โDear boy and Pipโs comrade. I am not a-going fur to tell you my life like a song, or a story-book. But to give it you short and handy, Iโll put it at once into a mouthful of English. In jail and out of jail, in jail and out of jail, in jail and out of jail. There, youโve got it. Thatโsย myย life pretty much, down to such times as I got shipped off, arter Pip stood my friend.
โIโve been done everything to, pretty wellโexcept hanged. Iโve been locked up as much as a silver tea-kittle. Iโve been carted here and carted there, and put out of this town, and put out of that town, and stuck in the stocks, and whipped and worried and drove. Iโve no more notion where I was born than you haveโif so much. I first become aware of myself down in Essex, a thieving turnips for my living. Summun had run away from meโa manโa tinkerโand heโd took the fire with him, and left me wery cold.
โI knowโd my name to be Magwitch, chrisenโd Abel. How did I know it? Much as I knowโd the birdsโ names in the hedges to be chaffinch, sparrer, thrush. I might have thought it was all lies together, only as the birdsโ names come out true, I supposed mine did.
โSo fur as I could find, there warnโt a soul that see young Abel Magwitch, with us little on him as in him, but wot caught fright at him, and either drove him off, or took him up. I was took up, took up, took up, to that extent that I regโlarly growโd up took up.
โThis is the way it was, that when I was a ragged little creetur as much to be pitied as ever I see (not that I looked in the glass, for there warnโt many insides of furnished houses known to me), I got the name of being hardened. โThis is a terrible hardened one,โ they says to prison wisitors, picking out me. โMay be said to live in jails, this boy.โ Then they looked at me, and I looked at them, and they measured my head, some on โem,โthey had better a measured my stomach,โand others on โem giv me tracts what I couldnโt read, and made me speeches what I couldnโt understand. They always went on agen me about the Devil. But what the Devil was I to do? I must put something into my stomach, mustnโt I?โHowsomever, Iโm a getting low, and I know whatโs due. Dear boy and Pipโs comrade, donโt you be afeerd of me being low.
โTramping, begging, thieving, working sometimes when I could,โthough that warnโt as often as you may think, till you put the question whether you would haโ been over-ready to give me work yourselves,โa bit of a poacher, a bit of a labourer, a bit of a wagoner, a bit of a haymaker, a bit of a hawker, a bit of most things that donโt pay and lead to trouble, I got to be a man. A deserting soldier in a Travellerโs Rest, what lay hid up to the chin under a lot of taturs, learnt me to read; and a travelling Giant what signed his name at a penny a time learnt me to write. I warnโt locked up as often now as formerly, but I wore out my good share of key-metal still.
โAt Epsom races, a matter of over twenty years ago, I got acquainted wiโ a man whose skull Iโd crack wiโ this poker, like the claw of a lobster, if Iโd got it on this hob. His right name was Compeyson; and thatโs the man, dear boy, what you see me a pounding in the ditch, according to what you truly told your comrade arter I was gone last night.
โHe set up fur a gentleman, this Compeyson, and heโd been to a public boarding-school and had learning. He was a smooth one to talk, and was a dab at the ways of gentlefolks. He was good-looking too. It was the night afore the great race, when I found him on the heath, in a booth that I knowโd on. Him and some more was a sitting among the tables when I went in, and the landlord (which had a knowledge of me, and was a sporting one) called him out, and said, โI think this is a man that might suit you,โโmeaning I was.
โCompeyson, he looks at me very noticing, and I look at him. He has a watch and a chain and a ring and a breast-pin and a handsome suit of clothes.
โโTo judge from appearances, youโre out of luck,โ says Compeyson to me.
โโYes, master, and Iโve never been in it much.โ (I had come out of Kingston Jail last on a vagrancy committal. Not but what it might have been for something else; but it warnโt.)
โโLuck changes,โ says Compeyson; โperhaps yours is going to change.โ
โI says, โI hope it may be so. Thereโs room.โ
โโWhat can you do?โ says Compeyson.
โโEat and drink,โ I says; โif youโll find the materials.โ
โCompeyson laughed, looked at me again very noticing, giv me five shillings, and appointed me for next night. Same place.
โI went to Compeyson next night, same place, and Compeyson took me on to be his man and pardner. And what was Compeysonโs business in which we was to go pardners? Compeysonโs business was the swindling, handwriting forging, stolen bank-note passing, and such-like. All sorts of traps as Compeyson could set with his head, and keep his own legs out of and get the profits from and let another man in for, was Compeysonโs business. Heโd no more heart than a iron file, he was as cold as death, and he had the head of the Devil afore mentioned.
