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โShit,โ Rio mutters after Francesca leaves, his movements quickening.
My brows plunge, and my heart picks up speed from his obvious concern. โClaire?โ Whoโs Claire?โ
He glances at me, and I watch him visibly shut down, like pulling a string and the blinds slamming over his eyes. Whoever Claire is, sheโs to be feared.
Ignoring me, Rio finishes bandaging me up, and then grabs my arm and forces me into an upright position. He walks to my dresser and opens the drawers, throwing random articles of clothes at me.
โWhatโRio, what the fuck is wrong with you?โ I snap, a shirt smacking me directly in the face.
โClaire is the one who put the target on your head,โ he says, keeping his voice an octave above a whisper. Then, he walks to me and helps me slip into my clothing like Iโm a toddler, but Iโm too scatter-brained to stop him. My heart thuds heavily, panic circulating throughout my system.
Iโve no idea who the fuck this woman is, but itโs clear she has some type of connection with Zade. Thatโs the only reason a random woman would put a target on my head, right?
However, I swear Iโve met a Claire beforeโฆ but my brain is too muddled to recall where and what she looked like. Or her significance to me or Zade.
He grabs me by the shoulders, his face severe. โBe very careful with that mouth of yours,ย princesa. Matter of fact, keep it shut.โ
I tighten my lips and nod my head. Lately, Iโve been too tiredโtooย weak
โto fight back. I walked into this house with my fire lit, and within two months, the proverbial fingers have pinched the flame, leaving only a trail of smoke behind.
All I need is a spark, and maybeโฆ maybe it can be reignited.
My stomach twists with anxiety as I follow Rio down the hallway. A dull ache throbs between my thighs, reminding me with every step of what Iโm desperately trying to forget. Something Xavier aims explicitly for. Itโs also a reminder that Zade may not want me anymoreโsomething Iโve come to terms with already. I never thought Iโd want to lose his obsessionโฆ but how could I not? Iโm filthy now.
Rio walks ahead of me without a glance, tightening the knot forming in my stomach. Thereโs an ice-cold fortress shrouded around him, as solid as the tension in his shoulders. It feels as if heโs distancing himself from me because Iโm about to be sent off to war, and heโs never going to see me again.
Some days, I still hate him for what heโs done to me, but I wonโt lie to myself and say that we havenโt built a bond, either. Heโs been an emotional crutch for me these last two months, and Iโve begun to figure him out by now. If heโs acting this way, itโs for a reason.
And that makes me really fucking nervous.
I pad down the stairs, quiet voices rising from the living room. Rocco stands in the kitchen, drinking a glass of water and staring at me with his beady little eyes.
I keep my head down, watching my bare feet travel across the dirty floor. I just cleaned it two days ago, but Rocco and his friends act like thereโs glass on the floor and insist on wearing their muddy boots around the house.
My eyes focus on a perfect set of footprints that trail into the living room, leading right to two sets of heels. The new incomer has mud caked on her shoes, too. How fucking rude.
A throat softly clears, and I finally lift my stare. Immediately, I regret it. The shock of who Iโm looking at nearly knocks me right onto the dirty footprints.
Claireโฆ Iโve definitely met her before. Sheโs Markโs wife. The senator who had tried to abduct me before, and the one Zade viciously murdered the night of Satanโs Affair.
I remember meeting her the night Mark invited us to a charity event at his house. She was frail, subdued, and seemed so nice.
Why didย sheย put a target on my head? Out of revenge for her husband? That has to be it. Zade murdered Mark, so now sheโs taking her anger out
on him by getting me kidnapped and sold.
But Jesus, whatโs there to be mad about? The man obviously abused her. โHello, Adeline,โ Claire greets, smiling at me behind her red lipstick.
She looks significantly different than the first time I met her. Not because of her appearanceโshe still has bright red hair curled perfectly around her face and a beautiful, albeit aging, appearance.
Itโs because she looksโฆ happy. Like sheโs thriving. She doesnโt look upset or distraught over the death of her husband.
Iโm muddled with surprise and confusion, so it takes me a moment to say, โHi, Claire.โ
She clasps her black-gloved hands together and takes a step towards me. โI know youโre probably very confused, my dear,โ she starts. โAnd Iโm terribly sorry you were brought into the middle of all this.โ She waves a
hand, indicating โall thisโ as the house Iโm currently being held captive in.
