Chapter no 46 – BROTHERHOOD

Golden Son (Red Rising Book 2)

I hug Dancer so hard his back cracks. He taps me in panic. I apologize and separate, feeling large as a Telemanus next to him. Outside the garage-turned-makeshift-o ce, the Sons of Ares warehouse rattles with industry. They brought me in through the side door and had me wait for Dancer among old engines and rusted aerlons.

Dancer pulls back from me and looks up, rusty eyes glittering with tears. Startling to think that I once considered him a handsome man. Heโ€™s in his forties; old for a Red. Hair shot with gray. Face creased by age and hardship. His right arm still hangs limp. His foot still drags. And his smile still stretches wide enough, baring uneven, imperfect teeth.

โ€œMy boy,โ€ he says, gripping my shoulder with his left hand. Itโ€™s stronger than all the rest of him put together. He smells like tobacco. Nails are yellow. โ€œMy bloodydamn beautiful little bastard of a boy. You look so bloody grand!โ€ He laughs and laughs again, shaking his head. โ€œThere are no words. Iโ€™m sorry I couldnโ€™t reach you. Sorry I let Harmony use you like that. There are so many things, Darrow.โ€

โ€œStop.โ€ I clap the back of his neck. โ€œWeโ€™re brothers. No need for apologies. Weโ€™re bound by blood and past. But please, please donโ€™t let it happen again.โ€ He nods. โ€œHow is my family, do you know?โ€

โ€œAlive,โ€ he says. โ€œStill in the mines. I know. I know. But thatโ€™s the safest place for them with this war abound. No one wants to

blow up Marsโ€™s industry. Register?โ€

He waves me to a seat. โ€œDonโ€™t know many Golds, but that Sevroโ€™s a nasty little shit. When I delivered his fatherโ€™s instructions to him out on the Rim, I thought he was going to cut me from gob to pucker.โ€ He lights a burner, winks at me. โ€œNever met anyone like him.โ€

โ€œHeโ€™s loyal as they come,โ€ I say. โ€œLike you.โ€

โ€œNo! I mean he can swear better than any bloodydamn Red.โ€ โ€œSevro swears?โ€ I smile. โ€œGuess you get used to it. Though he

does like saying โ€˜bloodyโ€™ a hell of a lot now.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s a fine word. Rolls off the tongue. Done some research.โ€ He puffs up his chest. โ€œBeen with us since the first ancestors, you know. The first Golds, the ones with normal eyes and gold uniforms, took most of the early recruits from the poor bastards from the Irish isles after the radiation from London turned the isles into a wasteland. The Golds took the highly skilled migratory workforce and recruited them to be the first Pioneers. Their slang just stuck around, jumbled up a bit. Historyโ€™s fascinating, isnโ€™t she?โ€

โ€œHarmonyโ€™s been making up her own history,โ€ I say.

โ€œThatโ€™s right. Iโ€™m dead!โ€ He shakes his head and lights another burner, flicking the other onto the floor. I pick it up and put it in the wastebasket. โ€œShe went her own way about a year after you left. We discovered several Senators were going to be vacationing on the Gorgon Sea. So we showed up to bug their villa to see if we couldnโ€™t get any secrets. We didnโ€™t. tust lots of โ€ฆ depraved shit. And that was that, we thought. But not for Harmony. On the last night, she walked in and killed the Senators and their guests. Then she left us.โ€

โ€œSo there was never a lurcher squad that raided your headquarters?โ€

He shakes his head. โ€œThey came because of her. Killed about forty Sons. But sheโ€™d already left for Luna. Ares saved us. Came in hard with a mixed pack of Obsidians and Grays. Laid waste to those lurchers, then slipped away before reinforcements came. Itโ€™s lucky he killed them all. No way they wouldnโ€™t know he was a Gold after that. Had our first face-to-face that day. Manโ€™s bloodydamn scary.โ€

โ€œNot the word Iโ€™d choose.โ€ Though maybe itโ€™s accurate considering how well he fooled me. โ€œIt doesnโ€™t bother you that heโ€™s a Gold?โ€

โ€œIt doesnโ€™t bother him that weโ€™re Reds. Ares would die for the cause, Darrow. Shit. He started it. You know why he did?โ€

I shake my head.

