โAbout earlier,โ Cole said as he led me through the cluttered house. โThis whole you-moving-in thing kinda came out of nowhere. Caught me off guard.โ
โI get it,โ I told him. It wasnโt exactly an apology for his unfriendly behavior, but hopefully it was the reason behind most of the boysโ unenthusiastic reactions toward me. โYou donโt need to explain.โ
โSo my mom said youโre from New York.โ He paused at the bottom of the staircase to look at me.
โYeah,โ I answered, and suddenly my stomach bottomed out. What else did he know about me? The accidentโฆhad he heard? If there was one good thing about moving to Colorado, it was that nobody knew who I was. I could go back to just Jackie, not the girl whose family died. I didnโt want the boys to know. What if they acted funny around me? โDid she tell you guys anything else?โ I added, trying to sound nonchalant.
He paused then, and it was all the confirmation I needed. One small moment of hesitation, and I knew he knew about my family.
โNot much,โ he recovered quickly, and a smile slipped onto his face with such ease that the upward curve of his lips almost looked genuine. โJust that the daughter of her friend was moving in. Youโre pretty much a mystery girl.โ
โI see.โ The thought of all the Walter boys knowing about what happened made my mouth dry, but at least Cole was making the effort to act normal.
โNow that I think about it, I donโt even know how old you are.โ โSixteen.โ
โAre you always this shy?โ
โShy?โ I echoed in confusion. What did he expect? It wasnโt like he had been the president of my welcoming committee. Besides, the fact that he practically had abs down to his toes didnโt help calm my nerves.
โNever mind,โ he said, laughing, his eyes dancing in amusement as he shook his head at me. โCome on. Iโll show you upstairs.โ
We started up the steps, which was more difficult than it sounded. Stacks of books and board games, dirty clothes, a deflated basketball, and a pile of movies made reaching the second floor without knocking anything over harder than completing an obstacle course. Next was the maze of hallways that I knew I would get lost in. They seemed to twist and turn in strange places as if there was no real floor plan. When we reached the farthest corner of the house, Cole finally stopped.
โThis is where youโll be staying,โ he said, pushing open a door. Putting my hand on the wall, I searched for the light switch. We found it at the same time, our fingers fumbling over each otherโs in the dark. The contact sent a pulse down my arm, and I ripped my hand back in shock. Cole chuckled, but the lights flickered on and a warm glow lit up the room, making me forget my embarrassment.
โOh wow.โ
Every inch of the wall was painted in vivid colors. A mural of a tropical rain forest started on one end of the room, and by the time it wrapped around to the other side, it transformed into an ocean filled with sea creatures. One half of the ceiling was painted to look like the night sky and the other daytime. Even the wooden panels on the ceiling fan had been decorated. I stood, mouth open, and gaped at my new room.
โThis was my momโs art studio,โ Cole said.
A large desk was painted as brightly as the rest of the room. On top was a collection of glass jars and coffee mugs that were filled with paintbrushes, charcoal pencils, and markers. A sketchbook was open to a rough-draft
sketch of the painting on an easel in the middle of the room. Light brushstrokes covered the canvas, depicting a scene that I recognized from my drive from the airportโthe rolling hills of Colorado.
โItโs amazing,โ I said, brushing my hand over the edge of the canvas. โYeah, sheโs kinda awesome with art stuff.โ There was an edge to his
tone.
Then I noticed a small shelf holding more art supplies that was pushed over to the edge of the room so my single bed could fit inside, and I realized why the boys were upset when Katherine mentioned my sleeping arrangements.
โIโm taking her space.โ
โShe doesnโt have much time to paint anymore,โ Cole said, stuffing his hands into the back pockets of his trunks. โTwelve kids and all.โ
In other words: yes, I was.
Before I could respond, Will dropped one of my suitcases onto the floor, surprising both of us with a thud. โCome on, Cole,โ he said and straightened back up. โJackieโs got a ton of bags that we need to bring up.โ
โIโll help as soon as Iโm done changing,โ I offered, not wanting them to do all of my work.
Will dismissed me with a wave of his hand. โJust make yourself at home.โ
When they were gone, I shut the door to change, dropping the wet towel that was still wrapped around my shoulders to the floor. This morning Iโd made sure an extra set of clothesโtailored pants and a pink shirt with a simple collarโwas packed in my carry-on in case of an emergency. After changing, my hair came next. It took me nearly ten minutes of battling with my comb to detangle the knots.
