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Chapter no 12

Iron Flame (The Empyreanย Book 2)

The landscape around the Samara outpost is as severe as the command that runs it.

Weโ€™re high in the Esben Mountains, a mile or two from the eastern border with Poromiel, and surrounded by peaks that are still tipped with snow in the height of summer. The nearest village is a half-hour flight. Thereโ€™s not even a trading post within walking distance. This is as cut off from society as it gets.

โ€œBe careful,โ€ย Tairn orders me, waiting behind me in the field where he landed.ย โ€œItโ€™s known to beโ€ฆbrutal as a first assignment.โ€

So naturally, theyโ€™d send Xaden here.

โ€œIโ€™ll be all right,โ€ย I promise.ย โ€œAnd my shields are up.โ€

To be sure, I check the walls of my mental Archives, where I ground in my power, and canโ€™t help the little bounce in my step when I see only a hint of light from my bonds coming from the doorways. I am definitely getting better at this.

I head for the entrance to the mammoth fortress that rises before me, its dark-red stone cutting into the crisp blue sky. Itโ€™s probably laid out like Athebyne and Montserrat, but itโ€™s easily twice as big as either. Two companies of infantry and eighteen dragons and their riders are stationed here.

Something sways up high on the wall, and I look to see a man in infantry colors sitting in a cage about four stories above me.

Well, all right then.ย Itโ€™s a little after eight in the morning, so I canโ€™t help but wonder if heโ€™s been up there all night.

Thereโ€™s a hum in my veins that only grows stronger as I walk up the ramp that leads to the portcullis, where two guards are stationed. A platoon passes by, headed out for a morning run.

โ€œItโ€™s the wards,โ€ย Tairn says.

โ€œThey didnโ€™t feel like this at Montserrat,โ€ย I tell him.

โ€œTheyโ€™re stronger here, and since your signet has manifested, youโ€™re more sensitive to them now.โ€ย His tone is tight, and when I glance back over my shoulder, I note that all the soldiers give him a wide berth, taking a path off to the side of the field.

โ€œYou donโ€™t have to watch my back,โ€ย I say, reaching the top of the ramp.

โ€œThis is an outpost. Iโ€™m safe here.โ€

โ€œThereโ€™s a drift on the other side of the mountains, a mile beyond the border. Sgaeyl just told me. Youโ€™re not safe until youโ€™re behind the walls or with the wingleader.โ€

I donโ€™t bother reminding him that Xaden isnโ€™t a wingleader anymore as my stomach jumps into my throat.ย โ€œA friendly drift?โ€

โ€œDefine friendly.โ€

Great. Weโ€™re notย onย the front; weย areย the front.

The guards at the gate stand taller when they take in my flight leathers but remain silent as I pass by.ย โ€œTheyโ€™re not acting like thereโ€™s a drift across the ridgeline.โ€

โ€œApparently itโ€™s commonplace.โ€

Even better.

โ€œThere, Iโ€™m all safe behind the walls,โ€ย I tell Tairn, walking into the bailey of the fortress. At least itโ€™s cooler here than at Basgiath, but Iโ€™m not sure Iโ€™d like to experience winter at this altitude.

Or Aretiaโ€™s, come to think of it.

โ€œCall if you need me. Iโ€™ll be nearby.โ€ย A second later, wingbeats fill the

air.

Like hell am I going to call him for anything. In fact, Iโ€™ll consider these next twenty-four hours a success if I can block him out altogether. Iโ€™ve been on the wrong mental side of the bond during one of his trysts with Sgaeyl, and no thank you.

I pass by several platoons of infantry standing in formation and note the infirmary off to the right, in the same location as Montserratโ€™s, but Iโ€™m the only person in black.

Where the hell are all the riders? I stifle a yawnโ€”there wasnโ€™t much sleep to be had in the saddleโ€”and locate the entrance to the barracks that make up the southern side of the fortress. The corridor is dimly lit as I walk through, passing the office of the scribes, but I find the stairs at the end. A sensation of unwelcome familiarity crawls along my skin as I climb.

Breathe.

