The landscape around the Samara outpost is as severe as the command that runs it.
Weโre high in the Esben Mountains, a mile or two from the eastern border with Poromiel, and surrounded by peaks that are still tipped with snow in the height of summer. The nearest village is a half-hour flight. Thereโs not even a trading post within walking distance. This is as cut off from society as it gets.
โBe careful,โย Tairn orders me, waiting behind me in the field where he landed.ย โItโs known to beโฆbrutal as a first assignment.โ
So naturally, theyโd send Xaden here.
โIโll be all right,โย I promise.ย โAnd my shields are up.โ
To be sure, I check the walls of my mental Archives, where I ground in my power, and canโt help the little bounce in my step when I see only a hint of light from my bonds coming from the doorways. I am definitely getting better at this.
I head for the entrance to the mammoth fortress that rises before me, its dark-red stone cutting into the crisp blue sky. Itโs probably laid out like Athebyne and Montserrat, but itโs easily twice as big as either. Two companies of infantry and eighteen dragons and their riders are stationed here.
Something sways up high on the wall, and I look to see a man in infantry colors sitting in a cage about four stories above me.
Well, all right then.ย Itโs a little after eight in the morning, so I canโt help but wonder if heโs been up there all night.
Thereโs a hum in my veins that only grows stronger as I walk up the ramp that leads to the portcullis, where two guards are stationed. A platoon passes by, headed out for a morning run.
โItโs the wards,โย Tairn says.
โThey didnโt feel like this at Montserrat,โย I tell him.
โTheyโre stronger here, and since your signet has manifested, youโre more sensitive to them now.โย His tone is tight, and when I glance back over my shoulder, I note that all the soldiers give him a wide berth, taking a path off to the side of the field.
โYou donโt have to watch my back,โย I say, reaching the top of the ramp.
โThis is an outpost. Iโm safe here.โ
โThereโs a drift on the other side of the mountains, a mile beyond the border. Sgaeyl just told me. Youโre not safe until youโre behind the walls or with the wingleader.โ
I donโt bother reminding him that Xaden isnโt a wingleader anymore as my stomach jumps into my throat.ย โA friendly drift?โ
โDefine friendly.โ
Great. Weโre notย onย the front; weย areย the front.
The guards at the gate stand taller when they take in my flight leathers but remain silent as I pass by.ย โTheyโre not acting like thereโs a drift across the ridgeline.โ
โApparently itโs commonplace.โ
Even better.
โThere, Iโm all safe behind the walls,โย I tell Tairn, walking into the bailey of the fortress. At least itโs cooler here than at Basgiath, but Iโm not sure Iโd like to experience winter at this altitude.
Or Aretiaโs, come to think of it.
โCall if you need me. Iโll be nearby.โย A second later, wingbeats fill the
air.
Like hell am I going to call him for anything. In fact, Iโll consider these next twenty-four hours a success if I can block him out altogether. Iโve been on the wrong mental side of the bond during one of his trysts with Sgaeyl, and no thank you.
I pass by several platoons of infantry standing in formation and note the infirmary off to the right, in the same location as Montserratโs, but Iโm the only person in black.
Where the hell are all the riders? I stifle a yawnโthere wasnโt much sleep to be had in the saddleโand locate the entrance to the barracks that make up the southern side of the fortress. The corridor is dimly lit as I walk through, passing the office of the scribes, but I find the stairs at the end. A sensation of unwelcome familiarity crawls along my skin as I climb.
Breathe.
This outpost isnโt deserted. There isnโt a horde of venin and wyvern waiting to be spotted from the highest point, either. Itโs only the same layout because almost all outposts are built from the same plans.
I push open the door to the third floor without encountering anyone. Odd. One side of the hallway is lined with windows that open to the bailey, and the other with equidistant wooden doors. My pulse picks up as I reach for the handle of the second door. It swings open with a squeak, and I recognize the tingle of energy that rushes over my skin, leaving chills in its wake as I step through the wards into Xadenโs room.
Xadenโsย emptyย room. Shit.
I sigh in pure disappointment as I drop my pack near his desk.