โHey, you alive in there?โ I heard Cole ask as he knocked.
โGive me a moment,โ I called and patted down my hair one last time. With my straightener packed away, there was nothing to do about the curls, so I grudgingly let them hang down in dark waves after fastening my blue
ribbon back in place. โYes?โ I asked, pulling back the door. My luggage was now piled outside.
โJust checking,โ Cole said as he leaned against the doorframe. โYou were in there for a while.โ
โI was changing.โ
โFor fifteen minutes?โ he asked, his eyebrows scrunching up. โAnd what the heck are you wearing?โ
โWhatโs wrong with my outfit?โ I asked. Sure the outfit was a bit casual, but I hadnโt planned on being thrown into a pool.
โIt looks like youโre going to an interview,โ Cole said, trying not to laugh.
โIf I were going to an interview, Iโd be wearing a business suit.โ โWhy would you wear guysโ clothes?โ
I scoffed. โBusiness suits arenโt only for men.โ Hadnโt his mother taught himย anythingย about fashion?
โOkay, whatever, but I wouldnโt wear that nice top to dinner tonight.
Weโre having spaghetti.โ
What was that supposed to mean? I didnโt eat like a caveman. โIf weโre having dinner, shouldnโt we wear something moreโฆappropriate?โ I countered. Cole was still shirtless, and I purposely kept my gaze glued to his face so I wouldnโt stare. With his sun-bleached locks and chiseled abs, he looked like a Greek god. How was I ever going to live with this boy? Everything about him made me self-conscious and uncomfortable.
โI donโt know how you guys do things in New York, but we donโt dress up for dinner around here. Iโll be fine in this.โ He smiled a slow, arrogant grin that made me squirm. โAnyway, Iโll give you time to unpack,โ he said before I could respond.
Cole pushed himself off the doorframe, his arm muscles flexing. Holding my breath, I watched him leave without the ability to tear my eyes away. He finally disappeared around the corner in the hall, breaking my trance, and I collapsed on my new bed. I had survived my first encounter with the Walter boys.
***
Katherineโs kitchen was a sight I had never seen before. The place was loud and cluttered, but warm and cozy at the same time. Her artistic hand had definitely taken part in decorating the kitchen. All of the walls were painted to be one huge mural of a vineyard, and almost every chair around the table was a different color. It was the opposite of my motherโs clean-tiled, sparkling steel, half-a-million-dollar kitchen. At home, I felt like the kitchen was just there to look pretty and if I made a mess, I was in big trouble. This room looked lived in and, for some strange reason, I liked it.
When I walked in, Katherine was standing at the stove, stirring a pot of something boiling and shouting orders at Isaac, who was helping her. Two dogs were running around the room chasing each other, making it hard for everyone who was trying to set the table for dinner. George almost dropped the salad bowl when he tripped over a dog running between his legs.
Zack and Benny, the youngest set of twins, were sitting on the floor three feet apart playing some type of handheld video game with a cord connecting each boyโs device. I nearly choked when Zack yanked Bennyโs away from him and yelled, โYou lose, shithead!โ
A deafening cheer erupted from the den that was connected to the kitchen, and I turned to see the rest of the guys watching a basketball game on TV. My eyes instantly found Cole, who jumped up out of his seat, pounding his fist into the air. Since Iโd seen him last, heโd pulled on a fitted black shirt that emphasized his broad shoulders and contrasted with his fair hair, making it look platinum.
โStop staring,โ said Lee as he rode his skateboard into the kitchen from behind me. I remembered Lee because we were both sophomores in high school, and when Will introduced him, he had given me the most chilling look. I turned away from the den, embarrassed that he had caught me watching his cousin.
โLee! How many times do I have to tell you not to ride your board in the house?โ scolded Katherine as he crashed into one of the kitchen chairs,
knocking it over. It fell on Bennyโs head, and he immediately started screaming bloody murder.
โOnly a thousand times more, Aunt Kathy,โ he said before kneeling next to his little cousin to see if he was okay.
I rubbed my temples, trying to make my headache go away. This place was maddening. And then, in the midst of it all was one boy. I couldnโt remember his name, but he was sitting at one of the kitchen chairs, guitar in his lap, music sheets spread out on the table in front of him. Thinking back to my list, I guessed that this was Nathanโthe fourteen-year-old musician. I watched as he strummed a few notes on the instrument that I was unable to hear. Shaking his head, he grabbed the pencil from between his teeth and crossed something out. I wondered how he could concentrate with everything going on around him.
