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Chapter no 69 – Of Monsters

Empire of Silence

EVEN AS I HURRIEDย down the ramp, a shield-belt heavy at my waist, I could not believe it had worked. Vriell had gone with Elomas and the othersโ€”

even Valka had not objected to the retreat back to Springdeepโ€”leaving me in the care of her adjutant and second-in-command, a coal-skinned optio

whom I did not know. The man led me and the decade of troopers in our flier across the primordial countryside of wort and moss to the place where the Cielcin ship lay smoldering like a finger fallen from a burning corpse, broken at the end of a great furrow in the landscape turned up by the grinding halt of its impact. I slowed as we approached, overcome by the realization that I had never before seen so great and terrible a vessel.

Unbroken, it might have been half a kilometer from end to end. Now it was a smoldering ruin of heat-blackened metal and what looked incredibly like stone. Not a castle of ice at allโ€”what ice would survive a brush with Emeshโ€™s atmosphere?

The flames still burned. Figures stood illuminated by the few Jaddian fliers still turning in the air, black against the night. Juddering repulsors

shone blue above us. A curious mix of Jaddian mamluks in blue and orange and Imperial legionnaires in ivory armor and red tabards crawled over the

scene, supported by the odd Mataro staffer in green and gold. Dead ahead, a man in form-fitting leathers stood, flowing robe and empty voluminous

sleeve billowing in the wind.

โ€œSir Olorin!โ€ I called, passing by the optio, a hand raised in greeting.

The Maeskolos, apparently in command, turned from the helmeted legionnaire at his side to look at me. His pointed eyebrows rose, then lowered in suspicion. โ€œLord Marlowe, is it?โ€

โ€œIt is,ย domi.โ€ I bowed, hands clasped before me.

The legionnaire beside Sir Olorin slammed a fist to his breastplate in parody of a salute, his visor and the helm with its pronounced neck flange collapsed, folded away like a paper sculpture, baring his face. โ€œWhat are you doing here?โ€

โ€œLieutenant Lin!โ€ I inclined my head less severely now. โ€œGood to see you.โ€

Bassander Lin returned the gesture, running a hand through his ridiculous hair. The sides looked freshly shaved, but the top was a tangle the color of smoke. He tried unsuccessfully to tame it, looking a sight more harried than he had at the countโ€™s feast. โ€œWhy are you here?โ€

โ€œI can help,โ€ I said, repeating the line Iโ€™d used with the centurion not ten minutes earlier. โ€œI speak the Cielcin tongue. Not fluently, mind you, but

enough. If there are survivors, I thought I could help negotiate.โ€

โ€œNegotiate?โ€ Bassander repeated, face darkening. โ€œWith the xenobites?

Are you mad?โ€

Olorin smiled warmly, looking like a caricature of some friendly devil, his features all exaggerated points. The effect might have been disconcerting on a lesser man, but on the swordmaster it conferred a certain poised charm. โ€œWe are not knowing if any of the beasts survived yet. We must prioritize containment, I am thinking.โ€ He tapped his nose.

โ€œIf we can avoid bloodshed,โ€ I put in, aware of my delicate position, โ€œI think weโ€™ve an obligation to try.โ€

โ€œBen jidaan!โ€ย Olorin said. โ€œYou think you will be reasoning with them?โ€

I glanced at Bassander and swallowed. โ€œI wonโ€™t know unless I try. I know the words.โ€

The Maeskolos crossed his arms, chin tucked like a pugilistโ€™s. โ€œVery good, then.โ€

โ€œNo, it isnโ€™t!โ€ Bassander interjected, rounding on me. โ€œAre you their commander, then? If we find a survivor, what are you going to do? Say,

โ€˜You, throw down your arms and surrender to these people?โ€™โ€ He snorted. โ€œI am sorry, Lord Marlowe, but what makes you believe you can be of any assistance here? Youโ€™re not a soldier.โ€

โ€œNo, not really, but I . . .โ€ Not sure where else to turn, I looked to Olorin for aid.

