Dawn streaked across the skies as the last flickers of light dwindled from the moon lanterns. I almost longed for theโ
return of night, as dark as my thoughts. I had come so close to bringing my father home, and now โฆ the elixir was gone. My fingers curled as I cursed Tao and his sister, and myself for trusting them. Yet Taoโs distraught expression as he had vanished tugged at me. Had he expected two elixirs, only to find one? Would I have chosen differentlyโsacrificed my fatherโs life, my motherโs happiness, for a strangerโs?
Regardless, if I ever found him again, I would repay his selfishness in kind. I had risked my life as he had; the elixir was no less mine, and his theft had nullified all claim he
once had upon it.
The Celestial soldiers standing guard outside were unfamiliar to me. Feimaoโs shift must have ended. Just yesterday I had strode through these doors without hesitation, and now I was forced to break in like a thief. Stealthily, I made my way to the back, clambering up a mother-of-pearl pillar, then swinging myself onto the
balcony. As I discarded my garments and pulled on a lilac robe I had hidden there, my gaze fell upon the realm below,
awash in the soft haze of morning. A heaviness sank over me as I recalled the nights spent in idle contemplation here. Would I ever regain the peace I had known then?
The corridor was deserted as I made my way to my room.
Sliding the doors apart, I enteredโstartled to find Shuxiao sitting at the table, along with General Jianyun. Their teacups were drained, Shuxiaoโs sword lying on the floor. Had they been waiting for long?
โYou shouldnโt be here,โ I blurted. Recalling my manners, I bowed to General Jianyun. โThe emperorโs edictโโ
โI heard,โ Shuxiao said, her forehead wrinkled. โWhere were you? You werenโt supposed to leave.โ
I glanced at General Jianyun. He was still one of the
emperorโs advisors, moreover it was safer for him to not know. Though his unexpected presence here sent a sliver of trepidation through me.
โDo you have news of Liwei?โ I asked, evading Shuxiaoโs question.
โNo one is permitted to visit His Highness. The emperor has commanded that he remain isolated in his quarters,โ General Jianyun said grimly.
My teeth gnawed the soft inside of my cheek. โHas Liwei spoken to his father?โ
General Jianyun shook his head. โHis Celestial Majesty refuses to grant him an audience until His Highness
apologizesโwhich he has not done. Nor will the emperor hear reason from the few advisors who voiced their
concerns regarding the treatment of the prince.โ
โBut thatโs not why weโre here.โ Shuxiaoโs expression was somber. โSoldiers are assembling as we speak. They are
coming here, led by General Wu.โ
Fear jolted down my spine. โWhy?โ
โThe emperor has passed the sentence for your mother. For all of you.โ She released a drawn breath. โConfinement in the tower.โ
My insides hollowed at the thought of my mother, Pingโer, and me trapped in such a place. The tower was a Celestial prison on the outskirts of the kingdom, where vicious monsters as the Bone Devil had been confined. It was a
place of utter desolation, sheathed in darkness for there were no windows or doors within its walls, nothing to yield a glimmer of light.
โHow long?โ I choked out.
It was General Jianyun who replied. โNo length of time has been set.โ
โIt could be forever.โ Despair writhed in my gut, burrowing deep. The emperor had done this to my mother and to the
dragons, their punishment dragging on indefinitely without a chance for clemency. Our names would be buried,
forgotten, as the years flew byโbecoming no more than another cautionary tale of defiance against the Celestial Emperor.
โSome tried to argue on your motherโs behalf. Changโe had never failed in the performance of her duty before; it must have been an innocent slip.โ General Jianyunโs face darkened. โBut others twisted our words, arguing that her unprecedented lapse that day, on His Celestial Majestyโs
birthday, must have been intentional. Some took it further, claiming the insult to His Celestial Majesty was treason to weaken his standing, embolden his dissenters, and bring misfortune to his reign.โ
โThey think too highly of us. It was just a harmless mistake.โ
โNo mistake is โharmlessโ in the Jade Palace. Particularly none which earns the emperorโs wrath,โ Shuxiao said.
โWhat will you do?โ General Jianyun asked.
โHow many soldiers? When are they coming?โ I made myself ask.
Shuxiaoโs face darkened. โOver a hundred. They will come today or tomorrow, at the latest.โ
โAย hundred?โ I repeated numbly. Did they expect us to fight? This was no invitation to yield but a troop sent to subdue an enemy and to seize what would not be
surrendered. A year ago, Celestial soldiers had stood by me and now โฆ they were marching upon my home.
My deepest fear, my worst nightmare, come to life. โI canโt let them take us.โ I spoke on instinct.