โJackie, honey,โ said Katherine, finally noticing me. She was straining the water out of a huge pot of noodles. On the counter next to her was an economy-sized jar of spaghetti sauce. โIโm so glad you didnโt get lost on your way to the kitchen. This place is so huge, and your room is the farthest away. I asked Cole to go get you about ten minutes ago, but it looks like he got wrapped up in the game.โ She smiled at me, and I went over to help her. โItโs okay. It wasnโt very hard to find,โ I said, popping the lid off the jar.
โI just followed all the noise.โ
Katherine laughed, took the jar from me, and emptied it over the noodles. โItโs always loud in here. Thatโs what happens when you have twelve kids.โ She paused for a moment and gave me a small smile. โMake that thirteen.โ
I looked at my feet and whispered, โThanks, Mrs. Walter.โ
โAnything for you, dear. And please, donโt call me that. Iโm Katherine,โ she said and pulled me into a hug.
โBoys!โ bellowed George. โGrubโs on the table. Turn that stupid thing off.โ
Katherine let me go, grabbed the bowl of spaghetti, and set it next to the other dishes of steaming food. I followed her over to the table and sat down
in the nearest chair.
โYou canโt sit there,โ said one of the boys from the middle set of twins.
Once again, both of their names slipped my memory. โSorry,โ I said, sliding into the next chair.
โNot there either. Thatโs my chair,โ said the other twin.
โBoys, why doesnโt one of you go get a chair from the dining room and bring it in here for Jackie to sit on?โ asked George. One of the twins looked like he was about to protest, but then his double elbowed him in the side.
โOkay, Dad. Be right back,โ he said, smiling sweetly.
A minute later, he came back, dragging a chair behind him. After it was pushed up to the table, I sat down and George began grace. About halfway through his prayer, I felt movement on my leg. Reaching beneath the table, I grabbed something thin and smooth. When I pulled it up, I screamed and flung the yellow reptile away from me. The table burst into commotion.
โSnake!โ roared Benny as he jumped away from his seat. As he did so, he stepped on one of the dogs. The poor thing yelped and launched itself away from him. Alex, who pushed away from the table in shock, tripped over the wild dog and crashed into Isaac, who was sitting next to him. George was trying to calm Benny down but managed to slip in a puddle of milk that had somehow spilled onto the floor in all the frenzy.
As he fell, George grabbed the tablecloth in an attempt to regain his balance, but instead he brought all of dishes down with him. When the bowl of spaghetti hit the ground, its contents flew in every direction and covered us all with tomato sauce.
โJordan!โ George bellowed at his son. โYouโre beyond grounded!โ
***
Dinner had been a disaster, and it was entirely my fault. After George and Katherine calmed down the mayhem, everyone was given a job to clean up the mess. That was, everyone except me. Katherine apologized profusely for her sonsโ behavior, and sent me off to clean myself up even, though I pleaded to help.
Turning off the hot water, I stepped out of the shower. It felt good to wash off the chlorine from the pool and the spaghetti from dinner, but no amount of shower time would ease the dread that was swirling around in my stomach. To add to my discomfort, a stab of irritation shot through me when I spotted my shirt on the floor, covered in sauce. Cole had been right
โnow it was completely ruined. I was already making a mess of living with the Walters, as I could tell from the way most of the boys threw me dirty looks when I left the kitchen.
As I wrapped a towel around myself, I wished Iโd worn flip-flops to the bathroom. The floor was a minefield littered with dirty boxers and used tissues that had missed the garbage, not to mention that tile looked like it hadnโt been scrubbed since the Walters moved into the house.
I also had to be extra careful not to lean against the counter as I washed my face. Globs of toothpaste speckled it like bird poop, along with pieces of hair and bright blue shaving cream. Most of the boys tossed their toothbrushes next to the sink, as if the damp countertop wasnโt a cesspool of mystery toxins. There was no way Iโd be keeping mine in here.
Pulling back the door, I poked my head out into the hallway to make sure no one was around. I didnโt want any of the boys to see me in a towel. Next time I showered, Iโd remember to bring my clothes with me. As I crept back to my room, I imagined this was how a wild teenager felt as he or she carefully slunk out of the house in the middle of the night. I myself had never done anything that crazy.
I successfully reached my new room without encountering one of the boys and slipped inside, sighing with relief.
