โItโs interesting, the things you learn about yourself in a new environment. For instance, I never thought watching someone haul boxes would make them more attractive until I saw Tripp doing it at Brightside Bakery on Saturday afternoon.โ
โClose your mouth,โ Mason says, gently tapping my jaw as Tripp disappears into Reginaโs storage room with the last of the supplies that UPS dropped off beside the front door. โAll that drooling is putting me off my croissant.โ
My cheeks warm as Nadia says, โOkay, but in her defense, have you seen his arms?โ
โI have been enjoying the show, yes,โ Mason says, taking a sip of coffee. โBut quietly, subtly, and with dignity. Brynn could learn a few lessons from me.โ
โShut up,โ I mutter before stuffing a piece of Pop-Tart cake into my mouth. I swallow and add, โSpeaking of dignity, Mason, howโs Gorff?โ
The tips of his ears turn red as Nadia laughs. Masonโs giddy, incomprehensible drunken texts about Geoff the night of Charlotteโs party
have become our favorite thing to tease him about. Sometimes I like to text him screenshots in class just to watch his ears get scarlet.
โSKSKSKKS GORFF IZ STAKIIING MEEEEE,โ Nadia says, reciting the most classic of the Gorff texts. โWhat did you mean by that, Mason? Was he staking you? Is Gorff under the impression that youโre a vampire?โ
I tap my chin, thoughtful. โOr was he stalking you? Was that a cry for help?โ
โMaybe he offered you a steak?โ Nadia asks.
โAll right, yes, youโre both hilarious,โ Mason says sourly. โAnd youโre officially disinvited from my dance circle whenย Geoffย and I go to the Winter Dance together.โ
โYour dance circle?โ I ask.
โThereโs going to be black lights,โ Mason says. โItโs my true medium.โ Then he does a strange little chair shimmy before finishing the last of his coffee. โToo bad youโll miss it.โ
โI donโt think itโs possible to miss that,โ I say.
โSpeaking of.โ Nadia gets a little red herself, which almost never happens. โI was thinking of asking Pavan, but I wanted to check with you first, Brynn. Would you mind?โ
โPavan Deshpande?โ I blink at her, confused. โWhy would I mind?โ
โWell, you kissed him once. Does taking him to a dance violate the girl code?โ
โI kissed him in seventh grade,โ I remind her. โSo no. But itโs sweet of you to ask.โ
โWill you be taking Box Stud?โ Mason asks as Tripp returns to the counter.
โShhh,โ I mutter, and my stomach twists. I missed an opportunity yesterday; when Tripp brought upย Motive,ย I should have told him that I worked there. But I couldnโt bring myself to do it when he was so upset about his mother, and the moment passed.
Now it hits me with a prickle of guilt that I havenโt told Mason and Nadia either. For no good reason, other than the fact that I didnโt tell them from the beginning. Iโm not sure why; maybe because I never expected
them to become more than lunchtime friends. But they are, and I need to come clean, especially now that Carly is full steam ahead on gathering information about Mr. Larkin. Itโs only a matter of time before someone from Saint Ambrose catches wind of the fact that heโs on theย Motiveย website, and once they do, the news will spread like wildfire.
Iโm taking a deep breath, preparing myself to start, when Tripp suddenly materializes by our table. He smells like sugar, and heโs still in short sleeves, with the flannel shirt he took off while moving boxes draped over one shoulder, so my concentration vanishes.
โReady?โ he asks. Weโre heading to Mr. Solomonโs after his shift.
โIs she ever,โ Mason says, and another moment passes. Itโs all right, though, because I should probably explainย Motiveย to Tripp before I explain it to anyone else.
โLetโs go,โ I say, reaching for my coat. Iโll tell him in the car.
โ
I did not tell him in the car.
I was going to, really. But then Uncle Nick called from Vermont, where heโs using the family ski pass on a weekend trip with his college buddies, because he can never keep track of the activation code. โI texted it to you before you left,โ I complain.
โI know, but I mustโve deleted it by mistake. Itโs not there.โ
โWell, Iโm driving and I canโt look for it. Check your email, because I definitely sent it to you at some point in the past three months.โ
โWhat would the subject be, do you think?โ โOh my God, Uncle Nick. Tryย activation code.โ
By the time he finally tracks it down, Iโm pulling up beside Mr. Solomonโs truck. โYouโre a lifesaver, cherished niece,โ Uncle Nick says before disconnecting.
โSorry,โ I say to Tripp as I shift into park. โMy uncleโs kind of disorganized.โ
โNo problem. Hey, listen. Before we leave the car, thereโs something Iโve been meaning to talk to you about.โ Tripp turns to face me, a smile tugging at the corners of his mouth, and Iโm suddenly very aware of how close weโre sitting. Close enough that I could brush away the lock of hair thatโs threatening to dip into his eye, if I wanted to.
Donโt blush.ย โWhatโs that?โ I ask. Cool and casual, thatโs me. โLetโs concentrate our efforts on the front door, this time.โ
Oh. Right. What did I think he was going to say? โGood call,โ I say as we climb out of the car and close our doors. I consider, briefly, raising the subject ofย Motiveย before we reach the door, but itโs nowhere near a long enough walk. Plus, Iโm starting to get anxious about seeing Mr. Solomon again, wondering if heโll be the kindly man I remember from Saint Ambrose, or the one who went off about Mr. Larkin after aiming a shotgun at us. โLetโs just keep ringing the bell untilโโ Then I stop short at the top of the stairs, causing Tripp to bump into me. He puts a hand on my waist to steady us both before moving to my side, and I ask, โIs the door open?โ
โHuh. Yeah,โ Tripp says, gazing at the sliver of space between the door and its frame. He pushes lightly on it, and the door swings wider with a loud creak. โMr. Solomon?โ he calls. โItโs TrโNoah Talbot. You there?โ Thereโs no answer, and no sound at all from inside. โMaybe heโs out back?โ โIโll check,โ I say. I quickly jog around the corner of the house, taking
care to keep a safe distance from the gate. But Mr. Solomon is nowhere in sight. I return to Tripp, whoโs pushed open the door another few inches. โHeโs not there,โ I report.