โThere was another in with Compeyson, as was called Arthur,โnot as being so chrisenโd, but as a surname. He was in a Decline, and was a shadow to look at. Him and Compeyson had been in a bad thing with a rich lady some years afore, and theyโd made a pot of money by it; but Compeyson betted and gamed, and heโd have run through the kingโs taxes. So, Arthur was a dying, and a dying poor and with the horrors on him, and Compeysonโs wife (which Compeyson kicked mostly) was a having pity on him when she could, and Compeyson was a having pity on nothing and nobody.
โI might a took warning by Arthur, but I didnโt; and I wonโt pretend I was partickโlerโfor where โud be the good on it, dear boy and comrade? So I begun wiโ Compeyson, and a poor tool I was in his hands. Arthur lived at the top of Compeysonโs house (over nigh Brentford it was), and Compeyson kept a careful account agen him for board and lodging, in case he should ever get better to work it out. But Arthur soon settled the account. The second or third time as ever I see him, he come a tearing down into Compeysonโs parlour late at night, in only a flannel gown, with his hair all in a sweat, and he says to Compeysonโs wife, โSally, she really is upstairs alonger me, now, and I canโt get rid of her. Sheโs all in white,โ he says, โwiโ white flowers in her hair, and sheโs awful mad, and sheโs got a shroud hanging over her arm, and she says sheโll put it on me at five in the morning.โ
โSays Compeyson: โWhy, you fool, donโt you know sheโs got a living body? And how should she be up there, without coming through the door, or in at the window, and up the stairs?โ
โโI donโt know how sheโs there,โ says Arthur, shivering dreadful with the horrors, โbut sheโs standing in the corner at the foot of the bed, awful mad. And over where her heartโs brokeโyouย broke it!โthereโs drops of blood.โ
โCompeyson spoke hardy, but he was always a coward. โGo up alonger this drivelling sick man,โ he says to his wife, โand Magwitch, lend her a hand, will you?โ But he never come nigh himself.
โCompeysonโs wife and me took him up to bed agen, and he raved most dreadful. โWhy look at her!โ he cries out. โSheโs a shaking the shroud at me! Donโt you see her? Look at her eyes! Ainโt it awful to see her so mad?โ Next he cries, โSheโll put it on me, and then Iโm done for! Take it away from her, take it away!โ And then he catched hold of us, and kep on a talking to her, and answering of her, till I half believed I see her myself.
โCompeysonโs wife, being used to him, giv him some liquor to get the horrors off, and by and by he quieted. โO, sheโs gone! Has her keeper been for her?โ he says. โYes,โ says Compeysonโs wife. โDid you tell him to lock her and bar her in?โ โYes.โ โAnd to take that ugly thing away from her?โ โYes, yes, all right.โ โYouโre a good creetur,โ he says, โdonโt leave me, whatever you do, and thank you!โ
โHe rested pretty quiet till it might want a few minutes of five, and then he starts up with a scream, and screams out, โHere she is! Sheโs got the shroud again. Sheโs unfolding it. Sheโs coming out of the corner. Sheโs coming to the bed. Hold me, both on youโone of each sideโdonโt let her touch me with it. Hah! she missed me that time. Donโt let her throw it over my shoulders. Donโt let her lift me up to get it round me. Sheโs lifting me up. Keep me down!โ Then he lifted himself up hard, and was dead.
โCompeyson took it easy as a good riddance for both sides. Him and me was soon busy, and first he swore me (being ever artful) on my own book,โthis here little black book, dear boy, what I swore your comrade on.
โNot to go into the things that Compeyson planned, and I doneโwhich โud take a weekโIโll simply say to you, dear boy, and Pipโs comrade, that that man got me into such nets as made me his black slave. I was always in debt to him, always under his thumb, always a working, always a getting into danger. He was younger than me, but heโd got craft, and heโd got learning, and he overmatched me five hundred times told and no mercy. My Missis as I had the hard time wiโโStop though! I ainโt broughtย herย inโโ
He looked about him in a confused way, as if he had lost his place in the book of his remembrance; and he turned his face to the fire, and spread his hands broader on his knees, and lifted them off and put them on again.
โThere ainโt no need to go into it,โ he said, looking round once more. โThe time wiโ Compeyson was aโmost as hard a time as ever I had; that said, allโs said. Did I tell you as I was tried, alone, for misdemeanor, while with Compeyson?โ
I answered, No.
โWell!โ he said, โIย was, and got convicted. As to took up on suspicion, that was twice or three times in the four or five year that it lasted; but evidence was wanting. At last, me and Compeyson was both committed for felony,โon a charge of putting stolen notes in circulation,โand there was other charges behind. Compeyson says to me, โSeparate defences, no communication,โ and that was all. And I was so miserable poor, that I sold all the clothes I had, except what hung on my back, afore I could get Jaggers.
