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Chapter no 18

One Dark Window (The Shepherd King, 1)

Mind the mist. It does not lift.

The Spirit doth hunt, ever adrift.

Stay out of the wood, Be wary, be good.

The Spirit doth hunt, ever adrift.

Mind the mist. It does not lift.

The Spirit ensnares, like grain through a sift.

Hold tight to your charm, And youโ€™ll come to no harm.

The Spirit ensnares, like grain through a sift.

 

Weโ€™d been in the armory only a short while before Thistle, kind as he was, made it abundantly clear I was no use to them in a dress.

Elm snickered, his green eyes roving my body, resting on the flower crown in my hair. โ€œBut sheโ€™s made such an effort to look pretty today.โ€

Jespyr elbowed her cousin. โ€œShut it. Weโ€™ve enough to do without your tripe.โ€

Two servants arrived, carrying a bundleโ€”tunic, jerkin, cloak, leggings, and boots. Wool, linen, and leather, all black. One by one the others filed out, leaving Ravyn and me alone.

I frowned at my gray dress, its hem muddied by the tromp through the garden. โ€œI wasnโ€™t aware Iโ€™d dressed improperly,โ€ I said, suddenly deeply conscious of my appearance.

โ€œWe canโ€™t exactly wear our family seals, can we?โ€ Ravyn said. He

paused, gently extracting the flower crown from my hair. โ€œIโ€™ll have your clothes sent back to your room. Join us when youโ€™re ready.โ€

If he looked back at me as he slipped through the armory doors, I did not know it. I was trying with all my might not to look back at him.

Five minutes later I was leaning against the door, willing myself to open

it.

The Nightmare shot hot air out his nostrils.ย By the treesโ€”Theyโ€™re just

leggings, Elspeth.

I felt exposed, naked without my wool skirt. I plaited a long knotted braid in my hair that started at the crown of my head and traveled like a rope down my back.

The Yew girl wears a tunic and pants. Why not you?

Jespyrโ€™s entirely more fearsome than I am.ย I glanced down at my legs.ย I look like a bloody stable boy.

How you look isโ€”and perhaps always has beenโ€”utterly irrelevant.

I groaned, wishing him gone. Still, he was right. This wasnโ€™t about me. This was about Cards, mist, and blood. What did it matter if I was dressed in clothes suspiciously similar to those of a boy Emoryโ€™s age? If I was going to take up with highwaymen, I had to look the part.

After a final rattling breath, I pushed my way through the armory door. They waited, clustered at the entrance of the yard. When they saw me,

one of the Ivy brothers whistled, only to be silenced by Jespyrโ€™s sharp elbow.

I didnโ€™t know where to look. โ€œWell?โ€ I stepped forward, my hands knotted in my sleeves. โ€œAm I better suited for the task?โ€

I didnโ€™t miss the way Ravynโ€™s eyes jumped up and down my body. โ€œMuch better,โ€ he said, a flush inching up his neck into his cheeks. He handed me two finely sewn gloves. โ€œYouโ€™ll need these.โ€

I stared at them. โ€œRiding gloves?โ€

โ€œDid you think weโ€™d be walking?โ€ said Elm.

โ€œWe get to the Black Forest on horseback,โ€ Jespyr explained. โ€œThe rest of the way we travel on foot, out of sight in the mist. When Pineโ€™s carriage passes, we halt it. You tell us where to find his Iron Gate, and weโ€™re in and out in less than five minutes.โ€

I surveyed the group. For a party without the intention of violence, they were curiously well armed. โ€œThen what?โ€

โ€œThen weโ€™ll come back,โ€ Elm said. โ€œAnd you can tell us all about the Well Card in your fatherโ€™s house.โ€

 

 

Ravyn, Elm, and I remained in the stable while the others retreated for final supplies. โ€œYouโ€™ll be needing a horse,โ€ Ravyn said, retrieving a brown mare from one of the stalls. When I paled and stepped away, he raised his brows. โ€œDonโ€™t tell me youโ€™ve never ridden a horse before?โ€

Elmโ€™s scoff filled the stable. โ€œGood god, what were you doing all these years in the forest?โ€

I glanced at him through narrowed eyes. โ€œAnimals donโ€™t like me much.โ€

The Prince took a seat atop a nearby bench. โ€œIf that doesnโ€™t tell you something,โ€ he said under his breath.