โ€œItโ€™s his story.โ€ Dancer traces the pitviper bites on his neck. โ€œA man has the right to tell his own story. But his isnโ€™t a happy one. Sad as yours. Sad as mine. Strip a man of what he loves, and what is left? tust hate. tust anger. But he was the first to know there could be something more. He found me. He found you. Who the bloodydamn are we to question him?โ€

The door opens suddenly. We both turn and Mickey limps in. He looks half dead, thin as a reed, paler than before. Without a word, he hobbles over to me and kisses me full on the mouth, his affection desperate and true. Then he starts weeping like a child. Dancer and I donโ€™t know what to do, so I just wrap my arms around him and let him cry. He whispers โ€œThank youโ€ to me a dozen times.

What did they do to him? Never mind. I know the things the Grays are trained in to get information. He says he told them nothing. Still, I have to discover what the tackal learned from this. What deductions heโ€™s made from finding Mickeyโ€™s lab.

I look over Mickeyโ€™s head to see Fitchner standing there, smiling sadly. After a long moment, Mickey pulls back. โ€œI tried to warn you, when you came to us on Luna,โ€ he says apologetically. โ€œWanted to say to run. But she would have killed me if I said any more. I was afraid you would believe her over me.โ€

โ€œI would have believed you, Mickey.โ€

โ€œYou would have?โ€ He snimes. โ€œI knew youโ€™d come for me. I said my darling boy was too kind to forget about Mickey, but she spat on me. Said I was a slaver.โ€ He hangs his head, sni ng and so vulnerable, drained and nearly mad from what must have been done to him in the tackalโ€™s torture chambers. โ€œShe was right. I am. I am wicked. I hurt the girls and boys. I sold them even when I loved them. Of course she was right. Why would you come? Why would you do anything for wicked little Mickey?โ€

โ€œBecause youโ€™re my friend.โ€ I bring his hands to my lips, kissing them gently as he looks up at me with hopeful eyes. โ€œWeird as you are, wicked as you were. I know you want to be better. You want to live for more. We all do. And thereโ€™s not a place they could take one of my friends that I would ever abandon them.โ€

It feels good to speak the truth.

โ€œThank you, my prince,โ€ he says quietly. He draws himself up after that, strong enough to turn and walk out of the o ce. Fitchner closes the door.

โ€œWell, that was emotional.โ€

I nod. This is the man Iโ€™d rather be. Not constantly on guard. Not lying through my teeth. I suppose I didnโ€™t even know how much affection I felt for Mickey till now. Itโ€™s not because he helped make me. Itโ€™s that heโ€™s always loved me so much. Even if it was a strange sort of love, it was real. And I do believe he wants to be a man he thinks I would respect. tust like I want to be a man Eo and Mustang would respect. And thatโ€™s the good sort of love.

โ€œWe need to talk, Fitchner,โ€ I say. We didnโ€™t have a chance earlier. Sevro came to me with Dancerโ€™s planโ€”call a meeting, attach the Sons to my ship, let them infiltrate the building. All I did was suggest Sun-hwa as the scapegoat, and let them know Victra was not to be harmed.

โ€œIโ€™ll leave you two to it,โ€ Dancer says, pushing back his metal chair.

