I
park my truck beside Rafaโs beat-up one and hop out. Unlike me, my cousin doesnโt live on the lake. Instead, after his divorce, he chose to purchase land at the top of the farthest hill away from town, where he
could have a fresh start away from any prying eyes.
My mom used to say people do weird things once they make a lot of money, and I never understood what she meant until Rafa started fostering unwanted farm animals and being one with the land after Hillary left.
I swear, the man is one step away from signing up for one of those competitive wilderness shows.
โFina told me you took Dahlia to the hospital yesterday.โ Rafa cuts to the chase as soon as I walk through his front door.
โDid you invite me over here to hang out or for an interrogation?โ โA mix of both.โ He tucks his hands in his front pockets.
โAt least youโre honest.โ
He shoots me a look before walking away.
The style of his house is completely different from mineโit feels warm and lived-in, with its oak floors and Nicoโs artwork hanging on every wall. The paint colors were chosen by Nico, with each room matching a different pair of my godsonโs glasses.
Not my cousinโs smartest design choice, but one made out of love nonetheless.
I follow behind him, only to take a detour toward the classical music playing from the conservatory. Nico sits at the piano with his nanny and
music teacher, Ellie. They play in tandem, perfectly in sync as their fingers fly across the keys.
Ellieโs body sways to the music, making her blonde hair shift with the melody.
โDid you get lost on your way to the kitchen?โ Rafa says.
Ellie hits the keys all wrong, making the most horrific noise. โI wanted to say hi to Nico.โ
โTรญo!โ Nico slides off the bench and runs toward me. His coordination is a bit off because of his eye condition, but he jumps into my arms with all the momentum he can muster.
โHey, you.โ I ruffle his hair before tipping my chin toward Ellie. โNice to see you again.โ
She rises from her seat. โLikewise.โ
โIs Rafa making you work on Saturdays now?โ
โNot usually, but heย inconvenientlyย forgot to tell me he needed my help today.โ She doesnโt bother hiding her annoyance.
Ellie never gets flustered. Iโve watched her be thrown up on by a sick Nico, get kicked in the stomach by one of Rafaโs goats, and twist her ankle during a hike, but Iโve never seen her look like this.
I spare my cousin a glance, only to find him glaring at Ellie. Iโm not sure whatโs wrong with him, but he needs to figure his shit out and get himself under control before he scares her away like he did all previous nannies. Whether by playing instruments together or learning to read braille, Ellie stands apart from the others with how she goes out of her way to help Nico and support him with his retinitis pigmentosa diagnosis.
Nico still values his independence like every normal eight-year-old kid, but sadly, it is only a matter of time before he completely loses his sight, a reality that has been stressing Rafa out as my godsonโs vision worsens.
โSorry you had to cancel your date.โ Rafaโs face might be blank, but his eyes remind me of two burning coals.
Ellie smiles. โNo worries. We rescheduled for tomorrow.โ My cousin makes the most inhuman noise.
Her hazel eyes narrow. โStill struggling with that sore throat of yours?โ
โYouโre sick?โ I ask my cousin.
โSick of Eleanorโs bullshit is more like it,โ he mutters under his breath before turning back toward the hall.
I fight a laugh. โEleanor?โ
โDonโt you dare call me that.โ She points a finger at me.
โWhatโs up with him?โ I ask once Rafa is out of hearing distance.
โHeโs been like that all week because of theย weather.โ Ellieโs gaze swings from me to Nico.
There is nothing worse than Hurricane Hillary influencing my cousinโs mood long after their divorce.
I step toward the hall. โI better go before he comes searching for me.โ โBye,ย Tรญo!โ Nico gives me one last hug before reaching out for Ellieโs
hand. They return to the piano and restart the song.
I find Rafa sitting at the kitchen island, staring at his coffee like it might reveal his fortune.
โYou good?โ I grab the iced coffee he made me. Rafa might be an irritable dick most of the time now, but he still goes out of his way to do sweet things because he canโt help himself.
He runs his hands through his hair, making a mess of the already- disheveled strands. โHillary called.โ
โHm.โ
His shoulders droop. โSheโs flying into Detroit and wants to see Nico.โ โWhen?โ
โThe weekend of the Harvest Festival.โ My brows rise. โIs she coming?โ
โNo.โ
โShocker.โ Once the divorce papers were signed, she booked a one-way flight back to Oregon to be with her family and never came back to Lake Wisteria. If it wasnโt for Rafa flying out there so Nico could see his mom, Iโm not sure she would have seen him until now.
โNicoโs excited to see her.โ His fingers tighten around his mug. โItโs been what? Four months since he last saw her?โ
โFive,โ he grunts under his breath.
