I left Paris on a blissful high.
Delicious food. Beautiful clothes. Amazing sex. Iโd worked during my time there, but itโd felt like more of a vacation than some
of my actual vacations.
Plus, the Legacy Ball planning wasย finallyย running smoothly, wedding prep was on track, and my relationship with Dante was the best itโd ever been.
Life was good.
โIt was awful,โ Sloane said as we exited the movie theater. โWhat was with the airplane scene? And theย love confession. I would throw up if anyone compared me to the planet Venus, especially after knowing me for only three weeks. How could anyone possibly fall in love in three weeks?โ
Isabella and I traded amused glances. Weโd had to postpone our movie night due to my Paris trip, but weโd finally watched the rom-com Sloane had been hounding us about.
As expected, she hated it.
โTime works differently in fiction,โ I said. โYou know you can stop watching these movies any time, right?โ
โI hate-watch them, Vivian. Itโs therapeutic.โ โMmhmm.โ
I caught Isabellaโs eye again, and we both turned away so Sloane couldnโt see our smiles.
โAnyway, I have to go home and feed The Fish before he dies on me.โ Sloane sounded like the task was equivalent to scrubbing the subway tunnels clean with a toothbrush. โI have enough on my plate without having to deal with a dead animal.โ
Sheโd kept the goldfish her apartmentโs previous tenant left behind, but she refused to give him a proper name since its presence in her life was โtemporary.โ
Itโd been over a year.
Isabella and I knew better than to mention it, though, so we simply bid her good night and parted ways.
I stopped by Danteโs favorite Thai place on the way home. Greta was on her annual leave in Italy, so we were on our own, food-wise, for the next few weeks.
โIs Dante home yet?โ I asked Edward when I returned to the penthouse. โYes, maโam. Heโs in his office.โ
โGreat. Thank you.โ Iโd tried to get Edward to call me by my first name when I first moved in, but I gave up after two months.
I knocked on Danteโs office door and waited for his โCome inโ before I entered.
He sat behind his desk, his brow furrowed as he stared at something on his monitor. He mustโve just gotten home since he still wore his office suit.
โHey.โ I placed the food on the table and kissed him on the cheek. โItโs after work hours. Youโre supposed to be relaxing.โ
โItโs not after work hours in Asia.โ He pushed back from his desk and rubbed his temple. He eyed the takeout bag on the desk. โWhatโs this?
โDinner.โ I retrieved the assorted plastic containers, napkins, and utensils. โFrom that Thai place you like so much on East 78th. I wasnโt sure
what you were in the mood for, so I got curry puffs, basil stir fry,ย andโฆโ I opened the last container with a flourish. โTheir signature duck salad.โ
Dante loved that duck salad. One time, he pushed back a call with the editor-in-chief ofย Mode de Vieย just so he could eat it while it was still hot.
He stared at it, his expression inscrutable.
โThank you, but Iโm not hungry.โ He turned back to his computer. โI really have to get this done in the next hour. Can you close the door on your way out?โ
My smile melted at his brusque tone.
Heโd been acting a little distant since we returned to New York two days ago, but tonight was the first time heโd been so blatantly dismissive.
โOkay.โ I tried to keep my voice upbeat. โBut you still have to eat. Iโll leave this here in case you get hungry later.โ I paused, then added, โHowโs work going? Overall, I mean.โ
He was under a lot of stress with various supply chain issues and the upcoming Cannes Film Festival, of which the Russo Group was a sponsor. I couldnโt blame him for being a bit short-tempered.
โFine.โ He didnโt look away from his screen.
Tension lined his stiff shoulders and shadowed his features. He looked like a completely different person from the teasing, playful Dante in Paris.
โIf anythingโs wrong, you can talk to me about it,โ I said softly. โYou know that, right?โ
Danteโs throat worked with a hard swallow.
When the silence stretched without any sign of a break, I gathered my portion of the dinner and ate it alone in the dining room.
The food smelled delicious, but when I swallowed it, it tasted like cardboard.
Danteโs broodiness didnโt improve over the next week.
Maybe it was work. Maybe it was something else. Whatever it was, it transformed him back into the cold, closed-off version of himself that made me want to tear my hair out.
The change in his attitude before and after Paris was so jarring I felt like weโd stumbled into a time portal and become stranded in the early days of our engagement.