โ€œNo, I want you to stay,โ€ I say. โ€œIโ€™ve too many secrets from too many people. I wonโ€™t have any more between the three of us.โ€

โ€œLearn to count, shithead,โ€ Sevro says, coming around a rusted engine block. The cheap metal door to the outside slams behind him. Smells like autumn even in Ageaโ€™s oil-stained manufacturing district. He hops onto the rusted chassis of an old fighter and sits with his legs dangling. โ€œHey, look, itโ€™s all pricks for once. Letโ€™s tell sexist jokes.โ€

Chuckling, I turn to Fitchner. โ€œSo youโ€™re Ares.โ€

โ€œMan comes out of a coma and heโ€™s a genius!โ€ Fitchner barks. He claps his hands, but his eyes stay deadly serious. โ€œMost call

me Bronzie. Students call me Proctor. Some call me Rage Knight. The Sovereign calls me traitor. My son calls me shithead.โ€ฆโ€

โ€œYou are a shithead,โ€ Sevro chimes in.

โ€œโ€ฆ My wife called me Fitchner. But the Golds made me Ares.โ€ Before now I would not know what that meant. He is Gold.

How could the Golds do anything to him? But now Iโ€™ve peeked behind the curtain. โ€œWhy didnโ€™t you tell me who you were from the start?โ€

โ€œAnd put my life in the hands of a teenagerโ€™s acting ability?โ€ he cackles. โ€œI think not. If you were found out and they tortured you โ€ฆ bad news. I had alternate plans, other irons in the fire. You just happened to be my favorite. But we mustnโ€™t be biased.โ€

โ€œWho was your wife?โ€ I ask, already suspecting the answer. โ€œFull or short story?โ€ he asks.

โ€œFull.โ€

โ€œI was liaising for a terraforming company on Triton,โ€ he begins grumy. โ€œI didnโ€™t have a glamorous job like you. No razors. No armor. tust construction management. Contract was leased by a Silver. I was running one of the last Lovelock Engines on their north pole when an eruption from one of that moonโ€™s damn geysers caused an earthquake. Cracked the ice crust. Spilled the whole engine into the subterranean sea. Three thousand souls drowned.

โ€œThey fished me out of the sea and I spent the next months recovering in the arctic hospital. I was in the highColor wing. We had the good food. Better showers. Newer beds. But the lowColors had the window that looked at the northern lights. And she had the bed beside that window.โ€

He looks up at Sevro. โ€œShe was the most beautiful woman Iโ€™ve ever met. And she was pretty to look at too. She lost a leg in the accident. And they werenโ€™t going to give her a new one. They could. Itโ€™s simple bionics. Not cost-effective, said the Coppers. Shittiest Color ever made, I swear onโ€”โ€

Sevro clears his throat. โ€œWe know.โ€

Fitchner throws a piece of trash at Sevro and continues. โ€œWhen I left, I took her with me. Iโ€™d saved up money enough to leave Triton. Couldnโ€™t live in the Core. Too expensive. So I chose Mars. We lived just outside New Thebes for a year. We wanted a child

more than anything. But our DNA wasnโ€™t compatible. So we went to a Carver to see if we couldnโ€™t make some magic. We did. Cost me almost everything I owned, but nine months later, this little Goblin squirmed out.โ€

Sevro waves from his perch as he examines the trash to see if it isnโ€™t edible.

โ€œTwo years later, the Board of Quality Control busted the Carver for some work he did on some Obsidian gladiator and he ratted us out, fastlike, for a reduced sentence. They came to our home when I was away with Sevro. Found my wife, took her in for questioning. Their doctors saw her fallopian tubes had been modified so that she would be compatible to sire a Gold child. Then they disposed of her. Says so right in the records: โ€˜disposed.โ€™ Gassed her with achlys-9, put her in an oven, pumped her ash into the sea. They didnโ€™t even give her a name, just a number. Not because she was a thief or a murderer or had violated any manโ€™s or womanโ€™s rights, but because she was a Red who dared love a Gold. My selfish love killed her.