โ€œThen you plan to, what? Talk them into submission? For your own sake, go back to your nobiles. This is soldiersโ€™ work.โ€ The lieutenant

actuallyย smiledย as he said that, shook his head, and looked briefly skyward as one of the Jaddiansโ€™ strangely organic fliers skirted overhead. He turned to the optioโ€”now near at my heelsโ€”and to two of the chrome-masked mamluks. โ€œSoldiers, take Lord Marlowe back to the shuttles and hold him there for his own safety. This is no place for a palatine.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not a child!โ€ Apparently under orders to obey the Legion officer, the first mamluk placed gentle hands on my arm and shoulder, turning me. The carbon weave of the wiry, too-thin fingers was hard, but I shook free. โ€œI can speak to them! Please.โ€ The creature closed its hands on my arm again, more forcibly this time.

โ€œSpeak to them?โ€ Olorin repeated. โ€œWhat makes you think you can get them to talk?โ€ A deep frown creased his angular face as if the question troubled him deeply.

โ€œI can speak to them,โ€ I repeated, tried to torque my arm free, but the mamluk held it fast. So I jerked my arm up, elbow taking the creature in the soft place just under its chin. Its head jerked back sharply, and it bent back like a childโ€™s punching toy, bent at the knees until it almost paralleled the ground. It made no noise, did not so much as grunt, then folded back upward in equal silence. I half sidestepped, half leaped away as the creature came to. โ€œJust give me a chance.โ€

Olorin raised a hand to call off his servant. โ€œThat is not an answer.โ€ His frown deepened, carving shadows on either side of his pointed mouth.

I looked imploringly to Bassander, who said, โ€œWeโ€™re arguing over a non-issue right now. We canโ€™t spare the personnel to watch Lord Marlowe. We need him secured. Lock him in a shuttle if you must.โ€

The mamluks had both frozen. The one Iโ€™d upset just stood there, fingers flexing as if in search of a throat. Its hood had fallen off in the scramble, revealing a coif of black nanocarbon that covered its scalp and neck and

ears, anchoring the mask to the suit. The black lenses of its eyes watched me, dead as the eyes of a doll. I shuddered. Bassanderโ€™s lips quirked in

sympathy. The mamluks were cold things, unreal, as if instead of a man I might loose a colony of twitching spiders from behind the mask.

I straightened, attempted to muster what dignity I could. โ€œWe can do

better.โ€ I kept my eyes on the hoodless mamluk, ready for it to try . . .

something. โ€œWars arenโ€™t won with soldiers, sir. Not unless youโ€™re willing to kill every single enemy in the galaxy. Wars areย foughtย with soldiers, but theyโ€™re won with words.โ€ I would rue that pronouncementโ€”the naivety of

itโ€”and as I write it here, my heart blackens with the irony and the bitter knowledge that I was wrong. โ€œWe have to start talking to them someday.โ€

Both Olorin and Bassander had slightly dumb looks on their tailored faces. Earth and Emperor, they were so . . . narrow. At last the Imperial lieutenant said, โ€œThat is dangerously close to heresy, lord.โ€

โ€œItย isย heresy,โ€ I spat. โ€œAre you going to report me, eh?โ€ I rounded on Olorin. โ€œAre you?โ€ In my momentโ€™s distraction the mamluk gained half a step on me, and I raised my hands in readiness. โ€œOrder the homunculus to stand down, damn it! Enough!โ€

Olorin hissed something in Jaddian, and his soldier froze. My face still screwed up in determination, I kept my eyes on the foreign swordmaster.

His caricature of a devilโ€™s face glowed, touched with a wry amusement that was as unexpected as the lightning. โ€œBetter? We have to do better?โ€

Before I could answer, a Jaddian officer in the familiar brass armor and striped silk robes ran up. She might have been a mamluk by the styling of her uniform and the slimness of her body. But the curves of hip and breast beneath the uniform betrayed that this was no androgyn but a human

woman. In Jaddian she said,ย โ€œDom Olorin, domi,โ€ย then began speaking so quickly that I couldnโ€™t follow.

Olorin raised a hand and in his native tongue said, โ€œPlease take your helmet off when you are speaking to me, Jinan.โ€

At a gesture, her chromed mask and cowl broke apart and stowed themselves, baring her head and revealing a breathless, oval-faced woman with the dark curls and olive complexion of Jadd. She glanced over at

Bassander and myself, smiled uncertainly at me, then continued her Jaddian patter, her accent so thick that I had trouble keeping up. She kept looking at me and at one point clearly asked what I was doing there. Olorin dismissed her question. There was a blue silk ribbon wound through her hair, which

was wrapped in a braid that circled her head like a crown. Though I knew it not then, her name was Jinan Azhar, and she was Sir Olorinโ€™s second-in-

command. I waited beside Bassander, watching her speak and admiring the tallness of her.

