We were drawing nearer to Fort William, and I began to ponder seriously what my plan of action should be, once we had arrived there.
It depended, I thought, upon what the garrison commander was likely to do. If he believed that I was a gentlewoman in distress, he might provide me with temporary escort toward the coast and my putative embarkation for France.
But he might be suspicious of me, turning up in the company of the MacKenzies. Still, I was patently not a Scot myself; surely he would not be inclined to think me a spy of some sort? That was evidently what Colum and Dougal thoughtโthat I was an English spy.
Which made me wonder what I was meant to be spying on? Well, unpatriotic activities, I supposed; of which, collecting money for the support of Prince Charles Edward Stuart, pretender to the throne, was definitely one.
But in that case, why had Dougal allowed me to see him do it? He could easily enough have sent me outside before that part of the proceedings. Of course, the proceedings had all been held in Gaelic, I argued with myself.
Perhaps that was the point, though. I remembered the odd gleam in his eyes and his question, โI thought ye had no Gaelic?โ Perhaps it was a test, to see whether I really was ignorant of the language. For an English spy scarcely would have been sent into the Highlands, unable to speak with more than half the people there.
But no, the conversation I had overheard between Jamie and Dougal would seem to indicate that Dougal was indeed a Jacobite, though Colum apparently was notโyet.
My head was beginning to buzz with all these suppositions, and I was glad to see that we were approaching a fairly large village. Likely that meant a good inn, as well, and a decent supper.
The inn was in fact commodious, by the standards I had grown accustomed to. If the bed was apparently designed for midgetsโand flea- bitten ones, at thatโat least it was in a chamber to itself. In several of the smaller inns, I had slept on a settle in the common room, surrounded by snoring male forms and the humped shadows of plaid-wrapped shapes.
Customarily I fell asleep immediately, whatever the sleeping conditions, worn out by a day in the saddle and an evening of Dougalโs politicizing. The first evening in an inn, though, I had remained awake for a good half- hour, fascinated by the remarkable variety of noises the male respiratory apparatus could produce. An entire dormitory full of student nurses couldnโt come close.
It occurred to me, listening to the chorus, that men in a hospital ward seldom really snore. Breathe heavily, yes. They gasp, groan occasionally, and sometimes sob or cry out in sleep. But there was no comparison to this healthy racket. Perhaps it was that sick or injured men could not sleep deeply enough to relax into that sort of din.
If my observations were sound, then my companions were plainly in the most robust health. They certainly looked it, limbs casually asprawl, faces slack and glowing in the firelight. The complete abandon of their sleep on hard boards was the satisfying of an appetite as hearty as the one they had brought to dinner. Obscurely comforted by the cacophony, I had pulled my traveling cloak around my shoulders and went to sleep myself.
By comparison, I found myself now rather lonely here in the solitary splendor of my tiny, smelly attic. Despite having removed the bedclothes and beaten the mattress to discourage unwelcome co-habitants, I had some difficulty in sleeping, so silent and dark did the chamber seem after I had blown out the candle.
There were a few faint echoes from the common room two floors below, and a brief flurry of noise and movement, but this served only to emphasize my own isolation. It was the first time I had been left so completely alone since my arrival at the castle, and I was not at all sure I liked it.
I was hovering uneasily on the verge of sleep, when my ears picked up an ominous creaking of floorboards in the hall outside. The step was slow and halting, as though the intruder hesitated in his path, picking the soundest- appearing of the boards for each next step. I sat bolt upright, groping for the candle and flint box by the bed.
My hand, blindly searching, struck the flint box and knocked it to the floor with a soft thump. I froze, and the steps outside did likewise.
There was a soft scratching at the door, as of someone groping for the latch. I knew the door was unbolted; though it was fitted with brackets for a bolt, I had searched unavailingly for the bolt itself before retiring. I grabbed the candlestick, yanked the stub of the candle out, and slid out of bed as quietly as I could, clutching the heavy pottery.
The door squeaked slightly on its hinges as it gave. The roomโs only window was tightly shuttered against both elements and light; nonetheless I could just make out the dim outline of the door as it opened. The outline grew, then to my surprise, it shrank and disappeared as the door shut again. Everything was quiet once more.