Letโs not pretend that I wouldnโt have been taken anyway.
But I keep quiet, not sure how exactly Iโm supposed to respond to that.
Wave a hand and sayย aw, shucks, itโs all right. Iโm having the time of my life.
โItโs very unfortunate you got involved with someone such as Z. He came in and wrecked your life like a bull in a china shop, didnโt he?โ
Yes. Yes, he did.
โI suppose so,โ I admit.
โHeโs caused a lot of trouble for me as of late. Most recently, gratuitously murdering several important buyers at an auction house, then stealing the girls.โ
My heart drops into my stomach, sending the butterflies inside scattering. Tears burn behind my eyes, but I force them down. Hearing about Zade, and the havoc heโs wreaking isโฆ God, itโs almost comforting. In a way, the people in my life before I was taken have begun to feel like ghosts rather than real, living people. Zade, Daya, my momโฆ none of them feel absolute anymore.
But Claire telling me about the trouble Zade is causing makes him feel real again. And I didnโt realize how much I needed that.
โHe took Jillian and Gloria?โ I ask, my voice raspy with unshed tears. My chest is cracking wide open with countless emotions, and at the forefront of it all is relief.
โThat he did. And Iโm not going to allow that to happen with you. Thereโs been a change in plans, so I figured Iโd take this opportunity to see the precious diamond in the flesh once more before youโre shipped off. Whatever luck Jillian and Gloria have on their sideโis not on yours.โ
My throat dries. โIโm not being auctioned off?โ
โOf course not, dear. You were never going to be.โ
Did Francesca know this? Since I arrived, sheโs been telling me that Iโd be auctioned, yet she doesnโt appear surprised by the news.
When I just stare at Claire blankly, she continues, โA very intelligent and resourceful man has attached himself to you. Which means that he will have the capabilities to find you once you step foot outside of this property.โ
That knowledge kicks my heart up a notch, swirling with a burst of excitement. Obviously, Zade knows how to find people. I assume itโs only taken him this long because Iโve been locked inside a house in the middle of nowhere for over two months. Finding a lead on me is probably next to impossible, but the second they take me out of here, theyโll no longer have that advantage.
โFrancesca has informed me that a very high-profile buyer has set his eyes on you. So, in order to keep you hidden, we will be conducting a direct sale.โ
My mouth parts, and Iโm honestly unsure of how to feel. A direct sale will give them plenty of opportunity to conceal me, but Iโve never had any intention of hiding.
Heart thudding, I nod my head. โOkay,โ I say.
She smiles condescendingly, as if Iโm a child agreeing to go to bed when I never really had a choice anyway. I suppose that wouldnโt be wrong.
โXavier has already paid for you and will collect you in three days. Francesca will continue to prepare you for your new life, providing you with all the knowledge you need to ensure you and Xavier live happy lives together.โ
Ah. Claire is just as psychotic as Mark.
Maybe sheโs a byproduct of Markโs abuse, maybe not. Regardless, sheโs no better than her husband. Her pain does not justify inflicting pain on others. Not like this.
โFrancesca and I will go over the details. Nothing for you to concern yourself with. I just wanted to deliver the good news to you myself,โ she
goes on, her eyes glittering with delight. They are what stars look like when they die. No life left in them yet blazing with a light that ensures everything in its path will die, too.
I had hoped with being auctioned that Iโd be able to make a run for it, or ensure my face was seen on a camera, at the very least. Maybe steal a phone and send a textโanything to give Zade a location. Those options wonโt be as easy now, but still not impossible.
I lick my dry, cracked lips and meet the twin dead stars in her skull. โCan I ask one thing?โ I ask softly.
Her red lips flatten, but she nods her head. โCan I ask why?โ
Francesca hisses, but Claire holds up a hand, silencing her. That alone is satisfying to watch. She takes a few steps toward me.