โOkay, wellโฆโ Tripp stands with his hands on his hips, jaw twitching. โMaybe we should go in and make sure heโs okay. And let him know his door is open. Canโt imagine he did that on purpose.โ
โProbably not, but do you think thatโs a good idea? I mean, he was mad enough when we were just trying to open his gate.โ
โWeโll announce ourselves,โ Tripp says, grasping the knob to open the door fully. โMr. Solomon,โ he yells. โItโs Noah and Brynn. Your door was open. Weโre coming in, okay?โ
The returning silence makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. Everything about this feels wrong. I glance back to the driveway at Mr. Solomonโs truck, hoping that maybe heโs in the driverโs seat getting ready to go somewhere and we just failed to notice him. But the truck is empty, and so is the dark hallway we step into. A threadbare striped rug covers the floor, and a pair of boots sits askew on a shoe tray pushed against the wall. The space is dusty, and I sneeze before calling out, โMr. Solomon, are you there?โ I donโt like how high and thin my voice sounds.
โHave you ever been here before?โ Tripp asks, pausing at the edge of a staircase. The short hallway in front of us branches in three directions; the kitchen is straight ahead, a dining room to the right, and a living room to the left.
โNo,โ I say as we move toward the kitchen. Itโs empty but the overhead light is turned on, and so is the half-full coffeepot I spy on the counter. โHeโs not in here. And he should have heard us by now if he were on the first floor.โ I retrace my steps to the stairway, and pause with one hand on the banister. โMr. Solomon?โ I call. โAre you home?โ
โMaybe we should go upstairs,โ Tripp says.
โYeah, maybe,โ I say, turning to look over my shoulder into the living room. โWe couldโโ
And then everything stillsโmy words, my steps, my heartโwhen I see it. The edge of a stockinged foot jutting out from behind a chair, just in my line of vision. โOh no,โ I breathe, and Tripp freezes at my tone.
โWhat,โ he says, every line of his body tensing.
Go over there,ย I command myself, staring at the still foot, but my legs refuse to obey.ย Just walk.ย In my head, my voice sounds like the soothing, singsong one I used on toddler Ellie when she was having a bad dream.ย Open your eyes. Iโm with you. Youโre okay.
โYouโre okay,โ I murmur, and finally start moving. โYouโre okay.โ I donโt know who Iโm talking to, but the closer I get, the more positive I am that Iโm wrong on all counts. Iโm focused with laser precision on the sock, and when Iโm fully inside the living room, I notice a hole in the heel. Somehow, thatโs what forces a choked sob from my throat, even before my
eyes finally take in the rest: Mr. Solomon lying still, his neck bent at a horribly unnatural angle, and his head resting in a puddle of dark red blood. โMr. Solomon,โ I gasp, falling to my knees beside him. โAre youโฆcan
โDo you hear me?โ I plead, even though I know he canโt. His open eyes are so empty, so lifelessโI know heโs past hearing anything, but I canโt stop rambling. โIโll get help. Iโll call for help. Did you fall? Mr. Solomon, did you fall?โ Heโs lying there in front of the fireplace, and thereโs blood on the sharp edge of the mantel above him. I fumble for my phone in my pocket, but itโs not there. Itโs in my bag. Where did I put my bag? I must have dropped it somewhere. I glance around and spot it on the ground a few feet away, and as I lunge for it, I see Tripp.
Heโs standing there, stiff and ghostly pale, his eyes almost as vacant as Mr. Solomonโs. โWhat did you do?โ he whispers, his voice strained.
โIโwhat?โ I stammer, confused. โWhat do you mean?โ I donโt understand why heโs asking me that, since weโve been together the whole time and itโs clear I didnโt cause the terrible scene in front of us. Is he asking Mr. Solomon? Tripp doesnโt answer, and I canโt wait around to figure it out. I grab my bagโs strap and pull it toward me. โWe have to call for help. Maybe someone can still helpโฆ.โ
Tripp sinks to his knees, staring at Mr. Solomon, but it feels like heโs not really seeing him. โI have to think,โ he murmurs, burying his face in his hands.
โTripp, Iโโ Iโm at a loss. Heโs obviously not okay, but Mr. Solomon is in far worse shape, so I need to focus on that. I finally find my phone buried in my bag, but my hands are trembling so much that I nearly drop it. โIโm going to call 9-1-1,โ I say, not sure if Iโm trying to reassure Tripp or myself.
โStop screaming,โ Tripp croaks, his head still in his hands. โI canโt think when youโre screaming like that.โ
โIโm not screaming,โ I reply, my voice cracking as I fight back tears. โIโm trying to use my damn phone.โ I manage to dial, and within moments, a calm voice on the line says, โ9-1-1, whatโs your emergency?โ
โSomeoneโs hurt,โ I manage to say, my eyes flicking back and forth between Mr. Solomon and Tripp. One is deathly still, and the other is rocking back and forth, muttering. I want desperately to help them both, but I donโt know how.
I donโt know how to help anyone.