Iย took Clarissa to the Valhalla Clubโs annual fall gala for our first date. It was a risky move, considering how big the event was, but I couldnโt put it off any longer. The messages from my mother piled up by the day, and I needed to take my mind off a certain brunette with a penchant for impropriety and a smile thatโd lodged itself into my consciousness.
So far, it wasnโt working.
โThis branch is so different from the London chapter.โ Clarissa swept her eyes around the gilded ballroom. Last yearโs gala theme focused on the Roaring Twenties; this yearโs paid homage to ancient Rome, complete with towering marble columns, a miniature Colosseum, and free-flowing wine. โOur parties are lessโฆostentatious.โ
โNew York is Valhallaโs flagship. They like to show it off.โ I glanced at the far side of the room. A crowd had already formed around the bar, blocking my view of whoever was on duty tonight.
Iโd resisted checking whether Isabella was working the gala earlier, but now, I wished Iโd given in to my earlier temptations.
Clarissa was perfectly nice. Unlike our awkward reunion at Monarch, our conversation tonight had flowed easily from our favorite hidden gems in London to the latest world news since I picked her up half an hour ago. She also looked stunning in a pink Roman-style gown and diamonds; more than a few guests had cast admiring glances at her on our way in.
Unfortunately, no matter how hard I tried to focus on Clarissa, my attention remained divided between the woman standing next to me and the woman whoโd taken up residence in my thoughts.
My jaw tightened at the memory of Victorโs sleazy hands touching Isabella. I wasnโt one for violence outside the boxing ring, but seeing him grab her had incited a dark, burning rage thatโd made me want to tear his arm off and feed it through a wood chipper.
Thankfully, heโd returned to D.C. and wasnโt in attendance tonight, or Iโd be thrown out of Valhalla myself for murdering another club member.
I ran a hand over my mouth and forced my mind elsewhere. It was neither the time nor the place for violent fantasies.
For the next hour, Clarissa and I circulated the room as I introduced her to the other members. Some she already knew. The international jet set was small, and they gathered at the same glittering social events every year: Cannes, the Legacy Ball, the Met Gala, New York and Paris Fashion Week. The list went on.
Dante and Vivian were here, as were the Laurents, the Singhs, and Dominic and his wife Alessandra. Even the Serb made an appearance, though he left after only a few minutes. I was surprised heโd showed at all; the unsmiling, unspeaking tycoon rarely showed his face in public. Heโd joined Valhalla last year, and I hadnโt heard him talk once. I made a valiant effort to avoid the bar, but when Clarissa excused herself to use the restroom, I couldnโt resist a quick look. The crowd had cleared, and I found myself scanning the length of the room for a flash of distinctive purple.
Blonde hair, red hair, silverโฆviolet.
My breath stilled. Isabella stood at the end of the bar, talking to Vivian. High ponytail, sparkling eyes, unfettered grin. Somehow, she made her simple black uniform look better than any of the expensive designer dresses on display tonight.
My feet took me across the room before my brain could protest.
In a rare change of pace, Isabella spotted me before I could overhear her talking about something inappropriateโglitter condoms, perhaps, or a modern reenactment of ancient Roman orgiesโand her voice petered off as I approached.
A strange stab of disappointment pierced my gut.
โHey, Kai.โ Vivian smiled, resplendent in a floor-length aqua gown and diamonds befitting the Lau jewelry heiress. โYou have perfect timing. I was
just about to find Dante. You know him. Canโt leave him alone for too long.โ She slid off her seat. โHave fun. Isa, Iโll see you at Sloaneโs on Thursday.โ
She disappeared into the crowd before Isabella or I could get a word in.
An awkward silence bloomed in her wake. I smoothed a palm over my tie, needing something to do with my hands. My tuxedo was custom- tailored, but it suddenly felt too tight, like it could barely contain the heavy drum of my heartbeat.
Iโd dined with presidents, negotiated with CEOs, and vacationed with royalty, but none had shredded my composure the way Isabella did.
โSo whereโs your date?โ she asked, not looking at me as she worked on a drink.