โWhen someone as beautiful as you catches our attention, itโs hard to look away. Normally, I prefer to plant someone in your life. A boyfriend, if you will. Someone you would fall in love with and trust. They wouldโve handled you, and you wouldโve been able to have some sort of freedom, while also bringing in money. However, you got someone elseโs attention first, and suddenly, you became so much more valuable.โ
My brows knit, and itโs hard to swallow. Itโs not hard to conclude that Claire is just like Mark. Someone who finds women and children and brings them to the Society. But the way she speaksโฆ
โThis trade, thisย worldโI own it. I own it all,โ Claire supplies. โI am the Society, dear. Me and my two associates. Mark thought he was the man in our marriage, but he never knew that I was the one pulling the strings all along. Zade did me a favor by getting rid of that scumbag, despite how fun it was to hang my husband by the balls. Iโm not angry because your boyfriend killed my husband. Iโm angry because heโs attempting to ruin what Iโve worked hard to build. The sad, little lives you all live are my empire. Iโll be damned ifย Zย tries to take that from me.โ She spits out his name like itโs a bug that flew into her mouth, ire and disgust twisting her features.
All I can do is stare at her in utter disbelief. Confounded that Claire is the ultimate puppeteer. The presidentโshit,ย allย of the world leadersโ theyโre guppies compared to her.
Taking advantage of my speechlessness, she turns to Francesca. โLetโs have a chat, Franny. We have some things to discuss.โ
Francesca smiles graciously at Claire. โOf course!โ She turns to me, her smile dropping long enough to say, โGo back to your room and donโt come out until dinner.โ And then sheโs back to smiling at Claire again.
Her face must hurt from all that exercise itโs getting.
Nodding, I pivot on my heels and hurry towards the stairs. Rio stands at the doorway to the kitchen, hands threaded behind his back. Briefly, we make eye contact, but for the life of me, I canโt decipher the emotion swirling in his dark irises. He stays behind, but Iโm glad for it. Being confined to my room is exactly what I need right now so I can adequately plan my escape.
Xavier was right about one thingโthe Culling is a double-edged sword.
It taught me how to run, and thatโs precisely what I plan on doing.
Hot breath fans across my face, disturbing the deep sleep Iโve fallen into.
I twitch, feeling strands of hair tickle my nose.
It takes me several seconds to pull myself out of the weird dream I was having. With reality setting in, so does a sense of animosity and danger, and it takes another few seconds to realize someone is breathing in my face.
Immediately, my instincts blare on red alert, adrenaline and fear flooding my system.
Slowly, I crack open my eyes, then choke on a startled scream, my eyes rounding into discs when I see Sydney standing above me, her face mere inches away from mine.
Her eyes are wide, a psychotic glimmer in them as she stares down at me with a crazed smile. Sheโs breathing heavily, little sounds of excitement bubbling out of her throat with each exhale.
I press myself deeper into the bed, my heart tearing through my chest as I struggle to find my breath.
โWhat the fuck, Sydney?โ I gasp, attempting to keep my voice down but failing.
Iโm seconds away from releasing my bladder all over the bed, my horror growing as she climbs on top of me, her blonde strands brushing across my face and blocking my vision.
My body moves on instinct, I kick my feet on the bed, attempting to gain traction and slide myself upright, but her hands wrap around my throat, holding me in place. Sheโs not cutting off my air supply yet, but I panic anyway, all of those moves I learned from Zade evading me.
โI know what youโre going to do,โ she whispers. I almost miss what she says, with my heart thudding loudly in my ears.
โYouโre going to try to escape, and Iโm going to tell them,โ she breathes, giggling maniacally when I flail against her. โAnd hopefully they fucking kill you for it.โ
Her hands begin to tighten further, and finallyโfucking finallyโmy training kicks in. I shoot my arm up between hers and twist my body with all my strength, sending her flying off the side of the bed.
The impact is loud, and we both freeze, waiting to hear if anyone woke. Francesca stays on the bottom floor on the opposite side of the house, but that doesnโt mean we canโt be heard.
There are also always two or three men standing guard outside of the house, ensuring none of us try to run.
Sydneyโs eyes narrow, and I know sheโs about to attack again. My legs are tangled in the blankets, so I react first, freeing my legs and then diving towards the end of the bed.
She charges at me, wrapping a hand around my ankle and attempting to drag me back. I kick out hard, and her grip loosens enough for me to break free and scramble off the other side of the bed.
Slowly, she stands, her chin dipped low as she stares up at me with pure evil as we face off on either side of the bed.