My captain.

It is strange to think that those dear to us were at one time strangers.

Another person in a sea of faces. It is stranger still to think that we would meet them again gladly, even knowing all the pain our meeting would bring.

โ€œWhat is it?โ€ Bassander asked the instant the Jaddian officer was done. โ€œWhatโ€™s going on?โ€ He hooked his hand over the hilt of the ceramic arming sword he wore on his left hip. โ€œIs it the Cielcin? A report from yourโ€โ€”he looked over at the two mamluks standing nearbyโ€”โ€œcreatures?โ€

โ€œThank you, Lieutenant Azhar,โ€ Olorin said. He adjusted the drape of his crimson mandyas, reached up and drew up the folds of his winged collar to better cover his slender neck. โ€œThe mamluks do not make reports,โ€ he

corrected. โ€œNot to me. They areย haqiph.โ€ย Vile,ย I translated, not understanding. He said the word with no malice. โ€œMy cutting teams got into the ship. Apparently none of the xenobites are aboard.โ€ He flashed me a pointed look as he said it.

โ€œNo Cielcin?โ€ the optio asked, speaking for the first time. โ€œOn a ship that size?โ€

โ€œThere must be room for hundreds,โ€ Bassander breathed. โ€œThat doesnโ€™t make any sense. Why would they lob an empty ship at the planet?โ€

I was shaking my head. โ€œIt was shot down, wasnโ€™t it?โ€ When no one answered, I changed tack. โ€œWere there still Cielcin in fugue?โ€

โ€œDead,โ€ said Lieutenant Azhar. โ€œAll dead.โ€

โ€œThey ejected on entry,โ€ I said with utter certainty. โ€œI saw blue flashes. I thought they were course corrections, but they must have been escape pods.โ€

โ€œThereโ€™s no such thing as an escape pod!โ€ Bassander exclaimed, voice high with exasperation. โ€œThereโ€™s nowhere to escape to most of the time.โ€

โ€œShuttles, then!โ€ I snapped back.

Olorin shook his head. โ€œWe would have detected them, surely.โ€

โ€œAre you so sure? The first Cielcin incursion in-system was destroyed out in the heliopause. This second one made it all the way here, and no one noticed. Donโ€™t you have a fleet parked up there alongside theย Obdurate?โ€ Sir Olorin shifted his weight from foot to foot, unbalanced. I snapped my fingers, pointed at him. โ€œItโ€™s possible, then?โ€ I knew next to nothing of

astrogation or orbital military tactics, but it was only logical.

Bassander scratched vigorously at his wild scrub of hair. โ€œBlue flashes, you say?โ€ I answered in the affirmative, and the lieutenant chewed the inside of his cheek. Then he swore furiously. Olorin and I exchanged glances as Bassander whirled around. It took the young lieutenant a moment to compose himself, and when he turned back his normally

pleasant expression had reasserted itself, though tinged with something like pain. โ€œWhere would they go?โ€

I smiled, knowing I was about to have my way. โ€œThereโ€™s only one place they could go.โ€

 

 

It took the better part of an hour to find the Cielcin shuttle, a dark, scarab-like thing large as a city bus. It gave off no thermals, nor could it be found by radar. Some sort of cloaking field. I let Bassanderโ€™s explanation roll off me. That wasnโ€™t why I was there.

The tunnel opening in the earth was one of the ventilation shafts that pierced the stonelands, half staved in by the passing of nigh on a million years, reaching down by feet and fathoms to join the labyrinthine complex of Calagah below. The Quiet, apparently, had needed to breathe, or else the shafts served some other function. They were few, some deep enough that falling into them would kill a man, others safe enough to jump down. This one was of the former variety, and so we lost time belaying four decades of soldiers down into the tunnels. I might have argued against such a tactic,

citing the close quarters and how difficult it was to move in the Quietโ€™s narrow tunnels, but Olorin had seen the labyrinth before and would not hear a word of it.

I was among the last down, unarmed and unarmoredโ€”save my shield. With a deliberate click I activated the energy curtain of that shield, felt the static tingle as my hairs all stood on end. Briefly the light bent through the Royse field as it established, twisting the faintly trapezoidal hall in my vision.