Whoโright. Clarissa.ย โSheโs in the restroom.โ I recovered quickly from my near misstep. โI figured it would be a good time to check in on you. Make sure youโre not distributing certainโฆparty favors illegally on club grounds.โ
โHa ha.โ Isabella rolled her eyes, but a smile curved her mouth. โWhat did I tell you the other night? Iย knewย you and Corissa would end up dating.โ โHer name is Clarissa, and weโre on a date, not dating. Thereโs a
difference.โ
โYou know what they say. The road to dating is paved with dates.โ Her tone was casual, but I detected an undercurrent of tension.
โJealous?โ I drawled, more pleased by the thought than I shouldโve been.
Dark, amused satisfaction coasted through me at her telling scowl. โHardly. You two are perfect for each other. Youโre both soโฆproper.โ
โYou say that like itโs an insult. Where I come from, propriety is a virtue, not a vice.โ
โYou mean the Rupert Giles school of life?โ Isabella wrinkled her nose. โI can only imagine.โ
I couldnโt contain a grin. โAย Buffyย reference. Why am I not surprised?โ She reminded me a lot of the titular nineties character. Often underestimated because of her looks and stature, but fiercely intelligent with a spine of steel beneath the delicate exterior.
โBecause you know I have taste,โ she said primly. She handed me the drink sheโd been working on. Strawberries. Pink. โTradition.โ
The idea of sharing a tradition with Isabella, even one as silly as a cocktail, pleased me even more than her potential jealousy, but I kept my
voice bland as I took a sip. It was the perfect balance of sweet and tart. โSo weโre on a tradition basis now,โ I drawled. โIโm flattered.โ
โDonโt be. I have traditions with everyone, including my oversexed neighbor and the barista at my local coffee shop.โ Isabellaโs dimples flashed at the quizzical tilt of my brows. โWhenever my neighbor disrupts my sleep with hisย activities, I blast Nickelback and sing along off-key until I kill their mood. Usually takes about ten minutes. I like to think Iโm doing the women a favor because their moans doย notย sound real. Thereโs nothing worse than performing vocally without getting paid in the form of orgasms.โ
A laugh bubbled into my throat even as my blood heated at the sound of the wordย orgasmsย leaving her mouth. โAnd the barista?โ
โHis girlfriend is Filipino. He wants to learn Tagalog for her, so I teach him a new phrase every morning when I come in for my coffee. Heโs getting pretty good.โ
My smile softened at the mental image of Isabella teaching someone random Tagalog phrases at the register. It sounded exactly like something she would do. Beneath all the sass and sarcasm, she had a heart of gold.
โIn that case, Iโm honored to be part of such an illustrious roster.โ I paused. โMinus the oversexed neighbor.โ
โLucky you.โ
Isabellaโs grin kicked my pulse into overdrive. I tried to stop it, but control slipped through my fingers like wisps of smoke.
It always did where she was concerned. โIโm so sorry.โ
The shock of hearing Clarissaโs voice snapped my defenses back into place. I straightened, taking in Clarissaโs flushed cheeks and apologetic expression.
โThis is terribly rude of me, but I have to leave early,โ she said. โAn emergency came up at the gallery. One of our featured artists pulled out of the upcoming exhibition.โ
A shameful breath of relief cooled my lungs. โYou donโt have to explain.
Work comes first.โ
Clarissa glanced at Isabella. Recognition sparked in her eyes, but she didnโt say anything. Instead, she gave me a hesitant smile. โRain check on our date?โ
โOf course,โ I said after the briefest of hesitations.
โThe old work excuse,โ Isabella said after Clarissa disappeared into the crowd. โYou must be a terrible date.โ
I ignored the obvious bait. The truth was, I was tempted to leave early too. Iโd already talked to everyone I wanted to see, and after years of attending similar balls, I was unimpressed with the pageantry. Iโd rather go home and lose myself in a book, exceptโฆ
Iโve been working on it for a while, but Iโm stuckโฆ All I have to do is finish my ownโฆ
How do you know?
My jaw tensed as my conversation with Isabella two weeks ago played on a loop in my mind. Her career aspirations were none of my business, but sheโd looked so lost in that moment, and sheโd sounded so sadโฆ
โWhen does your shift end?โ The question left my mouth of its own accord.
