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Chapter no 38 – Brownies

Lessons in Chemistry

JULY 1961

Some say thereโ€™s no such thing as bad publicity, and in this case, they were right.ย Supper at Sixย exploded in popularity.

โ€œElizabeth,โ€ Walter said as she sat facing him in his office, her face stony. โ€œI know youโ€™re upset about the articleโ€”we all are. But letโ€™s look on the bright side. New advertisers are lining up in droves. Several manufacturers are begging to create all-new lines in your name. Pots, knives, all sorts of things!โ€

She pursed her lips in a way he knew meant trouble.

โ€œMattel even sent over specs for a girlโ€™s chemistry setโ€”โ€ โ€œA chemistry set?โ€ She perked up slightly.

โ€œKeep in mind, these are just specs,โ€ he said carefully, handing her a proposal. โ€œIโ€™m sure some things canโ€”โ€

โ€œ โ€˜Girls!โ€™ โ€ she read aloud. โ€œ โ€˜Make your very own perfumeโ€ฆusing science!โ€™ โ€ Good god, Walter! And the box is pink? Get these people on the phone right nowโ€” I want to tell them where they can stick their plastic vial.โ€

โ€œElizabeth,โ€ he said soothingly, โ€œwe donโ€™t have to say yes to everything, but thereโ€™s some potential here for lifelong financial security. Not just for us, but for our girls. We have to think beyond ourselves.โ€

โ€œThis isnโ€™t thinking, Walter, this is marketing.โ€

โ€œMr. Pine,โ€ a secretary said, โ€œMr. Roth is on line two.โ€

โ€œDo not,โ€ Elizabeth warned, her face still holding the hurt of how sheโ€™d been maligned, โ€œtake that call.โ€

โ€”

โ€œHello,โ€ Elizabeth said several weeks later, โ€œmy name is Elizabeth Zott, and this isย Supper at Six.โ€

She stood behind a cutting board, an array of vegetables set before her in a dazzling pile of color. โ€œTonightโ€™s dinner features eggplant,โ€ she said, picking up a large purplish vegetable. โ€œOr aubergine, as itโ€™s referred to in other parts of the world. Eggplant is highly nutritious, but it can be bitter due to its phenolic compounds. To remove its bitternessโ€”โ€ She stopped abruptly, turning the vegetable over in her hands as if she wasnโ€™t at all satisfied. โ€œLet me rephrase. To guard against eggplantโ€™sย tendencyย toward bitternessโ€”โ€ She stopped again and exhaled loudly. Then she tossed the eggplant aside.

โ€œForget it,โ€ she said. โ€œLife is bitter enough.โ€ She turned and opened a cupboard behind her, withdrawing all new ingredients. โ€œNew plan,โ€ she said. โ€œWeโ€™re making brownies.โ€

Madeline lay on her stomach in front of the television, her legs crossed in the air behind her. โ€œLooks like weโ€™re having brownies again tonight, Harriet. Thatโ€™s five days in a row.โ€

โ€œI make brownies on my bad days,โ€ Elizabeth confessed. โ€œIโ€™m not going to pretend that sucrose is an essential ingredient required for our well-being, but I personally feel better when I eat it. Now letโ€™s get started.โ€

โ€”

โ€œMad,โ€ Harriet said over Elizabethโ€™s voice as she applied fresh lipstick and fluffed her hair. โ€œI have to run out for a bit, all right? Donโ€™t answer the door or the phone, and donโ€™t leave home. Iโ€™ll be back before your mom gets here. Understand? Mad? Do you hear me?โ€

โ€œWhat?โ€

โ€œSee you soon.โ€ The door clicked shut behind her.

โ€œBrownies are best when made from either a high-quality cocoa powder or unsweetened baking chocolate,โ€ Elizabeth continued. โ€œI prefer Dutch

cocoa. It contains a high level of polyphenols, which, as you know, are reducing agents that protect the body against oxidativeโ€ฆโ€

Madeline watched the TV closely as her mother combined the cocoa powder with the melted butter and sugar, whipping the wooden spoon around the bowl with such vigor, it seemed likely the bowl would break. Whenย Lifeย hit the stands, sheโ€™d been so proud. Her motherโ€”on the cover! But before she could read it, her mother stuffed all of her copiesโ€”Harrietโ€™s tooโ€”in a garbage bag and tossed the heavy bag to the curb. โ€œYou areย notย to read this pack of lies,โ€ sheโ€™d told Madeline. โ€œDo you understand? Under no circumstances.โ€