โ€œWhich way, Marlowe?โ€ asked Lieutenant Lin, omitting my title.

The air below the surface was still, contrasting with the surface winds. We had descended into one of the round intersection chambers and stood at the center of five diverging paths. I was not sure where we were. One tunnel looked much like another, and these interstices were but subtly different. At last I shrugged. โ€œWeโ€™re high up, well above the main chambers. I say we head down.โ€ I pointed at two of the passages, each bending visibly downward into the dark.

โ€œWhich one?โ€ Bassander asked. In the dimness his ivory-white armor nearly glowed, the red double stripe of his rank the color of dried blood

where it ran down his arm.

โ€œHave we got the men for both? There canโ€™t have been more than a dozen Cielcin on that shuttle.โ€

Sir Olorin nodded. โ€œWe shall be taking the one on the right, Lieutenant.โ€ โ€œVery well.โ€ Bassander relayed the instructions with a series of curt

overhead gestures. His soldiers immediately pulled apart from the Jaddian mamluks and their few officers, forming into a column and filing into the hall. Each man held a phase disruptor handgun, the vertical slits at one end glowing red to indicate they were set to kill. They moved off quietly as they could toward the mouth of the tunnel as Bassander said, โ€œIโ€™ll take

Marlowe.โ€

Olorin shook his head. โ€œNo need. I shall keep watch on theย amralino, my friend.โ€ I clamped my jaw shut, suppressing the desire to object. Iโ€™d dug myself into this mess, after all, so I allowed myself to be led off.

The mamluks moved more quietly than the legionnaires, and they did so entirely without the suit lights the Imperial soldiers used to see. Olorin himself seemed untroubled by the darkness, so I half stumbled my way into the depths, following the tunnel in an arcing spiral down and to the left.

When I stumbled a third time, someone seized me by the forearm and frog-marched me deeper. At first I believed it was one of the homunculus

soldiers, but the breathing sound in my ears was ever so slightly ragged.

Human, thenโ€”proper human. One of the lieutenants, I decided. Perhaps the woman I had seen earlier, Lieutenant Azhar. I felt exposed in that armored company. Raw. Like a nerve. Earth and Emperor, what had I gotten myself into?

The air opened up around us. Weโ€™d entered some chamber, and the faint sounds of footfalls vanished now instead of rebounding upon us. We

stopped, or at least my guide stopped. โ€œLight,โ€ I whispered. โ€œWe need light.โ€

A female voice sounded in my ear, muffled and close, thickly accented. โ€œWe can see.โ€

โ€œThey can seeย better.โ€

โ€œIf theyโ€™re here,โ€ Olorin replied in a stage whisper. โ€œBe silent.โ€

Something heavy slammed the stone behind me, and I whirled just in time to see a flash of golden light in the darkness, reflected by my guideโ€™s shield. One of the mamluks had been flattened, and something massive

squatted atop it, dark against the glittering blackness of the stone floor. That

image clung to my brain, sharper than the sound of the mamlukโ€™s neck snapping.

The shouts of stunner fire illuminated the beast like lightning. Its armor repelled the stunner blasts effortlessly, and it whirled, nine feet of pale muscle in flanged polycarbon, face like the white skull of Death, eyes like rotted sockets, teeth like a bank of glass knives. Was that blood on its mouth? I stumbled back, and Lieutenant Azhar threw herself between me and the creature. Flashes came from my right, and turning I saw two more Cielcin sprinting through the darkness, growing closer with each flash. I needed a blade, a gun. Anything.ย My kingdom for a horse,ย I thought, and my addled brain cackled with the absurdity.ย Keep it together. Keep it together.

I scrambled back, heard Olorin cry out in Jaddian, โ€œStun them! Stun them!โ€

A stun bolt took the bloody-mouthed creature in the face, and it

staggered, losing stride, but did not fall. In the phosphorescent afterglow of so many stun pulses, the Cielcinโ€™s hair shone: a thick, white braid like Ligeia Vasโ€™s. For a moment it was all I could see. A second stunner pulse took it in the face. A third. It went to one knee, groaning in pain. It tried to rise.

Someone screamed. A human voiceโ€”one of the lieutenants. He did not stop screaming. It rebounded off the walls and canted pillars in that echoing space until it filled the universe, high and shrill and ceaseless. If he was

saying words, I did not know them.

