After quickly drying off and changing into clean, dry clothing, I did everything in my power to forget that the brief conversation in the bathing chamber with Kieran had happened.
The breeches were a little tight, causing me to wonder if theyย hadย belonged to a child, but they were clean and soft, and I wasnโt complaining. The long-sleeve tunic was made of heavy wool and reached my knees. The slits in the sides ended at the hips and wouldโve made for easy access to my dagger.
But I hadnโt seen my dagger since the stables, and based on what Iโd done with the last oneโฆ
I winced.
I doubted Iโd have access to one anytime soon, which made escaping difficult. I needed a weapon, any weapon, but what I wanted was the dagger Vikter had given me.
I added that to my plan that wasnโt quite a plan. At least, not yet.
Kieran left shortly after I came out of the bathing chamber, locking the door behind him. I doubted he went very far. Was probably standing outside the door.
I started to braid my still-drying hair, but remembered the mark on my neck and let the strands hang loose. I then roamed the room aimlessly. There was no avenue of escape. I couldnโt even fit through the window. Was I going to be kept here until whenever timeย heย deemed fit for me to leave?
Sighing, I plopped down on the bed. It was soft, so much thicker than the straw mat in the cell. I lay down, facing the door as I curled on my side.
What would happen when he returned for me? Would his seeming acceptance of my attempted murder change? Everything heโd said about the Ascended may very well be true, but he was still the Dark One, and he was just as dangerous. Heโd said so himself.
There was a lot of blood on his hands.
With how thinly my nerves were stretched, I didnโt think I would doze off again, but that was exactly what happened. It had to beโฆit had to be the still-tender bite and its effect. Because one moment, I was alert, staring at the closed door. The next, I was out, slipping into a deep sleep where I did not dream. I wasnโt sure what woke me at first. It wasnโt my name being called. It wasnโt words at all.
It was a faint touch on my cheek and then on the side of my neck, just above the bite. My eyes fluttered open. The room was dim except for the sconces and the single oil lamp on the nightstand, but I still saw him.
He sat on the edge of the bed, and there was a dipping motion in my chest at the first sight of him, like always happened. I imagined it always would, no matter what I knew about him.
At least, heโd found a shirt.
And had bathed somewhere, because his hair was damp, curling against his temples and ears.
Dressed in all-black, he cut an imposing, striking figure, and I no longer saw his attire that of the uniform of a guard. I saw the Dark One. I glanced down at the sleeve of the dark tunic I wore and then to my curled leg, where I expected to see the black breeches. Instead, I saw a threaded quilt draped over my legs. Unsettled, I lifted my gaze to his.
He didnโt say anything. Neither did I. Not for a long time. His fingers remained on my throat, above the mark. After what felt like an eternity, he removed his hand and asked, โHow are you feeling?โ
I laughed. I couldnโt help it. A giggle burst free.
His head cocked to the side as a half-grin appeared. โWhat?โ
โI canโt believe youโre asking me if Iโm okay when I stabbed you in the heart.โ
โDo you think you should be asking me that question?โ Yes? No? Maybe?
The grin deepened. โIโm relieved to hear that you care. Iโm perfectly fine.โ
โI donโt care,โ I muttered, sitting up. โLies,โ he murmured.
He was right, of course, because without realizing what I was doing, I reached out with my senses to see if he was in physical pain. He wasnโt. What Iโd done earlier had worn off. I knew this because I felt the anguish
that always brewed just below the surface. There was something else there, though. Iโd felt it before. Confusion or conflict.
โYou didnโt answer my question.โ
โIโm fine.โ Pulling my gift back, I looked down at the quilt. It was a faint yellow and old. I wondered who it belonged to.
โKieran said you dozed off in the bath.โ
โDid he tell you that he came into the bathing chamber?โ โYes.โ
Surprised, my gaze shot to his.
โI trust Kieran,โ he said. โYouโve been asleep for several hours.โ โIs that not normal?โ
โItโs not abnormal. I guess Iโmโฆโ He frowned as if something had just occurred to him. โI guess Iโm feeling guilty for biting you.โ
โYou guess?โ My brows lifted.
He appeared to mull that over and then nodded. โI believe so.โ โYou should feel guilt!โ
โEven though you stabbed me and left me to die?โ
I snapped my mouth shut as my stomach churned with nausea. โYou didnโt die. Obviously.โ
โObviously.โ There was a teasing glint to his eyes. โI was barely winded.โ
โCongratulations,โ I muttered, rolling my eyes. He chuckled.