Ravyn ignored his cousin, holding out the reins to me. โ€œHorses are skittish,โ€ he said. โ€œYou need to be calmโ€”assured. Once she feels safe, sheโ€™ll trust you.โ€ When I didnโ€™t reach for the reins, he leaned against the horse. โ€œDo you want me to help you?โ€

It felt like a challenge. And how I wanted to deny himโ€”to see the impress on his face when I took the reins and mounted the beast without him. But I couldnโ€™t. I didnโ€™t know a damn thing about horses. โ€œIf itโ€™s not too much trouble, Captain.โ€

His stone expression eased, the corner of his lips tugging. Heโ€™d won the challenge. He took my hand and pulled me next to him. โ€œPut your hand here,โ€ he said, holding my gaze as he stripped away my glove. He placed my palm on the horseโ€™s flank just below the saddle. โ€œFeel her breath, her energy.โ€

The mareโ€™s eyes widened, her nostrils flaring as my hand roved across her side. My fingers moved across her broad back and the coarse mane along her neck.ย Calm, I told myself.ย Calm, assured.

It cannot be, the Nightmare purred.ย She knows youโ€™re not alone. She knows sheโ€™s not safe.

The horse stirred and took a step away, raising her head and swishing her tail.

โ€œEasy, girl,โ€ Ravyn said, patting her firmly. When sheโ€™d recovered, his gaze returned to me. โ€œShall I help you up?โ€

Trees, I was tired of giving him the satisfaction. โ€œFine,โ€ I said.

But in the end, the victory was mine. When Ravyn stepped to me, he hesitated, the flush from before returning to his jawline. Our eyes met a moment. Then, as if he was proving something to himself, he reached for me. His hands, broad and firm, met me at the dip of my waist, resting a moment on my hips. They were warm, his hands. And I caught myself wondering what the calluses along his palms would feel like against my bare skin.

He inhaled sharply, lifting me with ease and placing me on saddle. I sat there a moment, unsure what to do with my legs. It felt crass, swinging a leg over to ride astraddle, but instinct told me if I didnโ€™t, I would incur more scathing ridicule from Elm, who remained on the bench, his Princely face fixed in an expression somewhere between humor and revulsion.

But the moment I swung my leg over, my thighs flexing around the saddle, I felt Iโ€™d made a terrible mistake. The smell of hay and sweat wafted off the mare, her skin flinching beneath my touch. I sat like a rock in the saddle, clinging for dear life to the horseโ€™s mane. โ€œWhere do I hold?โ€

โ€œTry the reins,โ€ Elm called.

Ravyn put his hand on my ankle. โ€œTake a breath, Miss Spindle. Sheโ€™s nervous because youโ€™re nervous.โ€

โ€œOr because she doesnโ€™t know what you are,โ€ Elm offered.

Trust me, she knows exactly what you are, the Nightmare cackled.ย Watch this.

His hiss radiated through meโ€”an animal noise that seized my muscles

โ€”an invisible calling to the horse beneath me.

The mare reared, struck by a sudden panic that sent her screaming from the stable.

I didnโ€™t recall falling. Only that it hurt like hell.

When I came to, the horse was gone, and the low, silky laughter of the Nightmare echoed through my skull. Ravyn and Elm knelt at my sides, their eyes wide as they stared down at me.

โ€œTrees.โ€ Ravyn tucked his hand behind my neck, cradling the top of my spine. โ€œCan you hear me?โ€

I tried to sit up. Dizziness struck me, and I heaved a long, aching breath,

wind rushing back into my lungs. โ€œIโ€”toldโ€”you,โ€ I wheezed. โ€œAnimals donโ€™tโ€”like me.โ€

Ravyn and Elm exchanged a glance. A small, mischievous smile crossed the Princeโ€™s lips. โ€œWell,โ€ he said. โ€œThat was unexpected.โ€

I coughed, pushing to an upright position. โ€œDonโ€™t look so pleased.โ€

Ravynโ€™s hand slid from the back of my neck to my shoulder. โ€œAnything feel broken?โ€

Only my pride, I fumed into the darkness.ย What the hell was that? Just a bit of fun.

I could have died!

Donโ€™t be dramatic, the Nightmare said.ย People fall off horses every day. That doesnโ€™t make it a particularly pleasant experience.

At least now you realize what youโ€™re getting yourself intoโ€”who you really are.

โ€œMiss Spindle?โ€

I snapped back to Ravyn. โ€œNothingโ€™s broken,โ€ I said. โ€œSheโ€™s fine,โ€ Elm yelled, footsteps rushing toward us.

Jespyr and Thistle skidded to a halt nearby. โ€œYouโ€™ll have a few bruises, no mistake,โ€ Thistle said.

I blushed red to my roots. โ€œDid everyone see?โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ Elm said. โ€œJust the servants, the fletcher, the groomsmen, the blacksmithโ€”โ€

โ€œEnough,โ€ Ravyn growled. โ€œWeโ€™ve got to get going.โ€

โ€œWe canโ€™t go now,โ€ Jespyr said, gesturing at me. โ€œSheโ€™ll fall to her death.โ€

Elm yawned. โ€œSheโ€™ll be fine. Strap her to the beast and be done with it.โ€ Nausea hit my stomach anew. โ€œStrap me?โ€

โ€œNo oneโ€™s going to strap you in,โ€ Thistle said. โ€œWhat about a carriage?โ€ Elm shook his head. โ€œTheyโ€™ll hear us a mile out.โ€

They debated transportation. I said nothing, keeping my eyes straight ahead as I inched my fingers up and down my ribs, wincing.