โ€œLight!โ€ I screamed, leaning on all the force and air left in me, leaning on my passable Jaddian. โ€œFos! Fos!ย Light!โ€

Lieutenant Azhar echoed me, and white beads blazed from the breastplates and gauntlets of all the Jaddian soldiers, mamluk and lieutenant alike. Lights blazed even on the bodies of the three dead mamluks. Four

Cielcinโ€”for four there wereโ€”all howled and staggered, struck blind. They cast hands across their faces and fell back, fingers too long and too many, hissing like an ocean going up in steam. For a moment it was all I could do not to smile. It had worked. They had stopped.

And so I had a horrible moment to contemplate the writhing form of the screaming lieutenant, his limbs flailing, scrabbling at his chest and the ground around him, fingers finding no purchase. His shrieking was

amplified by speakers in his suit, and it filled the air and rattled the very

pillars that held up the roof of that alien place. Blood gushed from his neck through a hole chewed in the nanocarbon weave of his underlayment,

staining the orange-and-blue-striped robe he wore nearly black. Then his screaming stilled, and beneath it a wet whirring filled the air, mixed with

the groaning and hissing of the Cielcin struggling in their blindness and the cough of stunner fire.

Something emerged from the hole in the lieutenantโ€™s neck, something wet and churning, an angry white snake with a drill bit where its mouth should be, still turning in the air. Someone swore in Jaddian as the thing

drew itself out, rising like the smoke of sacrifice into the suit-lit gloom. It drifted into the air, long as my forearm and half as wide, and flew toward the next nearest targetโ€”and fell to the ground in two smoking pieces.

Sir Olorin held his highmatter sword casually in one gloved hand, his left arm still slung though his mandyas. The blade of faintly glowing matter rippled and shifted in the air: blue as crystal, as seawater, as moonlight.

Never once fixed, the strange atoms of that blade flowed one over the other, its cutting edge fine as hydrogen.

Two of the Cielcin were down, stunned. A third crouched over the body of another mamluk, slamming its head to the ground, indifferent to the

stunner bursts. The fourth threw itself at Olorin. The Maeskolos flowed like water, like the metal of his blade, stepping in a graceful arc around the

alien, pivoting his wrist to slice neatly with his sword. He exerted so little effort, he might have been sidestepping a troublesome patron in a shop. He did not even move his left arm from its casual place in his belted robe. I

swear he shrugged as the creature ran across his blade. It stood frozen a moment, a shocked, almost confused look on its vaguely familiar face. Then its torso slid diagonally apart and spattered to the ground. The legs buckled a moment later.

โ€œDonโ€™t kill them all!โ€ I shouted, taking hesitant steps toward where four of the silent mamluks struggled to restrain the Cielcin whom stunners

would not fell. โ€œWe need to talk!โ€

โ€œTalk?โ€ Olorin repeated, flicking his wrist. The bluish molecules of the rippling blade vanished, leaving a faintly bitter stink of ozone where theyโ€™d ionized the air around them.

I ignored him, walking in a wide circle round the Cielcin where it wrestled with the mamluks. I shouted,ย โ€œIukatta!โ€ย It was a word I was absolutely confident in, and so I spoke it with authority.ย Stop!

The shock of hearing its own language stunned the Cielcin to stillness as surely as a proper stunner would a human being. It blinked, turned its helmeted head to look my way. It cocked its head to one side, a curiously human gesture. Still in its language, I said, โ€œWhy are you here?โ€ I repeated the question more loudly.ย โ€œTukaโ€™ta detu ti-saem gi ne?โ€

No answer.

โ€œWhere are the others? How many are you?โ€ I came to a stop just out of lunging distance of the helmeted xenobite, confident in the masked soldiersโ€™ ability to hold it in place, though even kneeling it was taller than they were.

They held its arms pinioned, bent back in readiness to break the shoulders

should it resist. When it still did not speak, I said, โ€œMy friends here will kill you, understand?โ€ Nothing. The helmetโ€™s face plate was an arc of mirrored gray, utterly devoid of expression or detail. โ€œAnswer my questions, and I

swear youโ€™ll be treated fairly.โ€

โ€œFairly!โ€ The inhuman made a high rasping sound. I knew it was looking directly at me. โ€œFairly?โ€

โ€œWhy are you here?โ€ I repeated. โ€œWhy come here? To this place?โ€ I turned from side to side, taking in the cavernous space around me.ย โ€œDetu ne?โ€ Why?

