory was finishing up his final term at Cambridge. He was eleven years younger than Colin, and it was difficult to believe they could actually share clothing, but he supposed it was time to accept that his little brother had finally grown up.
โThatโs an excellent idea,โ Colin said. He gave his sodden sleeve a rueful glance. โIโll leave these here to be cleaned and fetch them later.โ
Wickham nodded again, murmured, โAs you wish,โ and disappeared down the hall to parts unknown.
Colin took the steps two at a time up to the family quarters. As he sloshed down the hall, he heard the sound of a door opening. Turning around, he saw that it was Eloise.
Notย the person he wanted to see. She immediately brought back all the memories of his afternoon with Penelope. Their conversation. The kiss.
Especially the kiss.
And even worse, the guilt heโd felt afterward. The guilt he still felt.
โColin,โ Eloise said brightly, โI didnโt realize youโwhat did you do,
walk?โ
He shrugged. โI like the rain.โ
She eyed him curiously, her head cocking to the side as it always did when she was puzzling through something. โYouโre in a rather odd mood today.โ
โIโm soaking wet, Eloise.โ
โNo need to snap at me about it,โ she said with a sniff. โI didnโt force you to walk across town in the rain.โ
โIt wasnโt raining when I left,โ he felt rather compelled to say. There
was something about a sibling that brought out the eight-year-old in a body. โIโm sure the sky was gray,โ she returned.
Clearly, she had a bit of the eight-year-old in her as well.
โMay we continue this discussion when Iโm dry?โ he asked, his voice deliberately impatient.
โOf course,โ she said expansively, all accommodation. โIโll wait for you right here.โ
Colin took his time while he changed into Gregoryโs clothes, taking more care with his cravat than he had in years. Finally, when he was convinced that Eloise must be grinding her teeth, he reentered the hall.
โI heard you went to see Penelope today,โ she said without preamble. Wrong thing to say.
โWhere did you hear that?โ he asked carefully. He knew that his sister and Penelope were close, but surely Penelope wouldnโt have told Eloise aboutย that.
โFelicity told Hyacinth.โ โAnd Hyacinth told you.โ
โOf course.โ
โSomething,โ Colin muttered, โhas got to be done about all the gossip in this town.โ
โI hardly think this counts as gossip, Colin,โ Eloise said. โItโs not as if youโreย interestedย in Penelope.โ
If she had been talking about any other woman, Colin would have expected her to give him a sidelong glance, followed by a coy,ย Are you?
But this was Penelope, and even though Eloise was her very best friend, and thus her finest champion, even she couldnโt imagine that a man of Colinโs reputation and popularity would be interested in a woman of Penelopeโs reputation and (lack of) popularity.
Colinโs mood shifted from bad to foul.
โAnyway,โ Eloise continued, completely oblivious to the thunderstorm that was brewing in her normally sunny and jovial brother, โFelicity told Hyacinth that Briarly told her that youโd visited. I was just wondering what it was about.โ
โItโs none of your business,โ Colin said briskly, hoping sheโd leave it at that, but not really believing she would. He took a step toward the stairwell, though, always optimistic.
โItโs about my birthday, isnโt it?โ Eloise guessed, dashing in front of him with such suddenness that his toe crashed into her slipper. She winced, but Colin didnโt feel particularly sympathetic.
โNo, itโs not about your birthday,โ he snapped. โYour birthday isnโt even untilโโ
He stopped. Ah, hell.
โUntil next week,โ he grumbled.
She smiled slyly. Then, as if her brain had just realized it had taken a wrong turn, her lips parted with dismay as she mentally backed up and headed in another direction. โSo,โ she continued, moving slightly so that she better blocked his path, โif you didnโt go over there to discuss my birthdayโand thereโs nothing you could say now that would convince me you didโwhyย didย you go see Penelope?โ
โIs nothing private in this world?โ โNot inย thisย family.โ
Colin decided that his best bet was to adopt his usual sunny persona, even though he didnโt feel the least bit charitable toward her at the moment, and so he slapped on the smoothest and easiest of his smiles, quirked his head to the side, and asked, โDo I hear Mother calling my name?โ
โI didnโt hear a thing,โ Eloise said pertly, โand what is wrong with you?
You look very odd.โ โIโm fine.โ
โYouโre not fine. You look as if youโve been to the dentist.โ
His voice descended into a mutter. โItโs always nice to receive compliments from family.โ
โIf you canโt trust your family to be honest with you,โ she volleyed, โwhoย canย you trust?โ
He leaned fluidly back against the wall, crossing his arms. โI prefer flattery to honesty.โ
โNo, you donโt.โ
Dear God, he wanted to smack her. He hadnโt done that since he was twelve. And heโd been horsewhipped for it. The only time he could recall his father laying a hand on him.
โWhat I want,โ Colin returned, arching one brow, โis an immediate cessation of this conversation.โ
โWhat you want,โ Eloise needled, โis for me to stop asking you why you went to see Penelope Featherington, but I think we both knowย thatย isnโt likely to occur.โ
And that was when he knew it. Knew it deep in his bones, from his head to his toes, his heart to his mind that his sister was Lady Whistledown. All of the pieces fit. There was no one more stubborn and bullheaded, no one who couldโor wouldโtake the time to get to the bottom of every last
piece of gossip and innuendo.