โ€œIt wasnโ€™t like your wife, Darrow. I didnโ€™t watch mine die. I didnโ€™t see Golds come into my world and ruin it. Instead I felt the coldness of the system swallow the only thing I lived for. A Copper pressing buttons, filling out a spreadsheet. A Brown twisting a knob to release gas. They killed my wife. But they wonโ€™t ever think so. Sheโ€™s not a memory in their mind. Sheโ€™s a statistic. Itโ€™s as if she never existed. Some ghost I loved but no one else ever saw. Thatโ€™s what Society doesโ€”spread the blame so there is no villain, so itโ€™s futile to even begin to find a villain, to find justice. Itโ€™s just machinery. Processes. And it rumbles on, inexorable till a whole generation rises that will throw themselves on the gears.โ€

โ€œWhat was her name?โ€

โ€œHer name? Why does it matter?โ€ he asks warily. โ€œBecause I want to remember her.โ€

โ€œBryn,โ€ Sevro says from above. โ€œMy motherโ€™s name was Bryn. She was twenty-two when they killed her.โ€ Only a year older than I am now.

โ€œBryn,โ€ I repeat the word and see Fitchner rock slightly on his feet. A shortness of breath.

โ€œSo youโ€™re half Red,โ€ I say to Sevro.

Sevro nods. โ€œFound out couple days ago. Weird as shit, righto?โ€ โ€œWeird as shit. Youโ€™ll make a good Ruster.โ€

โ€œI like to think Iโ€™m an endangered species.โ€

Dancer rolls a match through his fingers. โ€œWe all are.โ€ โ€œYou knew about Titus,โ€ I say to Fitchner.

โ€œBut Dancer didnโ€™t. Donโ€™t blame him for that. I thought youโ€™d be brothers at the Institute. A natural affection for your own race. But he went dark, and there was no way to reel him in. I met with himโ€”jammer, ghostCloakโ€”like I met with you. But his mind broke under the strain. I didnโ€™t want to see you break.โ€

โ€œI did break.โ€ I look over at Sevro, Dancer. โ€œI just had friends to piece me back together. Why didnโ€™t you tell Titus and me about each other?โ€

โ€œThen his mistakes would have been yours and yours would have been his. In a storm, you donโ€™t tie two boats together. Theyโ€™ll drag each other down.โ€ He clears his throat.

โ€œI always knew a Gold couldnโ€™t lead this rebellion. It has to be from the bottom up, boyo. Red is about family. More than any other Color, it is about love amid all the horror of our world. If Red rises, they have a chance to bind the worlds together. MidColors wonโ€™t. Pinks, Browns, canโ€™t. Obsidians have failed before. And if they succeeded alone, theyโ€™d break the worlds instead of freeing them.โ€

โ€œSo whatโ€™s the plan?โ€ I ask. โ€œI squabbed up your position next to the Sovereign.โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re hard to manipulate, Darrow, so Iโ€™ll just cut to it.

Augustus is going to adopt you. Youโ€™re not surprised.โ€ฆโ€

โ€œIt would make sense. He wants to tie my fate to his family. Probably make me marry Mustang. Itโ€™ll fracture my alliance with the tackal if I become an heir, though.โ€

โ€œDoes the tackal care about that?โ€ Sevro asks. โ€œSeems like heโ€™s abandoned hope of ever gaining approval. Bloody bastardโ€™s building his own empire.โ€

โ€œIโ€™ll have to see,โ€ I say.

Fitchner continues. โ€œDispose of the tackal or make him part of the plan, it doesnโ€™t matter. Augustus will adopt you as his heir. And he will use you as a Praetor in his armada. And if you defeat

the Sovereign, he wonโ€™t settle for being King of Mars. Heโ€™ll want to be Sovereign himself. Help him be. And a year into his reign, Sevro will kill him and pin it on a rival, maybe the tackal.โ€ฆโ€

My turn to rock on my feet.

โ€œYou want me to inherit the empire,โ€ I guess. โ€œThe entire Society.โ€

I gawk at him. At Dancer. How can they look so serious?