The Cielcin snarled through its helmet and tried to lurch forward, only to groan as the mamluks twisted its narrow arms. โ€œIt is not for you!โ€ This was so far from any response Iโ€™d expected that I stood there stunned, hands frozen in the act of forming a gesture as if I were a marionette in the hands of a forgetful puppeteer. This, by chance, was precisely the right thing to do, for the Cielcin said, โ€œThis is a holy place.โ€

โ€œYou worship the . . . the ones who built all this?โ€ The images I had seen in my vision marched back to me: the Cielcin standing amidst the stars, their shining host overshadowed by that massive ship and the light of that murdered sun.

โ€œIt is not for you!โ€ the Cielcin repeated.

โ€œWhat is it saying?โ€ asked Lieutenant Azhar.

I waved her off, attentions focusing entirely on the creature pinioned before me.

โ€œWhat is it saying?โ€ Olorin asked, realizing that my earlier bluster was not bluster at all.

I stayed focused on the Cielcin. Inspired, I said, โ€œThey want to hurt you.โ€ I took a step forward, crouching beside the corpse of a mamluk long

enough to prize its phase disruptor free of its skeletal fingers. I checked that the thing was set to stun, recalling Prefect-Inspector Gin threatening Rellsโ€™s gang outside the corner store in Borosevo. I recalled also the shopkeeper I had stabbed, the dockworker whose arm I had broken. I saw Crispin bloodied on the floor and Gilliam dead at my feet. โ€œI will.โ€ I wasnโ€™t sure I

could. Nasty things, phased nerve disruptors. Set high, they could carbonize every nerve cell in the body. Set low, they could cause unconsciousnessโ€”or pain.

It was not hard to figure out the antique gasket that sealed the Cielcinโ€™s more primitive suit. As I removed the helmet, I reflected that the Chantry was not wrong: the Cielcin were so beneath us in so many ways. It was their tenacity, their sheer bloody-mindedness, that elevated them. The seal was like the sort I had seen in historical dramas about the beginnings of

spaceflight, the helmet bulky and made of common materials. No nanocarbons, no ceramic. The armor plating was proper metal, clumsy, weighty, and overdesigned.

โ€œMarlowe . . .โ€ Olorin interrupted. I could not read his tone, had no attention left to pay him.

Face-to-face, the Cielcin looked shrunken. It had no hair, and the crown of horns on its head was filed to rounded nubs. Its four slitted nostrils flared. โ€œI do not fear you,ย yukajji-do.โ€

I do,ย I wanted to say, and I clenched my fist to keep the disruptor from shaking as I pressed it to its forehead. โ€œWhere are the others?โ€ I asked.

โ€œNo others.โ€ I fired.

The Cielcin rocked backward, baring teeth clear and sharp as glass in black gums. Its lips peeled back in a rictus. It was not stunned, barely dazed. The all-black eyes stayed fixed on me, unblinking. Was that scorn in their depths? Defiance?

I could not read them. My handย wasย shaking now. The creature saw itโ€” they all did. โ€œHow many of you are there?โ€ I did not wait for an answer but squeezed the trigger again, hand jouncing at the Cielcin recoiled, arms

straining painfully against the mamluks that held it fast.

โ€œUbimnde!โ€ย it wheezed, breath somewhat strained.

โ€œEleven?โ€ I repeated, then said it again in Jaddian for the benefit of the humans in the room. โ€œWhere?โ€ A part of me believed I could keep going, could press forward, but that part had not told my hand, which rattled the

disruptor. I squeezed off a third shot, striking the Cielcin in the face. It slumped, groaning, and I echoed my question.ย โ€œSaem ne?โ€

Iโ€™d heard stories about people dying during interrogation, about soldiers botching the job, so unskilled were they compared to the cathars. I had

always thought those stories incredible, and yet there I was. I was glad Valka could not see me, though I felt the shame in her eyes, prayed she

never learned of that moment. I felt her contempt for violence, for me, and lowered the gun. I tried to tell myself that what I was doing was notย reallyย torture. It would recover, would not be like the cripples who lined the vomitoria of the Colosso, begging bowls in hand.

It was not like that.

The lies we tell ourselves to guard us from ourselves . . . I lowered the weapon.

โ€œWhere are they?โ€

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