The would-be thieves donโt wait around.
I see their eyes dart to meโnot even to my face, but to the telltale black suit Iโm wearingโand instantly, fear washes over them. They know exactly who I work for.
โLet him go,โ one of the thieves snaps to the other.
The man holding Edenโs collar releases him, then sheathes the knife he was carrying. The two of them start sprinting down the alley. One of them chances a glance back at me, then shudders and speeds up.
For a second, I think about chasing them down. Jessan and Lara are still hereโI could call them and tell them to track those two men with the Level systemโs geolocator and have them arrested the instant theyโre cornered.
But Iโve already had a woman die in my arms today. My strength for dealing with the Undercityโs crimes is pretty exhausted.
Instead, I turn my glare down at my little brother. My smile feels like a line drawn in stone against my face. โWell,โ I call down at him as I shift my footing against the balcony. โYou told me you were going to stay late at the university, yeah? Fancy running into you down here instead.โ
Eden doesnโt look relieved that Iโve saved his ass. He shoots an irritated glance up at me and crosses his arms over his chest. โYou followed me?โ he says incredulously.
Iโm not about to tell him that I tracked his location. โDonโt flatter yourself,โ I reply. โI had real work to do down here.โ
Even though heโs a lanky young man now, his wavy blond curls darker than they used to be, his eyes slender and pale, his glasses perched against the same kind of angular nose that I haveโall I can see is the version of him thatโs still a small boy. The boy I once thought Iโd lost to the Republic. The boy who had stumbled out of a hospital room, blind, calling my name. The boy who had sat with me on a cool tile floor and
held my hand as I fought through an illness that almost killed me.
The boy Iโd bled to protect.
He doesnโt say a word as he pushes away from the wall. I pull my shades back over my eyes, swing down to the first floor, and fall into step beside him.
โAre you going to tell me anything? Or do I have to start?โ I say to him.
He doesnโt even look at me. โWhy? Are you going to tell me what job brought you down here?โ
I shake my head. โYou know I canโt talk about what Iโm doing.โ โThen I guess I donโt have much to say.โ
I sigh as we fall into an uncomfortable silence. When weโd first moved to Ross City from the Republic, Eden had still been small, and heโd been happy to follow me everywhere I went. But over the past few years, our conversations have turned into this, in which neither one of us really knows what to say to the other.
โHave it your way,โ I say, at last, as we cut through the main food market. People make a wide berth for us when they see my black suit. โWhat were you doing down here?โ
โNothing.โ
โNothing,โ I repeat, shooting him a sidelong glance. โI mean, thatโs why people come to the Undercity, of course. To do nothing.โ
Eden glares at me. โAre you extra sarcastic today because you havenโt been on a date in a few days? Have you finally seen every girl in the city?โ
โIโm being serious here.โ
His expression darkens. He looks away from me and picks up his pace. I try to ignore the whispers that follow us.
Look at his suit. Itโs the AIS. Donโt stare.
โYou were here to see that girl, yeah?โ I say, after another long silence. โWhat was her name? Pressa?โ Weโve left behind the worst part of the Undercity, and up ahead, I can see the station with the elevators leading back up to the Sky Floors.
Eden shrugs, but I can tell from his reaction that Iโm right.
โHer fatherโs running an illegal apothecary, you know,โ I go on. โIโve actually told the AIS not to intervene because it would shake up their
community too much. Butโโ
At that, Edenโs eyes flash at me. โIs that a threat? Are you trying to tell me to stay away from her because sheโs a dangerous influence? Are you using her against me or something?โ
โNo, Iโm trying to warn you so that you and your friend donโt end up crossing the AIS. I only have so much influence in the agency.โ
โThanks. But I donโt need your help with Pressa. Isnโt June coming to town tomorrow? Why donโt you worry about that instead?โ
His casual mention of June stings, and he knows it. Juneโthe person who changed my entire life, the one who lingers so strongly in my mind that I canโt bring myself to stay in a relationship with any other girl for longer than six monthsโwill be in Ross City tomorrow, accompanying the Elector Primo as he visits us to discuss a trade deal between the Republic and Antarctica.
Suddenly, Iโm very aware of the paper clip ring around my finger.
I try not to let him see how vulnerable her name makes me feel, and I shift the topic back to him. โIโm not mad at you,โ I say in a level voice. โYou know that, right?โ
I look for a reaction on his face, but all I get from him is more stony silence. We reach the elevator station. As we walk under its entryway, a pleasantย dingย sounds, the indication that our Levelsโme, Level 87; Eden, Level 54โare high enough to allow us to use this transit station. Behind us, a man at Level 26 tries to sneak in behind us. An alarm beeps, and heโs stopped by an invisible force field.
I halt in front of a private elevator made specifically for AIS agents to use. It approves my account, and I scan Eden in as my guest.
Finally, as we step into the elevator and it seals us inside its cool, glass interiors, I turn to face my brother.