โI forgot she missed his birthday.โ
โI sure didnโt.โ His voice reeks of self-loathing.
โYouโve got to stop beating yourself up over her poor decisions.โ
โIโm the one who got her pregnant. Who else is there to blameย butย me?โ โYou were barely an adult when all that happened. Itโs not like you
could have predicted things would turn out this way.โ
โNo, but that doesnโt stop me from feeling like a stupid fool.โ I shake my head. โYouโre too hard on yourself.โ
โIโve been thinkingโฆโ
โStop now while youโre ahead.โ โYouโre not going to like this.โ
The empty pit in my stomach widens as I say, โThen letโs call it a loss and move on to better subjects, like betting on tomorrowโs soccer game. Iโve got a few of my paver guysโโ
โJulian.โ
โWhatโs the problem?โ
He stares out the window facing his barn. โIโve been thinking about moving.โ
I blink twice. โWhat did you say?โ
โWith Hillary living so far away, Iโve been wondering if itโs in Nicoโs best interest for him to live closer to his mom.โ
โIs that inย yourย best interest?โ Rafa has spent his whole life within the small border of Lake Wisteria, so for him to move…
He rubs his eyes with the heels of his palms. โForget I said anything.โ
A wave of nausea forces me to push my coffee away. โYouโre seriously thinking about moving across the country?โ
โOnly occasionally.โ
Losing Rafa and Nico would be devastating for our family. Besides my mom, theyโre the only loved ones I have left, so I selfishly donโt want them to move away.
You could find a way to convince Hillary to move somewhere within driving distance, like Chicago or Detroiโ
โDonโt mention anything to your mom right now,โ he says, stopping me mid-spiral.
โBut what if she moves backโโ โStop.โ
โWhat?โ I blink away my confusion. โThis isnโt a problem you can solve.โ โWho saidโโ
He shuts me up with a single look.
I hold my hands up. โFine. But talk to me before you make any big decisions.โ
โFair enough.โ He scrubs at his cheek. โAnyway, Iโm sorry to leave you alone to work the booth without me.โ
My mom takes a lot of pride in sharing her grandmotherโsย champurradoย recipe during the Harvest Festival. And ever since we were old enough to be trusted with the responsibility, Rafa and I have teamed up to run the Lopez booth together to make Ma happy and share our Mexican hot chocolate with the visitors.
โJosefina told me you could handle it. She reassured me that your booth will be next to the Muรฑoz one this year so that you can have someone to talk to.โ
โHow thoughtful of her,โ I reply with a brittle tone.
โI told her the same thing before asking her to switch it.โ โAnd?โ
โShe says it would be dumb to separate theirย buรฑuelosย booth from our
champurradoย one.โ
I sigh. โItโs fine.โ
โMaybe if you talked to her about how youโre not interested in Dahlia like that, she would let up on her attempts at matchmaking.โ
โKnowing her, she will only see it as a challenge.โ
โI blame her obsession with those telenovelas.โ He takes a sip of his drink.
โIโm hoping Ma will realize Dahlia and I arenโt meant to be once she finally leaves town for good.โ
His head tilts. โAnd when is that?โ โI have no clue.โ
โYou really think sheโs done with Oliver?โ
โIโd say yes based on how she sold me her wedding ring before I encased it in a concrete tomb.โ
His mouth falls open.
Shit.ย โItโs not that big of a deal.โ
โYou, the billionaire who considers eating out at a steakhouse a wasteful luxury, bought Dahliaโs engagement ring just so you could bury it in concrete?โ
โOne, I think steakhouses are overrated when I can cook the same thing at my house for half the price; and two, it was worth it.โ
Rafa drops his head into his hands. โI donโt know what to say to that.โ โNothing is preferable.โ
โHow much did you pay for it?โ I donโt answer him.
โJulian.โ
โA hundred.โ โThousand?โ
I rub the back of my neck. โYeah.โ โWhy?โ
โI wanted to bury it in concrete.โ
โIโm struggling to believe youโre the same guy who spent five years hyping himself up into buying a McLaren for double the cost of what you paid Dahlia for a cheap thrill.โ
When he puts it that way, it sounds bad. I donโt act irrationally, especially when money is involved.
โWell, I always hated that ring.โ The excuse sounds weak to my own ears.
Rafaโs deep sigh makes my stomach churn. โWhat?โ
โYou say youโre over her, but your actions say the complete opposite.โ โBecause I bought her ring?โ
โBecause ofย whyย you bought her ring.โ
My frown stretches. โI was doing her a favor.โ โKeep telling yourself that.โ