I wake up on my stomach.
My face is buried in the pillows, my arms hugging their soft contours. I blink steadily, my bleary eyes taking in my surroundings, trying to remember where I am. I squint into the brightness of the day. My hair falls into my face as I lift my head to look around.
โGood morning.โ
I startle for no good reason, sitting up too quickly and clutching a pillow to my chest for an equally inexplicable reason. Warner is standing at the foot of the bed, fully dressed. Heโs wearing black pants and a slate-green sweater that clings to the shape of his body, the sleeves pushed up his forearms. His hair is perfect. His eyes are alert, awake, impossibly brightened by the green of his shirt. And heโs holding a steaming mug in his hand. Smiling at me.
I offer him a limp wave.
โCoffee?โ he asks, offering me the mug.
I stare at it, doubtful. โIโve never had coffee before.โ
โIt isnโt terrible,โ he says with a shrug. โDelalieu is obsessed with it.
Isnโt that right, Delalieu?โ
I jerk backward on the bed, my head nearly hitting the wall behind me.
An older, kindly-looking gentleman smiles at me from the corner of the room. His thin brown hair and twitchy mustache look vaguely familiar to me, as if Iโve seen him on base before. I notice heโs standing next to a breakfast cart. โItโs a pleasure to officially meet you, Miss Ferrars,โ he says. His voice is a little shaky, but not at all intimidating. His eyes are unexpectedly sincere. โThe coffee really is quite good,โ he says. โI have it every day. Though I always have m-mine withโโ
โCream and sugar,โ Warner says with a wry smile, his eyes laughing as if at some private joke. โYes. Though Iโm afraid the sugar is a bit too much
for me. I find I prefer the bitterness.โ He glances at me again. โThe choice is yours.โ
โWhatโs going on?โ I ask.
โBreakfast,โ Warner says, his eyes revealing nothing. โI thought you might be hungry.โ
โItโs okay that heโs here?โ I whisper, knowing full well that Delalieu can hear me. โThat he knows Iโm here?โ
Warner nods. Offers me no other explanation. โOkay,โ I tell him. โIโll try the coffee.โ
I crawl across the bed to reach for the mug, and Warnerโs eyes follow my movements, traveling from my face to the shape of my body to the rumpled pillows and sheets beneath my hands and knees. When he finally meets my eyes he looks away too quickly, handing me the mug only to put an entire room between us.
โSo how much does Delalieu know?โ I ask, glancing at the older gentleman.
โWhat do you mean?โ Warner raises an eyebrow.
โWell, does he know that Iโm leaving?โ I raise an eyebrow, too. Warner stares. โYou promised youโd get me off base,โ I say to him, โand Iโm hoping Delalieu is here to help you with that. Though if itโs too much trouble, Iโm always happy to take the window.โ I cock my head. โIt worked out well the last time.โ
Warner narrows his eyes at me, his lips a thin line. Heโs still glaring when he nods at the breakfast cart beside him. โThis is how weโre getting you out of here today.โ
I choke on my first sip of coffee. โWhat?โ
โItโs the easiest, most efficient solution,โ Warner says. โYouโre small and lightweight, you can easily fold yourself into a tight space, and the cloth panels will keep you hidden from sight. Iโm often working in my room,โ he says. โDelalieu brings me my breakfast trays from time to time. No one will suspect anything unusual.โ
I look at Delalieu for some kind of confirmation. He nods eagerly.
โHow did you get me here in the first place?โ I ask. โWhy canโt we just do the same thing?โ
Warner studies one of the breakfast plates. โIโm afraid that option is no longer available to us.โ
โWhat do you mean?โ My body seizes with a sudden anxiety. โHow did you get me in here?โ
โYou werenโt exactly conscious,โ he says. โWe had to be a little more
โฆ creative.โ โDelalieu.โ
The old man looks up at the sound of my voice, clearly surprised to be addressed so directly. โYes, miss?โ
โHow did you get me into the building?โ
Delalieu glances at Warner, whose gaze is now firmly fixed on the wall. Delalieu looks at me, offers me an apologetic smile. โWeโwell, we carted you in,โ he says.
โHow?โ
โSir,โ Delalieu says suddenly, his eyes imploring Warner for direction. โWe brought you in,โ Warner says, stifling a sigh, โin a body bag.โ My limbs go stiff with fear. โYouย what?โ
โYou were unconscious, love. We didnโt have many options. I couldnโt very well carry you onto base in my arms.โ He shoots me a look. โThere were many casualties from the battle,โ he says. โOn both sides. A body bag was easily overlooked.โ
Iโm gaping at him.
โDonโt worry.โ He smiles. โI cut some holes in it for you.โ โYouโre so thoughtful,โ I snap.
โIt was thoughtful,โ I hear Delalieu say. I look at him to find heโs watching me in shock, appalled by my behavior. โOur commander was saving your life.โ
I flinch.
I stare into my coffee cup, heat coloring my cheeks. My conversations with Warner have never had an audience before. I wonder what our interactions must look like to an outside observer.
โItโs all right, Lieutenant,โ Warner says. โShe tends to get angry when sheโs terrified. Itโs little more than a defense mechanism. The idea of being folded into such a small space has likely triggered her claustrophobic tendencies.โ
I look up suddenly.
Warner is staring directly at me, his eyes deep with an unspoken understanding.
I keep forgetting that Warner is able to sense emotions, that he can always tell what Iโm really feeling. And he knows me well enough to be able to put everything into context.
Iโm utterly transparent to him.
And somehowโright now, at leastโIโm grateful for it. โOf course, sir,โ Delalieu says. โMy apologies.โ
โFeel free to shower and change,โ Warner says to me. โI left some clothes for you in the bathroomโno dresses,โ he says, fighting a smile. โWeโll wait here. Delalieu and I have a few things to discuss.โ
I nod, untangling myself from the bedsheets and stumbling to my feet. I tug on the hem of my T-shirt, self-conscious all of a sudden, feeling rumpled and disheveled in front of these two military men.
I stare at them for a moment.
Warner gestures to the bathroom door.
I take the coffee with me as I go, wondering all the while who Delalieu is and why Warner seems to trust him. I thought he said all of his soldiers wanted him dead.
I wish I could listen in on their conversation, but theyโre both careful to say nothing until the bathroom door shuts behind me.