Annoyed, I shoved the quilt off my legs and scooted to the other side of the bed. โWhy are you here? To take me back to the cell?โ
โI should. If anyone other than Kieran knew you had stabbed me, I would be expected to.โ
I stood. โThen why donโt you?โ โI donโt want to.โ
I stared at him, hands opening and closing at my sides while he remained seated on the bed. โSo, what now? How is this going to work, Yourย Highness?โ Satisfaction surged when I caught the way his jaw tightened. โYouโll keep me locked up in a room until youโre ready for us to leave?โ
โDo you not like this room?โ
โItโs far better than a dirty cell, but itโs still a prison. A cage, no matter how nice the accommodations are.โ
He was quiet for a moment. โYou would know, wouldnโt you? After all, youโve been imprisoned since you were a child. Caged and veiled.โ
There was no denying that. Iโd been kept in both comfortable cages and bare ones. The reasons were different, but the end result was the same. Folding my arms, I looked at the small window, to the night sky beyond.
โI came here to escort you to dinner.โ
โEscort me to dinner?โ Disbelief widened my eyes as I focused on him once more.
โI feel like thereโs an echo in this room, but yes, I imagine youโre hungry,โ he said, and my stomach took that exact moment to confirm that was true. โAnd weโll discuss what will happen next when we have some food in our stomachs.โ
โNo.โ
His brows lifted. โNo?โ
I knew I was being difficult over something not worth it. Just like I had been with Kieran. But I was not going to be at anyoneโs beck and call. I wasnโt the Maiden any longer. And things were not okay between us just because we had a temporary loss of rationale in the woods. Heโd betrayed me. Iโd tried to kill him. He still planned to use me to free his brother. We were enemies, no matter the truths.
No matter that I loved him.
โYou have to be hungry,โ he said, pausing as he stretched out on his side, supporting his cheek with his fist. He couldnโt look more comfortable if he tried.
Or more alluring.
I shook my head. โI am hungry.โ
He sighed. โThen whatโs the problem, Princess?โ
โI donโt want to eat with you,โ I told him. โThatโs the problem.โ
โWell, itโs a problem youโre going to have to get over because itโs your only option.โ
โSee, thatโs where youโre wrong. I have options.โ I turned from him. โIโd rather starve than eat with you,ย Your Highnessโโ I squeaked, almost coming out of my skin when he suddenly stood in front of me, moving so fast and so quietly I nearly missed it. โGods,โ I muttered, pressing my hand to my pounding heart.
โThatโs where youโre wrong, Princess.โ His eyes glowed a fiery amber as he glared down at me. โYou donโt have options when it comes to your
own well-being and your own foolish stubbornness.โ โExcuse me?โ
โI wonโt let you weaken or starve yourself because youโre mad. And I do get it. I get why youโre upset. Why you want to fight me on everything, every step of the way.โ He took that step toward me, and my spine locked up as I refused to back away. His eyes burned brighter. โI want you to, Princess. I enjoy it.โ
โYouโre twisted.โ
โNever said I wasnโt,โ he retorted. โSo, fight me. Argue with me. See if you can actually injure me next time. I dare you.โ
My eyes widened as I lowered my arms. โYouโreโฆthereโs something wrong with you.โ
โThat may be true, but what is also true, is the fact that I will not let you put yourself in unnecessary danger.โ
โMaybe youโve forgotten, but I can handle myself,โ I shot back.
โI havenโt forgotten. I wonโt ever prevent you from lifting a sword to protect your life or those you care about,โ he said. โBut I wonโt let you shove that sword through your own heart to prove a point.โ
Part of me was awedโstill shocked that he wouldnโt stop me from fighting. The other half was infuriated that he thought he could control any part of me. As a whole, I let out a small shriek of frustration. โOf course, you wonโt! What good am I to you dead? I imagine you still plan to use me to free your brother.โ
A muscle along his jaw flexed. โYou are nothing to me if youโre dead.โ
I sucked in a sharp, stinging breath that scorched my lungs. What in the world had I expected him to say? That he wouldnโt want me dead because he cared? I knew better.
Iย hadย to know better.