When Eloise wanted something, she didnโt stop until she had it firmly in her grasp. It wasnโt about money, or greed, or material goods. With her it
was about knowledge. She liked knowing things, and sheโd needle and needle and needle until youโd told her exactly what she wanted to hear.
It was a miracle no one had found her out sooner.
Out of nowhere he said, โI need to talk to you.โ He grabbed her arm and hauled her into the nearest room, which happened to be her own.
โColin!โ she shrieked, trying unsuccessfully to shake him off. โWhat are you doing?โ
He slammed the door shut, let go of her, and crossed his arms, his stance wide, his expression menacing.
โColin?โ she repeated, her voice dubious. โI know what youโve been up to.โ
โWhat Iโve beenโโ
And then, damn her, she started laughing.
โEloise!โ he boomed. โIโm talking to you!โ
โClearly,โ she just barely managed to get out. He held his ground, glaring at her.
She was looking away, nearly doubled over with laughter. Finally, she said, โWhat are youโโ
But then she looked at him again and even though sheโd tried to keep her mouth shut, she exploded again.
If sheโd been drinking something, Colin thought without a trace of humor, it would have come out her nose. โWhat the hell is the matter with you?โ he snapped.
That finally got her attention. He didnโt know whether it was his tone of voice or maybe his use of profanity, but she sobered in an instant.
โMy word,โ she said softly, โyouโre serious.โ โDo I look like Iโm joking?โ
โNo,โ Eloise said. โAlthough you did at first. Iโm sorry, Colin, but itโs just not like you to be glowering and yelling and all that. You looked rather like Anthony.โ
โYouโโ
โActually,โ she said, giving him a look that was not nearly as wary as it should have been, โyou looked more like yourself, trying to imitate Anthony.โ
He was going to kill her. Right here in her room, in his motherโs house, he was going to commit sororicide.
โColin?โ she asked hesitantly, as if sheโd just finally noticed that he had long since passed angry on his way to furious.
โSit. Down.โ He jerked his head toward a chair. โNow.โ
โAre you all right?โ
โSIT DOWN!โย he roared. And she did. With alacrity.
โI canโt remember the last time you raised your voice,โ she whispered. โI canโt remember the last time I had cause to.โ
โWhatโs wrong?โ
He decided he might as well just come out and say it. โColin?โ
โI know youโre Lady Whistledown.โ
โWhaaaaat?โ
โThereโs no use denying it. Iโve seenโโ
Eloise jumped to her feet. โExcept that itโs not true!โ
Suddenly he no longer felt quite so angry. Instead he felt tired, old. โEloise, Iโve seen the proof.โ
โWhat proof?โ she asked, her voice rising with disbelief. โHow can there be proof of something that isnโt true?โ
He grabbed one of her hands. โLook at your fingers.โ She did so. โWhat about them?โ
โInkstains.โ
Her mouth fell open. โFromย thatย youโve deduced that Iโm Lady Whistledown?โ
โWhy are they there, then?โ โYouโve never used a quill?โ
โEloiseโฆโ There was a great deal of warning in his voice.
โI donโt have to tell you why I have inkstains on my fingers.โ He said her name again.
โI donโt,โ she protested. โI owe you noโoh, very well, fine.โ She crossed her arms mutinously. โI write letters.โ
He shot her an extremely disbelieving look.
โI do!โ she protested. โEvery day. Sometimes two in a day when
Francesca is away. Iโm quite a loyal correspondent. You should know. Iโve written enough letters withย yourย name on the envelope, although I doubt half of them ever reached you.โ
โLetters?โ he asked, his voice full of doubtโฆand derision. โFor Godโs sake, Eloise, do you really think that will wash? Who the devil are you writing so many letters to?โ
She blushed. Really, truly, deeply blushed. โItโs none of your business.โ
He would have been intrigued by her reaction if he still werenโt so sure that she was lying about being Lady Whistledown. โFor Godโs sake,
Eloise,โ he bit off, โwho is going to believe that youโre writing letters every day? I certainly donโt.โ
She glared at him, her dark gray eyes flashing with fury. โI donโt care what you think,โ she said in a very low voice. โNo, thatโs not true. I am
furiousย that you donโt believe me.โ
โYouโre not giving me much to believe in,โ he said wearily.
She stood, walked over to him, and poked him in the chest. Hard. โYou are my brother,โ she spat out. โYou should believe me unquestioningly.
Love me unconditionally. Thatโs what it means to be family.โ
โEloise,โ he said, her name coming out really as nothing more than a sigh.
โDonโt try to make excuses now.โ โI wasnโt.โ
โThatโs even worse!โ She stalked to the door. โYou should be on your hands and knees, begging me for forgiveness.โ
He hadnโt thought he had it in him to smile, but somehow that did it for him. โNow, that doesnโt really seem in keeping with my character, does it?โ
She opened her mouth to say something, but the sound that came out was not precisely English. All she managed was something along the lines of, โOoooooooh,โ in an extremely irate voice, and then she stormed out, slamming the door behind her.
Colin slouched into a chair, wondering when sheโd realize that sheโd left him in her own bedchamber.
The irony was, he reflected, possibly the only bright spot in an otherwise miserable day.