His room is austere, with serviceable furniture and a door that probably leads to a neighboring room, but there are touches of him here and there. Heโs in the books that sit stacked along the shelves of the bookcase by the window, the rack of weapons I recognize from his room at Basgiath, and the two swords that sit near the door, like heโll be back any second to retrieve them.
The only softness to be found is in the heavy black drapesโstandard issue in the room of a rider who might have to fly night patrolsโand the
plush, darkgray blanket covering his bed. His very large bed.
Nope. Not thinking about that.
What the hell am I supposed to do if heโs not here? The swords say heโs not out flying, so I close my eyes and open up my senses, finding the shadow thatโs only present when heโs near. If I found him that night on the parapet, surely I can do it here.
Heโs close, but he must have his shields locked, because he doesnโt reach out like he usually would when Iโm close. The bond feels like itโs tugging me downward, like heโs actuallyโฆunder me.
I close Xadenโs door on the way out and follow the tugging sensation, making my way to the staircase and then descending. I pass the arched entrance to the second floor, catching a glimpse of a wide stone hallway with more barracks doors, then the entrance to the first, and finally reaching the sublevel of the fortress where natural light ends with the staircase on a stone floor. Mage lights illuminate two possible paths along the foundation of the fortress, both dimly lit and as welcoming as a dungeon. The scent of damp earth and metal permeates the air.
Shouts and cheers come from down a corridor to the right, echoing off the walls and floor. I follow the pull of the bond that direction and find a pair of infantry guards about twenty yards from the stairs who take one look at my uniform and step aside, allowing me access to a room carved out of the very foundation.
Noise overwhelms every other sense when I enter the chamber, and shock halts my feet inside the doorway.
What in the godsโ names is going on?
More than a dozen ridersโall in blackโstand along the sides of the square-shaped, windowless room that looks better suited for storage than occupation. Theyโre all leaning over a thick wooden railing, intently watching something in the excavated pit below.
I take the empty space on the rail directly ahead of me, finding myself between a veteran rider with a grizzled beard on my left and a woman who looks a few years older than me on the right. Then I see whoโs below and my heart stops.
Xaden. And he is shirtless.
So is the other rider as they circle each other, their fists raised like theyโre sparring. But thereโs no mat beneath them, only a packed-dirt floor decorated with suspicious spatters of crimson, both old and fresh.
Theyโre equally matched in height, but the other rider is bulky, built like Garrick, and looks to have about twenty pounds on Xaden, whoโs cut in deep, muscular lines.
The rider swings for Xadenโs face, and I white-knuckle the rough railing, holding my breath as Xaden easily evades the punch, delivering one of his own to his opponentโs ribs. The riders around me cheer, and Iโm pretty sure I see money change hands across the pit.
This isnโt sparring. This is straight-upย fighting.
And the way Xaden hit him? Heโs holding back.
โWhy are theyโฆโ I ask the silver-barred lieutenant next to me, my words dying as Xaden dips and spins, avoiding another attempted hit. Thereโs a definite sparkle in those dark eyes as he deftly jumps back again, denying his opponentโs strike.
My pulse jumps. Damn, heโsย fast.
โFighting?โ The woman finishes my question.
โYes.โ I keep my gaze centered on Xaden, who lands quick, consecutive punches to the other riderโs kidneys.
โThereโs only one pass for lieutenants this weekend,โ she says, moving a little closer. โJarrett has it, and Riorson wants it.โ
โSo theyโreย fightingย for it?โ I peel my eyes from Xaden long enough to glance sideways at the rider beside me. She has short brown hair, sharp, birdlike features, and a thumbprint-size scar on her jawline.
โLeave and pride. Lieutenant Colonel Degrensiโs rules. You want it? You fight for it. You want to keep it? Youโd better be good enough to defend it.โ
โThey have to fight forย passes? Isnโt that brutal?โ And wrong. Extreme. Horrible. โAnd detrimental to wing morale?โ Heโs fighting so Sgaeyl will have time off to spend with Tairn, so heโll have time withย me.
