The Wednesday after I moved out of Danteโs house, I chartered a flight to Boston. According to my mom, whom Iโd called under the guise of discussing wedding arrangements, my father was
already back home.
Iโd spent the plane ride rehearsing what I would say. But as I sat across from him in his office, listening to the clock tick and the shallow cadence of my breaths, I realized no amount of rehearsal couldโve prepared me for confronting my father.
Silence stretched between us for another minute before he leaned back and raised a bushy, gray-tipped brow. โWhatโs the emergency, Vivian? I assume you have something important youโd like to discuss if you showed up unannounced like this.โ
He was the one who had something to apologize for, but his stern voice sent a knee-jerk spiral of shame through me. It was the same voice heโd used whenever I received anything less than a perfect test score. I tried not to let it affect me, but it was hard to overcome decades of conditioning.
โYes, I do.โ I lifted my chin and straightened my shoulders, trying to summon the fire from two days ago. All I managed were a few puffs of smoke.
It was much easier to rant at my father in my head than in real life.
Part of the reason was how exhausted he looked. Heavy bags hung beneath his eyes while lines of worry formed deep crags and crevices across his face.
News articles had started popping up about trouble at Lau Jewels. Nothing major yet, just a few whispers here and there, but they were a sign of the storm to come. The office buzzed with nervous energy, and stock values had dipped.
An unreasonable pang of guilt pierced my gut.
My father was responsible for this mess. Iย shouldnโtย feel guilty for calling him out on it, no matter how tired or stressed he was.
โWell?โ he said impatiently. โI already pushed back a meeting for this. Iโm not going to postpone it again. If you donโt have anything to say now, weโll discuss it over dinโโ
โDid you blackmail Dante into marrying me?โ I blurted out the question before I lost my nerve.
My heart slammed against my ribcage as my fatherโs expression hardened into an unreadable mold.
The clock continued its deafening march toward the half hour.
โI overheard you. In Danteโs office.โ I clutched the purse in my lap for support. I wasnโt wearing tweed or neutrals today. Instead, Iโd opted for a custom-tailored silk sheath and an extra coat of red lipstick for confidence.ย I shouldโve put on two extra coats.
โIf you overheard, then why waste my time by asking?โ My fatherโs tone was as indecipherable as his face.
An ember of anger sparked to life.
โBecause I want you to confirm it! Blackmail isย illegal,ย Father, not to mention morally wrong. How could you do that?โ I forced air past my tight chest. โAm I so undesirable you had toย forceย someone into marrying me?โ
โDonโt be dramatic,โ he snapped. โIt wasnโtย anyone. It was Dante Russo. Do you know the doors marrying a Russo would open? Even with
our wealth and your sisterโs marriage, some people look down on us. Theyโll invite us to their parties, and theyโll take our money for fundraisers, but they whisper behind our backs, Vivian. They think weโre not good enough. Marriage to Dante wouldโve shut those whispers down immediately.โ
โYou blackmailed someone because of a fewย whispers?โ I asked disbelievingly.
My father had always been conscious of his appearance and reputation. Even before we were rich, heโd stretch our budget and insist on paying for the table during get-togethers with his friends so he didnโt lose face.
But I never couldโve guessed his need for social validation ran this deep.
โThe opportunity arose, and I took it,โ he said coolly. โHis brother was foolish and reckless. What were the chances Iโd catch him with Gabriele Romanoโs niece during a visit to New York?โ An unrepentant shrug. โFate put him in my path, and I took advantage of it forย ourย family. I wonโt apologize for that.โ
โYou couldโve chosen anyone else.โ It was hard to hear over the buzz in my ears, but I pushed forward. โSomeone who wouldโveย willinglyย agreed to an arranged marriage.โ
โSomeone who wouldโve willingly agreed wouldnโt have been good enough.โ
โDo you hear yourself?โ The embers fanned into flames. My fury came roaring back, so hot and bright it blurred my fatherโs face. โThese are peopleโsย lives, not toys you can bend and manipulate. What if the photos leaked and Danteโs brother got killed? What ifย youย got killed for holding onto the evidence? How could you be soโฆโย Cruel. Callous. Morally corrupt. โShort-sighted? Itโs notโโ
โDonโt raise your voice at me!โ My father slammed his hands on the desk so hard the items on it rattled. โI am your father. You doย notย speak to
me this way.โ
My heart threatened to explode from my chest. โThe father I knew wouldโve never done this.โ
The silence was so acute you could hear a moth flap its wings.
My father straightened and leaned back again. His gaze bore into me.
โYou only have the luxury of caring about morals because ofย me. I do what I have to do to make sure our family is protected and theย bestย it can be. You and your sister grew up sheltered, Vivian. You have no idea what it took for me to get to where I am today because I shielded you from the ugly truth. The number of people who laughed in my face and stabbed me in the backโฆit would make you sick. You think the world is rose-colored when itโs gray at best.โ
โProtecting our family doesnโt mean destroying someone elseโs. We donโt stoop that low, Father. Itโs not who we are.โ
The briefest shadow of remorse passed through his eyes before disappearing. โIโm the head of the family,โ he said, his tone final. โWe are who I say we are.โ
The words touched my skin, cold and unfeeling. A shiver skated down my spine.