โCome. The food will grow cold.โ Without waiting for my response, he grabbed my hand. He started walking, but I dug in my heels. His head cranked toward me, the grip on my hand firm but not painful. โDonโt fight me on this, Poppy. You need to eat, and my people need to see that you have my protection if you have any hope of not finding yourself spending your days locked in a room.โ
Every part of my being demanded that I do just what he claimed he enjoyed. It wanted me to fight him every step of the way, but common sense prevailed. Barely. I was hungry, and I needed to be at my strongest if I
planned to escape. Plus, I needed his people to see that I was off-limits. If eating dinner with him like we were the closest friends would provide that, then I needed to deal.
So that was what I did.
I let him lead me out of the room, and I wasnโt even surprised when I found Kieran waiting for us. Based on the hint of amusement in his features, he must have heard at least half of our argument.
Kieran opened his mouth. โDonโt test me,โย heย warned.
Chuckling under his breath, Kieran said nothing as he fell into step behind us. We took the same stairs weโd sped down hours earlier, and I tried not to think about my mad dash in the woods. What had happened when he caught me.
But a heatwave hit my veins nonetheless.
He glanced down at me, a questioning look in his gaze that I ignored while praying he couldnโt sense where my thoughts had gone.
As soon as we entered the common area, Kieran slowed his pace so he walked directly behind me. I knew that was no unconscious act. Descenters lined the walls, their faces pale as they whispered to one another, their eyes following us. I recognized some of them whoโd stood in audience outside the cell. I saw Magda. There was no pity in her eyes now. Justโฆ speculation.
I lifted my chin and straightened my spine. The Ascended might very well be evil incarnate, and an untold number of people in Solis may be complicit, but what they did to me proved that they were no better.
We rounded the corner, and my gaze liftedโ
โOh, my gods,โ I whispered, I stumbled back as my free hand flew to my mouth. I bumped into Kieran.
His hand landed on my shoulder, steadying me as I stared at the walls of the hall. I couldnโt move. I could barely breathe as horror choked me.
Now I understood the pale faces in the common area. Bodies lined the walls, arms outstretched, and spikes of bloodstone nailed through their hands. Some had received a reddish-brown stake through the center of their chests, others through the head. Some of them were mortal. Some were Atlantian. A half a dozen of them on either side. I saw Rolf and the man I had rendered unconscious, and I sawโฆ
I saw Mr. Tulis.
My knees weakened as I stared up at him. He was dead, face a ghastly gray color. He was mortal, but a stake protruded from his still chest nonetheless.
All heโd wanted was to save his last child. Heโd been given an opportunity to do so. Heโd escaped, and nowโฆnow he was here.
Not all of them were dead. One still breathed.
Jericho.
I locked down my senses before I could reach out and see what kind of pain he was in. His shaggy head hung as his chest rose in ragged, uneven breaths. Bloodstone pierced his palms, but the final fatal spike was thrust through his throat. Crimson colored the front of his bare chest, his pants, and pooled on the floor below him.
โI promised you theyโd pay for what they did.โย Heย didnโt sound or look smug. He didnโt sound proud. โAnd now the others know what will happen if they disobey me and seek to harm you.โ
Bile crept up my throat. โHeโsโฆheโs still alive,โ I whispered, staring up at the wolven.
โOnly until I am ready to end his life,โ he commented, dropping my hand. He strode forward without another look back. Two men opened the large wooden doors to the Great Room, and he entered, stalking toward the center table where several covered dishes waited.
I thought I might be sick.
Kieranโs hand squeezed my shoulder. โThey deserved no less.โ Had they?
Even Mr. Tulis, whoโd most likely delivered the fatal blow to me. โGo.โ He urged with his hand. Somehow, I got my feet moving as I
walked past the bodies pinned to the wall like butterflies.
In a daze, I didnโt realize that I was seated to the right of him at the table, typically a place of honor. Kieran took the chair next to me. Numbly, I sat there as servants unveiled the platters of food while the rest of his entourage followed suit, seating themselves at the table. I recognized Delano and Naill, oddly relieved to see that they were okay. They had defended me, and I didnโt want to think about the reasons behind it.
Laid out before us was a feast. Stewed beef. Roasted duck. Cold meats and cheese. Baked potatoes. All of it smelled wonderful.