I stayed pressed against the wall for what seemed like ages, holding my breath and trying to hear through the noise of my pounding heart. At last I inched toward the door, edging carefully around the room next to the wall, thinking the floorboards must surely be more solid here. I eased my foot down at each step, gradually trusting my weight to it, then pausing and groping with bare toes for the seam between two boards, before setting the other foot as solidly as I could judge.
Once the door was reached, I paused, ear pressed to the thin panels, hands braced on the frame, on guard against a sudden bursting inward. I thought perhaps I heard slight sounds, but wasnโt sure. Was it only the sounds of the activity down below, or was it the stifled breathing of someone on the other side of the panel?
The constant flow of adrenaline was making me slightly sick. Tiring at last of this nonsense, I took a firm grip of my candlestick, yanked open the door, and rushed into the hallway.
I say โrushedโ; in actuality, I took two steps, trod heavily on something soft, and fell headlong into the passageway, skinning my knuckles and banging my head quite painfully on something solid.
I sat up, clutching my brow with both hands, completely uncaring that I might be assassinated at any moment.
The person I had stepped on was swearing in a rather breathless manner. Through the haze of pain, I was dimly aware that he (I assumed from the size and the smell of sweat that my visitor was male) had risen and was groping for the fastening of the shutters in the wall above us.
A sudden inrush of fresh air made me wince and shut my eyes. When I opened them, there was enough light from the night sky for me to see the intruder.
โWhat areย youย doing here?โ I asked accusingly.
At the same time Jamie asked, in a similarly accusatory tone, โHow much do ye weigh, Sassenach?โ
Still a bit addled, I actually replied โNine stone,โ before thinking to ask โWhy?โ
โYe nearly crushed my liver,โ he answered, gingerly prodding the affected area. โNot to mention scaring living hell out of me.โ He reached a hand down and hauled me to my feet. โAre ye all right?โ
โNo, I bumped my head.โ Rubbing the spot, I looked dazedly around the bare hallway. โWhat did I bang it on?โ I demanded ungrammatically.
โMyย head,โ he said, rather grumpily, I thought.
โServes you right,โ I said nastily. โWhat were you doing, sneaking about outside my door?โ
He gave me a testy look.
โI wasna โsneaking about,โ for Godโs sake. I was sleepingโor trying to.โ He rubbed what appeared to be a knot forming on his temple.
โSleeping?ย Here?โ I looked up and down the cold, bare, filthy hallway with exaggerated amazement. โYou do pick the oddest places; first stables, now this.โ
โIt may interest ye to know that thereโs a small party of English dragoons stopped in to the taproom below,โ he informed me coldly. โTheyโre a bit gone in drink, and disporting themselves a bit reckless with two women from the town. Since thereโs but the two lasses, and five men, some of the soldiers seemed a bit inclined to venture upward in search ofโฆah, partners. I didna think youโd care overmuch for such attentions.โ He flipped his plaid back over his shoulder and turned in the direction of the stairway. โIf I was mistaken in that impression, then I apologize. Iโd no intention of disturbinโ your rest. Good eโen to ye.โ
โWait a minute.โ He stopped, but did not turn back, forcing me to walk around him. He looked down at me, polite but distant.
โThank you,โ I said. โIt was very kind of you. Iโm sorry I stepped on you.โ
He smiled then, his face changing from a forbidding mask to its usual expression of good humor.
โNo harm done, Sassenach,โ he said. โAs soon as the headache goes away and the cracked rib heals, Iโll be good as new.โ
He turned back and pushed open the door of my room, which had swung shut in the wake of my hasty exit, owing to the fact that the builder had apparently constructed the inn without benefit of a plumb line. There wasnโt a right angle in the place.
โGo back to bed, then,โ he suggested. โIโll be here.โ
I looked at the floor. Besides its essential hardness and coldness, the oaken boards were blotched with expectorations, spills, and forms of filth I didnโt wish even to contemplate. The builderโs mark in the door lintel had said 1732, and that was plainly the last time the boards had been cleaned.
โYou canโt sleep out here,โ I said. โCome in; at least the floor in the room isnโt quite this bad.โ
Jamie froze, hand on the doorframe.
โSleep in your room with ye?โ He sounded truly shocked. โI couldna do that! Your reputation would be ruined!โ
He really meant it. I started to laugh, but converted it into a tactful coughing fit. Given the exigencies of road travel, the crowded state of the inns, and the crudity or complete lack of sanitary facilities, I was on terms of such physical intimacy with these men, Jamie included, that I found the idea of such prudery hilarious.
