Iย was fucked, both literally and figuratively.
If Isabella had dominated my thoughts before we had s*x, sheโd utterly consumed them after. Itโd been a week since I took her to the Barber, and not a minute had passed without the memory of her taste haunting me.
I rubbed a hand over my mouth and tried to focus on my motherโs closing speech. It was the last day of the companyโs annual leadership retreat, which took place in our Manhattan office this year. High-level executives had flown in from all over the world for four days of seminars, workshops, and networking, all of which Iโd breezed through.
I may have been distracted, but I could still outsell, outsmart, and outperform every other member of the Young Corporation with my eyes closed.
My phone buzzed with a new text.
โโฆlean into your individual strengths as leaders to build an even bigger, better company that reflects the direction of the marketโฆโ My motherโs voice faded in and out as I checked my messages.
Isabella:ย are you alone right now?
A small smile curved my lips.
Me:ย No. Iโm at the company retreat.
I hadnโt seen her since the retreat started, but we texted every day. Our conversations consisted mostly of memes and funny videos (sent by her), interesting articles and food recommendations (sent by me), and flirtatious
subtext (sent by both of us). Normally, I wasnโt a huge fan of long text conversations because they inevitably lost their point, if there was one in the first place, but I looked forward to her messages with embarrassing anticipation.
Isabella:ย perfect. then i have a picture for you;)
A photo popped up on-screen. I instinctively swiped my phone off the table, but to my relief and disappointment, it wasnโt anything scandalous.
Isabella lounged on the couch in the libraryโs secret room, her cheeks dimpled with a mischievous grin and her hair fanning around her in a spray of amethyst-tinted silk. Her free hand clutched a bottle of Mexican Coke.
Isabella:ย behold, a future bestselling author working hard
My smile ticked up another inch.
Me:ย I see that. Your hands must be tired from typing on your invisible keyboard.
Isabella:ย first of all, brainstorming is working too, judgy mcjudge
Isabella:ย second of all, iโve come up with an incredibly detailed s*x scene that i was going to tell you about
Isabella:ย but since youโre being so rude, iโll keep it to myself
Heat raced to my groin, but I marshaled my emotions into a neutral expression.
Me:ย Perhaps you should spend an equal amount of time on proper punctuation and capitalization. Iโve heard theyโre necessary skills for writersโฆ
Isabella:ย โฆ
Isabella:ย how dare you
Isabella:ย im texting you not writing a college thesisย Isabella:ย and yes i removed all the punctuation on purposeย Isabella:ย i hope it triggers you ๐
A laugh rustled my throat, the soft noise unnaturally loud in the silence.
The meeting. Fuck.
I looked up to find the rest of the room staring at me. My mother wore a disapproving frown, which meant I would get an earful later.
โIs there something youโd like to share?โ Tobias drawled from his kiss- ass seat next to her. โAn exciting new deal, perhaps? Things finally work out with DigiStream?โ
On his other side, Richard Chu smirked. Typically, board members didnโt attend the leadership retreats, but the CEO voting committee had opted in
this year so they could โbetter evaluate their options.โ
Richardโs presence was the only reason Tobias was bold enough to call me out. The little sleaze hid behind his board benefactor like a child hiding behind his motherโs skirts. It was probably why Richard liked him so much; he knew he could control him.
โWeโre on track to close soon,โ I said smoothly. โBig deals like DigiStream take time. I understand this is not an area youโre experienced in, but thatโs what these retreats are for. Learning.โ
Tobiasโs smirk didnโt budge. โItโs funny you should say that.โ The glint in his eyes sent the first trickle of unease down my spine. His ego was so fragile he reacted to the slightest insult, but heโd absorbed my public barb without batting an eye. โYou may not have big news today, but I do.โ He ran a hand over his tie, his tacky gold watch gleaming smugly beneath the lights. โIโm happy to announce that, after months of closed-door negotiations, weโve reached a deal with Black Bear Entertainment.โ
The words swirled in the air for a stunned moment before the table erupted with noise. Only my mother, one other CEO candidate, and I remained silent.