This outpost isnโ€™t deserted. There isnโ€™t a horde of venin and wyvern waiting to be spotted from the highest point, either. Itโ€™s only the same layout because almost all outposts are built from the same plans.

I push open the door to the third floor without encountering anyone. Odd. One side of the hallway is lined with windows that open to the bailey, and the other with equidistant wooden doors. My pulse picks up as I reach for the handle of the second door. It swings open with a squeak, and I recognize the tingle of energy that rushes over my skin, leaving chills in its wake as I step through the wards into Xadenโ€™s room.

Xadenโ€™sย emptyย room. Shit.

I sigh in pure disappointment as I drop my pack near his desk.

His room is austere, with serviceable furniture and a door that probably leads to a neighboring room, but there are touches of him here and there. Heโ€™s in the books that sit stacked along the shelves of the bookcase by the window, the rack of weapons I recognize from his room at Basgiath, and the two swords that sit near the door, like heโ€™ll be back any second to retrieve them.

The only softness to be found is in the heavy black drapesโ€”standard issue in the room of a rider who might have to fly night patrolsโ€”and the

plush, darkgray blanket covering his bed. His very large bed.

Nope. Not thinking about that.

What the hell am I supposed to do if heโ€™s not here? The swords say heโ€™s not out flying, so I close my eyes and open up my senses, finding the shadow thatโ€™s only present when heโ€™s near. If I found him that night on the parapet, surely I can do it here.

Heโ€™s close, but he must have his shields locked, because he doesnโ€™t reach out like he usually would when Iโ€™m close. The bond feels like itโ€™s tugging me downward, like heโ€™s actuallyโ€ฆunder me.

I close Xadenโ€™s door on the way out and follow the tugging sensation, making my way to the staircase and then descending. I pass the arched entrance to the second floor, catching a glimpse of a wide stone hallway with more barracks doors, then the entrance to the first, and finally reaching the sublevel of the fortress where natural light ends with the staircase on a stone floor. Mage lights illuminate two possible paths along the foundation of the fortress, both dimly lit and as welcoming as a dungeon. The scent of damp earth and metal permeates the air.

Shouts and cheers come from down a corridor to the right, echoing off the walls and floor. I follow the pull of the bond that direction and find a pair of infantry guards about twenty yards from the stairs who take one look at my uniform and step aside, allowing me access to a room carved out of the very foundation.

Noise overwhelms every other sense when I enter the chamber, and shock halts my feet inside the doorway.

What in the godsโ€™ names is going on?

More than a dozen ridersโ€”all in blackโ€”stand along the sides of the square-shaped, windowless room that looks better suited for storage than occupation. Theyโ€™re all leaning over a thick wooden railing, intently watching something in the excavated pit below.

I take the empty space on the rail directly ahead of me, finding myself between a veteran rider with a grizzled beard on my left and a woman who looks a few years older than me on the right. Then I see whoโ€™s below and my heart stops.

Xaden. And he is shirtless.

So is the other rider as they circle each other, their fists raised like theyโ€™re sparring. But thereโ€™s no mat beneath them, only a packed-dirt floor decorated with suspicious spatters of crimson, both old and fresh.

Theyโ€™re equally matched in height, but the other rider is bulky, built like Garrick, and looks to have about twenty pounds on Xaden, whoโ€™s cut in deep, muscular lines.

The rider swings for Xadenโ€™s face, and I white-knuckle the rough railing, holding my breath as Xaden easily evades the punch, delivering one of his own to his opponentโ€™s ribs. The riders around me cheer, and Iโ€™m pretty sure I see money change hands across the pit.

This isnโ€™t sparring. This is straight-upย fighting.

And the way Xaden hit him? Heโ€™s holding back.

โ€œWhy are theyโ€ฆโ€ I ask the silver-barred lieutenant next to me, my words dying as Xaden dips and spins, avoiding another attempted hit. Thereโ€™s a definite sparkle in those dark eyes as he deftly jumps back again, denying his opponentโ€™s strike.

My pulse jumps. Damn, heโ€™sย fast.

โ€œFighting?โ€ The woman finishes my question.