โAnd my relationship with Dante?โ The clasp of my purse dug into my palm. โDid you not think how your actions would affect me? Thereโs a difference between an arranged marriage and a forced one. I wouldโve had to spend my life with someone who resented me simply because you want his name in our family tree.โ
โDonโt act like a martyr,โ my father said. โItโs unbecoming. Your sister never complained about being married to Gunnar, andย sheย had to move to another country.โ
โShe doesnโt complain becauseย they actually love each other.โ
He continued like I hadnโt spoken. โThere are worse things than being a billionaireโs wife. Youโre young and charming. You wouldโve worn Dante
down eventually. In fact, he already seemed quite smitten with you over the holidays.โ
โWell, youโre wrong,โ I said flatly. โItโs over, Father. I moved out of Danteโs house. Weโre not getting married. Andโฆโ I glanced out the window onto the main office floor. โThe company isnโt doing well.โ
Because you provoked someone you shouldnโt have.
The words sat unspoken between us.
My fatherโs jaw tightened. He hated being reminded things were less than perfect under his watch.
โThe company will be fine.ย Weโre merely experiencing a hiccup.โ โIt sounds like more than a hiccup.โ
He stared at me, his ire melting into something more calculating. โPerhaps youโre right,โ he said. โIt might be more than a hiccup, in which case we could use Danteโs help. Heโs upset now, but he has a soft spot for you. Convince him toโฆassist.โ
Cold sank into my bones. โI told you, weย broke up.ย He hates us. He doesnโt have a soft spot for me or anyone else in the family.โ
โThatโs not true. I saw the way he looked at you when your mother and I visited. Even if you broke up, Iโm sure you could make him see reason if you tried hard enough.โ
The cold spread to the pit of my stomach.
I stared at my father, taking in his perfectly gelled hair, expensive suit, and flashy watch. It was like facing an actor pretending to be Francis Lau instead of the man himself.
How had he morphed from the slightly corny but well-meaning parent of my childhood into the person before me?
Cold. Devious. Obsessed with money and status and determined to gain
โand keepโboth at any cost.
He looked the same, but I barely recognized him.
โI wonโt.โ My voice wavered, but my words were firm. โThis isย your
mess, Father. I canโt help you.โ
I hated how my mother and sister would be affected should Lau Jewels capsize, but I couldnโt play pawn and possession for my father anymore. Plus, they each had their own nest eggs; they would be fine, financially speaking.
Iโd turned the other cheek for too long. Been too willing to go along with whatever my parents told me to do because it was easier than rocking the boat and disappointing them. For all his faults, I loved my father and my family. I didnโt want to hurt them.
But I didnโt realize until now that not speaking up when they crossed the line would hurt us more in the long run than anything else.
Disbelief filled the grooves of my fatherโs face.
โYouโre choosing yourย ex-fiance over your family? Is this how we raised you?โ he demanded. โTo be so disrespectful andย disobedient?โ He spat the word out like a curse.
โDisobedient?โ Indignation blew through me like a sudden gale, sweeping aside any remnants of guilt. โIโve doneย everythingย youโve asked of me! I went to the โrightโ college, broke up with Heath, and played the role of perfect society daughter. I even agreed to marry a man I barely knew because it would makeย youย happy. But Iโm done living my life for you.โ Emotion thickened my voice. โItโsย myย life, Father. Not yours. And the same way you canโt make decisions for me any longerโฆI canโt make excuses for you. Not anymore.โ
This time, the silence was so heavy it pressed down on me like a lead blanket.
โOf course, you are free to make your own decisions,โ my father finally said, his voice terrifyingly calm. โBut I want you to know this, Vivian. If you walk out of this office today without making amends for yourย insolence,ย you are no longer my daughter. Or a Lau.โ
His ultimatum barreled into me with the force of a runaway train, skewering my chest with a bayonet and filling my ears with the roar of blood.
The temperature dropped into subzero territory as we stared at each other, his cold fury waging silent battle with my pained determination.
There it was.
The invisible monster Iโd feared since childhood, laid out like a gruesome corpse of the relationship we used to have.
I could cover it with a blanket and look away, or I could stand my ground and face it head-on.
I rose, my blood electric with fear and adrenaline as my fatherโs composure slipped the tiniest fraction.
Heโd expected me to back down.
Iโm sorry.ย The apology almost fell off my tongue through force of habit before I remembered I didnโt have anything to apologize for.
I wanted to stay a minute longer, to memorize his face and mourn something thatโd died a long time ago.
Instead, I turned and walked out.
Donโt cry. Donโt cry. Donโt cry.
My father had disowned me.
My father had disowned me, and I hadnโt tried to stop him because the price was too high.
Tears crowded my throat, but I forced them back even as a crushing sense of loneliness invaded me.
In the space of a week, Iโd lost my family and Iโd lost Dante. The only thing I had left was myself.
And for now, that would have to be enough.