โNice towel, Jackie.โ
โOh!โ I squeaked, almost dropping the fluffy fabric when I spotted Cole sitting on my bed. He was still covered in tomato sauce, but was eating out of a takeout Chinese carton. Two more steaming cartons were sitting on the desk waiting to be eaten. A smile eased across his face as he looked me up and down.
My face flushed as red as the stains on his shirt, and I yanked the towel tighter around my figure. โWhat in the world are you doing in my room?โ
โDinner. Want some?โ he asked, holding up the carton of food.
โYes, but can you please leave?โ I asked, mortified that this was actually happening. โI need to change.โ
โDonโt worry. Iโll close my eyes.โ
โIโm not changing with you in the room.โ
โThatโs fine. I wonโt mind if you eat in the towel.โ โCole, get out!โ I finally snapped.
โDamn, woman, donโt get your panties in a bunch.โ He got up from the bed, springs squeaking, and set his food next to the other cartons. โAlthough, thatโs not really possible right now, is it?โ Cole chuckled to himself as he stepped outside. I slammed the door behind him and turned the lock for good measure.
After quickly pulling on a pair of pajamas, I unlocked the door and let Cole back inside. He brushed passed me and flopped down on the bed before grabbing his takeout. I flinched as he shoveled a bite into his mouth. I never ate in my bedroom. It was unsanitary.
Once he noticed me watching him, Cole stopped chewing. โWhat?โ he asked, his mouth full.
โDo you have to eat on the bed?โ
โWhy, you wanna do somethingย elseย on the bed?โ
โNo, Cole,โ I said, trying my best to ignore the comment. โI just donโt want food in it. I have to sleep there.โ
โA few pieces of rice gonna keep you awake, princess?โ Cole glanced around the room. โBesides, where else will we sit?โ
Of course, he was right. My suitcases were taking up all of the floor space, and Katherineโs art supplies occupied everywhere else. And there was no way I was going back to the kitchen to eat. Cautiously, I sat down on the edge of the bed and he handed me some chopsticks. For the next few minutes we sat in silence eating sweet chicken, and surprisingly it was
peaceful sitting with Cole. But when the food disappeared, he ruined one of the only relaxing moments Iโd had since arriving in Colorado.
โI enjoyed the dinner show tonight,โ he said, setting an empty container down. I turned away from him and halfheartedly poked at a piece of broccoli. Cole laughed. โCome on, Jackie. It was just a joke. To be honest, that stuff happensย allย the time in this house.โ
Putting my food aside, I propped myself up on my elbows and looked at Cole. โReally?โ I questioned.
โWell, itโs not always that dramatic, but at least tonight was funny. You shouldโve seen the look on your face when you pulled Rumple out.โ He let out a wholehearted laugh again.
โRumple?โ I asked in confusion.
Cole stretched and scooted closer. โRumplesnakeskin. Heโs Jordanโs snake.โ
โAny other dangerous pets I should know about?โ I grumbled. โNope,โ he said with a laugh. โJust Isaac.โ
โIโm not really an animal person,โ I said as the floorboards outside my room creaked. โEspecially not snakes.โ
The door banged open. โCorn snakes arenโt dangerous,โ Jordan said as he barged in. His double, Jack, followed behind him with a video camera in hand, and a green flashing light let me know that he was recording.
Jack nodded his head. โWe wanted a python, but Mom wonโt let us get one.โ
โYeah, my friendโs older brother Nick has a python,โ Jordan said excitedly. โHe told me this one time, the tank broke. Snakes are ectothermic, and he needed to keep it warm, so at night Nick put the python in his bed and used his body heat. Instead of curling up like it normally did, the python straightened itself out on the bed. It wouldnโt eat either, so Nick thought something was wrong with it. He brought the python into the vet, and they said it was stretching itself out so it could eat him! How awesome is that?โ
I gaped at the twins in horror. Apparently my definition of โterrifyingโ was equivalent to Jordanโs for โawesome.โ
โIf I had a snake,โ Cole started, โIโd probably let it eat you, Jo. You obviously donโt know anything about knocking.โ
โDad sent us up here to tell you that if any of us are alone in a room with Jackie, the door has to stay open. Therefore no knocking is required, dickwad,โ Jordan replied, crossing his arms over his chest in defiance.
โFine. That doesnโt explain why youโre still here. You told us about Dadโs stupid rule. Now leave.โ
โI wasnโt done. We also came up to inform Jackie that sheโs our new subject.โ
โSubject?โ I asked.