โIn about an hour.โ Isabellaโs brow formed a questioning arch. โWhy?โ
Donโt do it, a voice of reason warned.ย This is a terrible idea. You should not tell her aboutโ
โMeet me at the main staircase after youโre off,โ I said. โI have something to show you.โ
ISABELLA
I had a history of making bad decisions when it came to men, so it was no surprise I showed up at the stairs after my shift. If we got caught, Iโd be in deep shit. Not Kai, of course, since his status protected him from any consequences. But me, a lowly employee? Iโd be tossed off Valhallaโs premises faster than I could sayย double standard.
Still, curiosity was a demanding beast, and it held me firmly in its clutches as we walked up the stairs and down the second-floor hallway.
โYouโre not luring me to a black site where you can chop me into pieces, are you?โ I asked. โBecause thatโs not how Iโd prefer to spend my Saturday night. I have a strong aversion to physical pain.โ
Kai slanted a disbelieving glance at me. โYouโve been doing too much thriller research.โ
โNope, just listening to a lot of true crime podcasts.โ Which I supposed was the same thing. โIt never hurts to be cautious.โ
โI promise weโre not going to a black site. Thatโs reserved for Tuesday nights.โ
โHa ha. Hilarious,โ I grumbled, but I fell silent when we stopped in front of a familiar door.
โThe library.โ Disappointment cut a swath through my nerves. โThatโs it?โ
I liked the library as much as the next person, but after expecting a maze of secret passageways or a fancy hidden room, it was a bit of a letdown.
A small smile touched Kaiโs lips. โHave faith.โ
Valhallaโs library soared two stories to an elaborate cathedral ceiling engraved with the founding familiesโ crests. Rolling ladders and filigreed spiral staircases connected the main floor to the upper level, which bristled with leather-bound books and priceless tchotchkes.
I followed Kai up one of those staircases to the mythology section, where he skimmed his fingers over a shelf of books so old their titles were barely legible. He stopped on a battered copy ofย The Iliad, twisted the gold lion statuette on a nearby table with his other hand, and pulled out the book before reshelving it.
โWhat are youโฆโ
The soft creak of the bookcase swinging open swallowed the rest of my words. My jaw unhinged.
Oh my God.
Plush purple carpet muffled my footsteps as I stepped inside, feeling like Iโd been dropped into the middle of a movie about some rich, eccentric billionaire who enjoyed befuddling his heirs with riddles and secret passageways.
So the surpriseย wasย a hidden room. And not just any hidden room, but the hidden room of my dreams.
A beautiful rolltop desk and chair occupied the right wall, complete with a vintage typewriter and Tiffany glass lamp that drenched the room in a soft amber glow. On the opposite wall, an antique leather trunk served as a table for piles of old magazines and assorted knickknacks. A cozy-looking couch sat in the middle of the room, piled high with cushions and a red cashmere throw.
A dreamy sigh escaped. I usually preferred noise and chaos over peace and quiet, but I could wrap myself in that blanket and stay here forever.
โMy great-grandfather built this room when Valhalla was founded,โ Kai said, closing the door behind us. โHe was the most introverted of the founders, and he wanted a place where he could be alone and no one could find him. Only the managing committee knows it exists, and only my family knows how to open it.โ
โAnd me,โ I said softly, turning to face him. Kai paused. โAnd you.โ
The words sank so deep into my skin my breath couldnโt find its way around them. โArenโt you afraid Iโll tell someone?โ
He leaned against the wall, the picture of casual elegance, his eyes never leaving mine. โWill you?โ
I held his gaze for a moment before giving my head a slow shake. My nerves buzzed like live wires in the rain, scattering sparks of awareness through my body.
Two people. A secret room.
Our presence here seemed painfully intimate, like a pair of star-crossed loversโ last rendezvous or a forbidden glimpse inside someoneโs diary.
A smile ghosted Kaiโs mouth. โThe room isnโt a treasure trove. There are no priceless artifacts or stores of gold here. But if you wanted a quiet place to writeโฆโ
The sparks of awareness melted into a golden, honeyed warmth.