Madeline nodded. But the next day she went straight to the library and read without stopping, her finger guiding her eyes down the columns. โ€œNo,โ€ she choked. โ€œNo, no, no.โ€ Tears spilled all over a photograph of her mother fixing her hair as if thatโ€™s what she did all day. โ€œMy momโ€™s a scientist. A chemist.โ€

โ€”

She turned her attention back to the television, where her mother was chopping walnuts. โ€œWalnuts contain an unusually high level of vitamin E in the form of gamma-tocopherol,โ€ she said. โ€œProven to protect the heart.โ€ Although the way she continued to chop, it seemed clear the walnuts werenโ€™t going to make much difference to the damage done to her heart.

From out of nowhere came the doorbell, and Mad jumped. Harriet never let her answer the door anymore, but Harriet wasnโ€™t there. She peeked out the window, expecting to see a stranger, but saw Wakely instead.

โ€œMad,โ€ Reverend Wakely said as she opened the door. โ€œIโ€™ve been so worried.โ€

โ€”

From the television, Elizabeth Zott was explaining how air was being carried along on the rough surfaces of the sugar crystals and then encased by a film of fat, creating a foam. โ€œWhen I add the eggs,โ€ she said, โ€œtheir

protein will prevent the fat-coated air bubbles from collapsing when heat is applied.โ€ She set down the bowl. โ€œWeโ€™ll be back after this station identification.โ€

โ€œI hope itโ€™s all right that I dropped by,โ€ Wakely said. โ€œI thought Iโ€™d be able to find you at home during your motherโ€™s show. Is she really making brownies for dinner?โ€

โ€œSheโ€™s having a bad day.โ€

โ€œThatย Lifeย articleโ€” I can only imagine. Whereโ€™s your sitter?โ€

โ€œHarriet will be back in a bit.โ€ She hesitated, knowing this was probably the wrong thing to ask. โ€œWakely. Want to stay for dinner?โ€

He paused. If bad days dictated dietary menus, heโ€™d be eating brownies at every meal for life. โ€œI would never intrude like that, Mad. I really did just want to make sure youโ€™re okay. I feel terrible that I wasnโ€™t able to help you more with that family tree, although Iโ€™m proud of what you did. Youโ€™ve defined your family with broad, honest strokes. Family is far more than biology.โ€

โ€œI know.โ€

He glanced around the small room crowded with books, his eyes taking in the erg. โ€œThere it is,โ€ he said in wonder. โ€œThe rowing machine. I saw it in the magazine. Your dad was very handy.โ€

โ€œMyย momย is very handy,โ€ she asserted. โ€œMy mom turned our kitchen into aโ€”โ€ But before she could show him the lab, from the television Elizabeth announced she was back. โ€œOne of the things I like about cooking,โ€ she said as she added flour, โ€œis its inherent usefulness. When we make food, we donโ€™t just create something good to eatโ€”we create something that provides energy to our cells, something that sustains life. Itโ€™s very different from what others create. For instanceโ€โ€”she paused, then looked directly into the camera, narrowing her eyesโ€”โ€œmagazines.โ€

โ€œYour poor mother,โ€ Wakely said, shaking his head. The back door banged open.

โ€œHarriet?โ€ Mad called.

โ€œNo honey, itโ€™s me.โ€ The voice was weary. โ€œIโ€™m home early.โ€ Wakely froze. โ€œYour mother?โ€

He wasnโ€™t prepared to meet Elizabeth Zott. It was enough just being in the home where Calvin Evans had once lived, but to suddenly meet the woman heโ€™d failed to console at Evansโ€™s funeral? The famous atheist TV show host? The person recently gracing the cover ofย Life? No. He had to leave immediatelyโ€”now, before she saw a grown man alone with her young daughter in an otherwise empty house. My god! What had he been thinking? Could this look any worse?

โ€œBye,โ€ he hissed to Mad, turning to the front door. But before he could open the door, Six-Thirty trotted to his side.

Wakely!

โ€œMad?โ€ Elizabeth called as she dropped her bags in the lab and wandered into the living room. โ€œWhereโ€™sโ€”โ€ She stopped. โ€œOh.โ€ She frowned, surprised to see a man wearing a clerical collar gripping her front doorknob.