A brief silence followed, before General Jianyun cleared his throat. โWhat of the laurel?โ
โThey can have it if they leave us in peace.โ Rash words spoken with a childโs terror, offering a futile bargain to delay inevitable punishment.
โIn the wrong hands, who knows what the laurel can be used to do,โ General Jianyun argued. โWhile we donโt understand its power, neither can we ignore it.โ
โHow can we fight them? Not just because weโre
outnumbered, but the soldiers helped me once.โ I was sickened by the thought of attacking those I had fought alongside before.
โThe Celestial Army is not what it used to be.โ General
Jianyunโs tone was heavy. โThe soldiers who came to your defense that day have been sidelined, their loyalties cast in doubt. Many have left, and the ones who remained were sent to distant borders.โ
Their support of me had cost them dearly. A simple
gesture rooted in gratitude, yet striking a keen blow to the Celestial Emperorโs pride. It had been one of the greatest moments of my life, and now it was tainted with guilt.
Precious seconds were slipping away, the emperorโs soldiers drawing closer. I searched General Jianyunโs face, hoping for guidanceโyet he remained silent. Sometimes there were no answers, sometimes we had to make them up as we went along.
Cupping my hands before me, I bent low from my waist. โThank you for warning us. I apologize for the discourtesy,
but it might be safest for you both to depart before the soldiers arrive.โ
Lines deepened across General Jianyunโs brow like fingers trailed in the sand. โWhat will you do?โ
I did not answer, my nerves strung taut. All I ever wanted was to be left in peace with my family, and yet all I did
plunged us into more danger.
No, my mind whispered.ย You wanted more than that. You wanted to help the dragons. You defied the emperor by
attempting to force his hand. You tried to steal the elixir.
Even now youโre trying to think of a way to stop this attack.
You were never content to leave things as they were โฆ always wanting more.
Peace does not flow in your veins.
My teeth sank into my lip, tearing at the soft flesh. I had kept quiet before, trying to avoid the emperorโs wrath, foolishly thinking that past grudges would be forgotten in a decade or so. What did I care for the politics of the realm, these shifts of power? Such things were beyond my paltry influence. However, the seeds of betrayal had been sown
and its harvest needed to be reaped. The emperor did not trust me, nor did I him. My stomach roiled at the thought of the laurel in the emperorโs possession, all the more
terrifying because I did not know the consequences.
If only we had allies of our own, those we might seek
refuge with. Prince Yanxi could not harbor us; they would not risk their alliance with the Celestial Kingdom. I still
possessed the scale the Long Dragon had gifted me. Could I ask the dragons for aidโnot to attack the soldiers, but to flee? Yet their presence would be detected, and the dragons had no desire to be pitted against the Celestial Emperor
again. I would not endanger them lightly, not before exhausting every other path.
Doubt clouded my resolve, wavering like a flame caught in a crosswind. Each path before us was fraught with peril. If we fled, the emperor would not forgive us, he would hunt us
across the realm. Nor could we fight, outnumbered as we would be. The only alternative was to remain and accept our punishmentโyet dare I trust in the emperorโs benevolence, that he might eventually relent and set us free?
The Celestial Emperorโs words surfaced in my mind, what he had warned me of the day I won my motherโs freedom:ย As the Moon Goddess it still falls upon her to ensure the moon rises each nightโwithout exception.
This was my motherโs second offense against the Celestial Emperor, and the insult paid a personal one. There would be no mercy, not that he was ever inclined to it. Their Celestial Majesties had no love for my family, and this was an ideal
opportunity to rid themselves of us.
Part of me was glad that Liwei was not here. He would have supported us against the Celestial invasion, setting himself against his father who would view it as an
unforgivable betrayal. This way, Liwei could claim ignorance of my plansโfor in truth, they had only just formed.
โWe will flee.โ My heart was laden with regret, pricked with shame. But I had little faith in the justice of the
Celestial Kingdom.
Disappointment shadowed General Jianyunโs face.
Perhaps he had hoped I would take a stand to defend the laurel. Perhaps he imagined that a spark of my fatherโs heroism burned in my spirit. I was neither so noble nor
valiant. Some might call me selfish, but I would look out for my own. I had done my part for the realm, and been repaid by mistrust at every turn.
โI understand. Be careful,โ he said at last.
โWe must prepare ourselves,โ Shuxiao said. โWe?โ I asked.
She crossed her arms in seeming challenge. โIโm not leaving until you get away safely.โ
โHow can I let you stay?โ I countered.
โThis is not your choice,โ she said fiercely.
I hesitated, wanting her by my side yet dreaded exposing her to danger. โThank you,โ I managed through the tightness in my chest. I would have done no less for her.