I didnโt work well in silence. My doubts and second-guessing festered in the absence of company, growing claws and fangs that shredded my creativity into ribbons.
But Kaiโs gesture was so thoughtful I didnโt have the heart to tell him, so I simply smiled through the blossoming ache in my chest.
โThank you. This isโฆโ I faltered, unsure how to express the emotions sweeping through me. I couldnโt remember the last time someone had done something so considerate for me without expecting anything in return. Not when it came to my writing, which even my friends sometimes treated as a hobby more than anything else. โThis is amazing.โ
The warmth of his attention settled on my back as I walked through the room, taking in the details, the decor, and the different titles on the shelves. To my surprise, they werenโt limited to the classics. There were childrenโs books, academic texts, romance novels and fantasy doorstoppers. Dostoyevsky and Austen sat next to Chinese classics such asย Journey to the Westย andย Dream of the Red Chamber;ย Neil Gaiman and George R. R.
Martin occupied the shelf below Judy Blume and Beverly Cleary. The eclectic collection spanned an impressive range of cultures, genres, and eras.
โWeโre missing dinosaur erotica,โ Kai said with a completely straight face. โIโll have to remedy that oversight soon. If you have any recommendations, feel free to send them to me.โ
I shot him a narrow-eyed glance. โYou like poking fun at me, donโt you?โ I accused over a bubble of suppressed laughter.
Another ghost of a smile, followed by a wicked gleam that had my pulse skyrocketing.
โDo I look like someone who would do such a thing?โ Kai pushed off the wall and walked toward me, his stride easy but powerful, like a panther leisurely contemplating its next move.
The space between us collapsed, as did any glimmer of levity when he stopped in front of me. His body heat was a living, breathing thing, clouding my mind and stealing my focus until my world consisted of nothing except dark eyes, soft wool, and the clean, expensive scent of citrus and wood.
Goose bumps rose on my sensitized skin.
โYouโre right. You andย funย donโt belong in the same sentence,โ I managed. My head swam like Iโd been downing drinks all night instead of serving them. โI canโt recommend any of the books I read to you. Theyโre too wild. You might go into cardiac shock.โ
Kai regarded me with a lazy, dangerous amusement that I felt all the way to my toes.
โDo you think Iโm boring, Isabella?โ The question came out soft. Dark.ย Suggestive, like he was ruminating over all the ways he could prove me wrong. It trailed down my spine and left delicious little bursts of electricity in its wake.
The air shifted and thickened. Everyย tickย of the clock pounded in rhythm with my heart, dragging me closer toward the precipice of no return.
I shook my head, attempting to form a coherent response. โYou said it.
Not me.โ
My voice didnโt sound like mine. It was too thin, too breathless, but Kaiโs proximity had snuffed out the oxygen in the room. I couldnโt breathe fast enough or deeply enough to sustain a clear head.
โI see,โ he murmured. โI donโt suppose I can change your mind.โ Gone were the crisp edges and formal syllables. In their place were velvet and smoke, whispering silent promises against my skin and compelling me to tilt my face up. Just a fraction, just enough to meet his gaze full on and see the heat glinting beneath pools of dusky clarity.
Heaviness gathered low in my belly, thick and molten.
I shouldnโt be here. Not with him, and not like this. But I was intoxicated, and he was beautiful, and the world had blurred into a lovely, hazy dream I didnโt want to wake up from.
Would it be so bad to indulge myselfย onceย after years of abstinence? To see whether that stern, sculpted mouth would soften into something more sensual when pressed against mine?
My lips parted. Kaiโs eyes dropped, and time slowed as it always did when we were alone.
I didnโt resist the downward drift of my eyelids. My body pulled taut with anticipation for the moment when Iโd find out if that glacial sophistication would melt with a kiss.
But the moment never came.
I heard a low curse. Then the delicious cocoon of warmth vanished, replaced with a sharp breeze of air. Coldness bathed my arms and chest.
By the time my eyes flew open, the bookcase had already swung shut behind him.
Kai was gone.