โBrutal? Hardly.โ She scoffs. โNo blades. No signets. Itโs just a fistfight. You want to see brutal, go and visit one of the coastal outposts with nothing
to do but turn on one another.โ She leans forward and shouts as Xaden deflects the next punch, then grabs Jarrett by the biceps and throws him to his back. โDamn. I really thought Jarrett was going to take him in less time.โ
A slow, proud smile spreads across my face.
โHe wonโt take him at all.โ I shake my head, staring at Xaden with more than a little delight as he waits for Jarrett to gain his feet. โXadenโs playing with him.โ
The rider turns toward me, her gaze scanning me in clear assessment, but Iโm too busy watching Xaden land hit after carefully placed hit to bother with what the lieutenant thinks about me.
โYouโre her, arenโt you?โ the rider asks, her appraisal pausing on my hair.
โHer who?โ Here we go.
โLieutenant Sorrengailโs sister.โ
Not General Sorrengailโs daughter.
Not the cadet Xaden is stuck with because of Tairn. โYou know my sister?โ That earns her a glance.
โShe has a hell of a right hook.โ She nods, her knuckles grazing the scar on her jaw.
โShe does,โ I agree, my smile widening. Looks like Mira left her mark. Xaden lands a solid hit to Jarrettโs jaw with a crack.
โIt appears Riorson does, too.โ โHe does.โ
โYou sound pretty confident.โ She turns her attention back to the fight.
โI am.โ My confidence in Xaden is almostโฆarrogance. Gods, heโsย beautiful.ย The mage lights illuminating the chamber highlight every carved line of roped muscle on his chest and abs and play off the angles of his face. And when he turns, the hundred and seven scars that mark his back catch the light under Sgaeylโs relic.
I stare. I canโt help it. His body is a work of art, honed to lethal perfection. I know every inch of it, and yet Iโm still gawking, transfixed like itโs the first time Iโve seen him half-dressed. This should absolutelyย notย be
turning me on, but the way he moves, the lethal grace in each and every calculated strikeโฆ
Yep. Turned on.
Maybe itโs toxic as hell, but itโs pointless to deny that every single part of me is attracted to every facet of Xaden. And itโs not just his body. Itโsโฆ everything. Even the darkest parts of him, the parts I know are merciless, willing to annihilate anyone and everyone who stands between him and a goal, pull me in like a moth to a fucking flame.
My heart pounds like a drumbeat and my stupid chest aches just watching him maneuver around the floor of the pit, toying with his opponent. Iโve missed watching him in the gym, sparring with Garrick. Iโve missed being with him on the mat, feeling his body over mine as he puts me on my back over and over again. Iโve missed the tiny moments in my day when our eyes would meet in a crowded hallway, the bigger moments when Iโve had him all to myself.
Iโm so damn in love with him that it hurts, and for the moment, I canโt remember why Iโm denying myself.
The rider on my left shouts, and Xadenโs gaze jerks upward, colliding with mine.
Surprise registers on his features for all of a heartbeat before his opponent swings, his fist slamming into Xadenโs jaw with a sound that makes my stomach twist.
I gasp as Xadenโs head snaps sideways with the force of the blow. He staggers backward to the cheers of the riders around me.
โStop playing around and end it,โย I say through our bond, using it for the first time since Resson.
โAlways so violent.โย He thumbs a drop of blood off the split in his lower lip, his gaze flashing to mine, and I swear I see a hint of a smile before he turns on Jarrett.
Jarrett swings once, then twice, missing Xaden both times.
Then Xaden strikes with two quick punches, putting his full weight behind them unlike before, and sending Jarrett to his hands and knees in the
dirt. Jarrettโs head hangs as he shakes it slowly, blood dripping from his mouth.
โDamn,โ the rider next to me says.
โExactly.โ Is it wrong to smirk? Because I canโt seem to control my facial muscles.
Xaden stands back as the riders fall silent in the chamber, and then he extends his hand.
Jarrettโs chest heaves for a tense minute before he looks up at Xaden and shoves away the offered hand. He taps the floor twice, and while some riders around me groanโand yes, thatโs money changing hands in the form of gold coinsโothers clap a couple of times. Jarrett spits blood onto the floor, then stands upright, nodding at Xaden respectfully.