โ€œYes.โ€ I keep my gaze centered on Xaden, who lands quick, consecutive punches to the other riderโ€™s kidneys.

โ€œThereโ€™s only one pass for lieutenants this weekend,โ€ she says, moving a little closer. โ€œJarrett has it, and Riorson wants it.โ€

โ€œSo theyโ€™reย fightingย for it?โ€ I peel my eyes from Xaden long enough to glance sideways at the rider beside me. She has short brown hair, sharp, birdlike features, and a thumbprint-size scar on her jawline.

โ€œLeave and pride. Lieutenant Colonel Degrensiโ€™s rules. You want it? You fight for it. You want to keep it? Youโ€™d better be good enough to defend it.โ€

โ€œThey have to fight forย passes? Isnโ€™t that brutal?โ€ And wrong. Extreme. Horrible. โ€œAnd detrimental to wing morale?โ€ Heโ€™s fighting so Sgaeyl will have time off to spend with Tairn, so heโ€™ll have time withย me.

โ€œBrutal? Hardly.โ€ She scoffs. โ€œNo blades. No signets. Itโ€™s just a fistfight. You want to see brutal, go and visit one of the coastal outposts with nothing

to do but turn on one another.โ€ She leans forward and shouts as Xaden deflects the next punch, then grabs Jarrett by the biceps and throws him to his back. โ€œDamn. I really thought Jarrett was going to take him in less time.โ€

A slow, proud smile spreads across my face.

โ€œHe wonโ€™t take him at all.โ€ I shake my head, staring at Xaden with more than a little delight as he waits for Jarrett to gain his feet. โ€œXadenโ€™s playing with him.โ€

The rider turns toward me, her gaze scanning me in clear assessment, but Iโ€™m too busy watching Xaden land hit after carefully placed hit to bother with what the lieutenant thinks about me.

โ€œYouโ€™re her, arenโ€™t you?โ€ the rider asks, her appraisal pausing on my hair.

โ€œHer who?โ€ Here we go.

โ€œLieutenant Sorrengailโ€™s sister.โ€

Not General Sorrengailโ€™s daughter.

Not the cadet Xaden is stuck with because of Tairn. โ€œYou know my sister?โ€ That earns her a glance.

โ€œShe has a hell of a right hook.โ€ She nods, her knuckles grazing the scar on her jaw.

โ€œShe does,โ€ I agree, my smile widening. Looks like Mira left her mark. Xaden lands a solid hit to Jarrettโ€™s jaw with a crack.

โ€œIt appears Riorson does, too.โ€ โ€œHe does.โ€

โ€œYou sound pretty confident.โ€ She turns her attention back to the fight.

โ€œI am.โ€ My confidence in Xaden is almostโ€ฆarrogance. Gods, heโ€™sย beautiful.ย The mage lights illuminating the chamber highlight every carved line of roped muscle on his chest and abs and play off the angles of his face. And when he turns, the hundred and seven scars that mark his back catch the light under Sgaeylโ€™s relic.

I stare. I canโ€™t help it. His body is a work of art, honed to lethal perfection. I know every inch of it, and yet Iโ€™m still gawking, transfixed like itโ€™s the first time Iโ€™ve seen him half-dressed. This should absolutelyย notย be

turning me on, but the way he moves, the lethal grace in each and every calculated strikeโ€ฆ

Yep. Turned on.

Maybe itโ€™s toxic as hell, but itโ€™s pointless to deny that every single part of me is attracted to every facet of Xaden. And itโ€™s not just his body. Itโ€™sโ€ฆ everything. Even the darkest parts of him, the parts I know are merciless, willing to annihilate anyone and everyone who stands between him and a goal, pull me in like a moth to a fucking flame.

My heart pounds like a drumbeat and my stupid chest aches just watching him maneuver around the floor of the pit, toying with his opponent. Iโ€™ve missed watching him in the gym, sparring with Garrick. Iโ€™ve missed being with him on the mat, feeling his body over mine as he puts me on my back over and over again. Iโ€™ve missed the tiny moments in my day when our eyes would meet in a crowded hallway, the bigger moments when Iโ€™ve had him all to myself.