But my stomach churned as I sat there, unable to move. Kieran offered me some of the beef, and I mustโve agreed because it ended up on my plate. Then came the duck and potato.ย Heย was the one who broke off a hunk of cheese and placed it on my plate as he reached for his glass, seeming to remember that it was one of my weaknesses.
I stared down at my plate. I didnโt see the food. I saw the bodies outside the room as conversation was slow to start but soon picked up and became a steady hum. Glasses and plates clinked. Laughter sounded.
And there were bodies nailed to the walls outside the Great Room. โPoppy.โ
Blinking, I looked up at him. His golden eyes had cooled, but his jaw was hard enough to cut glass.
โEat,โ he ordered in a low voice.
I reached for a fork, picking it up and spearing a piece of meat. I took a bite, chewing slowly. It tasted as good as it smelled, but it settled too heavily in my stomach. I scooped up some of the potatoes.
A few moments passed, and he said, โYou donโt agree with what I did to them?โ
I looked over at him, unsure of how to even answer the questionโif it was even a question at all.
He sat back, glass in hand. โOr are you so shocked, youโre actually speechless?โ
Swallowing the last bit of food, I slowly placed the fork on the table. โI wasnโt expecting that.โ
โCanโt imagine you were.โ He smirked as he lifted the glass to his lips. โHowโฆhow long will you leave them there?โ
โUntil I feel like it.โ
My chest twisted. โAnd Jericho?โ
โUntil I know for sure no one will dare to lift a hand against you again.โ
Becoming aware that several of the men around us had stopped talking and were listening, I chose my next words carefully. โI donโt know your people very well, but I would think that they have learned a lesson.โ
He took a drink. โWhat I did disturbs you.โ
I knew that wasnโt a question. My gaze shifted back to my plate. Did it disturb me? Yes. I think it would unsettle most. Or at least, I hoped so. The
blatancy of the kind of violence he was capable of was shocking if not entirely surprising, further separating him from the guard I knew as Hawke. โEat,โ he said again, lowering his cup. โI know you need to eat more
than that.โ
I bit back the urge to tell him I was capable of determining how much food I needed to consume. Instead, I opened my senses to him. The anguish there was different, tastingโฆtangy and almost bitter. The urge to reach out to him hit hard, causing me to curl one hand in my lap. Had what happened between us caused this? Was it what heโd done to his own supporters? It could possibly be both. I reached for my drink, closing my eyes, and when I reopened them, I found him watching me through thick lashes.
I could tell him that it did bother me. I could say nothing at all. I imagined that perhaps he expected one of those two things from me. But I told him the truth. Not because I felt like I owed it to him, but because I owed it to myself.
โWhen I saw them, it horrified me. That was shocking, especially Mr. Tulis. What you did was surprising, but what disturbs me the most is that I
โโ I drew in a deep breath. โI donโt feel all that bad.โ Those heavy lids lifted, and his stare was piercing.
โThose people laughed when Jericho talked about cutting my hand off. Cheered when I bled and screamed and offered other options for pieces for Jericho to carve and keep,โ I said, and the silence around us was almost unbearable. โIโd never even met most of them before, and they were happy to see me ripped apart. So, I donโt feel sympathy.โ
โThey donโt deserve it,โ he stated quietly. โAgreed,โ Kieran murmured.
I lifted my chin. โBut theyโre still mortalโor Atlantian. They still deserve dignity in death.โ
โThey didnโt believe you deserved any dignity,โ he stated. โThey were wrong, but that doesnโt make this right,โ I said.
His gaze drifted over my face. The muscle had stopped ticking. โEat,โ he repeated.
โYouโre obsessed with ensuring that I eat,โ I told him.
One side of his lips kicked up. โEat, and Iโll tell you our plans.โ
That got several other peopleโs attention. Hoping my stomach didnโt revolt, I started eating instead of picking at my food. I didnโt dare look at
Kieran, because if I did, I would be looking outside the Great Room to the hall.
โWeโre leaving in the morning,โ he stated, and I almost choked on the chunk of cheese Iโd taken a bite of. None of those around me seemed at all surprised.
โTomorrow?โ I squeaked, torn between panic and hope. I would have a better chance of escaping out on the road than I would here.
He nodded. โAs I said, weโll be going home.โ
I took a healthy drink from my glass. โBut Atlantia is not my home.โ โBut it is. At least, partly.โ
โWhat does that mean?โ Across from me, Delano spoke for the first time.