The matchโif thatโs what this can be calledโis apparently over. The riders head my way, filtering past me for the door.
Xaden says something to Jarrett that I canโt hear, then uses the metal rungs embedded into the stoneโs masonry at the far end of the pit to climb out.
He reaches the top, then takes his shirt from where itโs draped across the railing and comes in my direction, watching me with enough heat in his gaze to set my already humming body on fire. Yeah, definitely canโt remember why Iโm denying myself any part of this man.
โLooks like he won the pass,โ the woman next to me says. โIโm Cornelia Sahalie, by the way.โ
โViolet Sorrengail.โ I know itโs rude, but I canโt make myself look away from Xaden as he turns the corner, approaching from the left.
He runs his tongue over the small cut at the side of his lower lip as if testing it, then tugs his shirt on. Taking away the show should cool my blood, but it doesnโt. Pretty sure dumping a bucket of snowy slush from the nearby peaks over my head couldnโt lessen the heat, either. Iโd probably just steam.
Gods, Iโmย screwedย when it comes to this man.
It doesnโt matter that he hurt me, didnโt trust me. I donโt even know if I trustย him.
But I want him.
โGood job, Riorson,โ Lieutenant Sahalie says to Xaden. โIโll tell the major to take you off the patrol roster for forty-eight hours.โ
โTwenty-four,โ he corrects her, his eyes on me. โI only need twenty-four hours. Jarrett can have the other twenty-four.โ
Because Iโll be gone.
โSuit yourself.โ She clamps Jarrett on the shoulder in consolation as he walks by, then follows him out.
Weโre alone.
โYouโre early,โ Xaden says, but the look in his eyes is anything but condemnation.
I lift a brow and try to ignore the way my palms itch to touch him. โIs that a complaint?โ
โNo.โ He shakes his head slowly. โI just wasnโt expecting you until noon.โ
โTurns out Tairn flies pretty damned fast when heโs not being held back by a riot.โ Gods, why is it so hard to breathe suddenly? The air between us is thick, and my heart thrums as my gaze wanders to his mouth.
Heโs killed people for me before, so why is him fighting for a weekend pass stripping every ounce of self-control straight out of my bloodstream?
โViolet.โ Xadenโs voice drops to that low, quiet tone he only ever uses when weโre alone, and usually naked. Very naked.
โHmmm?โ Gods, I miss the feel of all his skin against all of mine.
โTell me whatโs spinning around that beautiful head of yours.โ He moves closer, invading my space without touching me.
Fuck, Iย wantย him to touch me, even if itโs a bad idea. A really,ย reallyย bad idea.
โDoes it hurt?โ I lift my fingertip to the corner of my lip where his is split.
He shakes his head. โIโve had worse. Itโs what I get for blocking with my shields to concentrate on the fight. Otherwise, I would have felt you. Look at me.โ He takes my chin between his thumb and forefinger and gently tilts my head back before searching my eyes. โWhat are you
thinking? Because I can read a lot into the way youโre looking at me, but Iโm going to need the words.โ
I want him. How hard is that to say? My tongue ties. What would giving into this insatiable need for him mean?
That youโre human.
โIโm about three seconds away from carrying you up to my bedroom to continue this conversation.โ His hand slides along my jaw, his thumb caressing my lower lip.
โNot your room.โ I shake my head. โYou. Me. Bed. Not a good idea at the moment.โ Too tempting.
โAs I rememberโwhich I do, oftenโwe donโt always need a bed.โ His other hand palms my waist.
My thighs clench. โViolet?โ
I cannot kiss this man. I canโt. But would it really be the end of the world if I did? Itโs not like it would be the first time. Shit. Iโm going to break. Even if itโs only for this moment.
โHypothetically, if I wanted you to kiss me butย onlyย kiss meโโ I start. His mouth is on mine before I finish.
Yes.ย This is exactly what I need. My lips part for him, and thereโs no hesitation in the glide of his tongue against mine. He groans, and the sound reverberates through my very bones as I wrap my arms around his neck.