โ€œHi, Mommy,โ€ Madeline said, attempting to sound casual. โ€œThis is Wakely. Heโ€™s a friend of mine.โ€

โ€œReverendย Wakely,โ€ Wakely said, reluctantly letting go of the knob as he extended his hand. โ€œFirst Presbyterian. Iโ€™m so very sorry to disturb you, Mrs. Zott,โ€ he said in a rush. โ€œSo, so very sorry. Iโ€™m sure youโ€™re tired after your long day, Madeline and I met at the library a while back, and sheโ€™s right, weโ€™re friends, weโ€™reโ€” I was just leaving.โ€

โ€œWakely helped me with the family tree.โ€

โ€œTerrible assignment,โ€ he said. โ€œCompletely wrongheaded. I very much oppose homework assignments that tread on private family businessโ€”but no, I really didnโ€™t help at all. I wish Iย couldย have helped. Calvin Evans was a huge influence in my lifeโ€”his workโ€”well, it may sound odd seeing the line of work Iโ€™m in, but I was an admirer, a fan, even; Evans and I were actuallyโ€”โ€ He stopped. โ€œAgain, Iโ€™m so very sorry for your lossโ€”Iโ€™m sure it hasnโ€™t beenโ€”โ€

Wakely could hear himself running on like a swollen river. The more he babbled the more Elizabeth Zott looked at him in a way that scared him.

โ€œWhereโ€™s Harriet?โ€ she asked, turning to Madeline. โ€œErrands.โ€

From the television, Elizabeth Zott said, โ€œI have time to take a question or two.โ€

โ€œAre you really a chemist?โ€ someone asked. โ€œBecauseย Lifeย magazine saidโ€”โ€

โ€œYes,ย I am,โ€ she barked. โ€œDoes anyone have a real question?โ€

From her living room, Elizabeth looked panicked. โ€œShut this off now,โ€ she said. But before she could reach the dial, a woman from the studio audience pried, โ€œIsnโ€™t it true that your daughter is illegitimate?โ€

Wakely took two steps toward the television and snapped it off himself. โ€œIgnore that, Mad,โ€ he said. โ€œThe world is full of ignorance.โ€ Then he glanced around as if he wanted to make sure he left nothing behind and said, โ€œI am so very sorry to have disturbed.โ€ But as he placed his hand on the front doorknob again, Elizabeth Zott laid a hand on his sleeve.

โ€œReverend Wakely,โ€ she said in the saddest voice heโ€™d ever heard. โ€œWeโ€™ve met before.โ€

โ€”

โ€œYou never told me that,โ€ Madeline said as she reached for a second brownie. โ€œWhy didnโ€™t you tell me you were at my dadโ€™s funeral?โ€

โ€œBecause,โ€ he said, โ€œI was a bit player, thatโ€™s all. I very much admired your dad, but it doesnโ€™t mean I knew him. I wanted to helpโ€” I wanted to find the right words to help your mom with her loss, but I failed. Iโ€™d never met your dad, you understandโ€”but I felt like I understood him. That probably sounds pompous,โ€ he said, turning to Elizabeth. โ€œIโ€™m sorry.โ€

Throughout dinner, Elizabeth had said very little, but Wakelyโ€™s confession seemed to touch her in some distant way. She nodded.

โ€œMad,โ€ she said. โ€œIllegitimate means that you were a child born out of wedlock. It means your dad and I werenโ€™t married.โ€

โ€œI know what it means,โ€ she said. โ€œI just donโ€™t know why itโ€™s a big deal.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s only a big deal to the very stupid,โ€ Wakely interjected. โ€œI talk with the stupid all day long, I know the territory. As a minister, I had hoped to

put a dent in that type of stupidityโ€”to make people see their actions cause such needlessโ€ฆanyway, your mother is absolutely correct when she was quoted in the article saying our society is based largely on myth, that our culture, religion, and politics have a way of distorting the truth. Illegitimacy is but one of those myths. Pay no attention to that word or anyone who uses it.โ€

Elizabeth looked up, surprised. โ€œThat didnโ€™t make it into theย Life

article.โ€

โ€œWhat didnโ€™t?โ€

โ€œThat part about myth. About the distortion of truth.โ€

It was his turn to look surprised. โ€œRight, not inย Life.ย But in Rothโ€™s new

โ€”โ€ He looked at Mad, as if just now remembering why heโ€™d stopped by. โ€œOh dear god.โ€ He bent down and retrieved an unsealed manila envelope from his satchel and laid it in front of Elizabeth. Three words were written across the front:ย Elizabeth Zott. PRIVATE.