Iโ€™m so damn in love with him that it hurts, and for the moment, I canโ€™t remember why Iโ€™m denying myself.

The rider on my left shouts, and Xadenโ€™s gaze jerks upward, colliding with mine.

Surprise registers on his features for all of a heartbeat before his opponent swings, his fist slamming into Xadenโ€™s jaw with a sound that makes my stomach twist.

I gasp as Xadenโ€™s head snaps sideways with the force of the blow. He staggers backward to the cheers of the riders around me.

โ€œStop playing around and end it,โ€ย I say through our bond, using it for the first time since Resson.

โ€œAlways so violent.โ€ย He thumbs a drop of blood off the split in his lower lip, his gaze flashing to mine, and I swear I see a hint of a smile before he turns on Jarrett.

Jarrett swings once, then twice, missing Xaden both times.

Then Xaden strikes with two quick punches, putting his full weight behind them unlike before, and sending Jarrett to his hands and knees in the

dirt. Jarrettโ€™s head hangs as he shakes it slowly, blood dripping from his mouth.

โ€œDamn,โ€ the rider next to me says.

โ€œExactly.โ€ Is it wrong to smirk? Because I canโ€™t seem to control my facial muscles.

Xaden stands back as the riders fall silent in the chamber, and then he extends his hand.

Jarrettโ€™s chest heaves for a tense minute before he looks up at Xaden and shoves away the offered hand. He taps the floor twice, and while some riders around me groanโ€”and yes, thatโ€™s money changing hands in the form of gold coinsโ€”others clap a couple of times. Jarrett spits blood onto the floor, then stands upright, nodding at Xaden respectfully.

The matchโ€”if thatโ€™s what this can be calledโ€”is apparently over. The riders head my way, filtering past me for the door.

Xaden says something to Jarrett that I canโ€™t hear, then uses the metal rungs embedded into the stoneโ€™s masonry at the far end of the pit to climb out.

He reaches the top, then takes his shirt from where itโ€™s draped across the railing and comes in my direction, watching me with enough heat in his gaze to set my already humming body on fire. Yeah, definitely canโ€™t remember why Iโ€™m denying myself any part of this man.

โ€œLooks like he won the pass,โ€ the woman next to me says. โ€œIโ€™m Cornelia Sahalie, by the way.โ€

โ€œViolet Sorrengail.โ€ I know itโ€™s rude, but I canโ€™t make myself look away from Xaden as he turns the corner, approaching from the left.

He runs his tongue over the small cut at the side of his lower lip as if testing it, then tugs his shirt on. Taking away the show should cool my blood, but it doesnโ€™t. Pretty sure dumping a bucket of snowy slush from the nearby peaks over my head couldnโ€™t lessen the heat, either. Iโ€™d probably just steam.

Gods, Iโ€™mย screwedย when it comes to this man.

It doesnโ€™t matter that he hurt me, didnโ€™t trust me. I donโ€™t even know if I trustย him.

But I want him.

โ€œGood job, Riorson,โ€ Lieutenant Sahalie says to Xaden. โ€œIโ€™ll tell the major to take you off the patrol roster for forty-eight hours.โ€

โ€œTwenty-four,โ€ he corrects her, his eyes on me. โ€œI only need twenty-four hours. Jarrett can have the other twenty-four.โ€

Because Iโ€™ll be gone.

โ€œSuit yourself.โ€ She clamps Jarrett on the shoulder in consolation as he walks by, then follows him out.

Weโ€™re alone.

โ€œYouโ€™re early,โ€ Xaden says, but the look in his eyes is anything but condemnation.

I lift a brow and try to ignore the way my palms itch to touch him. โ€œIs that a complaint?โ€

โ€œNo.โ€ He shakes his head slowly. โ€œI just wasnโ€™t expecting you until noon.โ€

โ€œTurns out Tairn flies pretty damned fast when heโ€™s not being held back by a riot.โ€ Gods, why is it so hard to breathe suddenly? The air between us is thick, and my heart thrums as my gaze wanders to his mouth.