Home. Gods, he tastes like home.
I hear the door shut a second before my back is pressed against the rough wall of the chamber. Xaden slides his hands beneath my thighs, then lifts me so weโre level as he lays expert claim to every line and recess of my mouth like this is the only time heโll get. Like kissing me is more vital than his next breath. Or maybe thatโs the way Iโm kissing him back. Whatever. I donโt care who is kissing whom as long as we donโt stop.
I lock my ankles at the small of his back, bringing our bodies flush, and my breath catches at the heat of his skin radiating through the fabric of his uniform and my leathers, and suddenly itโs too much and not enough.
This was a bad idea, a teasing taste of everything I want, and yet I canโt bring myself to stop. Thereโs nothing outside this kiss. No war. No lies. No secrets. Thereโs only his mouth, his hands sweeping up my sides, his desire matching the fire of mine. This is where I want to live, where nothing else matters but the way he makes me feel.
โLike a moth to a damned flame.โย The lament slips from my mind, into our mental pathway. Heโs gravity, pulling me back to him by the force of his existence.
โIโm more than willing to let you burn me.โ
Wait, thatโs not what I meantโ
He cradles the back of my head, protecting me from the coarse stone, and angles for a deeper kiss. Gods, yes.ย Deeper.ย More. I canโt get enough. Iโll never get enough.
Energy arcs between us, hotter with every kiss, every flick of his tongue. Flames of need dance across my skin, leaving chills in their wake before settling deep within me, burning dangerously, reminding me that Xaden knows exactly how to sate this unquenchable desire.
He has the maddening ability to addict and satisfy all in the same breath. My hands slide into his hair as his lips slip down my throat, and my pulse leaps when he finds that sweet spot right above the collar of my flight
jacket, then mercilessly worships it with his mouth.
Iโm instantly liquid, melting into him.
โGods, Iโve missed the taste of you.โย Even his mental voice comes across as a groan.ย โThe feel of you in my arms.โ
I bring my hands to his face and pull him back to my lips. He sucks my tongue into his mouth, and I whimper because I can say the exact same thing about himโIโve missed everything about his taste, his kiss, him.
If any of those buttons on my flight jacket come undone, theyโreย all
coming undone.
The slant of his mouth over mine again and again makes me feel alive for the first time sinceโฆ Gods, I canโt even remember. Since the last time he kissed me.
His hand squeezes my waist gently, then stretches up, the tips of his fingers reaching just beneath my breasts. Fuck it, the jacket can come off. So can the top. The armor. Everything that separates me from him.
I reach for the buttons.
But he eases his kiss, taking it from urgent and deep to thorough and deliciously slow.ย โWe should stop.โ
โWhat if I donโt want to?โย The physical sound that leaves me is pure denial. Iโm not ready for this to end, not ready to return to the reality where weโre not together, even if Iโm the one standing in our way.
โWe have to, or I wonโt be able to keep to theย only kissย limitation of your hypothetical question.โย His hand drifts to my ass as his mouth softens, drawing on my lower lip with one last, lingering kiss.ย โFuck, I want you.โ
โThen donโt stop.โ I look him in the eyes so he knows I mean it. โWe can keep it to nothing but sex. We did last yearโฆ Not that it worked well.โ
โViolet.โ Itโs part plea, part moan, and the war in his eyes makes my chest tighten. โYou have no idea how badly I want to peel these pants off your amazing ass and fuck you until youโre hoarse from screaming my name, so limp from orgasms that you canโt fathom leaving my bed ever again, and every tree around here goes up in flames from lightning strikes.โ His hand slides from behind my head to the nape of my neck. โUntil you remember exactly how good we are together.โ
โI never forgot.โ Itโs a whimper. My body is still humming.
โIโm not talking about physically.โ He leans in and kisses me softly.
Itโs sweet. Tender. Everything Iย donโtย want to feel. Not when it comes to him. Heat and lust, I can cope with. But the rest? โXaden,โ I whisper, shaking my head slowly.
He studies my face for a heartbeat and masks the flash of disappointment with a half smile.