โIt means itโs something I shouldโve figured out sooner. So many things now make sense when they didnโt before. Why they made you the Maiden, how you survived a Craven attack. Your gifts,โ he said, lowering his voice on the last part so only I and those immediately around us could hear him. โYouโre not mortal, Poppy. At least, not completely.โ
I opened my mouth and then closed it, not quite sure I heard him correctly. For a moment, I thought something was lodged in my throat. I took a drink, but the sensation was still there.
Delanoโs jewel blue eyes sharpened. โAre you suggesting that sheโsโฆโ โPart Atlantian?โ he finished for him. โYes.โ
My hand trembled, sloshing liquid onto my fingers. โThatโs impossible,โ I whispered.
โAre you sure?โ Delano asked him, and when I looked at him, I could see the shock in his eyes as his gaze moved over me, stopping and lingering on my neck.
โOne hundred percent,โ he answered. โHow?โ I demanded.
A faint smile played across his full lips. His gaze too lowered and stoppedโฆon my throat.
On the bite that I realized was barely hidden under the strands of hair.
My blood. He knew afterโฆtasting my blood?
Delanoโs eyes went wide as he sat back, staring at me like it was the first time heโd ever seen me. Forgetting about the Hall, I looked at Kieran. I saw none of that. He arched a brow at me. This wasnโt news to him. โItโs rare, but it happens. A mortal crosses paths with an Atlantian. Nature takes
its course, and nine months later, a mortal child is born.โ Kieran paused and ran his thumb over the rim of his chalice. โBut every so often, a child of both kingdoms is born. Mortal and Atlantian.โ
โNo. You have to be mistaken.โ I twisted in my seat. โMy mother and father were mortalโโ
โHow can you be sure?โ Hawke cut me offโno, not Hawke.ย Casteel.
The Prince. โYou thought I was mortal.โ
My heart lurched against my chest. โBut my brother, heโs an Ascended now.โ
โThatโs a good question,โ Delano tacked on.
โOnly if weโre working off the assumption that he is your full, blooded brother,โ he said, and I gasped.
โOr that he even has Ascended,โ someone commented. The glass started to slip from my fingersโ
His reflexes were lightning-quick. He caught the glass before it could hit the table. Placing it down, he then covered my hand, lowering it to the table. โYour brother is alive.โ
My heart had stopped. โHow can you be sure?โ
โIโve had eyes on him for months, Poppy. He hasnโt been seen during the day, and I can only imagine that means he is an Ascended.โ
Someone cursed and then spat on the floor. I closed my eyes. Partโฆ part Atlantian? If that was why I was the Chosen and was the source of my abilities, then had the Duke and the Duchess known? The Queen? I opened my eyes. โWhy would they keep me alive if they knew?โ
His lips thinned. โWhy do they keep my brother?โ
I jolted, my entire body freezing. โI canโt do that. Right? I mean, I donโt haveโฆthe, uh, parts for it.โ
โParts?โ Kieran coughed. โWhat have you been filling her head with?โ The Prince slid him a bland look. โTeeth. I do believe she means these.โ Curling his upper lip, he ran this tongue over one fang, and my stomach dipped and twisted in a mixture of pleasure and unease. โThey donโt need that. They just need your blood for them to complete the
Ascension.โ
If I wasnโt sitting, I likely wouldโve fallen over. I wanted to refute his claim, but I couldnโt come up with one good reason for why heโd lie about this. There was nothing to gain from doing so. I bent slightly in my chair, wondering if it was possible that I was having a heart attack.
โIโm curious, Cas. Why must we go home?โ Kieran asked, and I swore his voice rose with purpose. โWhen we will be going farther away from where your brother is held.โ
โIt is the only place we can go,โ he replied, those golden eyes remaining fixed on me. โDid you know that an Atlantian can only marry if both halves are standing in the soil of their land? Itโs the only way for them to become whole.โ
My lips parted as a hush descended over the entire room. Still reeling from the whole half-Atlantian thing, I couldnโt believe what I was hearing. That he was sayingโฆ
That damn dimple appeared in his right cheek and then in his left. Casteel DaโNeer, the Prince of Atlantia, smiled fully as he lifted our joined hands and said, โWe go home to marry, myย Princess.โ