โWhat the fuck is your problem?โ I whisper-shout.
โI know what you have planned, and Iโm not going to let it happen.โ
It takes effort to keep my eyes from widening, and the stricken look off my face.
โI donโt have anything planned,โ I vehemently deny.
She ignores me. โYou donโt get to be treated better than the rest of us, then escape your fate,โ she growls.
โTreated better?โ I echo on a bewildered laugh. โYouโve been getting me in trouble since I got here!โ
โAnd yet she still loves you more,โ she hisses back. I shake my head, absolutely astonished that she believes that. Francesca sees me as a dollar signโa substantial one. She doesnโt love anyone more than herself.
โMaybe sheย wouldย love you if you didnโt act like a fucking psycho bitch,โ I clip, growing angry. She begins to circle the bed toward me, and I realize belatedly that Iโm cornered.
โIโm telling Francesca about your plans,โ she says, ignoring my jab.
โWhat plans?โ I ask, playing stupid and hoping she doesnโt actually know a damn thing. For the past two months, Iโve been working out different ways to escape once Iโm taken out of here, and after Claire blindsided me last night, I came up with a few ideas that could work now that Iโm no longer being auctioned. But Sydney is about to fucking ruin them.
She points to my floor, and my face drops in horror. My head snaps back to her in shock.
โHow did you know about that?โ
She shrugs, a joyous grin curling her lips. Gradually, a sick realization sets in.
She was the person standing inside the wall, watching me sleep that night. She mustโve hid when I spotted her, then resumed watching me when I found the journal.
Jesus, how long has she been reading it? And how often has she watched me fucking sleep?
โHow did you get behind the wall?โ
She shrugs, grinning wildly. โThereโs a lot of things you donโt know about this house,ย diamond.ย I know everyoneโs secrets, including Francescaโs. Why do you think sheโs allowed me to stay for so long?โ
โWhat secrets?โ
โLike Iโd ever tell you,โ she scoffs.
Iโve no idea what she could possibly have on Francesca, but I donโt care. What Iย doย know is that one of us is not walking out of this room alive tonight.
If Francesca finds out Iโm planning to escape and how, theyโll do everything in their power to make sure I never get away
Not going to fucking happen.
Theyโll have to lock me in a submarine in the middle of the goddamn ocean to keep me away from Zade.
I stand in the corner of the room, while she lingers at the edge of my bed, possibly sensing the conclusion Iโve come to. Whether itโs because she notes the determination that must be etched into my expression, or the fact that Iโm not leaping over the bed to escape.
Time slows for a few seconds, both of us still. And then weโre springing into action simultaneously. She charges for me while I dart toward my nightstand. I hoarded a couple of pens in the drawer in the case I ran out of ink, and now, theyโre the only things that may save my life. Not from Sydneyโbut from Xavier.
She grabs ahold of my hair just as I rip open the drawer and locate one of them, my fingers curling around it while she swings me towards the wall. I crash into it painfully, the back of my fist swinging out sightlessly to dislodge her from my hair.
Teeth sink into my shoulder, clamping down with all her strength. A high-pitched yelp escapes past my lips. I bite back the scream threatening to rip from my throat, feeling blood spurting from around her teeth.
Blinded with pain, I raise my hand and stab the pen anywhere I can reach, feeling the pen sink past flesh and sinew. She releases me with a strangled yelp, but before she can move away, I grab ahold of her and send us both careening to the ground, no longer caring if weโre caught.
Fuckย this bitch.
We roll for a few seconds, fighting for control. I manage to gain purchase and twist on top of her, using one hand to slap away her claws, and the other to plunge the pen into her neck. My hand slips, the pen slick from her blood as I impale it into flesh.
Her nails rake across my face, leaving stinging trails, but they fade into the background as I keep stabbing her blindly, managing to hold on to the slippery pen only by sheer determination. Over and over, I stab her, exhaustion sinking into my bones quickly, but pure adrenaline and panic keep me going. Finally, she goes limp, blood pooling around us.
Iโm panting heavily, soaked in blood, and delirious from the adrenaline. My body is going into shock, and all five of my senses are on lockdown, nothing penetrating past the shroud of numbness.