Heโ€™s killed people for me before, so why is him fighting for a weekend pass stripping every ounce of self-control straight out of my bloodstream?

โ€œViolet.โ€ Xadenโ€™s voice drops to that low, quiet tone he only ever uses when weโ€™re alone, and usually naked. Very naked.

โ€œHmmm?โ€ Gods, I miss the feel of all his skin against all of mine.

โ€œTell me whatโ€™s spinning around that beautiful head of yours.โ€ He moves closer, invading my space without touching me.

Fuck, Iย wantย him to touch me, even if itโ€™s a bad idea. A really,ย reallyย bad idea.

โ€œDoes it hurt?โ€ I lift my fingertip to the corner of my lip where his is split.

He shakes his head. โ€œIโ€™ve had worse. Itโ€™s what I get for blocking with my shields to concentrate on the fight. Otherwise, I would have felt you. Look at me.โ€ He takes my chin between his thumb and forefinger and gently tilts my head back before searching my eyes. โ€œWhat are you

thinking? Because I can read a lot into the way youโ€™re looking at me, but Iโ€™m going to need the words.โ€

I want him. How hard is that to say? My tongue ties. What would giving into this insatiable need for him mean?

That youโ€™re human.

โ€œIโ€™m about three seconds away from carrying you up to my bedroom to continue this conversation.โ€ His hand slides along my jaw, his thumb caressing my lower lip.

โ€œNot your room.โ€ I shake my head. โ€œYou. Me. Bed. Not a good idea at the moment.โ€ Too tempting.

โ€œAs I rememberโ€”which I do, oftenโ€”we donโ€™t always need a bed.โ€ His other hand palms my waist.

My thighs clench. โ€œViolet?โ€

I cannot kiss this man. I canโ€™t. But would it really be the end of the world if I did? Itโ€™s not like it would be the first time. Shit. Iโ€™m going to break. Even if itโ€™s only for this moment.

โ€œHypothetically, if I wanted you to kiss me butย onlyย kiss meโ€”โ€ I start. His mouth is on mine before I finish.

Yes.ย This is exactly what I need. My lips part for him, and thereโ€™s no hesitation in the glide of his tongue against mine. He groans, and the sound reverberates through my very bones as I wrap my arms around his neck.

Home. Gods, he tastes like home.

I hear the door shut a second before my back is pressed against the rough wall of the chamber. Xaden slides his hands beneath my thighs, then lifts me so weโ€™re level as he lays expert claim to every line and recess of my mouth like this is the only time heโ€™ll get. Like kissing me is more vital than his next breath. Or maybe thatโ€™s the way Iโ€™m kissing him back. Whatever. I donโ€™t care who is kissing whom as long as we donโ€™t stop.

I lock my ankles at the small of his back, bringing our bodies flush, and my breath catches at the heat of his skin radiating through the fabric of his uniform and my leathers, and suddenly itโ€™s too much and not enough.

This was a bad idea, a teasing taste of everything I want, and yet I canโ€™t bring myself to stop. Thereโ€™s nothing outside this kiss. No war. No lies. No secrets. Thereโ€™s only his mouth, his hands sweeping up my sides, his desire matching the fire of mine. This is where I want to live, where nothing else matters but the way he makes me feel.

โ€œLike a moth to a damned flame.โ€ย The lament slips from my mind, into our mental pathway. Heโ€™s gravity, pulling me back to him by the force of his existence.

โ€œIโ€™m more than willing to let you burn me.โ€

Wait, thatโ€™s not what I meantโ€”

He cradles the back of my head, protecting me from the coarse stone, and angles for a deeper kiss. Gods, yes.ย Deeper.ย More. I canโ€™t get enough. Iโ€™ll never get enough.

Energy arcs between us, hotter with every kiss, every flick of his tongue. Flames of need dance across my skin, leaving chills in their wake before settling deep within me, burning dangerously, reminding me that Xaden knows exactly how to sate this unquenchable desire.