โWhen we was put in the dock, I noticed first of all what a gentleman Compeyson looked, wiโ his curly hair and his black clothes and his white pocket-handkercher, and what a common sort of a wretch I looked. When the prosecution opened and the evidence was put short, aforehand, I noticed how heavy it all bore on me, and how light on him. When the evidence was giv in the box, I noticed how it was always me that had come forโard, and could be swore to, how it was always me that the money had been paid to, how it was always me that had seemed to work the thing and get the profit. But when the defence come on, then I see the plan plainer; for, says the counsellor for Compeyson, โMy lord and gentlemen, here you has afore you, side by side, two persons as your eyes can separate wide; one, the younger, well brought up, who will be spoke to as such; one, the elder, ill brought up, who will be spoke to as such; one, the younger, seldom if ever seen in these here transactions, and only suspected; tโother, the elder, always seen in โem and always wiโ his guilt brought home. Can you doubt, if there is but one in it, which is the one, and, if there is two in it, which is much the worst one?โ And such-like. And when it come to character, warnโt it Compeyson as had been to the school, and warnโt it his schoolfellows as was in this position and in that, and warnโt it him as had been knowโd by witnesses in such clubs and societies, and nowt to his disadvantage? And warnโt it me as had been tried afore, and as had been knowโd up hill and down dale in Bridewells and Lock-Ups! And when it come to speech-making, warnโt it Compeyson as could speak to โem wiโ his face dropping every now and then into his white pocket-handkercher,โah! and wiโ verses in his speech, too,โand warnโt it me as could only say, โGentlemen, this man at my side is a most precious rascalโ? And when the verdict come, warnโt it Compeyson as was recommended to mercy on account of good character and bad company, and giving up all the information he could agen me, and warnโt it me as got never a word but Guilty? And when I says to Compeyson, โOnce out of this court, Iโll smash that face of yourn!โ ainโt it Compeyson as prays the Judge to be protected, and gets two turnkeys stood betwixt us? And when weโre sentenced, ainโt it him as gets seven year, and me fourteen, and ainโt it him as the Judge is sorry for, because he might a done so well, and ainโt it me as the Judge perceives to be a old offender of wiolent passion, likely to come to worse?โ
He had worked himself into a state of great excitement, but he checked it, took two or three short breaths, swallowed as often, and stretching out his hand towards me said, in a reassuring manner, โI ainโt a-going to be low, dear boy!โ
He had so heated himself that he took out his handkerchief and wiped his face and head and neck and hands, before he could go on.
โI had said to Compeyson that Iโd smash that face of his, and I swore Lord smash mine! to do it. We was in the same prison-ship, but I couldnโt get at him for long, though I tried. At last I come behind him and hit him on the cheek to turn him round and get a smashing one at him, when I was seen and seized. The black-hole of that ship warnโt a strong one, to a judge of black-holes that could swim and dive. I escaped to the shore, and I was a hiding among the graves there, envying them as was in โem and all over, when I first see my boy!โ
He regarded me with a look of affection that made him almost abhorrent to me again, though I had felt great pity for him.
โBy my boy, I was giv to understand as Compeyson was out on them marshes too. Upon my soul, I half believe he escaped in his terror, to get quit of me, not knowing it was me as had got ashore. I hunted him down. I smashed his face. โAnd now,โ says I โas the worst thing I can do, caring nothing for myself, Iโll drag you back.โ And Iโd have swum off, towing him by the hair, if it had come to that, and Iโd a got him aboard without the soldiers.
โOf course heโd much the best of it to the last,โhis character was so good. He had escaped when he was made half wild by me and my murderous intentions; and his punishment was light. I was put in irons, brought to trial again, and sent for life. I didnโt stop for life, dear boy and Pipโs comrade, being here.โ
He wiped himself again, as he had done before, and then slowly took his tangle of tobacco from his pocket, and plucked his pipe from his button-hole, and slowly filled it, and began to smoke.
โIs he dead?โ I asked, after a silence.
โIs who dead, dear boy?โ
โCompeyson.โ
โHe hopesย Iย am, if heโs alive, you may be sure,โ with a fierce look. โI never heerd no more of him.โ
Herbert had been writing with his pencil in the cover of a book. He softly pushed the book over to me, as Provis stood smoking with his eyes on the fire, and I read in it:โ
โYoung Havishamโs name was Arthur. Compeyson is the man who professed to be Miss Havishamโs lover.โ
I shut the book and nodded slightly to Herbert, and put the book by; but we neither of us said anything, and both looked at Provis as he stood smoking by the fire.