There would surely be bruises.

โ€œI still think we should use a carriage,โ€ Jespyr said. โ€œIf we stash it a mile into the wood, they wonโ€™t hear it.โ€

โ€œAnd if they see fit to chase us?โ€ Elm bit back. โ€œLast time I checked, you couldnโ€™t outrun a warhorse, cousin.โ€

Jespyr pulled her Black Horse Card from her pocket. โ€œIs that a wager?โ€ โ€œBoth of you, shut up,โ€ Ravyn said. โ€œCollect your charms and go to your

horses. Thistle, find the Ivys. We leave in five minutes.โ€

They scuttled away, a few final scowls darting between Jespyr and Elm. Ravyn turned to me, his voice low. โ€œAre you all right? Truly?โ€

I coughed, then winced. โ€œIโ€™ll survive.โ€ โ€œMay I?โ€

There he was again, asking to touch me. I nodded, and when his hand traced up and down my rib cage, I almost forgot the pain, too worried heโ€™d feel the rapid beat of my heart.

โ€œYouโ€™ll be all right,โ€ he said, pulling his hand away, almost too fast. โ€œIโ€™m sorry, Miss Spindle. Weโ€™ve no choice but to go on horseback. Your best option is to ride with our most skilled horsemanโ€”so that he might thwart any of the animalโ€™s unease.โ€

I eyed him narrowly. โ€œAnd who, pray tell, is your most skilled horseman?โ€

 

 

Elmโ€™s riding was much the same as his overall demeanor. Pitiless and abrasive.

By the time we entered the Black Forest, I felt so battered and winded I might have fallen off the horse a dozen times more. When we dismounted, the Prince let out a wheezing breath.

โ€œTrees!โ€ he coughed. โ€œGrip tight enough? It felt like I was wearing a corset.โ€

โ€œEveryone all right?โ€ Jespyr called up ahead.

โ€œMarvelous,โ€ Elm said through his teeth. โ€œBest ride of my life.โ€ โ€œI wasnโ€™t asking about you.โ€

โ€œWho else is there?โ€

Ravyn dismounted in a gust of black. โ€œYour bickering isnโ€™t impressing anyone,โ€ he called. โ€œGet your charms. Best we keep quiet from here on out.โ€

The Black Forest was a dense collection of poplar trees and bramble.

The horses were nervous to leave the path, but we coaxed them with sugar and stepped, apprehensive, into the mist.

It felt strange, not needing my crowโ€™s foot. For the others, the need for a charm was more dire. I could smell the salt in the air. The Spirit of the Wood lingered in the mist, invisible, watching, held at bay by only our magic and our charms.

The Ivy brothers carried identical hawk feathers. Jespyr tossed a small femur bone between her palms. Thistle twirled a dogโ€™s canine tooth on a leather string. Elm wound a tight braid of horsehair around his knuckles.

I followed behind Ravyn, his burgundy and purple lights purposeful as they moved through the mist. Next came Jespyr, fitted with a Black Horse. Thistle and the Ivys were Cardless. Elmโ€”who had left the conspicuous Scythe behind, fitted with a second Black Horseโ€”took the rear.

Thistle passed bread and cheese up the line, and we ate as we walked, like travelers in one of my auntโ€™s old books. At twilight the crickets sang, waking owls and other creatures of the night.

The mist grew heavier, so dense it swallowed the fading daylight, casting us into darkness.

Rock or bramble, hill or dell, it did not matterโ€”Ravyn moved on sure steps. His boots were silent, his pace unflagging. Only once did he stop, holding up a hand to halt the group, his eyes trained on the mist.

I slipped on crumbling poplar leaves, the Nightmareโ€™s vision the only thing keeping me from blindness. โ€œHow can you tell where weโ€™re going?โ€

He shrugged. โ€œPractice.โ€

Up ahead came the distant rustle of leaves. A moment later, a doe and her fawn ambled across our path. Ravyn watched them, his shoulders easy, his face untroubled. Only when theyโ€™d cleared the path did he signal us forward.

The temperature in the wood dropped. I shivered and rubbed my twinging nose, the air dense all around us. โ€œThe salt is strong,โ€ I said.

โ€œItโ€™s the Spirit of the Wood,โ€ Ravyn replied.

My aunt had told me many stories about the Spirit of the Wood. Sheโ€™d said the Spirit could take the form of animals, but never an exact replication. There was always somethingย otherย about the animals the Spirit pretended to be. Their bones were too longโ€”their teeth too jagged.