โYouโve slept in the same room with me before,โ I pointed out, when I had recovered a bit. โYou and twenty other men.โ
He sputtered a bit. โThat isna at all the same thing! I mean, it was a quite public room, andโฆโ He paused as an awful thought struck him. โYou didna think I meant that you were suggesting anything improper?โ he asked anxiously. โI assure ye, Iโโ
โNo, no. Not at all.โ I made haste to reassure him that I had taken no offense.
Seeing that he could not be persuaded, I insisted that at the least he must take the blankets from my bed to lie upon. He agreed to this reluctantly, and only upon my repeated assurances that I would not use them myself in any case, but intended to sleep as usual in the cover of my thick traveling cloak.
I tried to thank him again, as I paused by the makeshift pallet before returning to my fetid sanctuary, but he waved away my appreciation with a gracious hand.
โIt isna entirely disintested kindness on my part, ye ken,โ he observed. โIโd as soon avoid notice myself.โ
I had forgotten that he had his own reasons for keeping away from English soldiery. It did not escape me, however, that this could have been much better accomplished, not to say more comfortably, by his sleeping in the warm and airy stables, rather than on the floor before my door.
โBut if anyoneย doesย come up here,โ I protested, โtheyโll find you then.โ He reached a long arm out to grasp the swinging shutter and pulled it to.
The hall was plunged in blackness, and Jamie appeared as no more than a shapeless bulk.
โThey canna see my face,โ he pointed out. โAnd in the condition theyโre in, my name would be of no interest to them, either, even were I to give them the right one, which I dinna mean to do.โ
โThatโs true,โ I said, doubtfully. โWonโt they wonder, though, what youโre doing up here in the dark?โ I could see nothing of his face, but the tone of his voice told me he was smiling.
โNot at all, Sassenach. Theyโll just think Iโm waiting my turn.โ
I laughed and went in then. I curled myself on the bed and went to sleep, marveling at the mind that could make such ribald jokes even as it recoiled at the thought of sleeping in the same room with me.
When I awoke, Jamie was gone. Going down to breakfast, I met Dougal at the foot of the stairs, waiting for me.
โEat up quickly, lass,โ he said. โYou and I are riding to Brockton.โ
He declined to tell me anything further, but he seemed a bit uneasy, I thought. I ate quickly, and we soon found ourselves trotting through the misty early morning. Birds were busy in the shrubbery, and the air gave promise of a warm summer day to come.
โWho are we going to see?โ I asked. โYou may as well tell me, since if I donโt know, Iโll be surprised, and if I do, Iโm intelligent enough to act surprised, anyway.โ
Dougal cocked an eye at me, considering, but decided that my argument was sound.
โThe garrison commander from Fort William,โ he said.
I felt a minor shock. I wasnโt quite ready for this. I had thought we had three days yet until we reached the Fort.
โBut weโre nowhere near Fort William!โ I exclaimed. โMmphm.โ
Apparently this garrison commander was an energetic sort. Not content to stay at home minding his garrison, he was out inspecting the countryside with a party of dragoons. The soldiers who had come to our inn the night before were part of this group, and had told Dougal that the commander was presently in residence at the inn at Brockton.
This presented a problem, and I was silent for the rest of the ride, contemplating it. I had counted on being able to extract myself from Dougalโs company at Fort William, which I thought to be within a dayโs travel of the hill of Craigh na Dun. Even unprepared for camping, and lacking food or other resources, I thought I could cover that much ground alone, and find my way to the stone circle. As to what would happen thenโ well, there was no way to tell except by going there.
But this development threw an unexpected spanner into my plans. If I parted company with Dougal here, as I well might, I would be four daysโ ride from the hill, not one. And I did not have sufficient faith in my sense of direction, let alone my endurance, to risk it alone on foot among the wild crags and moors. The last weeks of rugged travel had given me a wary respect for the jagged rocks and crashing burns of the Highlands, let alone the occasional wild beast. I had no particular desire to meet a boar, for example, face-to-face in some deserted glen.
We reached Brockton at mid-morning. The mist had burned away, and the day was sunny enough to give me a sense of optimism. Perhaps it would be a simple matter, after all, to persuade the garrison commander to provide me with a small escort who could see me to the hill.