Cole rolled his eyes. โThese two morons think theyโre going to be film directors one day. Theyโre always trying to find interesting subjects for what they think will be the documentary of the century.โ
โIt will be award winning,โ Jack added, turning to me. โJordan and I realized at dinner that youโd be perfect. Too bad I didnโt have our camera then. We were hoping we could reenact the scene.โ
โFat chance that will happen. What will you say? โHey, Mom, do you mind if we destroy the kitchen again? We promise weโll clean up all the spaghetti sauce.โโ
Ignoring Cole, I responded to the twins. โIโd prefer if you didnโt film me at all. I donโt really care to be your next film subject.โ
โBut you donโt understand,โ Jordan said. โYouโre the first female in the Walter house. This is monumental.โ
โYou do remember that you have a mother and a little sister, right?โ Cole pointed out.
โMom doesnโt count because sheโs, well, our mother. And Parker doesnโt even have boobs yet.โ
A knock on the door interrupted the conversation. One of the older boys was standing outside the bedroom as if he was afraid to come in. โUm, Cole?โ he asked, barely looking at me.
โYeah, whatโs up, Danny?โ
When Cole said his brotherโs name, it clicked. Now I remember, I thought, as I looked him over and noticed the facial hair. Danny was Coleโs fraternal twin.
โErin is here for you,โ he mumbled, โwaiting at the front door.โ When he finished delivering his message, Danny spun on his heels and left.
โThatโs my cue.โ Cole stood up from the bed. โCome on, you two,โ he said, pushing his younger brothers toward the door. โLeave Jackie alone for now. Sheโs had a long day.โ
โFine,โ Jack grumbled. โWe can discuss your contract in the morning, Jackie. Jordan and I have been pooling our allowances for a while now, and we can pay you handsomely.โ Without another word, the pair ran off, leaving me alone with Cole.
โI really donโt want to be in their movie,โ I repeated with a sigh.
โIf you ignore them long enough, theyโll move on to something else.โ
โI guess, but your family is really overwhelming, and I just want everyone to forget about dinner.โ
โTomorrow will be easier, okay? Iโll see you in the morning before school.โ
โOh, great,โ I moaned and flopped back onto my pillow. โSchool.โ I was so caught up in the dinner disaster that I almost forgot that I would be going to a public school for the first time in my life.
โDonโt worry,โ he said with a yawn. Griping his elbow, Cole stretched his arm out over his head and I quickly looked away from his rippling muscles. โIt will be a breeze.โ
โEasy for you to say,โ I said, tugging my motherโs locket back and forth across the chain. โIโve gone to the same boarding school since I was eleven. The thought of a public school scares me.โ
โI promise youโll do fine.โ Cole chuckled as he stepped out into the hall. โNight, Jackie.โ
โGood night, Cole,โ I responded. Suddenly, a thought ran through my head.
โWait,โ I called just as he was about to shut the door. โWhoโs Erin?โ Cole paused before responding. โJust a friend.โ
When he shut the door, I held my breath and listened to him leave. A few seconds later, I heard his feet pound down the stairs.
Then, โHey, Erin.โ
I was so surprised to hear Cole again that I nearly fell out of my bed. โCole,โ a girl responded, her voice smoky. โYou said you were going to
call me.โ
I glanced around the room, looking for the source of the voices. There were three windows, and I realized why Katherine had picked this room for her art studio. It gave her a handful of different views to paint. The window on the front side of the house was pushed open.
โYeah,โ Cole said. โSomething came up. Sorry.โ
Pushing back the curtain, I looked down and saw Cole standing on the front porch. The front door was still open, and the light from inside poured into the night, outlining his body in a yellow glow.
โAre we still on for tonight?โ asked Erin. She was standing a few steps down, and with her back to me, all I could see were long legs and a high ponytail.
Cole paused. โItโs late.โ
Erin crossed her arms. โFine, but no excuses tomorrow. You canโt keep bailing on me. I miss you.โ
โOkay.โ
โYou promise?โ she asked. Cole nodded his head. โGood. Iโll see you tomorrow.โ
Cole stood on the porch and watched as Erin walked to her car. When the headlights disappeared down the dark driveway, I expected Cole to go back inside. Instead, he stepped off the porch and made his way across the front walk. He was heading for what looked like a shed.
When he unlatched the lock and pulled back the double doors, I realized that it was a second garage. After flipping on a light switch, he shut the doors. I waited for a few minutes, but he didnโt come back out. Finally I
gave up and crawled into bed, but I couldnโt stop wondering. What the heck was Cole doing out there?