He has the maddening ability to addict and satisfy all in the same breath. My hands slide into his hair as his lips slip down my throat, and my pulse leaps when he finds that sweet spot right above the collar of my flight

jacket, then mercilessly worships it with his mouth.

Iโ€™m instantly liquid, melting into him.

โ€œGods, Iโ€™ve missed the taste of you.โ€ย Even his mental voice comes across as a groan.ย โ€œThe feel of you in my arms.โ€

I bring my hands to his face and pull him back to my lips. He sucks my tongue into his mouth, and I whimper because I can say the exact same thing about himโ€”Iโ€™ve missed everything about his taste, his kiss, him.

If any of those buttons on my flight jacket come undone, theyโ€™reย all

coming undone.

The slant of his mouth over mine again and again makes me feel alive for the first time sinceโ€ฆ Gods, I canโ€™t even remember. Since the last time he kissed me.

His hand squeezes my waist gently, then stretches up, the tips of his fingers reaching just beneath my breasts. Fuck it, the jacket can come off. So can the top. The armor. Everything that separates me from him.

I reach for the buttons.

But he eases his kiss, taking it from urgent and deep to thorough and deliciously slow.ย โ€œWe should stop.โ€

โ€œWhat if I donโ€™t want to?โ€ย The physical sound that leaves me is pure denial. Iโ€™m not ready for this to end, not ready to return to the reality where weโ€™re not together, even if Iโ€™m the one standing in our way.

โ€œWe have to, or I wonโ€™t be able to keep to theย only kissย limitation of your hypothetical question.โ€ย His hand drifts to my ass as his mouth softens, drawing on my lower lip with one last, lingering kiss.ย โ€œFuck, I want you.โ€

โ€œThen donโ€™t stop.โ€ I look him in the eyes so he knows I mean it. โ€œWe can keep it to nothing but s*x. We did last yearโ€ฆ Not that it worked well.โ€

โ€œViolet.โ€ Itโ€™s part plea, part moan, and the war in his eyes makes my chest tighten. โ€œYou have no idea how badly I want to peel these pants off your amazing ass and fuck you until youโ€™re hoarse from screaming my name, so limp from orgasms that you canโ€™t fathom leaving my bed ever again, and every tree around here goes up in flames from lightning strikes.โ€ His hand slides from behind my head to the nape of my neck. โ€œUntil you remember exactly how good we are together.โ€

โ€œI never forgot.โ€ Itโ€™s a whimper. My body is still humming.

โ€œIโ€™m not talking about physically.โ€ He leans in and kisses me softly.

Itโ€™s sweet. Tender. Everything Iย donโ€™tย want to feel. Not when it comes to him. Heat and lust, I can cope with. But the rest? โ€œXaden,โ€ I whisper, shaking my head slowly.

He studies my face for a heartbeat and masks the flash of disappointment with a half smile.

โ€œExactly.โ€ He gently lowers me back to my feet, then steadies me, holding on to my waist when my knees wobble. โ€œI want you more than my next breath, but I canโ€™t fuck you into looking at me like you used to. I refuse to use s*x as a tool to get you back.โ€ He takes my hand and presses it to my chest. โ€œNot when I want to be here.โ€

My eyes widen, and apprehension knots my stomach.

โ€œThatโ€™s what I thought.โ€ He sighs, but itโ€™s not defeat tightening his mouth. Itโ€™s frustration. โ€œYou still donโ€™t trust me, and thatโ€™s all right. I told you Iโ€™m not in this for a battle. Iโ€™m winning the damned war. Iโ€™m a fucking fool for saying this, but when havenโ€™t I been a fool when it comes to you?โ€

โ€œExcuse me?โ€ I bristle. His memory must be faulty, because Iโ€™m the one whoโ€™s been the fool for him.

โ€œLet me get this out.โ€ He glances at my mouth. โ€œIโ€™ll kiss you whenever you want because my self-control is shit where youโ€™re involvedโ€”โ€

โ€œWheneverย Iย want?โ€ My brows shoot up. What the hell is happening right now?