โExactly.โ He gently lowers me back to my feet, then steadies me, holding on to my waist when my knees wobble. โI want you more than my next breath, but I canโt fuck you into looking at me like you used to. I refuse to use sex as a tool to get you back.โ He takes my hand and presses it to my chest. โNot when I want to be here.โ
My eyes widen, and apprehension knots my stomach.
โThatโs what I thought.โ He sighs, but itโs not defeat tightening his mouth. Itโs frustration. โYou still donโt trust me, and thatโs all right. I told you Iโm not in this for a battle. Iโm winning the damned war. Iโm a fucking fool for saying this, but when havenโt I been a fool when it comes to you?โ
โExcuse me?โ I bristle. His memory must be faulty, because Iโm the one whoโs been the fool for him.
โLet me get this out.โ He glances at my mouth. โIโll kiss you whenever you want because my self-control is shit where youโre involvedโโ
โWheneverย Iย want?โ My brows shoot up. What the hell is happening right now?
โYes, wheneverย youย want, because Iโll live with my mouth attached to yours if I do it wheneverย Iย want.โ He retreats a couple of steps, and I immediately miss the feel of his hands, the warmth of his skin. โBut Iโm begging you, Violet. Donโt offer me your body unless youโre offering meย everything. I want you more than I want to fuck you. I want those three little words back.โ
I stare at him, my mouth dropping open slightly. Heโs not asking to hear that I want him. He wants to hear that Iย loveย him.
โItโs new territory for me, too.โ He rakes his hands through his hair. โNo one is more surprised than I am, trust me.โ
โIโm sorry, but werenโt you the one last year who said we could have all the sex we wanted as long as we kept feelings out of it?โ I fold my arms across my chest.
โSee? Fuckingย fool.โ He looks up at the rough-beamed ceiling like it has the answers. โLast year, I would have used any method it took to win you back, but for those three days you were unconscious, all I did was sit there and watch you sleep, thinking of everything I would have done differently.โ Determination is etched on every line of his face when he brings his gaze back to mine. โThis is me doing things differently.โ
Somehow in the last month, weโve managed to switch roles.
โThis is me proving myself to you.โ He steps back and pulls the door open, gesturing for me to walk out first, then rests his hand on the small of
my back as we walk down the hall. โWeโre not there yet, but youโll trust me again at some point.โ
โSure, as soon as you agree to stop keeping secrets from me.โ How the hell is thisย myย fault?
His sigh sounds like itโs ripped out of his very soul. โYou need to trust me evenย withย secrets for this to work.โ
I grab onto the stair railing and take the stairs two at a time. โThatโs not going to happen.โ
โIt will,โ he says as we near the ground floor, then changes the subject. โAre you hungry?โ
โI need to wash up first.โ My nose crinkles. โPretty sure I smell like Iโve been flying eight hours.โ
โWhy donโt you head on into my room, and Iโll bring food.โ His hand slips from my lower back as we make our way into his barracks room. He points to the left and says, โThat door leads to a private bathing chamber.โ
โThereโs no way you got a private bathing chamber as a brand-new lieutenant,โ I sputter. โMira doesnโt even have one.โ
โYouโd be amazed what you can get when no one wants to share space with Fen Riorsonโs son,โ he answers quietly.
My stomach sinks. I canโt think of a single thing to say to that.
โDonโt look so sad. Garrick has to share with four other riders. Go.โ He motions to the door again. โIโll be right back.โ
An hour later, Iโm clean and fed, and Xaden is sitting at his desk, fiddling with something that looks like a crossbow but smaller, as I sit on his bed and run a brush through my damp hair. I canโt help but smile at the steady feeling of whatโs becoming routine, Xaden preparing a weapon while I sit on a bed.
โBut they didnโt search Tairn?โ he asks without looking up.