He didnโt visit me for lunch, he was always โbusyโ during dinner, and he didnโt come to bed until long after I was asleep. When I woke up, he was already gone. We talked almost less than we had sex, which was never.
I tried to be understanding because everyone had their dark periods, but by the time the following Thursday rolled around, my patience had edged into the red zone.
The straw that broke the camelโs back came that evening, when I returned home from work to find Dante in the kitchen with Greta. Sheโd just gotten back from visiting her family in Naples, or Napoli, as she called it in Italian. However, she was already hard at work againโthe marble island and counters groaned beneath the weight of various herbs, sauces, fish, and meats.
The smell beckoned me from the foyer, but when I entered the room, both she and Dante fell silent.
โGood evening, Miss Lau,โ Greta said. When we were alone, she called me Vivian, but around other people, I was always Miss Lau.
โGood evening.โ I scanned the banquet-worthy prep. โAre we having a party I donโt know about? This seems like a lot of food for two people.โ
โIt is,โ she said after a brief pause. She frowned and flicked a glance at a stone-faced Dante before busying herself with the food.
My heart accelerated. โAreย we having a party?โ
โOf course not,โ Dante said when Greta remained silent. He didnโt give me a chance to relax before he added, โChristian and his girlfriend are
coming over for dinner tonight. Theyโre in town for a few days.โ โTonight?โ I glanced at the clock. โDinner is in less than three hours!โ โWhich is why I came home early.โ
Breathe. Do not yell. Do not throw the bowl of tomatoes at his head.
โWere you going to tell me weโre expecting guests, or was this supposed to be a surprise?โ My fingers strangled the strap of my bag. โOr am I not invited to the meal altogether?โ
Greta chopped faster, her eyes fixed firmly on the garlic. โDonโt be ridiculous,โ Dante said.
Ridiculous?ย Ridiculous?
My patience snapped clean in half.
Iโd tried my best to be sympathetic, but I was sick of him treating me like a stranger he was forced to share a house with. After the magic of Paris and the progress weโd made over the past few months, our relationship had suddenly regressed to where itโd been the summer of last year.
Then, itโd been understandable.
Now, after all weโd shared? It was unacceptable.
โWhich part is ridiculous?โ I demanded. โThe part where I ask my fiancรฉ for the common courtesy of informing me when we have guests over toย ourย house? Or the part where weโve grown so far apart in the space of one week that I wouldnโt be surprised if youย didย exclude me? Iโd like to know, because Iโm damn well not the one being unreasonable here!โ
Gretaโs knife hovered, suspended, over the cutting board while she gaped at me with wide eyes.
It was the first time Iโd raised my voice in front of her since I moved in and only the fourth time Iโd raised my voice, ever. The first had been when my sister โborrowedโ and lost one of my favorite signed books in high school. The second had been when my parents forced me to break up with Heath, and the third had been the night Dante found Heath in the apartment.
Danteโs skin stretched taut over his cheekbones.
The tension was so stifling it took on a life of its own, crawling into my lungs and sinking into my skin. The air-conditioned room blazed like we were in the middle of the desert at high noon.
โI just remembered Iโm expecting a grocery delivery soon,โ Greta said. โLet me check where they are.โ
She dropped her knife and bolted faster than an Olympian competing for gold.
Normally, I wouldโve been embarrassed about making a scene, but I was too fired up to care.
โItโs a dinner,โ Dante growled. โChristian didnโt tell me heโd be in town until yesterday. Youโre making a big deal out of nothing.โ
โThen you couldโve told me he was coming over yesterday!โ My voice rose again before I forced more oxygen through my nose. โItโs not about the dinner, Dante. Itโs about yourย refusalย to communicate like a normal person. I thought we were past this.โ Emotion clogged my throat. โWe promised we wouldnโt do this. Act like strangers. Shut down whenever things got hard. Weโre supposed to be partners.โ
Dante rubbed a hand over his face. When it fell away, I glimpsed the conflict in his eyesโremorse and guilt at war with frustration and something else that chilled the breath in my lungs.
โThere are some things youโre better off not knowing,ย mia cara.โ The endearment Iโd initially despised and grown to love barely touched my skin before it dissolved. Soft yet rough, like the churn of waves in a raging storm.
The wistful notes lingered for an extra beat before his face shut down again.
โIโll see you at dinner.โ
He walked out, leaving me with a pit in my stomach and the unshakeable sense that our relationship had somehow been fundamentally altered.