โ€œYes, wheneverย youย want, because Iโ€™ll live with my mouth attached to yours if I do it wheneverย Iย want.โ€ He retreats a couple of steps, and I immediately miss the feel of his hands, the warmth of his skin. โ€œBut Iโ€™m begging you, Violet. Donโ€™t offer me your body unless youโ€™re offering meย everything. I want you more than I want to fuck you. I want those three little words back.โ€

I stare at him, my mouth dropping open slightly. Heโ€™s not asking to hear that I want him. He wants to hear that Iย loveย him.

โ€œItโ€™s new territory for me, too.โ€ He rakes his hands through his hair. โ€œNo one is more surprised than I am, trust me.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m sorry, but werenโ€™t you the one last year who said we could have all the s*x we wanted as long as we kept feelings out of it?โ€ I fold my arms across my chest.

โ€œSee? Fuckingย fool.โ€ He looks up at the rough-beamed ceiling like it has the answers. โ€œLast year, I would have used any method it took to win you back, but for those three days you were unconscious, all I did was sit there and watch you sleep, thinking of everything I would have done differently.โ€ Determination is etched on every line of his face when he brings his gaze back to mine. โ€œThis is me doing things differently.โ€

Somehow in the last month, weโ€™ve managed to switch roles.

โ€œThis is me proving myself to you.โ€ He steps back and pulls the door open, gesturing for me to walk out first, then rests his hand on the small of

my back as we walk down the hall. โ€œWeโ€™re not there yet, but youโ€™ll trust me again at some point.โ€

โ€œSure, as soon as you agree to stop keeping secrets from me.โ€ How the hell is thisย myย fault?

His sigh sounds like itโ€™s ripped out of his very soul. โ€œYou need to trust me evenย withย secrets for this to work.โ€

I grab onto the stair railing and take the stairs two at a time. โ€œThatโ€™s not going to happen.โ€

โ€œIt will,โ€ he says as we near the ground floor, then changes the subject. โ€œAre you hungry?โ€

โ€œI need to wash up first.โ€ My nose crinkles. โ€œPretty sure I smell like Iโ€™ve been flying eight hours.โ€

โ€œWhy donโ€™t you head on into my room, and Iโ€™ll bring food.โ€ His hand slips from my lower back as we make our way into his barracks room. He points to the left and says, โ€œThat door leads to a private bathing chamber.โ€

โ€œThereโ€™s no way you got a private bathing chamber as a brand-new lieutenant,โ€ I sputter. โ€œMira doesnโ€™t even have one.โ€

โ€œYouโ€™d be amazed what you can get when no one wants to share space with Fen Riorsonโ€™s son,โ€ he answers quietly.

My stomach sinks. I canโ€™t think of a single thing to say to that.

โ€œDonโ€™t look so sad. Garrick has to share with four other riders. Go.โ€ He motions to the door again. โ€œIโ€™ll be right back.โ€

An hour later, Iโ€™m clean and fed, and Xaden is sitting at his desk, fiddling with something that looks like a crossbow but smaller, as I sit on his bed and run a brush through my damp hair. I canโ€™t help but smile at the steady feeling of whatโ€™s becoming routine, Xaden preparing a weapon while I sit on a bed.

โ€œBut they didnโ€™t search Tairn?โ€ he asks without looking up.

โ€œNope, just dumped my stuff on the ground.โ€ My gaze catches momentarily on a palm-size gray stone with a decorative black rune on his nightstand before I spot a piece of grass that made the journey here from the flight field and flick it off my arm. โ€œDid they search Sgaeyl?โ€

He shakes his head. โ€œOnly me. And Garrick. And every other new lieutenant leaving Basgiath with a rebellion relic.โ€

โ€œThey know youโ€™ve been smuggling something out.โ€ I lean over the edge of the high bed and drop my brush into my bag. โ€œToss me a sharpening stone.โ€

โ€œThey suspect.โ€ He reaches into the top right drawer of his desk, taking out the heavy, gray sharpening stone. He leans over to hand it to me, careful not to brush his fingers along mine, and then goes back to tinkering with his weapon.