I just gaze down at her body, now riddled with holes. She stares sightlessly up at the ceiling, and I find that her eyes donโt look any different than when she was alive.
My door creaks open, and Rio rushes in. He stops in his tracks when he sees Sydney on the ground and me straddling her, painted in crimson. Itโsโฆ warm. I think I feel warm.
โFuck,ย princesa. What did you do?โ
I barely hear him, only interpreting his words from the way his lips move. I point at her, and croak, โI killed her.โ
He quietly steps in and shuts the door, but not before peeking out to see if anyone else is coming.
The soft click is inaudible to the typhoon raging in my ears. He keeps his steps light as he comes around the other side of the bed to get a better look. His lips form a circle, and he must whistle, but I donโt hear that either.
All I can do is stare.
โCome here,โ he mouths, waving me towards him. Blinking, I stand on quaking knees and manage a single step before slipping on the blood, barely catching myself on the bed. Rioโs hand grips my arm and pulls me up and away from the growing pool.
He grips my face in his palms, his dark eyes searching mine. And then he slaps me hard enough to knock my head to the side. The white noise bleeds into a sharp ring, and then all my senses come rushing back in. I hear, see, feel, taste, and smell everything.
Copper. Thatโs the first thing my senses notice. And then Rio is gripping my face again, forcing my concentration back to him.
โLook at me,ย mamรก. What the fuck are you going to do now, huh?โ I open my mouth, at a loss for words. Finally, I just say, โEscape.โ
He shakes his head, drops his hands, and steps away. He stares at me, but as usual, I canโt decipher the emotion churning in his irises.
โI shouldnโt have said that,โ I whisper, realization dawning that heโs not going to let me. Fuck. The situation catches up to me all at once, and I enter into panic mode.
I killed Sydney because she was going to out my escape plan, and now Iโm going to be locked in a submarine somewhere, forced to live out my life alongside the fish.
With Rio catching me in the actโany chance of escape just went to complete shit and now Iโm never going to get the fuck out of here. Rio isnโt going to let me go. Thereโs no fucking way. Hisย sisterย is on the line.
โShit,โ I mutter, uncaring of my bloody hands and sliding them through my hair, pulling tight as I try to come to terms with being caught before Iโve even stepped foot out of the fucking house. โI canโt live with the fish, Rio. I donโt like sharks.โ
Rioโs brows plunge. โThe fuck are you talking about?โ โShit, shit, shit. Fuckโโ
Muttering something Spanish beneath his breath, he grabs my arms and brings me in close.
โAs much as I appreciate the vocabulary lesson, Iโm going to need you to shut the hell up,โ he cuts in. โLook at me.โ
I do, but my thoughts are elsewhere.
โYou need to tell me how the hell you would even escape. Your two options are acres of forest that you will get lost and probably die in or walk a road that you can be easily found on.โ
I drop my hands and clench them into fists in an attempt to abate the shaking. The volcano has fucking erupted, and Iโm still vibrating from the aftershocks.
โThereโs an abandoned train somewhere out there. I found it the night of the Culling. I was going to follow that out,โ I say. In the back of my brain, my logical side is screaming at me to stop telling him my plans in case he betrays me. But the larger side of me wants to trust Rio. So fucking badly, just this once.
โAnd the guards outside?โ he questions, voice low.
I shake my head, a tear wiggling free. โI donโt know,โ I cry. โI donโtโ thereโs no wayโ”
โShut up,ย stรบpido,โ he barks again, keeping his voice quiet. โIโm going to go downstairs, and Iโll take care of the guards. Iโll leave the front door unlocked. Whatever you decide to do, and wherever you go, thatโs your decision.โ
A knot forms between my brow, and it takes several seconds to wrangle my scattered thoughts back into one direction.
โRio, you canโt,โ I protest. โYou canโt risk your sisterโs life for me.โ
The muscle in his jaw pulsates, and his dark eyes bore into mine. Iโve no idea what the hell heโs thinking.
He swallows. โIโll figure something out with her. I think I know where she is.โ
Then, it clicks.
โLetโs make a deal,โ I rush out. โYou help me get out of here, Z will save your sister. Tell me her name and where she is, and he will get her out.โ
His mouth opens and closes, and for the first time, Iโve made Rio speechless.