โ€œMom,โ€ Mad said quickly. โ€œMr. Roth came by a few days ago. I didnโ€™t answer the door because Iโ€™m not supposed to, but also because it was Roth, and Harriet says Roth is Public Enemy Number One.โ€ She paused, hanging her head. โ€œI read hisย Lifeย article,โ€ she confessed. โ€œI know you told me not to, but I did and it was awful. Also, I donโ€™t know how Roth got my family tree, but he did and itโ€™s my fault, andโ€”โ€ Tears rolled down her cheeks.

โ€œHoney,โ€ Elizabeth said, her voice dropping as she drew the child onto her lap. โ€œNo, of course itโ€™s not your fault; none of this is your fault. You didnโ€™t do anything wrong.โ€

โ€œOh yes I did,โ€ Mad choked as her mother stroked her hair. โ€œThat,โ€ she said, pointing to the manila envelope Wakely had placed on the table, โ€œthatโ€™s from Roth. He left it on the doorstep and I opened it. And even though it said private, I read it. And then I took it to Wakely.โ€

โ€œBut Mad, why would youโ€”?โ€ She stopped and looked at Wakely, alarmed. โ€œWait. You read it, too?โ€

โ€œI wasnโ€™t in when Mad dropped by,โ€ Wakely explained, โ€œbut my typist told me sheโ€™d been there and Mad was very upset. So I confessโ€” I also read the article. Actually, so did my typistโ€”itโ€™s quiteโ€”โ€

โ€œMy god!โ€ Elizabeth exploded. โ€œWhat is wrong with you people? Does the word โ€˜privateโ€™ mean nothing anymore?โ€ She snatched the envelope off the table.

โ€œBut Mad,โ€ Wakely said, ignoring Elizabethโ€™s ire, โ€œwhy did it upset you so? At least Mr. Roth is trying to make it right. At least he wrote the truth.โ€

โ€œWhat do you mean byย truth?โ€ Elizabeth said. โ€œThat man wouldnโ€™t know how toโ€”โ€ But as she reached into the envelope and withdrew the contents, she stopped. โ€œWhy Their Minds Matterโ€ read the headline of the new piece.

It was an article mock-upโ€”not yet published. Under the headline was a photograph of Elizabeth in her home lab, a goggled Six-Thirty by her side. Surrounding her, a photographic border of other women scientists from around the world in their labs. โ€œThe Bias of Science,โ€ read the subhead, โ€œand What These Women Are Doing About It.โ€

A note was clipped to the top.

Sorry, Zott. Quitย Life.ย Still trying to get the truth out, not that anyone wants it. Been rejected from ten scientific publications so far. Off to cover a developing story in a place called Vietnam. Yours, FR.

โ€”

As Elizabeth read the new piece, she held her breath. It was all there: her goals, her experiments. And these other women and their workโ€”she felt fortified by their battles, inspired by their progress.

Madeline, however, was crying.

โ€œHoney,โ€ Elizabeth said. โ€œI donโ€™t understand. Why did this upset you? Mr. Roth did a good job. Itโ€™s a good article. Iโ€™m not mad at you; Iโ€™m glad you read it. He wrote something truthful about me and these other women and I very much hope this gets published. Somewhere.โ€ She looked at his note again. Rejected by science magazines ten times already? Really?

โ€œI know,โ€ Madeline said, swiping her hand under her nose, โ€œbut thatโ€™s why Iโ€™m sad, Mom. Because you belong in a lab. But instead you make dinner on TV andโ€ฆandโ€ฆand itโ€™s because ofย me.โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ Elizabeth said gently. โ€œNot true. Every parent has to earn a living.

Itโ€™s part of being an adult.โ€

โ€œBut youโ€™re not in a lab specifically because ofย meโ€”โ€ โ€œAgain, not trueโ€”โ€

โ€œYes, it is. Wakelyโ€™s typist told me.โ€ Elizabethโ€™s mouth dropped open.

โ€œJesus Christ,โ€ Wakely said, covering his face with his hands. โ€œWhat?โ€ Elizabeth said. โ€œWho is this typist of yours?โ€

โ€œI think you might know her,โ€ Wakely said.

โ€œListen to me, Mad,โ€ Elizabeth said. โ€œVery closely. Iโ€™m still a chemist.

A chemist on television.โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ Mad said sadly. โ€œYouโ€™re not.โ€

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