Black Bear Entertainment was one of the most prolific entertainment companies in the world. Its acquisition would add a huge, diverse slate of much-needed content to our subscription video service, which was historically one of the companyโs weakest divisions. Weโd been trying to shore it up for years.
As the current CEO, my mother mustโve already known about the deal. I wasnโt worried about it overshadowing DigiStream, which would be worth at least three times more once it closed, but Tobias beating me to a flashy announcement galled the hell out of me. Iโd heard inklings he was pursuing Black Bear; I hadnโt expected him to succeed.
I slid a glance at the other silent candidate. Paxton James lounged next to Richard with an unreadable expression. Besides me, the executive vice president of business development was the youngest person in the room. He was sharp, witty, and innovative. Of all the candidates, I liked him the most, though I knew better than to underestimate him the way I had Tobias. He acted like he didnโt want the CEO position half the time, but he hadnโt climbed the ranks so quickly without a healthy dose of ambition.
He was likely lying low and evaluating what the Black Bear bombshell meant for his odds in the vote.
I studied the other candidates for their reaction to Tobiasโs news.
Laura Nguyen, our Chief Communications Officer, sat rigid-backed, her disdain barely concealed by a tight smile. Sheโd skyrocketed the Young Corporationโs public profile over the past five years, and she disliked Tobias even more than I did. Proof she had good judgment when it came to pressย andย people.
Next to her, Russell Burton slunk down in his seat. Heโd served as the companyโs Chief Operating Officer for over a decade. The quiet, unassuming father of two was the type of man who dealt better with systems than people. His candidacy was a formality after so many years of competent service, but judging by how green he turned every time someone brought up the vote, he would rather jab a steak knife in his eye than take on the burden of CEO.
โCongratulations.โ My voice cut through the din. The room fell silent again, and I offered Tobias a courteous smile. โThe acquisition is a great boon for the company. Iโm excited to see where it goes.โ
I didnโt give him the satisfaction of a bigger reaction. There were no benefits to acting petty and jealous. I wasnโt even jealous, merely annoyed.
The meeting officially adjourned. Low chatter and the scratch of metal against carpet filled the room as everyone rushed out for happy hour. The post-retreat gathering was optional, but no one ever missed the opportunity to hobnob.
Weโd reserved the bar down the street, and for the next two hours, I circulated the room while trying not to think about Isabella. Iโd much rather spend the evening with her, but I had to put in my face time.
Paxton sidled up to me during a lull and cut straight to the chase. โYou think Black Bear will move the needle for Tobias?โ
โYes, but not enough.โ
โDonโt write him off so easily. Heโs a tricky bastard.โ
I slid a glance at my companion. Beneath that easygoing demeanor were the instincts of a shark. โReminds me of someone else I know.โ
Paxton grinned, not bothering to deny it. โIโm here for the ride. EVP of a Fortune 500 company before the age of thirty-five? Not bad for a kid from Nebraska. CEO would be nice, but Iโm not banking on it. That being saidโฆโ He nodded at where Tobias was holding court with Richard and two other voting committee members. โI have a low tolerance for that particular brand of bullshit. If it canโt be me, Iโd much rather it be you.โ
I examined him over my glass. โYou want an alliance.โ
โAn agreement,โ he corrected. โAlliance sounds so formal. But Iโll be straight with you. Two electors are leaning my way right now. It might not sound like a lot, but in the event of a tie, every additional vote counts. I can convince them to swing their vote to you.โ
โYouโll do this out of the goodness of your heart, I presume,โ I said dryly.
โThat, and the promise of a promotion,โ Paxton said without missing a beat. โPresident of Advertising Sales when Sullivan retires. He already has one foot out the door, and you know I have the chops for it.โ
โGetting ahead of yourself, arenโt you? Sullivan has a good five years left in the company.โ
Paxton gave me a droll look.