โYou have yourself a deal.โ
โWait, my tracking device. I-I canโt leave with it in me.โ
โTurn around,โ he demands, swirling his finger. Biting my lip, I do as he says, shivering when he roughly sweeps my hair to the side.
โHow areโโ A sharp gasp cuts off my question when I feel something sharp slice and dig into the back of my neck.
โJesus,ย a fucking warning next time,โ I spit, cringing as the tip of the blade digs into my skin.
โHeโs not here,ย mamรก, but I am. And I need you to stop wiggling.โ
I huff, feeling warm liquid trailing down my back from the wound, and after several painful seconds, the metal pops out. He flicks the device onto my bed and then leans in, his breath brushing across the shell of my ear.
โKaterina Sanchez, sheโs fifteen years old. I believe sheโs with a groomer by the name of Lillian Berez. Last time I saw a picture of her was three months ago, and she was standing in front of a sunflower field.โ
He releases me, and steps away while I turn to face him. โThank you,โ I say quietly. โIโll make sure sheโs safe.โ
He gives me a look that tells me heโll figure out a way to haunt me if I donโt. Maybe heโll come to Parsons and join the rest of the ghosts in my house.
โOne of Roccoโs friends is sleeping on the couch. Be quiet, and it should be fine. Heโs out cold from the drugs.โ
โOkay,โ I nod, feeling a burst of gratitude that Iโve no idea how the fuck to express. Heโll probably smack me if I try. Rio hates any type of appreciation as much as he does attention. And maybe thatโs more because he hates himself.
โTell your man to give me a head start, yeah?โ he says, backing away.
I frown. โRun fast.โ
Slowly, his tongue swipes along his bottom lip, and his gaze drifts over me one last time as if committing me to memory.
โBye,ย princesa.โ
โBye, Rio,โ I whisper.
And then he leaves, his footsteps silent.
I donโt waste another second. I rush over to my dresserโwhich happens to be right by Sydneyโs bodyโslipping and sliding in the blood coating my feet. I tear through the drawers and hastily pull on a long-sleeved shirt and then a sweatshirt. I grab a pair of socks next, round the bed, and start wiping the bottoms of my feet as best as I can on the thin blanket.
I pull my socks and shoes on next, grab my journal from the floorboard, and quietly make my way down the steps.
Fear has kept me in my bedroom at night. It prevented me from going down the steps and out the front door, knowing that there was going to be someone outside waiting for me.
Itโs controlled me for over two months, kept me compliant, and now I no longer have that option. Iโve killed someone, and if I donโt leave, Iโll be next. No, Iโll be praying for it, but I know they wouldnโt let death embrace me so easily.
I snag a grocery bag under the sink, cringing every time it crinkles. Then, I find a few bottles of water in the cabinet and a box of granola bars. Itโll have to be enough. I canโt afford any more weight than that. Next, I slide open the drawer and grab two large knives for protection.
My plan is to make it to the tracks and then follow them out of here. Hopefully, Iโll find shelter in one of the trailers when I need to take a break. Iโm anticipating that theyโll assume I took the road and focus their search party in that direction when they find me missing.
They see me as a diamond because I have Zadeโs love, but they fail to remember thatโs what forged me into a stone so unbreakable. Heโs taught me a lot about myself and who I really am. But most importantly, heโs taught me how to persevere.
Just as Iโm leaving the kitchen, I hear a loud snore, and I pause, my heart picking up speed. Roccoโs friends tend to stay the night when they get too fucked up, and I imagine itโd take a stampede of elephants to wake them.
But I canโt be too sureโit just depends on the amount of drugs that are running through their systems.
Peeking around past the entryway, I see a grungy man laid out on the couch, mouth half-open. Itโs Jerry. Heโs one of the regulars here and also one of the more vindictive ones when Sydney and I receive punishments.
Thereโs a small part of me tempted to walk over and stab one of my knives into his throat, yet I canโt bring myself to do it. Despite how badly I want to murder every single person in this house, Iโm not a ruthless killer like Zade.
At least, I didnโt use to be. I guess Iโm not so sure anymore.
Heart in my throat, I slowly and silently make my way towards the door, jumping when one of his snores is particularly loud and obnoxious.
Iโm halfway through the room when I hear my plastic bag give out, and one of the water bottles breaks right through, loudly smacking off the floor and rolling several feet.