โNope, just dumped my stuff on the ground.โ My gaze catches momentarily on a palm-size gray stone with a decorative black rune on his nightstand before I spot a piece of grass that made the journey here from the flight field and flick it off my arm. โDid they search Sgaeyl?โ
He shakes his head. โOnly me. And Garrick. And every other new lieutenant leaving Basgiath with a rebellion relic.โ
โThey know youโve been smuggling something out.โ I lean over the edge of the high bed and drop my brush into my bag. โToss me a sharpening stone.โ
โThey suspect.โ He reaches into the top right drawer of his desk, taking out the heavy, gray sharpening stone. He leans over to hand it to me, careful not to brush his fingers along mine, and then goes back to tinkering with his weapon.
โThank you.โ I grip the stone, then take the first knife from my thigh sheath and begin sharpening. Theyโre only as good as they are honed. But no amount of busying my hands is going to make the next question any easier to ask without feeling like Iโm now the one keeping things from Xaden.
I choose my words carefully. โWhen we were at the lake, before Resson, you said the only thing that can kill a venin is what powers the wards.โ
โYes.โ He leans back in his chair, one eyebrow raised, his bow forgotten. โThe daggers are made of the material that powers the wards,โ I guess.
โThe alloy Brennan mentioned.โ
Xaden opens the bottom drawer and moves some things around before pulling out a replica of the dagger I used to kill the venin on Tairnโs back. He walks over to me and holds it out, hilt first.
I take it from his hand, and the weight and hum of power coming from the blade are instantly nauseatingโwhether from the energy or the memory of the last time I held one, Iโm unsure. Either way, I breathe deeply and remind myself Iโm not on Tairnโs back. Thereโs no one trying to kill me or him. Iโm in Xadenโs bedroom. Xadenโs very warded bedroom. Safe. No safer place on the Continent, really.
The blade itself is silver, sharpened on both edges, and the hilt is the same matte black of the one I used in Resson, the same that had been in my motherโs desk last year. I run my finger along the medallion in the hilt thatโs a duller gray and decorated with a rune.
โThat piece is the alloy.โ He sits next to me on the bed. โThe metal in the hilt. Itโs a specific blend of materials smelted into what you see there. Itโs not power in itself, but itโs capable ofโฆholding power. The wards themselves originate from the Vale, near Basgiath, but they only reach so far. Theseโโhe taps the medallionโโhold extra power to boost the wards and extend them. The more material, the stronger the wards. Thereโs an entire armory of them downstairs, boosting the wards. The details are classified, but thatโs why outposts are placed strategically, to keep our borders from developing weak points.โ
โBut how could the wards ever falter if these power them constantly?โ I brush my thumb over the alloy, and my own power rises, charging the air.
โBecause they only hold so much power. Once itโs used, it has to be imbued again.โ
โHold on. Imbued with power?โ
โYes. Imbuing is a process of leaving power in stasis, in an object. A rider has to pour their own power into it, which is a skill not a lot of us have.โ He glances meaningfully at me. โAnd donโt ask. Weโre not getting into how that works tonight.โ
โHave they always been placed in daggers?โ
He shakes his head. โNo. That started right before the rebellion. My guess is Melgren had a vision of how an upcoming battle is going to go and these were central to his victory. Once Sgaeyl chose me at Threshing, we started to work to smuggle out a few daggers at a time to supply what drifts we could make friendly contact with.โ
โAretia needs a forge to smelt the alloy, to make more weapons.โ
โYes. It takes a dragon to fire a crucible, which we have, and a luminary to intensify dragonfire hot enough to smelt,โ he says.
I nod, staring at the thumb-size medallion. How can something so small be the key to our entire continentโs survival? โSo you just put the alloy into a dagger and get an instant venin killer?โ
A smile tugs at his mouth. โItโs a little more complicated than that.โ
โWhat do you think came first?โ I ask, studying the dagger. โThe wards?
Or the ability to boost them? Or are they intertwined?โ
โThatโs all classified.โ He takes the dagger back and returns it to the desk drawer. โSo how about we work onย yourย shields instead of worrying about Navarreโs?โ
I yawn. โIโm tired.โ
โAetos wonโt care.โย He slides into my mind easily.
โFine.โ I lean back, bracing my weight on my palms, and build my mental shields quickly, block by block. โDo your worst.โ
His smile makes me regret the challenge.