Fair enough. Sullivan was more checked out than a bag of groceries at Citarella. Our advertisers loved him, but I gave him two years tops before he left.
โWeโve talked enough shop this past week,โ I said. โEnjoy the drinks and food tonight. Weโll discuss any business matters later.โ
I left my response purposely vague. I liked Paxton as a person, but I trusted him as far as I could throw him.
โOf course.โ He raised his glass, seemingly unfazed by my lukewarm reception to his proposal. โLooking forward to it.โ
The festivities wound down around nine. The companyโs leadership trickled out one by one until only a handful were left.
Finally. I could make my excuses and leave without seeming rude. Iโd had enough networking to last me for the next year.
โKai.โ My mother stopped me on my way out. โA word.โ I suppressed a sigh.ย So close.
I followed her to a quiet corner of the bar, out of the direct eyesight of the remaining executives.
The professional smile sheโd worn all evening had melted away, leaving lines of tension in its wake.
โDonโt worry,โ I said. โThe Black Bear deal will be nothing compared to DigiStream when it goes through. The board knows that.โ
She arched an elegant dark brow. With her smooth skin and rich black hair, courtesy of Londonโs top esthetician and colorist, she could pass for someone in her late thirties instead of late fifties. โWillย it go through?โ
โOf course,โ I said, insulted sheโd even ask. โWhen have I ever failed?โ
โWord has it Mishra isnโt budging and Whidby is at risk of being permanently removed as CEO. If I hear these things, so does the board. They arenโt pleased.โ
My shoulders tensed. โI know. I have contingencies for all of those scenarios.โ
โIโm sure you do, but thatโs not enough.โ My mother pursed her lips. โThis isnโt just about deals, Kai. CEO elections arenโt as clear-cut as profit and loss statements.โ
โIโm aware.โ
โI donโt think you are.โ Her voice lowered. โGetting voted in isnโt about merit. Itโs about politics. Your last name is both an advantage and a detriment. Some board members favor you because youโre a Young and they value stability. But others resent you for that very reason. Theyโre using the DigiStream delay and yourโฆmodern views regarding the future of the company to advocate for fresh blood. That faction is growing louder by the day.โ
A chill swept through the air and sank into my bones. โWhat are you trying to say?โ
โIโm saying you need to stop coasting on your name and record and start placating some of your naysayers, or you could very well lose the vote.โ
The wordย loseย tore through me like a fanged beast.
History remembered the winners. The losers faded into obscurity, their names lost over time like statues rubbed smooth by too many hands. Dead in every way, as if theyโd never existed.
Pressure suffocated my chest.
โIโm not going to lose,โ I said, my voice colder than intended. โI never do.โ
โMake sure you donโt.โ My mother didnโt look entirely convinced. โIโve already said more than I should. Iโm supposed to be neutral, but this is our family name on the line. Imagine what people will say if a Young loses the CEO position of Young Corporation. Weโll never recover from the shame.โ
She fixed me with the same no-bullshit stare that had enemies and allies alike trembling before her. โCampaign for the job, Kai. Do what it takes to make them happy. I know you think itโs beneath you, but donโt let your pride get in the way of winning. Not unless you want Tobias giving you orders from the corner office.โ
My stomach revolted.
I hated the wordย campaignย almost as much as the wordย lose. It was soโฆ undignified. The fake smiles, the ass-kissing, the platitudes both parties knew but didnโt acknowledge as lies.
But my mother knew exactly which buttons to push; I would rather swallow a vial of poison than take a single order from Tobias Foster.
The frigid night air cooled my anger when I stepped outside. Still, unease roiled beneath my skin, and returning home to my apartment didnโt hold the same appeal it usually did.
I took out my phone and opened my latest message thread.
Me:ย Are you still at Valhalla?
I shouldโve been tapped out on socializing, but talking to Isabella never drained me the way talking to other people did.
Isabella:ย Nope, I just got homeย Isabella:ย I donโt have a shift tonightโฆย The implied invitation was clear.
Me:ย Iโll be there in twenty minutes