โ€œThank you.โ€ I grip the stone, then take the first knife from my thigh sheath and begin sharpening. Theyโ€™re only as good as they are honed. But no amount of busying my hands is going to make the next question any easier to ask without feeling like Iโ€™m now the one keeping things from Xaden.

I choose my words carefully. โ€œWhen we were at the lake, before Resson, you said the only thing that can kill a venin is what powers the wards.โ€

โ€œYes.โ€ He leans back in his chair, one eyebrow raised, his bow forgotten. โ€œThe daggers are made of the material that powers the wards,โ€ I guess.

โ€œThe alloy Brennan mentioned.โ€

Xaden opens the bottom drawer and moves some things around before pulling out a replica of the dagger I used to kill the venin on Tairnโ€™s back. He walks over to me and holds it out, hilt first.

I take it from his hand, and the weight and hum of power coming from the blade are instantly nauseatingโ€”whether from the energy or the memory of the last time I held one, Iโ€™m unsure. Either way, I breathe deeply and remind myself Iโ€™m not on Tairnโ€™s back. Thereโ€™s no one trying to kill me or him. Iโ€™m in Xadenโ€™s bedroom. Xadenโ€™s very warded bedroom. Safe. No safer place on the Continent, really.

The blade itself is silver, sharpened on both edges, and the hilt is the same matte black of the one I used in Resson, the same that had been in my motherโ€™s desk last year. I run my finger along the medallion in the hilt thatโ€™s a duller gray and decorated with a rune.

โ€œThat piece is the alloy.โ€ He sits next to me on the bed. โ€œThe metal in the hilt. Itโ€™s a specific blend of materials smelted into what you see there. Itโ€™s not power in itself, but itโ€™s capable ofโ€ฆholding power. The wards themselves originate from the Vale, near Basgiath, but they only reach so far. Theseโ€โ€”he taps the medallionโ€”โ€œhold extra power to boost the wards and extend them. The more material, the stronger the wards. Thereโ€™s an entire armory of them downstairs, boosting the wards. The details are classified, but thatโ€™s why outposts are placed strategically, to keep our borders from developing weak points.โ€

โ€œBut how could the wards ever falter if these power them constantly?โ€ I brush my thumb over the alloy, and my own power rises, charging the air.

โ€œBecause they only hold so much power. Once itโ€™s used, it has to be imbued again.โ€

โ€œHold on. Imbued with power?โ€

โ€œYes. Imbuing is a process of leaving power in stasis, in an object. A rider has to pour their own power into it, which is a skill not a lot of us have.โ€ He glances meaningfully at me. โ€œAnd donโ€™t ask. Weโ€™re not getting into how that works tonight.โ€

โ€œHave they always been placed in daggers?โ€

He shakes his head. โ€œNo. That started right before the rebellion. My guess is Melgren had a vision of how an upcoming battle is going to go and these were central to his victory. Once Sgaeyl chose me at Threshing, we started to work to smuggle out a few daggers at a time to supply what drifts we could make friendly contact with.โ€

โ€œAretia needs a forge to smelt the alloy, to make more weapons.โ€

โ€œYes. It takes a dragon to fire a crucible, which we have, and a luminary to intensify dragonfire hot enough to smelt,โ€ he says.

I nod, staring at the thumb-size medallion. How can something so small be the key to our entire continentโ€™s survival? โ€œSo you just put the alloy into a dagger and get an instant venin killer?โ€

A smile tugs at his mouth. โ€œItโ€™s a little more complicated than that.โ€

โ€œWhat do you think came first?โ€ I ask, studying the dagger. โ€œThe wards?

Or the ability to boost them? Or are they intertwined?โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s all classified.โ€ He takes the dagger back and returns it to the desk drawer. โ€œSo how about we work onย yourย shields instead of worrying about Navarreโ€™s?โ€

I yawn. โ€œIโ€™m tired.โ€

โ€œAetos wonโ€™t care.โ€ย He slides into my mind easily.

โ€œFine.โ€ I lean back, bracing my weight on my palms, and build my mental shields quickly, block by block. โ€œDo your worst.โ€

His smile makes me regret the challenge.

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