Just barely, I bite back a gasp, trapping it on the tip of my tongue right alongside my erratic heartbeat. My wide eyes snap to Jerry. His snores have cut off, but he appears to be sleeping still.
A dangerous amount of adrenaline is coursing through my bloodstream, and my vision goes spotty from how hard my heart is pounding.
I cup the bottom of the bag and tiptoe to the water bottle, cringing when the sack crinkles in my hand. Then I crouch down and grab the water bottle, keeping my movements slow.
Screwing my eyes shut, it takes several seconds to try and calm my heartbeat. My hands are clammy, and sweat is breaking out alongside my hairline and lower back. I donโt think Iโve ever been this fucking terrified, and Iโm too consumed in it to feel any type of thrill. Itโs just thatโฆ pure terror.
Breathing out softly, I stand again and try to recover the bottom of the bag, but before I can, another water bottle slips through, once more crashing to the floor.
I choke, and as if moving through molasses, I lift my head to look at Jerry.
His eyes are wide open and pinned directly on me.
For several beats, we just stare at one another, suspended in time.
โWhat do you think youโre doing?โ he asks, sitting up and swinging his legs over the edge of the couch.
I can barely hear past the thrum of my pulse, and my vision tunnels, on the verge of blacking out from the fear. If he calls out for Rocco or Francesca, Iโm done for.ย Rioโsย done for if they find out he was involved. Then, his sister will be sold, and Iโll never get out of hereโ
Focus, little mouse.
Swallowing, I straighten, deciding that keeping my mouth shut for now is the best option. I have no explanation.
โYou trying to escape, diamond?โ
I shake my head, eyes widening further as he stands, and starts walking toward me. Instinctively, I take a step back, kicking the fallen water bottle.
โThen you want to explain what the fuck youโre doing?โ
Once more, I shake my head. The only excuse that comes to mind is that I was bringing snacks to the guards. Which is honestly laughable, and the last thing I want this man to do is fucking laugh. He certainly wouldnโt be quiet about it considering heโs always been the loudest one in the group.
He pauses, scanning over my form, and the moment I see the spark in his dark eyes, I know precisely what the fucker has planned. A slow, insidious smile grows on his face.
โCome here,โ he directs.
All I can do is shake my head again, like a broken toy that can only perform one trick.
He snarls, snapping his hand out and seizing me by the arm. I wince as he tugs me into him, my senses overwhelmed by body odor, stale cigarettes, and rank breath.
โYou fucking listen to what I tell you to do, diamond, or Iโll have Rocco come out and join in on the fun. Which do you prefer, huh? Me, or both of us?โ he spits harshly, though keeping his tone hushed. It would seem he wants me to himself, so heโll stay quiet for now.
Tears burn the backs of my eyes, and I nod my head quickly, hoping to assuage him. The drugs tend to get them riled up, and their tempers are unpredictable.
โGood girl,โ he croons, loosening his grip. โI want you to turn around, push down those pants, and touch your toes. I want to fuck you from behind.โ
My mind races as I pivot, keeping my movements slow as I try to figure out what the hell Iโm going to do. Thereโs no way Iโm just going to let this asshole rape me again.
He nudges me firmly, โHurry up.โ
โLet me set my bag down first,โ I whisper, voice shaky. He harrumphs but doesnโt protest, so I bend down, deftly grab the knife and slide it out, hoping my body is concealing what Iโm doing.
โFucking slow-ass bitch,โ he curses, growing impatient and tugging at my waistband, attempting to slide them down for me.
I straighten, which allows him to get them halfway down my ass before Iโm twisting at the waist and slashing out my knife. The blade cuts through his throat, and his eyes widen, nearly silent from the shock.
And I spring into action, pulling up my pants, quickly grabbing the sack, the stupid fucking water bottles, and booking it out of the door, leaving Jerry to choke on his blood.
The muscle in my chest pounds so hard that it hurts as I skitter across the porch and down the rickety steps, barely pausing when I spot the two dead bodies piled next to the stairs. The guardsโtheir throats are slit open.
Panting, I round the house towards the back. Rio is nowhere to be found, and I pray to god he got the hell away already.
Because he may be the only one to get out of here alive.