I could see why the commander had chosen Brockton as his temporary headquarters. The village was large enough to boast two taverns, one of them an imposing three-story edifice with attached stable. Here we stopped, turning our horses over to the attention of a hostler, who moved so slowly as to seem ossified. He had barely succeeded in reaching the stable door by
the time we were inside and Dougal was ordering refreshment from the innkeeper.
I was left below, contemplating a plate of rather stale-looking oatcakes, while Dougal mounted the stair to the commanderโs sanctum. It felt a bit strange to see him go. There were three or four English soldiers in the taproom, who eyed me speculatively, chatting to each other in low voices. After a month among the Scots of clan MacKenzie, the presence of English dragoons made me unaccountably nervous. I told myself I was being silly. After all, they were my own countrymen, out of time or not.
Still, I found myself missing the congenial company of Mr. Gowan and the pleasant familiarity of Jamie whatever-his-name-was. I was feeling rather sorry that I had had no chance to bid farewell to anyone before leaving that morning, when I heard Dougalโs voice calling from the stair behind me. He was standing at the top, beckoning me upward.
He looked somewhat more grim than usual, I thought, as he stood aside without speaking and gestured me into the room. The garrison commander stood by the open window, his slim, straight figure silhouetted by the light. He gave a short laugh when he saw me.
โYes, I thought so. It had to be you, from MacKenzieโs description.โ The door closed behind me, and I was alone with Captain Jonathan Randall of His Majestyโs Eighth Dragoons.
He was dressed this time in a clean red-and-fawn uniform, with a lace- trimmed stock and a neatly curled and powdered wig. But the face was the sameโFrankโs face. My breath caught in my throat. This time, though, I noticed the small lines of ruthlessness around his mouth, and the touch of arrogance in the set of his shoulders. Still, he smiled affably enough, and invited me to sit down.
The room was plainly furnished, with no more than a desk and chair, a long deal table, and a few stools. Captain Randall motioned to a young corporal who stood to attention near the door, and a mug of ale was clumsily poured and set before me.
The Captain waved the corporal back and poured his own ale, then sank gracefully onto a stool across the table from me.
โAll right,โ he said pleasantly. โWhy donโt you tell me who you are, and how you come to find yourself here?โ
Having little choice at this point, I told him the same story I had given Colum, omitting only the less tactful references to his own behavior, which he knew about in any case. I had no idea how much Dougal had told him, and didnโt wish to risk being tripped up.
The captain appeared polite but skeptical throughout my recital. He took less trouble to hide it than Colum had, I reflected. He rocked back on his stool, considering.
โOxfordshire, you say? There are no Beauchamps in Oxfordshire that I know of.โ
โHow would you know?โ I snapped. โYouโre from Sussex yourself.โ His eyes popped open in surprise. I could have bitten my tongue. โAnd may I ask just how you knowย that?โ he asked.
โEr, your voice. Yes, itโs your accent,โ I said hastily. โClearly Sussex.โ The graceful dark brows nearly touched the curls of his wig.
โNeither my tutors nor my parents would be much obliged to hear that my speech so clearly reflects my birthplace, Madam,โ he said dryly. โThey having gone to considerable trouble and expense to remedy it. But, being the expert at local speech patterns that you areโโhe turned to the man standing against the wallโโno doubt you can also identify my corporalโs place of origin. Corporal Hawkins, would you oblige me by reciting something? Anything at all will do,โ he added, seeing the confusion on the manโs face. โSome popular verse, perhaps?โ
The corporal, a young man with a stupid, beefy face and broad shoulders, glanced wildly about the room seeking inspiration, then drew himself up to attention and intoned,
Buxom Meg, she washed my clothes, And took them all away.
I waited thus in sore distress, And then I made her pay.
โEr, that will do, Corporal, thank you.โ Randall made a dismissive motion, and the corporal subsided against the wall, sweating freely.
โWell?โ Randall turned to me, questioning. โEr, Cheshire,โ I guessed.
โClose. Lancashire.โ He eyed me narrowly. Putting his hands together behind his back, he strolled over to the window and peered out. Checking to see whether Dougal had brought any men with him? I wondered.
Suddenly he whirled back to me with an abruptย โParlez-vous franรงais?โ โTrรจs bien,โย I promptly replied. โWhat of it?โ
Head to one side, he looked me over carefully.