โYou gotta give me something here, Eden,โ I say. โOr do you seriously not trust me with anything anymore?โ
Eden studies me. โWhy arenโt you mad at me?โ he asks. I blink. โWhat?โ
โWhy arenโt you mad at me?โ he says again. Thereโs an edge to his voice. โYou caught me wandering around the Undercity, the most dangerous place in Antarctica. I lied to you. And now Iโm not talking to you. You should be furious.โ
โYouย wantย me to be angry with you?โ I narrow my eyes at him. โWhat good does that do?โ
โIt would be something,โ he snaps. โAn emotion, at least.โ
I take a deep breath. โListen, I know itโs been rough. You donโt talk to me about whatโs happening at the university, so I donโt know what itโs likeโbut Iโve been able to read you since you were a baby. Youโve seen happier days.โ
โIโm fine,โ he replies, in a way that tells me heโs obviously not. โAnd Iโd be a lot happier if you didnโt chaperone me all the time.โ
โI donโt chaperone you all the time.โ
โYou tried to call me nineteen times in one hour. Was that just for casual chitchat?โ
โAll you have to do is answer the phone once, you know.โ โItโs not your business where I go during the day.โ โEverything you do is my business. Iโm in charge of you.โ โYou indulge in your life. Let me indulge in mine.โ
โIs that why you come down here? To pretend youโre something youโre not?โ
โThatโs what you think?โ Eden asks. โI go to the Undercity to play at being poor?โ
โIโm saying I hate it when you put yourself in danger when you donโt everย haveย to.โ
โMaybe our definitions of danger are different.โ
โExcuse me if I thought you looked like you needed some help back there.โ
Edenโs gaze pierces me. โYou tracked me with the geolocator, didnโt you?โ
I hesitate for just a fraction of a second, but itโs long enough to give him the answer. He makes a disgusted sound and turns away. โI thought I disabled it,โ he mutters.
I swallow my rising annoyance. Disabling a geolocator should be impossible, so of course Eden was figuring out some way to hack it.
โThe cityโll fine you for that if they find out,โ I tell him. โHow many times are you gonna make me cover for you?โ
โLike youโve always been a law-abiding citizen.โ
Behind his glasses, Edenโs irises have their faint purple tint in the light, the color that never entirely faded since he recovered from the plague. Itโs my constant reminder of what it was like to almost lose him, what it could be like again if Iโm not careful.
โI used to break the law becauseย I had to,โ I say coldly. โWhat are you
breaking it for?โ
Eden turns to face me fully. โYou want to know the real reason I was in the Undercity today?โ he says. โBecause it reminds me of Lake. When I walk down there, Iโm home. All that smoke and grease and grime, the rags and barred windows โฆ I feel safer down there than I do anywhere else in this city. When Iโm there, I think of John and Mom.โ
I can tell thereโs more heโs not telling me, but my temper sharpens at his mention of our mother and brother. โHow about you donโt bring them into this?โ
But Eden doesnโt stop. โSometimes I think youโve forgotten where you come from. When youโre in the Undercity, itโs like you canโt wait to leave it behind.โ
He has no idea how wrong he is. How often I used to do exactly what heโs been doing. I try to remind myself that Eden never saw the way I used to wander aimlessly down the streets of Lake. Back when Iโd first been accepted into the Republicโs inner circles, when I was working with June but still felt like an outsider at all the Republicโs goddy balls and banquets โฆ Iโd walk the quiet streets of my old neighborhood and take in the rust and the grime. The humble homes and dirty coasts.
But Eden doesnโt remember that. He was too young. He doesnโt understand what itโs like to crawl your way out of that kind of life, to want to keep your younger brother from ever having to see what youโve seen, endure what youโve endured. I took him here to get himย awayย from Lake. But he keeps ending up down there anyway.
And I get it. The corner of my heart thatโs still Day, the boy from the streets, begs me to explain that to him.
Instead, I say, โItโs because I donโt ever want to walk those streets again. Thatโs our past, not our future. We didnโt move all the way here just to go back to that. And yet youโre in the Undercity every other week.โ
Eden crosses his arms over his chest. โI canโt spend an hour away from home before you ask where I am. I canโt stay out a second past midnight before you come searching for me. Soon Iโll be working for the Republic. Remember? I have a life thatโs completely separate from yours.โ
โForgive me if our past has made me a little paranoid about your safety.โ
โDaniel.โ For an instant, Edenโs voice softens. โI know. Believe me.
But itโs not up to you to watch my back every second of my life. You canโt always know where I am. Iโm not twelve years old anymore.โ
โWell, to me, youโll always be twelve.โ
Eden flinches as if Iโve hit him. I suddenly notice that heโs been arguing eye to eye with me. When did Eden get so tall? Has it really taken me this long to notice? Then the initial sting leaves his expression. He looks away from me and out through the glass, back down at the Undercity far below us.
The elevator finally reaches our floor. Eden steps out first and doesnโt look back. โNo need to follow me,โ he calls over his shoulder. โI know the way home. Or did you want to supervise me through the front door?โ
And before I can protest, heโs left without me, his figure fading down the hall.