Their eyes too knowing.

My gaze darted across the mist. But the doe and her fawn were gone. โ€œDo you think,โ€ I whispered to Ravynโ€™s back, โ€œif we manage to collect the Deckโ€”to lift the mistโ€”that the Spirit will remain in Blunder?โ€

The Captain pondered this. โ€œThe Old Bookย says magic sways, like salt water on a tide. I believe the Spirit is the moon, commanding the tide. She pulls us in, but also sets us free. She is neither good nor evil. She is magic

โ€”balance. Eternal.โ€

The Nightmare whispered behind my eyes, his claws sharp.ย But the Spirit was neglected, no matter her plea. The Rowans erased her, as they once did to me. But she keeps her own time, and I keep a long score. The tide that comes next will blot out the shore.

I shivered. But it had nothing to do with the cold.

โ€œSo, no,โ€ Ravyn continued. โ€œI donโ€™t think the Spirit of the Wood will disappear with the mist. But perhaps she will no longer be a danger. Perhaps she will rest.โ€

A few moments later, he stopped. โ€œTether the horses here,โ€ he called to the others. โ€œI can see the road twenty paces beyond.โ€

I moved aside, clear of the horses. When Ravyn joined me, he held a knife.

โ€œItโ€™s no garden shear,โ€ he said, offering me the blade. When I hesitated, he smiled. โ€œYou wonโ€™t need it. But itโ€™s a poor disguise without a weapon.โ€

I looped the hilt of the knife through my belt. โ€œNow what?โ€ I said, a slight tremor touching the edge of my voice.

โ€œWe wait.โ€

 

 

Apprehension built like soil tossed upon a new grave.

An hour later I was fighting to keep still. The others milled quietly, scattered in the mist among trees and rocks and shrubs. Only Ravyn remained unmoving, his eyes forward on the road ahead.

When a twig snapped beneath my foot, he broke his stillness, casting me a sharp glance.

โ€œSorry,โ€ I whispered.

Reaching into his pocket, Ravyn extracted a dark, silky fabricโ€”the cloth heโ€™d blindfolded me with on Equinox.

I bit my lip. โ€œWhatโ€™s that for?โ€

Ravyn pulled a second cloth from his pocket and secured it to his face just below the eyes, obscuring his nose, mouth, and jaw.

A mask.

So vividly returned the memory of that night along the forest road, the men in masksโ€”the violence and fearโ€”that I recoiled, tripping on bramble.

Ravyn must have understood because a moment later, he took off the mask. โ€œIโ€™m sorry,โ€ he said, stepping to my side, his voice no more than a whisper. โ€œMiss Spindle?โ€

I ran my hand over my face and did not look at him. โ€œI never thought Iโ€™d be dressed as a highwayman,โ€ I managed. โ€œWith the same men who attacked me, no less.โ€

Ravyn sucked in a breath. โ€œHad I known who you wereโ€”โ€

โ€œYou would haveโ€”what? Been a bit nicer?โ€ My nostrils flared. โ€œI was alone on the road. You were awful, the both of you.โ€

He did not deny it. After a long, uneasy pause, he sighed. โ€œI came back to the roadโ€”aloneโ€”the next night. I kept to the forest for three days, hoping to catch a glimpse of you, to speak to you if I could.โ€ He looked off into the distance. โ€œThe Prophet Card leaves holes in our understanding. Yes, my mother predicted where youโ€™d beโ€”your connection to the Cards. But the rest was conjecture. We had no idea what we were stepping into. Had I known you carried magicโ€”โ€ He paused again, his brow furrowed. โ€œThere are so few of us, Miss Spindle. You are more special than you know. And it pains me to think I might have hurt you. Iโ€™mโ€”sorry.โ€ He paused. โ€œTrees, Iโ€™m sorry.โ€

I listened to the wind through the wood, the lull blending with Ravyn Yewโ€™s voice. He seemed different dressed as a highwaymanโ€”changed. Gone was the austere, controlled persona he displayed as Captain of the Destriers. Here, in the wood, he was just a man in a black cloak seeking repentance.

I extended my hand. โ€œYouโ€™re forgiven. On one condition.โ€

The invisible string tugged the corner of his mouth. โ€œWhatโ€™s that?โ€ When our hands touched, heat moved into my cheeks. โ€œCall me

Elspeth,โ€ I said. โ€œWeโ€™re about to commit treason together, after all.โ€

The elusive half smile, cautious though it was, overtook Ravynโ€™s mouth.

When he shook my hand, his calloused skin caught along my palm.

A shrill whistle ripped through the trees, echoed by another, then another.

The signal.

Ravyn froze, his hand still in mine, the noise of approaching horsemen rumbling in the distance. โ€œBest put that mask on, Elspeth,โ€ he said. โ€œItโ€™s time.โ€

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