โDamme if I think youโre French,โ he said, as though to himself. โCould be, I suppose, but Iโve yet to meet a Frenchie could tell a Cockney from a Cornishman.โ
His neatly manicured fingers tapped the wood of the tabletop. โWhat was your maiden name, Mrs. Beauchamp?โ
โLook, Captain,โ I said, smiling as charmingly as I could, โentertaining as it is to play Twenty Questions with you, I should really like to conclude these preliminaries and arrange for the continuation of my journey. Iโve already been delayed for some time, andโโ
โYou do not help your case by adopting this frivolous attitude, Madam,โ he interrupted, narrowing his eyes. I had seen Frank do that when displeased about something, and I felt a little weak in the knees. I put my hands on my thighs to brace myself.
โI have no case to help,โ I said, as boldly as I could. โIโm making no claims on you, the garrison, or for that matter, on the MacKenzies. All I want is to be allowed to resume my journey in peace. And I see no reason why you ought to have any objection to that.โ
He glared at me, lips pressed tight together in irritation.
โOh, you donโt? Well, consider my position for a moment, Madam, and perhaps my objections will become clearer. A month ago I was, with my men, in hot pursuit of a band of unidentified Scottish bandits who had absconded with a small herd of cattle from an estate near the border, when
โโ
โOh, so thatโs what they were doing!โ I exclaimed. โI wondered,โ I added lamely.
Captain Randall breathed heavily, then decided against whatever he had been going to say, in favor of continuing his story.
โIn the midst of this lawful pursuit,โ he went on, in measured tones, โI encounter a half-dressed Englishwomanโin a place where no
Englishwoman should be, even with a proper escortโwho resists my inquiries, assaults my personโโ
โYou assaulted mine first!โ I said hotly.
โWhose accomplice renders me unconscious by a cowardly attack, and who then flees the area, plainly with some assistance. My men and I searched that area most thoroughly, and I assure you, Madam, there was no trace of your murdered servant, your plundered baggage, your discarded gown, nor the merest sign that there is the slightest truth to your story!โ
โOh?โ I said, a little weakly.
โYes. Furthermore, there have been no reports of bandits in that area within the last four months. Andย now,ย Madam, you turn up in company with the war chieftain of clan MacKenzie, who tells me that his brother Colum is convinced you are a spy, presumably working forย me!โ
โWell, Iโm not, am I?โ I said, reasonably. โYou know that, at least.โ
โYes, I know that,โ he said with exaggerated patience. โWhat I donโt know is who the devil you are! But I mean to find out, Madam, have no doubts as to that. I am the commander of this garrison. As such, I am empowered to take certain steps in order to secure the safety of this area against traitors, spies, and any other persons whose behavior I consider suspicious. And those steps, Madam, I am fully prepared to take.โ
โAnd just what might those steps be?โ I inquired. I honestly wanted to know, though I suppose the tone of my question must have sounded rather baiting.
He stood up, looked down at me consideringly for a moment, then walked around the table, extended his hand, and drew me to my feet.
โCorporal Hawkins,โ he said, still staring at me, โI shall require your assistance for a moment.โ
The youth by the wall looked profoundly uneasy, but sidled over to us. โStand behind the lady, please, Corporal,โ Randall said, sounding bored.
โAnd take her firmly by both elbows.โ
He drew back his arm and hit me in the pit of the stomach.
I made no noise, because I had no breath. I sat on the floor, doubled over, struggling to draw air into my lungs. I was shocked far beyond the actual pain of the blow, which was beginning to make itself felt, along with a wave of giddy sickness. In a fairly eventful life, no one had ever purposely struck me before.
The Captain squatted down in front of me. His wig was slightly awry, but aside from that and a certain brightness to his eyes, he showed no change from his normal controlled elegance.
โI trust you are not with child, Madam,โ he said in a conversational tone, โbecause if you are, you wonโt be for long.โ
I was beginning to make a rather odd wheezing noise, as the first wisps of oxygen found their way painfully into my throat. I rolled onto my hands and knees and groped feebly for the edge of the table. The corporal, after a nervous glance at the captain, reached down to help me up.
Waves of blackness seemed to ripple over the room. I sank onto the stool and closed my eyes.
โLook at me.โ The voice was as light and calm as though he were about to offer me tea. I opened my eyes and looked up at him through a slight fog. His hands were braced on his exquisitely tailored hips.
โHave you anything to say to me now, Madam?โ he demanded. โYour wig is crooked,โ I said, and closed my eyes again.