โ€œYes,โ€ Fitchner says. โ€œAfter he dies, all will look to the strongest. Be the strongest. Win the game of succession and you can be Sovereign just as you were Primus. tust as you are Praetor. Itโ€™s all games. Except this time weโ€™re helpingย youย cheat. We will feed you information, guard you against assassination attempts. With me on your side, you will have a spy network even the tackal and Sovereign cannot rival. We will bribe who we need to bribe and kill who we need to kill.โ€

I sit reflectively looking at my hands. โ€œI thought the lies were nearly over. I want to declare what I am. I want to declare war.โ€

โ€œWe canโ€™t yet. You know that.โ€

I do, but I donโ€™t want to leave these people. โ€œI wonโ€™t be in the dark again. We will communicate. We will plan. No more gray areas. Do you understand? I canโ€™t be alone like before.โ€

โ€œSay yes, Fitchner,โ€ Sevro says. โ€œOr Iโ€™m not going either.โ€ โ€œWeโ€™ll communicate every day, if you need. I canโ€™t come with

you. Thereโ€™s a ghost war being fought that I have to manage. But in my stead, Iโ€™ll send some of my best agents. Youโ€™ll have a cabal you can trust. Spies. Assassins. Courtesans. Hackers. All with perfect covers. All willing to die to break the chains. You are no longer alone.โ€

Relief fills me. But thereโ€™s something I know I canโ€™t do. โ€œI have to go back.โ€

โ€œYes. Theyโ€™ll be wondering where you are,โ€ Fitchner agrees. โ€œNo.โ€ I say. โ€œI have to go home.โ€

โ€œHome?โ€ Dancer asks. โ€œTo Lykos?โ€

โ€œWhy?โ€ Fitchner asks. โ€œWhatโ€™s left for you there?โ€

โ€œMy family. Itโ€™s been four years. I need to see them before this begins.โ€ I look each man in the eyes, each so scarred and so wounded in his own way. โ€œYou have to understand that. Things are about to break apart in ways we canโ€™t predict. We pretend we

know what weโ€™re doing, pushing these Golds to war. Planning our own. Like we can control it, but we canโ€™t. Weโ€™re just mortals opening Pandoraโ€™s box. And before everything turns upside down, I need to remember what Iโ€™m fighting for. I need to know itโ€™s worth it.โ€

โ€œYou want their blessing,โ€ Dancer says. โ€œHer blessing.โ€ He knows my heart better than Fitchner. If Iโ€™m to let Augustus adopt me, then I must go home first.

โ€œYou canโ€™t tell them what you are. They wonโ€™t understand.โ€ Fitchner steps forward, suddenly cautious of my temper. โ€œYou know that.โ€

โ€œHow much easier would this have all been if you and I had conspired the whole way through?โ€ I say. โ€œLies breed lies. We have to trust.โ€ I look at Sevro. โ€œIโ€™m taking her to Lykos.โ€

โ€œHer?โ€ Dancer asks. โ€œMustang,โ€ Sevro murmurs.

โ€œNo,โ€ Fitchner almost yells. โ€œAbsolutely not. No. Itโ€™s not worth the risk. Youโ€™re set up now. Sheโ€™s in love with you! Donโ€™t lose that leverage because of a guilty conscience.โ€

โ€œAnd what if I love her too?โ€

โ€œShit,โ€ Fitchner curses. โ€œShit. Shit. Shit. Youโ€™re serious? I thought this was part of your gorydamn game. Shit. Boyo, youโ€™ll ruin everything. Gorydamn idiot. Shit.โ€

โ€œThisย isย everything,โ€ I say. โ€œShe loves me. I wonโ€™t use her

anymore. I wonโ€™t leverage her. If I canโ€™t trust her, Gold canโ€™t change, and Titus and Harmony were right. Hell, the Society is right. You and I know that itโ€™s not about our Color; itโ€™s about our hearts. Now letโ€™s put that to the test.โ€

โ€œAnd if youโ€™re wrong? If she rejects you for them?โ€ I donโ€™t have an answer.

Sevro hops down from his perch. โ€œThen I put a bullet in her head.โ€

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