โSo, did you hear about Thanksgiving?โ Finny says. Heโs lining up his pool cue with the white ball. He shoots and breaks the triangle in the center of the table. Balls roll in every direction. One falls into the left pocket.
โDoes that one count?โ I say. Finny shrugs and motions for me to shoot. โWe might as well count it since youโre going to win anyway.โ
โYou donโt know that,โ he says.
โYeah, I do.โ I lean over and try to position myself the way he did. โDonโt hold it so high in the back,โ he says. โDonโt hunch either.โ I
shoot anyway and hit the ball on the side. It bounces off the rim and hits the floor. Finny grabs it and places it back on the table. He opens his mouth to explain to me what I did wrong.
โWhat were you saying about Thanksgiving?โ I say. He looks down and begins to line up for his next shot.
โMy father wants me to come over to his place and meet his wife and daughter.โ He shoots and the white ball hits the one I think he was aiming for, but it doesnโt go in the hole.
โYou have a sister?โ I say. My chest feels hot and my stomach sinks. Finny shrugs, and anyone else would think that he could care less. I know he cares. And itโs another connection to rival mine. First Sylvie and now this sister.
โWhatโs her name?โ โElizabeth.โ
โHow old is she?โ
โSheโs four,โ he says. I relax a little bit.
โHow long have you known about her? Why didnโt you tell me?โ He looks up at me again. Weโre standing across from each other, on different sides of the table, pool sticks in hand. Around us, other conversations buzz, and balls clack against each other. I know why he didnโt tell me, because we were hardly speaking to each other when she was born. He doesnโt bother reminding me though.
โYour turn,โ he says.
โSo, you wonโt be with us on Thanksgiving?โ I say. I shoot and the white ball hits the orange number six, which clacks uselessly against the wall and rolls to a stop.
โNo, I will,โ he says. โIโm supposed to come over later in the evening, for cocktails and leftovers.โ
โOh,โ I say. He shoots, and another ball rolls into the pocket. โYou look relieved,โ he says. He smiles.
โWould you want to be alone with them all day?โ Finny shrugs. I lean over and try to aim.
โStop,โ he says. โI canโt take it.โ โWhat?โ
He doesnโt answer, but walks around the table and stands behind me. He lays his hands over mine. They are dry and warm. His hip presses against mine.
โLike this,โ he says. He adjusts my hands. I close my eyes. We are still.
His hands press against mine. I take a breath. I hear the clack of the balls.
โOops,โ Finny says. I open my eyes. The ball we were aiming for bounces off the side and rolls slowly to a stop. We straighten and step away from each other.
โI guess Iโm too big of a screw-up even for you to fix,โ I say. He doesnโt answer me or move to take his aim. โFinny?โ I say. He blinks.
โThat wasnโt your fault,โ he says. โIt was mine.โ He hands me the cue again.