โGeneral Jianyun,โ Shuxiao addressed him. โCould you send word to my family? Tell them to go into hiding until they hear from me again.โ
Bitterness seared me that she had to do this, that we were forced to flee. But there was no shame in flight; I had done it before. I would not sacrifice us to a cause we cared little for. What mattered most was our freedom and our livesโ upon which hope was borne, along with the promise of new beginnings.
I RAPPED UPON MYย motherโs doorโshort, hard knocks. She
emerged from her room, clad in her white robe. I was glad to find Pingโer with her, sitting by the table, pouring tea into two cups.
I wasted no time, speaking urgently, โCelestial soldiers are on their way here. We must flee.โ
โFlee? Why?โ Her eyes were wide with shock.
โThe emperor has sentenced us to imprisonment in the tower. We have been accused of insulting His Celestial
Majesty, of treacherous intent for the lapse in lighting the moon.โ
A shudder ran through her body. โThey are mistaken. Can we explain?โ
โIt would not matter. You cannot change the minds of those who do not want to be proven wrong.โ I took her hands in mine, inwardly flinching from their chill. She was afraid โฆ as was I. โThey want to believe this of us.
Forgetting to light the lanterns was a harmless thing, just as taking Fatherโs elixir, or the dragons bringing water to the suffering mortals. The Celestial Emperor will tolerate no threat to his pride or standing. To him, appearances matter more than intent.โ It struck me then how much he must
despise meโthe girl his soldiers had bowed to, whom he would have killed that day.
โMust we flee?โ My motherโs voice broke. This place was all she had known of the Immortal Realmโonce, her prison, and now her home.
โYes. His Celestial Majesty will not rescind his sentence, nor will anyone plead on our behalfโat least, none he will listen to. We are a thorn in his side that he is eager to pluck. Moreover, he wants our home, and this is the perfect excuse to seize it.โ
Pingโer frowned. โWonโt disobeying his edict anger him further?โ
โUndoubtedly.โ Reckless satisfaction flooded me at those words. โThough we have little to lose at this stage.โ
Beyond our lives.ย Was I being a fool to risk us all? Was imprisonment not preferable to death? Yet that was not the choice; we were fighting for our freedom, for the chance to live as we chose. And I did not trust our safety in the
emperorโs hands.
My mother lifted her head, her expression calmer. โWe will be ready.โ
โYou must go first, with Pingโer. I will follow shortly, with Shuxiao. We will distract those standing guard here so you can escape safely.โ
My motherโs gaze bored into mine. โI wonโt go without you.โ
โMother, if the Celestials capture you, you will be their hostage. I canโt do what I must if youโre in danger. And if we flee all at once, they will sense our absence and give chase. Shuxiao and I can evade the soldiers, but as for you and Pingโerโโ
โI am weak, I know.โ My mother looked away. โI wish I could help. If only I had magic like yours.โ
Perhaps my motherโs power was a quieter magic, like Taoโs, or one she was unaware of. Regardless, there was a
core of strength in her that I had not understood as a child; I
had thought her frail and delicate then. However, when I had left my home the first time, I had been a muddle of terror, while her mind remained clear, her resolve unclouded. It was as Pingโer had said:ย She is stronger than you think.
โNo, Mother,โ I told her gently. โMagic is not the only
power; we are strong in different ways. You have kept me safe all these years, it is my turn to protect you now. Both of you,โ I said, reaching out to take Pingโerโs hand.
My mother drew a deep breath. โDonโt do anything rash.
You must be careful and donโt get caught. Promise me this.โ โI promise,โ I agreed at once, ignoring the guilt that
pierced me.
There was another part to my plan that I had not revealed, one still forming as we spoke. Shuxiao and I planned a
diversion, but what if we were to set a trap for Wugang instead? Not from spite but the instinctive desire to end this ominous threatโfor who but Wugang could harvest the laurel seeds?
My mother and Pingโer moved around the room, gathering a few possessions. At the doorway, my mother embraced me tightly. I closed my eyes, inhaling her fragrance
threaded with the sweetness of osmanthus.
โBe careful, Little Star.โ Pingโerโs hand touched my cheek gently. โThe darkest of nights is when the stars shine
brightest.โ
A lump rose in my throat to hear my childhood name. I breathed deeply, holding my emotions in. Only after they had left, did I crumple to the floor, brushing my fingertips along the stone tiles. A final farewell.
That was all I allowed myself. Rising to my feet, I stalked to my room. The Jade Dragon Bow was the first thing I
reached for. My sword was strapped to my side, a dagger tucked in my sash.
How arrogant I had been, thinking I would never run
again. But this time, I would be ready โฆ and I would take
my loved ones with me.